Moreover, Fu Jiayue actually found that her heart was becoming more and more difficult to get closer, even like herself. Pen Fun Pavilion wWw. ｂiquge。 ｉｎfo

She already can't see through herself, she can't see through what she is pursuing.

At the beginning, she wanted to find her brother, because only by finding her brother, she could really feel that she was really alive, although, in the past few decades, when her brother was not by her side, her life was also prosperous, but after all, there were no relatives next to her, and she was always lonely.

Many times, the day is empty, especially in the dead of night.

And it wasn't until Fan Fan was really sick that she really discovered that Xie Bai's arrival had once again disturbed her sanity, and once again destroyed her original thoughts that had given Fan Fan a clear understanding.

Because of Xie Bai's arrival, she began to find it a little difficult to accept her child.

The two of them looked so similar, every time she saw their faces, especially when they met her together, she would think of Qiao Yushu, the man who was deeply hurt by herself, the man she hadn't seen in five years, the man who wanted to take her away on her wedding day.

A deep sense of guilt spread deep in Fu Jiayue's heart, she didn't know, she didn't know how long her disguise would last, how long it would last, she didn't know, when, she would completely collapse, she would completely lose confidence in life.

It's just that she knows that now, she doesn't, otherwise, she wouldn't go back with Xie Bai.

Otherwise, she wouldn't have agreed to go back to the underworld with her when Cha Cha came to her.

They are all mortals after all, and all the chaos is just a mortal thing, they are just a mortal fetus, and they can't go to the underworld at all, let alone bring the chaos of the world to disturb her heart.

It's just that people always have a conscience, they will always have a sense of responsibility, and they will not easily leave the people they have strong behind.

Therefore, this is also the reason why Fu Jiayue is unwilling to give up the complicated life in the world.

Now that I think about it, Fan Fan has always been innocent, and it has always been her who is wrong, but she is punishing Fan Fan with her mistakes, and for a while, Fu Jiayue looks down on herself a little.

What is wrong with her? She is selfish, she only knows how to put the fault on others, subconsciously she does not want to take the responsibility she has to bear, but because of the inner struggle she wants to return to the capital.

If it weren't for Cha Cha and Xie Bai coming, she didn't know how long her so-called escape would last.

However, it's useless to think about it anymore, it's all over, after all, she's still ready to go back to the capital to take responsibility, isn't it?

Fanfan's illness came suddenly, but it was reasonable.

Even if it is a healthy child, it can't tolerate such destruction as Fu Jiayue.

The child's body is weak, and he can't stand this kind of long distance at all, not to mention that Fu Jiayue took him on horseback, and he traveled day and night, and sometimes when he arrived in a remote place, he only rested on the spot.

The cold and humidity at night are extremely heavy, how can a child withstand it?

At the beginning, Fan Fan was still confused, and at the beginning, Fan Fan still talked nonsense.

Fan Fan's nonsense is just telling Fu Jiayue not to be angry, and missing his father, when he was in a small village before, when Fu Jiayue woke up at night and watched Fan Fan sleep, he often heard it.

Therefore, when Fu Jiayue heard these words, she was just accustomed to it, and she didn't think about it in many ways.

It's just that this is the first time Xie Bai has heard it, and this is the first time Xie Bai has watched Fan Fan fall asleep.

Fan Fan's little face was red because of the fever at the moment, and his little mouth was closed one by one, as if he was dreaming.

At this moment, Fan Fan's face was different from the ruddy, as if he had been smeared with a touch of blush, and with his fleshy cheeks, he looked extremely cute.

And what Fu Jiayue was most afraid of when she was in the small village was that Fan Fan was sick, because especially when Fan Fan was born, Fan Fan was sick almost every day, and the only doctor in that small village who had no special training was only Dr. Wang at the entrance of the village.

Dr. Wang's medical skills are only ancestral, and ordinary diseases can be treated, but when he encounters some miscellaneous diseases that are difficult to solve, he is helpless, so he only relies on his own experience to solve them.

