Morning sickness and many of the things she had suffered during pregnancy were still vivid in her mind. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

If all of a sudden asympathy disappears, she really doesn't know how to continue this life.

Although, in this way, Fu Jiayue can completely cut off the relationship with Xie Bai, but in fact, even she herself has not noticed it, and subconsciously, Fu Jiayue still doesn't want to completely break off the relationship with Xie Bai.

After all, most of the reason for Fu Jiayue's departure this time was not Xie Bai, but Qiao Yushu, but she never let go of the two of them in her heart, and she always didn't want to have any such intricate relationship, so subconsciously, she obviously didn't blame Xie Bai, but she kept hypnotizing herself by blaming Xie Bai, because, in this way, she seemed to be able to feel better, because in this way, she seemed to not be able to pay too much attention to blaming herself.

Actually, she knows this kind of selfishness, but even if she is selfish, she wants to be selfish to the end, she is really selfish, she doesn't want to make herself suffer too much, so she puts all the responsibility on blaming Xie Bai's thoughts.

In fact, for a while, Fu Jiayue had already made up her mind to prepare to return to the capital, but in those days, Fan Fan had been having a fever, and the fever that had just fallen didn't take long before it burned again, and Fu Jiayue couldn't bring him back, because Fan Fan's health has always been bad, this matter has been dragging on, and later, after nine years, this idea in Fu Jiayue's heart has weakened a lot.

However, fortunately, because of the lack of fetal growth, Fan Fan has been well raised for a year, and his body has gradually improved, looking at Fan Fan's good appearance, and gradually there is not much difference from ordinary children, and even over time, his body is much better than some children.

However, looking at Fan Fan's gradual improvement, Fu Jiayue's already somewhat wavering heart was completely shaken, and the idea of going back became smaller and smaller, so small that in the end she no longer wanted to go back, although the previous desire to completely escape from the capital was not particularly strong, but after all, there was no longer the slightest idea of wanting to go back.

Let's say that Fu Jiayue lived in the inn for half a month, until she asked the doctor repeatedly and confirmed that the child in her womb was still fine, and then she was ready to continue walking forward.

In fact, Fu Jiayue didn't have a definite direction, she just thought that the farther away from the capital, the better, in fact, it was a coincidence that she finally chose to settle down in a small village.

This child seems to have a natural appearance, as if he still knows a lot in the womb, when passing through the small village, in fact, Fu Jiayue is not tired, thinking about catching up for a while, and then stop and rest.

However, for the first time, when she was about to leave the small village, the child in her womb moved, this feeling was very wonderful, it was the first time that Fu Jiayue clearly felt the existence of the child in her womb, and for the first time, she really felt that she was giving birth to a small life. Because Fu Jiayue's body is still quite slender, at this moment, Fu Jiayue's lower abdomen still does not have much bulge.

Therefore, when Fu Jiayue was looking for the child's movements and attaching her palm, it felt very wonderful, which made her want to continue to probe.

In order not to hurt the little life in his belly, and the environment in this small village looks very good, Fu Jiayue also made up her mind to stay in the small village.

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Thinking about it, Fu Jiayue couldn't help but return to the time when she was trembling but full of joy at the same time, that feeling infiltrated your mood little by little, and let you experience the mystery and wonder little by little.

Thinking about it, Fu Jiayue couldn't help but feel a little relaxed, the memories of that year echoed in her mind little by little, she felt very happy, that memory was generally sweet, if the feeling of giving birth to a small life was not experienced by a person, they would not have experienced it anyway.

That feeling of being feminine and peculiar, that feeling of wanting to protect the nature of one's child, is wonderful and beautiful.

Although it is not only about conceiving a child, but also about enduring the noise of the child in her womb and enduring the vomiting caused by it, everything else is less important than the imminent possession of a small life and a child of her own.

Although, after Fan Fan was born, when she looked at him like Xie Bai's little face, Fu Jiayue resisted in her heart, and she didn't want to face such a face all the time, but there was no way to do it, thinking that she was looking forward to this child so much, she hesitated in her heart.

What was she like then? It's ridiculous and contradictory compared to now.

Thinking of her previous appearance, Fu Jiayue looked down on herself a little in her heart, feeling that she was extremely hypocritical, so hypocritical that she didn't dare to face her heart, let alone face it and defeat it.

However, this is always unfair to the child, and fortunately, Fu Jiayue figured it out after a few years and began to treat Fan Fan well, and it was not too late to think about it.

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As Fu Jiayue said, these times, she didn't clean up at all, and directly asked the grandmother next door to take away the things that could be used in her house, and she gave some money to the maid at home, which was equivalent to a reward for doing things in her home over the years.

At the moment of leaving, Fan Fan was still holding Fu Jiayue's hand, and said in a warm and pinching voice that he wanted to go in and get something more.

Fu Jiayue shook her head with a smile, saying that if he wanted those things, she would buy them for him after he arrived in the capital.

Fan Fan is actually not very happy, after all, it is something he has been playing with for several years, no matter how good the new thing is, I am afraid that it will not be able to be completely replaced.

Fu Jiayue no longer paid attention to Fan Fan's hesitation, and directly used the big lock he bought a few days ago, and with a click, he locked the door, and took Fan Fan to ride a horse and gallop away.

Xie Bai saw her walking so crisply, obviously under the weak back, but she was so strong, such a Fu Jiayue was something Xie Bai had never seen before, but when he saw Fu Jiayue like this, Xie Bai couldn't suppress the distress in his heart.

Thinking about it, Xie Bai sighed, didn't think about anything more, and directly stepped on the horse and followed Fu Jiayue.

