Chapter 18 I won't confess to Sister Nomi
"Woo woo woo~" Sister Nomi cried like a little woman, and kept twisting her head to wipe it on my shoulder. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info.
...... "Let's cry, just cry once, for the rare moist dry eyes, and for the rare liberation of the delicate heart! It's just a pity that my clean clothes, snot and tears or something, shouldn't corrode the clothes or something?"
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After a while, Sister Yemei slowly lowered her crying, her eyes were red, at this time she had already lost the hardness of Fangcai, and she had become a delicate little girl she hated, but, in my eyes, this is the real Sister Yemei...
Nestled in my arms, head on my stomach, body twitching...... Feel the temperature of Nomi-sama's body, it was a temperature from the North Pole, but now it is gradually becoming warmer, is it about to melt?
Her heart beats...... Bang, bang, bang!
"Sister Nomi, can you tell me about it?"
"......" Nomi-san looked up into my eyes...
"When I was a kid...... My father told me that only the strong deserve to have love, and only by making myself stronger than yesterday can I have the strength to protect the people I love...... I tried my best to make my delicate self strong, to become the strong in my father's mouth, and then in order to prove myself, I defeated those opponents who were stronger than me, for myself and for the glory of my family... ”
"I did it, but who knows what I had been wounded and what blood I had shed? They only saw the glory of the victory on the surface, praised my strength, and when the referee raised my hand again and again, I gradually became less happy, but I fell into the abyss of confusion...... Is this really all I want? Why do I want it to feel more and more distant from me? Obviously I'm strong!"
"Actually, I have known for a long time that on the surface they respect me and worship me, but behind the scenes, what is it like? They say that I am a beast! They say that I am just an underground boxer! They say that I am a bad woman! I can only solve things by force! ...... forever No one will ever love!"
"Why is this happening? They must be jealous of me! But isn't it true that the weak are attached to the strong? Don't they still know their identity? Why are they talking about me behind my back? My father clearly said that the weak only give the strong **!
"Why are they afraid of me, why don't they dare to approach me, why do they deliberately avoid me, why do they look at me with the eyes of a stranger?"
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"Today, I once again knocked out my opponent without any pressure and became the international women's 50kg gold belt holder......! The hateful thing is that the protagonist who receives the applause of the people on the field is not me, but the woman who was beaten by me and is looking for teeth! On that field, she was proposed to marry when she fell! Why! Why does the weak have love? That should be my cheers! Why is this happening? Why?"
"My father clearly said that only the strong deserve love, but I am the forgotten one!"
"I want to have love, too, and I want someone to propose to me at all costs! I can have someone to give me a gift and say hypocritical love to me today! At least it makes me feel that someone cares-"
At this moment, I stretched out my hands and hugged Sister Nomi, I couldn't control myself anymore, I don't know why my heart hurts so much!
"Me!"
With empty eyes, is she really still my Yemei sister?
Two lines of tears slipped down, and I never felt so powerless as I do now... In the eyes of Sister Nomei, am I also a weakling? Maybe she never realized this in her heart...
The reason why they cry when they feel dissatisfied? It must be because of the lack of love in their hearts, which has something in common with Xianghime, who was bent on seeking death at that time! It is not because something covers their eyes, how can they see love happening when their eyes are covered? Moreover, they are still in the center of the storm, how can they see the shouts of people outside to them? Because of the original intention that has been suppressed for a long time and distorted by reality, in the end, what I get is not a shell, a corpse that can't feel the warmth of others, but to make the corpse feel the warmth of others, the first thing is to make her come back to life!
"Is that because of this? Sister Nomi... ”
“……”
"If it's just because of this, then Sister Yemei is really a stupid person!"
"Why?"
I smiled, didn't say anything, just silently rummaged out a piece of chocolate from the handbag next to me, and breathed a long sigh of relief at this chocolate, a little nervous, and a little shy, and quickly handed this piece of chocolate to Sister Nomi, blushing to the side, not daring to look into her eyes...
"Please accept my love! ”
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I won't confess to Sister Nomi!
…… (To be continued)
[My name is Gokinami]
"Please accept my love! ”
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My name is Gotoshino Beauty, and a long time ago, my world was noisy, and at this moment-
Because of this black-haired boy in front of me, my world instantly fell silent at this moment!
Tick (onomatopoeia)
It's more like time stopped, pausing his lovely face in my heart forever...
Can you get closer to me? Come closer......
Huh~ (onomatopoeia)
It's the wind, it's driving me to want to get closer to him even more, driving me to hug him with all my might, the wind is so strong today...
I had never felt such joy, was it the flowers outside? it was the moment it bloomed, was it a ray of light that came in? it was the shivering figure hidden in the darkness, or was it a reckless teenager who broke into someone's heart and embraced a little girl older than him......
I was so happy to look at him blankly! I was satisfied, even if it was to comfort me, but why should I not accept it? What a lovely little boy!
Before I met him, I might have been too serious? I was the real weakling, and now I found out? The laces had been loose since a long time ago, and I just stubbornly pretended to run easily, but I also knew that I would one day trip over, even if I didn't want to...
Fighting against the invisible enemy, even if I become stronger, there will be times when I get tired, and gradually become weak, and in the end, they are the ones who win, what am I insisting on? I long for being recognized, I want to be loved and loved, I want to live a happy life for the weak...... The bond between people is really a difficult thing to understand! Subtle like a blue dream, only I stand alone on the sea, the land is far away from me, the ocean traps me, the vast blue, let my eyes dazzle, but because of his appearance, I have found the direction, this world is not only blue, there are many, many more beautiful colors!
What the hell is wrong with me? I have never felt my heart beating so clearly as I do now ...
Bang bang ~ bang bang ~ bang bang ~
That's it, that's love, it's really distressing and dazzling, it's like that...... Hahaha...
Father, you said that only strong people deserve love, right? Do I deserve it now? Can I believe your words? Can only strong people protect love? So, I know now! Since I was a child, I have never really chosen my own path, but today, I want to make a choice...
"This boy, from today onwards, leave it to me to guard!"
I won today!