Because Fan Fan's illness was brought out of the mother's womb, it was because Fu Jiayue didn't pay attention to it when she was pregnant with him, and besides, Fan Fan was only young at that time, and Dr. Wang didn't dare to try new medicines.

Therefore, during that time, Dr. Wang only prescribed medicine for the symptoms of fever and cold.

Fu Jiayue also knew that Dr. Wang just didn't want to take risks, and similarly, Fu Jiayue didn't want to take risks, and the two got such a tacit understanding, that is, they just dragged Fanfan's illness like this, and they only dealt with the more urgent symptoms.

Fortunately, over time, Fan Fan's body also recovered on its own, and over time, he did not look much different from ordinary children.

It's just that now, such a day and night rush is like a fuse, which instantly involves the disease that Fan Fan has hidden for many years.

This disease almost found out the root of the disease that was originally hidden by Fanfan.

Fu Jiayue panicked all of a sudden, she waited by Fan Fan's bedside every day, waiting for him to wake up.

Xie Bai was very distressed when he saw her so flustered, but he didn't say much, he looked for a famous doctor for Fan Fan everywhere during the day, and at night, he was with Fu Jiayue by Fan Fan's side.

Fu Jiayue actually just wanted to accompany Fan Fan alone, and Xie Bai was waiting next to her, which would make her feel even more guilty in her heart.

Fan Fan is still Xie Bai's child more or less, she is already sorry for Xie Bai if she doesn't tell Xie Bai the truth, and now, Fan Fan is sick like this, and she still doesn't let him know the truth, this, in her opinion, is really too cruel.

It's just that reason still told Fu Jiayue that this matter should not be known to Xie Bai no matter what.

Although, Fu Jiayue didn't know, Xie Bai didn't know if it was true, but it was good that it was like this on the surface now.

Even if Xie Bai knows the truth one day, as long as the truth between the two is not exposed, as long as Xie Bai does not tell her clearly, as long as Xie Bai does not snatch Fan Fan away from her, she will be satisfied.

Fu Jiayue's eyes were already covered with dark circles, and her hair didn't have time to comb, and she looked embarrassed, as if, just in this moment, Fu Jiayue was much older.

Fu Jiayue sat at the head of the bed, looking at Fan Fan all the time, looking at his uncomfortable frowning little brows when he was asleep, and her mind did not take her mind off his body at all.

Xie Bai, who had been waiting on the side, finally couldn't stand it anymore, he stepped forward and reminded softly, "Jia Yue, you haven't rested for three days and three nights, go and rest first." Fan Fan has me watching here, I will not leave his side for a moment, you can go to sleep first with peace of mind, you have been guarding here, it is not a long-term solution. ”

Fu Jiayue pale her lips, shook her head, and replied, "I'm not tired, if you're tired, you can go back and rest first, Fan Fan has nothing to do with you, you don't need to guard him here with me." ”

It's just that when Fu Jiayue said this, her voice was extremely hoarse, and she looked tired during it.

When she said this, Fu Jiayue's gaze was still on Fan Fan, and she didn't look at Xie Bai at all.

I don't know why, Xie Bai looked at Fu Jiayue like this at the moment, and he was angry for no reason in his heart, his face suddenly turned cold, and he asked in a low voice, "Jiayue, how long will this happen between us?"

It's been five years, and for five years, what he's waiting for is not on the side, but there is only Fu Jiayue's coldness and don't want to contact him?

Hearing this, Fu Jiayue was obviously stunned, she obviously didn't expect Xie Bai to talk about these things with her, but she was only stunned, and still didn't look at Xie Bai.

For a moment, I only heard Fu Jiayue sigh and say, "I'm not in the mood to talk to you about this now." ”

Xie Bai didn't mean to give up at all, he just listened to him continue, "What are you blaming me for, five years have passed, are you still going to do this? ”

Hearing this, Fu Jiayue stood up from the head of the bed suddenly, turned to look at Xie Bai, and asked in the same low voice, "I want you to let me and Fan Fan go, can you?"

Only a moment after saying this, Fu Jiayue regretted it.

She has no qualifications to blame Xie Bai, Xie Bai has never been wrong, what is wrong is just her selfishness.