"Lin family lady, if you have the opportunity, you must remember to come back and see, I am a lonely one, I think I haven't lived for a few years, these years, thanks to your help, I am living so well, you are good to me, I am a reporter! You must come back to see! I must come back to see it......"

As she spoke, the loud voice of the grandmother next door was replaced by a deep voice, and her voice gradually became choked.

has been a neighbor with Fu Jiayue for so many years, and it is false to say that she has no feelings, besides, Fu Jiayue has helped her a lot in the past few years, and now, Fu Jiayue is suddenly gone, and her home is back to quiet again, how does this not make her feel empty in her heart?

Looking at Fu Jiayue's figure gradually disappearing, watching them gradually disappear within her field of vision, the grandmother next door had mixed feelings, and it was extremely unpleasant.

She looked blankly from the direction the three of them left for a long time, and it wasn't until the people in the village came to see her stunned and gloomy appearance, and Fu Jiayue's door was closed, and asked each other for some reason, that the grandmother next door came back from her thoughts.

"The lady of the Lin family went home. After saying that, the grandmother next door walked towards her house.

In the past, Fan Fan would come to play with her, to accompany her to relieve her boredom, but at this moment, her room was still back to a quiet time, just like the years when her husband had just died, every night, she felt a little terrible, and she felt a little difficult to face.

The night was so quiet that she could almost see her husband come back to see her, and every time she saw him come back and see his face that had not changed for decades, the grandmother next door was so happy that she wanted to go up and say a few words to him, and it was only a few words.

However, every time she walked to where her husband stood, he immediately disappeared without a trace, leaving her without a trace.

Every time that happens, the grandmother next door wants to cry very much.

She also loved her husband very much. Otherwise, she will not marry again, she will guard this soon-to-be-broken home for her husband without any heirs, and take care of his parents for her husband.

In the past few decades, whenever the grandmother next door can't hold on, she will think of the beautiful scene when she and her husband get along, and at that time, she will always be infected by the beautiful atmosphere.

It was a wonderful feeling, so good that she didn't want to wake up from her thoughts, so good that she would rather live in virtual thoughts for the rest of her life.

It's just that life still has to go on, and at the beginning, she endured it to take care of her mother-in-law and father-in-law, instead of chasing to find her husband who may not be far away.

Later, it became a habit.

When you get used to this lonely life, loneliness is not so scary for you, and loneliness is just something you have to experience every day.

When you are accustomed to it, you will no longer be disturbed by it.

Although, in the dead of night, the idea of the grandmother next door wanting to go down to accompany her husband still occasionally surges, but it is not so strong after all, so she just wants to continue to live.

Because, the grandmother next door also doesn't know whether there is an afterlife after death, but she knows that she can't keep up with her husband's pace.

Even if there is an afterlife, it has been decades since he died, and even in the next life, they will have nothing to do with each other.

Thinking about it, the grandmother next door has a much calmer mind, and after no expectations, the life she wants is much simpler.

After all, there will be no more memories in the next life, and they will all forget because of a bowl of Meng Po soup, so there is no need for her to worry about such a thing.

After all, after death, after drinking Meng Po soup, she won't have such chaotic emotions anymore, right?

Thinking about it, after the mother-in-law and father-in-law of the neighbor also died, her mood was much broader.

And at that time, Fu Jiayue came, she was so beautiful, she was a very good person, and she lived next to her home, bringing a bit of good meaning to her peaceful life, and bringing her a real breath of life that she had not felt for many years.

Originally, before Fu Jiayue came, the grandmother next door was almost accustomed to the feeling of loneliness, although the grandmother next door had always persuaded Fu Jiayue to return to her family.

However, now, when Fu Jiayue really left, her heart was full of reluctance, thinking about it, too, the human heart is such an intricate thing, you think you can easily control its direction, but it turns out that it is nothing at all, just your wishful thinking.

However, after all, she has lived a lonely life for decades, and the grandmother next door has only been sad for a few days, and she has returned to her usual appearance, but her old and unfading eyes with luster have a touch of death.

Life still has to live, but there is no longer something to yearn for, so it has to be passed.

The grandmother next door actually treats Fan Fan as her own child, she has thought about what Fan Fan will look like when she grows up, she has thought about what Fan Fan will look like when she marries a wife in the future, she looks at Fan Fan happy, she is happy.

Fan Fan is like his little grandson to the grandmother next door, and Fan Fan's joys, sorrows, and sorrows have affected the heart of the grandmother next door since when.

Such a cute child, it's difficult to say that you don't love it, right?

It's just that all this has disappeared without a trace like a bubble, and today's life is still calm, what has changed is the environment in which she lives, and what is also the grandmother next door lives is the hope for life......

And said that along the way, the three of them didn't have much rest, they were riding horses all the way, Xie Bai proposed a few times that it was changed to a carriage, and Fu Jiayue didn't agree, until he was halfway there, the sky was not beautiful, it rained for a few days and nights, the road was muddy, and it was impassable at all, and the three of them stayed in an inn for a long time.

And after several days of hurrying, the void roots left by Fanfan's body when he was a child seemed to have flares up at this moment, but it was not revealed when he was on the road, but on the second day when the three of them stopped to rest, they began to have a high fever.

Fan Fan's high fever this time really made Fu Jiayue worried.

Because she hired a doctor, the doctor bluntly pointed out that she didn't take care of the children and let the children follow them so tired, which made her cruelly realize that she had no sense of responsibility.

O Fan Fan is her child, the only person she can fully trust in this world, and the person she can love!

When she found her brother, only Fan Fan was her only relative.

Although Queen Lin and the emperor are too, after all, what she lived with them more than ten years ago was only a wisp of her soul, and many feelings were actually empty.