If it weren't for this deception, she wouldn't have survived these five years. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info life, many things still have to be deceived, otherwise, a difficult life does not seem so painful?

Since it is a fact that cannot be changed, no matter how you do, you cannot change it, even if you have been entangled with it for a long time, it is just in vain, everything still has to be endured, and you still have to bear the pain it brings.

Fu Jiayue's words were like knives that gave Xie Bai's heart a piece by piece. Xie Bai now felt that his mouth was filled with endless bitterness, so bitter that it filled his brain, and he seemed to want to give up, give up the obsession in his heart, and give up the obsession that he had not given up in the past five years.

Xie Bai didn't know how he said this, but the words still came out of his mouth, "Do you still want to live here?" ”

Fu Jiayue sneered and said, "Now that you all know where I live, can I still live a stable life like before?"

Even if Xie Bai allows her to continue to live here, the emperor who is far away in the capital is afraid that he can't allow it, Fu Jiayue is the soldier's talisman of that army, that army is invincible, if one day, Fu Jiayue votes for the enemy, it will be a blow that may destroy her.

In the end, the king is still the king, and the king is still cold, even if he cares about the people, compared with the stability of the country, they will not hesitate to choose the latter.

Xie Bai shook his head with a wry smile and replied, "I didn't tell the emperor, only I know that you are here." ”

God knows, how happy he was after receiving the news of Fu Jiayue in the past few days, and the words in his heart echoed in his mind over and over again when he rushed here.

He has hardly slept in the past few days, and the only thing he thinks about is just to see Fu Jiayue, to see the people he has been thinking about and missing all the time in the past five years, but when he really stands in front of the people he is thinking about, all the words he wanted to say before were like he swallowed flies, and he couldn't say anything at all.

Saying that, Xie Bai could only look at Fu Jiayue in a daze, waiting for her answer.

For some reason, Xie Bai felt that the woman in front of him seemed to be very different from five years ago, and she also seemed to have become so strange, so strange that it was obviously the same face, but it made him feel endlessly strange, it seemed that in addition to her still familiar face, he didn't know the woman in front of him.

Thinking about it, a touch of loneliness flashed in Xie Bai's eyes.

Fu Jiayue didn't care about Xie Bai's lonely face at the moment, she sneered and said, "So what? You will let me continue to live here, will you allow it?"

Fu Jiayue's sneering voice fell on Xie Bai's ears, as if a knife was cutting at his heart, it hurt, it hurt......

Xie Bai paused, ignoring Fu Jiayue's sarcasm, and just said the original thoughts in his heart, Xie Bai pursed his lips and said truthfully, "As long as you want." ”

However, Fu Jiayue didn't believe Xie Bai's words at all.

She didn't believe it, it turned out that for the sake of the common people in the world, even ignoring her pleas, the people who insisted on giving her to the people trapped in the capital would easily let her go again just because of her nonsense.

Besides, even if he really agreed, she wouldn't leave.

Everything needs to have a result, even if she doesn't want to return to the capital, she should use her responsibility to go back and complete what she has escaped for five years.

Therefore, Xie Bai's promise was useless at all, no matter what he wanted to say, she was going back to the capital, and back to the place where eating people and not spitting out bones was returned.

Fu Jiayue laughed miserably and said, "Xie Bai, you are still as blindly confident as before, people will always grow up, do you think I am still the original Fu Jiayue?"

Xie Bai still didn't listen to Fu Jiayue's sarcastic words, he still asked sincerely, "Do you want to go back with me?"

"After staying in this small village for a long time, I naturally want to go back and breathe, and I eat too much coarse food here, so I naturally miss the delicacies of the mountains and seas in the capital. Fu Jiayue smiled, the meaning flashing in her eyes was unclear, so she seemed to be laughing at herself, and she seemed to be reminiscing, after all, at this moment, even she didn't know what was in her messy heart at the moment......

"Jia Yue, you don't have to say these words on purpose. Xie Bai sighed and said.

In fact, there is no difference between the previous Fu Jiayue and the current Fu Jiayue in essence, they like to make themselves look so strong and domineering when they lie, and when they have firm thoughts, they like to straighten their backs and make themselves look so convincing.

Fu Jiayue laughed miserably and responded, "Xie Bai, who do you think you are? Do you think you have the ability to control my life and my emotions? Yes, I can go back, but I am only for my own responsibility, and my responsibility to pay Jiayue has never been for Xie Bai." The princess is a wisp of my soul, she has returned to my soul, I am Fu Jiayue, the things she left behind, the responsibilities she left behind, naturally need me to complete. ”

It was obviously extremely angry in his heart, but when the words came out of Fu Jiayue's mouth, he looked so pale, but he seemed so powerless.

The lonely look in Xie Bai's eyes became more and more lonely, he no longer argued with Fu Jiayue on this topic, only to hear her be silent for a while, and asked, "When are you going to leave?"

"It's better to choose a day than to hit the day, since it's still early today, let's do it today. There was no extra color in Fu Jiayue's eyes, and before she was moved in her heart for a while, she said the words that she had already thought about came out of her mouth.

In fact, until some times ago, Fu Jiayue was still a little hesitant, she was hesitating whether to go back so early, not because she was afraid, but because of nostalgia, she had lived in this small village for a long time, she inevitably had some nostalgia, many things, many people, many things echoed in her mind like everything beautiful.

These years of life in the small village reminded her of the life she lived in her previous life when she was taken by the nurse to play outside the Lu Mansion for a month, just like the life in the small village in the past five years, everyone seems to be very simple and simple, so that you don't have to have the slightest defense, you can only live simply, and simply show your joys, sorrows and sorrows in your own face.

Xie Bai nodded and continued to ask, "Have you packed up your things, do you need my help?"