If it weren't for her hesitation at the beginning, if it weren't for all the things she caused to herself in the first place, she wouldn't have to suffer so much now.

In other words, all these things are just punishment for the mistakes she made in the first place.

Seeing that Xie Bai's eyes darkened and he didn't answer, Fu Jiayue suddenly sneered and continued, "Hehe, look, you can't, so, Xie Bai, don't be self-righteous and take on anything, because, you will never know what kind of request the other party will make, you are not omnipotent, and I am not the original Fu Jiayue, many things have changed, Xie Bai." ”

Saying that, Fu Jiayue's eyes also crossed a touch of gloom, she didn't know what she was sad about, Mingming, Ming Xie Bai's answer was very satisfactory to her, Mingming, Ming Xie Bai was speechless by what she said, she should be happy.

However, Fu Jiayue's heart was like being stuffed with a large ball of cotton, which made her a little breathless.

A little bit of pain lingered in her heart, and her breath almost froze because of it.

After a long time, I only heard Xie Bai ask rhetorically, "So, are you here for Qiao Yushu?"

"Who allowed you to mention him?" Fu Jiayue was furious, her eyes suddenly showed a bright red appearance because of these words, and the red blood left by staying up late in the past few days looked a little hideous and terrifying.

Her voice trembled a little because she was low and annoyed, and her eyes never moved away from Xie Bai's body for a moment, as if she wanted to use this look to completely see through Xie Bai, it seemed that only in this way could she suppress the anger in her heart, and only then could she not touch something that she had been unwilling to touch in the past five years.

Xie Bai continued as if he hadn't heard Fu Jiayue's words, "He's still in the capital. ”

"What are you talking to me about him?" Xie Bai, I said, don't be self-righteous, this will only make me hate you even more!" Fu Jiayue's words seemed a little uncontrollable because of Xie Bai's words.

Her chest rose and fell, panting heavily, as if she had been greatly stimulated.

The darkness in Xie Bai's eyes deepened a lot, and for a moment, he only heard Xie Bai muttering and asking, "It's because you liked me and hurt Qiao Yushu, so are you going to be so cruel to me?"

It was obviously a fact in his heart, but when Xie Bai said it, he felt so unconfident.

Fu Jiayue took a deep breath, no longer intending to continue with Xie Bai on this cruel and equally fruitless topic.

I only heard Fu Jiayue say, "You go out, Fan Fan needs to be quiet, and I need it too!"

Xie Bai still didn't give up, only to hear him say, "Fan Fan has woken up today, and the doctor also said that he has improved a little, but in five days, I think it will be fine, what are you still avoiding me like this?"

Today's Xie Bai is very different, the appearance of accommodating Fu Jiayue on weekdays is very different, today's Xie Bai, it seems that no matter what, he has to tear off Fu Jiayue's coat with his own hands and let her face the reality.

Because of Xie Bai's words, Fu Jiayue's words were full of mockery, "What do you know? Xie Bai, your self-righteous face really makes me feel disgusting!"

Obviously, every sentence was in the direction of attacking Xie Bai, but every time she said a word, Fu Jiayue felt that her heart seemed to be suffering from Ling Chi.

is obviously the person who should not be affected by her anger, speaking of which, Xie Bai is now the person she is most sorry for, but now, when Fu Jiayue saw him, she only had anger and didn't want to say anything more to him.

Xie Bai looked at Fu Jiayue like this, and after seeing her finish speaking, he pursed his lips, as if he wanted to say something, but was stopped by Fu Jiayue's mocking and cruel face.

Fu Jiayue didn't know what to say to alleviate this messy atmosphere, and the relationship between her and Xie Bai became what it is now, which she never wanted.

When she was in the small village, Fu Jiayue thought about the scenes she might encounter when she met Xie Bai.

However, she never thought that when she met Xie Bai, she would still be as easy to get angry as before, she thought that she was mature enough, but after meeting Xie Bai, this maturity seemed to soon turn into nothing.

The two of them were at a stalemate, and the air seemed to freeze at this moment.

For a long time, I only heard Xie Bai say, "I know the truth!"