Fu Jiayue shook her head with a smile and said, "This small village, there is nothing to clean up, everything is very dilapidated compared to everything in the capital, and it is just thrown away as garbage when you bring it back." ”

Bringing more things is just to increase the sadness when you see it in the future, it is better to let it go, and save yourself from remembering the scene of living in the small village all these years when you see it in the future, at that time, if she is still in the capital, she doesn't know if she will shake her hard-to-firm heart because of this.

Xie Bai pursed his lips and still asked, "You've lived here for five years, do you really have nothing to be nostalgic for?"

Fu Jiayue nodded with a smile, her eyes were full of yearning and nostalgia, and said, "There is naturally nostalgia, although it is poor here, everyone is really good to you, there is no careful thinking, no intrigue, the people here are extremely simple, or let people from outside come in to break this peace." ”

Xie Bai nodded, and didn't say anything more, so he said directly, "Then let's go, I'll come alone, and I'll hire a carriage when I go out." ”

Fu Jiayue vetoed, "Go straight to the horse, the speed of the horse is much faster, and it won't delay your time." ”

"The child can't stand it. Xie Bai immediately rejected her idea.

Fu Jiayue sneered, and said indifferently, "I can stand it, how can he not stand it." I have been pampered since I was a child, he has lived in this small village since he was a child, he has eaten these coarse foods since he was a child, he has been playing in the fields and mountains since he was a child, how can he not stand it? not so delicate. ”

She didn't believe that even people like her who really grew up with a golden spoon could endure it, and her children would be unbearable.

Over the years, although Fu Jiayue loves Fan Fan very much, she has never forgotten to let Fan Fan feel the hard life, so on weekdays, she does not allow the little maids to help Fan Fan get dressed and washed......

Child, in fact, there is no need to raise so expensive, think about how comfortable she lived in the previous life and this life, but now, she is paying the price for the comfortable life she lived before.

If she hadn't let herself go all these years, if she hadn't set herself the responsibility she should have, she wouldn't have been like that five years ago, she wouldn't have been emotionally attached to two people, and she wouldn't have done such intricate things, in the end, in order to calm her heart, in order not to blame herself too much, in the end, Fu Jiayue chose to run away, and chose to escape from this place where her hard memories are kept everywhere.

During that time, she didn't even feel that she really existed, and she still looked like a dumbfounded chicken when she escaped the secret guards that Xie Bai sent to see her.

She bought a horse and drove day and night, rain or wind, and she would not take the initiative to eat unless she felt too hungry in her stomach.

In the end, Fu Jiayue fainted in front of an inn, it was a coincidence, if it was a stick of incense earlier, the place where Fu Jiayue fell would only be a deserted place where no one had passed for a few days, but fortunately, Fu Jiayue wanted to stop and rest at this moment, otherwise, the child in Fu Jiayue's belly would definitely not be saved.

It was also after that fainting that Fu Jiayue learned about her pregnancy.

The owner of the inn is very good, not only hired a doctor for her, but even the medicinal materials are his money, Fu Jiayue is very grateful, and also knows that in such a remote place, the inn is not as profitable as a place like the capital where people come and go.

After the innkeeper shirked it many times, Fu Jiayue still insisted on returning the money to the boss.

The innkeeper originally looked like Fu Jiayue was his own daughter, and she looked very kind, so she didn't feel strange, so she was very good at dealing with Jiayue.

The doctor said that Fu Jiayue's body was already a little weak, and she was still rushing day and night, if she stopped to rest a little later, the child in her belly would not be saved.

Fortunately, Fu Jiayue also felt tired, so she stopped.

Actually, this is also a kind of tacit understanding of a child towards her, right?

Because, Fu Jiayue didn't want to stop, but there was some dull pain in her abdomen from time to time, which made her think that she hadn't eaten well these days, which caused her stomach to be bad.

Because Fu Jiayue's stomach was also bad before, for a period of time, she couldn't eat well, and she was cured for more than half a year, until the emperor and the queen were scared a lot, and then she recovered.

And that clear feeling, and terrible feeling, still exist clearly in Fu Jiayue's mind, she still doesn't want to experience the feeling she used to have, besides, in the future, I am afraid that the place she wants to go can only be a place where there is no village in front of her, and no place to store behind, just to not find Xie Bai or the emperor, and can only find some remote places.

Thinking of this, it was also her fault, because of this, when the child in Fu Jiayue's womb was less than three months old, she tossed like this, and it was also because of this that Fan Fan suffered a lot of sins when she was just born, almost sick, a minor illness in three days, and a major illness in ten days, which made Fu Jiayue almost want to give up at that time.

Whenever she saw Fan Fan sick and uncomfortable, Fu Jiayue wanted to go back to the capital, where there was the omnipotent Xie Bai, and there were people she could rely on.

At that time, she really wanted to go back, she suddenly felt that she was so useless, she didn't dare to imagine, if Fan Fan was like this, what would she do?

Although this child is not what she is looking forward to the most, if the child is gone, she may not be able to live. After all, she wanted to continue as she thought, although this child was not in her expectations, but if it was gone, I am afraid that her heart would be empty, right? After all, this child was conceived by her for ten months.

Morning sickness and many of the things she had suffered during pregnancy were still vivid in her mind.

If all of a sudden asympathy disappears, she really doesn't know how to continue this life.

Although, in this way, Fu Jiayue can completely cut off the relationship with Xie Bai, but in fact, even she herself has not noticed it, and subconsciously, Fu Jiayue still doesn't want to completely break off the relationship with Xie Bai.

After all, most of the reason for Fu Jiayue's departure this time was not Xie Bai, but Qiao Yushu, but she never let go of the two of them in her heart, and she never wanted to have any such intricate relationship.