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"Mom, how could I not know......" I don't even know that I have Qin Kai's child in my belly, I don't even know it, I knew what happened to her, I would endure it without crying, fainting or sadness, so at least the child is still there, will it really be a daughter? Then she can still tell her daughter the story of her father, at least there is the only remaining bond between her and Qin Kai between yin and yang.

Yan Yan ...... "Gu's mother didn't know how to speak, her daughter was still a child, how could she notice these things, blame her for not being a good mother." "Don't be too upset, the most important thing now is to take care of your body. ”

"What else do I need to do with my body?" Gu Xiyan then said, the child knew that his father was gone, so he followed, and what was she doing here stupidly?

"Yan Yan, don't say stupid things!" Gu's mother knew that her daughter would not be able to recover for a while, but it was better to be able to speak than to be sullen all the time.

"Mom, don't call me Yan Yan in the future, I don't want to call this name. Gu Xiyan subconsciously wanted to shrink up, every time she heard these two words, she suddenly felt as if Qin Kai was standing beside her with a smile.

"Okay, Mom won't call me that anymore. Gu's mother thought in her heart that if her daughter could get better, she could do anything, let alone say her name.

I don't know what time it is at night, Gu Xiyan woke up, and she couldn't sleep anymore, she actually didn't want anyone to comfort her, she preferred to indulge in her thoughts about Qin Kai, and didn't want to be disturbed at all, she felt that there was no such thing as empathy in the world, needles couldn't pierce others, how could others know how much pain she felt!

She got up and got out of bed, bumped into the desk in the dark, and even shook the computer on the table, for a while Gu Xiyan was obsessed with online games, Gu's father and Gu mother were very worried about her study, Qin Kai quietly set up a password, and the prompt question was "00544 (move me to try)" to show warning, Gu Xiyan dared to enter "44944 (try it)", and logged in by the way! She was proud of this for a long time, but she still obediently quit online games......

Standing in front of the window, looking at the moon silently, it was about fifteen, the moon was very round and beautiful, on a summer night like this, she might be watching a movie with Qin Kai, walking arm in arm on the way home; the henna on the windowsill was transplanted by Qin Kai from his house, saying that it was blooming, Gu Xiyan could paint her nails red; half of the bookcase was still a variety of reference books from her junior year of high school, most of which were bought and sent back by Qin Kai, and she was not willing to lose them until now......

She got her wish and was admitted to the city where Qin Kai's troops were located, and they could meet every week, thinking that they would be able to go on forever; when she reported to college, Qin Kai sent her to school, and when a boy came up with a fake form and asked her if she was anyone, she didn't open her mouth, Qin Kai blocked the boy while saying no, and later Jiang Xinran also teased her and said that Qin Kai's vigilance was really high, and he looked really close......

Once Qin Kai promised to bring her an egg tart, but the training was late and she missed the appointment, who knew that the lights were out, and she received a call from Qin Kai, which caused her to wake up the administrator to open the door and run to the school gate......

"Qin Kai, don't you know how to talk and don't count? Don't you say that it won't take too long for me to wait?" If she was still in that city, at least she could see each other often on weekends, and if she insisted on it, maybe she would have stayed by Qin Kai's side for nearly a year......

Gu Xiyan subconsciously grabbed the pendant on his chest with his hand, Qin Kai was there, the closest place to his heart, but his heart became more and more painful. The person you couldn't live without is gone, and you can never come back, what should you do?

She has always longed for herself to be collected, properly placed, and carefully preserved, Qin Kai, how can you just leave it alone? So many moments that were once together, do you really want to watch them become the passing years of the past now? She is unwilling to let go, and she is reluctant to let go!

Gu Xiyan let the memories run rampant in his head, entangled like a thousand threads, I don't know how many times unconsciously, how many times he got up in the middle of the night and stood until dawn......

The sycamore tree outside the window has already occasionally fallen a few leaves, and when the leaves have fallen, Gu Xiyan's sadness has spread from summer to autumn......

"It's getting colder, so you have to dress more in the morning. As soon as Gu's mother entered the room, she saw her daughter standing by the window in a daze.

"Got it, Mom. Gu Xiyan replied motionlessly.

"Let's eat early. Gu's mother reminded softly that she felt that her daughter was recovering, and she had made progress from not saying a word at the beginning to now asking and answering.

She quietly consulted a psychiatrist, and tried her best to provide Gu Xiyan with a normal daily life environment according to the doctor's advice, and Gu Xiyan thought about her when she wanted, and gave her sadness when she was sad, quietly waiting for her to release all her negative feelings.

"Yan ......" Gu's mother just called out a word, and she remembered Gu Xiyan's words, and stopped stiffly,

"Mom, I said don't call it by this name," Gu Xiyan wanted to delete all the symbols related to sadness.

"That'...... What will I call you in the future?" Gu's mother muttered in a low voice, calling Yan Yan, who had been called for more than 20 years, really didn't know how to change her words for a while, so she asked tentatively: "Do you want to call Xixi?"

"Hmm. Gu Xiyan nodded, as long as she didn't call her the word "Yan Yan", she felt much better in her heart, Qin Kai, from now on, she could only live in her heart, thinking like this, her hand involuntarily pinched the pendant on her chest.

Gu's mother felt that her daughter wanted to hide cleanly and thoroughly, so a few days ago, she asked her to help clean up the bookcase, and the henna was also moved, and even the photos in the pendant were taken out...... It's just that the pendant is reluctant to take it off!

Gu Xiyan looked back at her mother who was cleaning up the bed, she had lost weight, it seemed that she had more gray hair, she could see helplessness and tiredness from her back, since she was sick, her mother was in a semi-retired state, and basically didn't go to work.

"Mom, you've been worried about Dad and Dad all this time. ”

"Silly boy, what are you talking about!" Gu's mother heard this, her heart was a little pounding with joy, and she grabbed her daughter's hand, feeling that her daughter was going to be "sober", since Qin Kai's accident to now, it has been more than two months, and her daughter has been confused and unclear for more than two months, she is really frightened, and she can't sleep at night, for fear that she will go on like this in the future.

"Mom, I want to go to work. Gu Xiyan suddenly felt that it was very selfish for her to hide in this room like this, losing Qin Kai was her own business, and it was really not what she wanted to do with the rest of the family. Qin Yue's words are right, if Qin Kai is here, I hope she will be well.

"Let's raise it for a few more days...... Gu's mother was glad that her daughter's head was recovering, but she was worried about her thin body, which now seemed to be really weak.

"It's okay, Mom, isn't it more cranky to stay at home?" Gu Xiyan's reason gradually woke up.

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On Monday morning, when Gu Xiyan appeared in the office, the room was full of people who were silent for a while, and they came up to greet each other one after another, Gu Xiyan responded one by one, there was a feeling of being pulled back from another world, she no longer speculated about the intention behind these people's shushing and asking for warmth, because she clearly realized that at this moment, she didn't know how much temperature she had to absorb from the outside world to warm herself.

Gu Xiyan stood outside Director Qin's office, took a deep breath, and raised his hand to knock on the door.

"Come in!" the voice inside was small but still majestic.

Gu Xiyan and Director Qin looked at each other for a few seconds, but neither spoke. Gu Xiyan was not sure, for more than two months, I don't know what was going on, as soon as she spoke, tears would flow together, she didn't want to lose control in front of Director Qin.

Director Qin knew that this incident hit Gu Xiyan no less than the pain of their loss of a child, but this girl stood in front of him like this, which made him think of Qin Kai, these two children carried the happiness of the two families, and when he thought about it, he began to feel sad again.

"Xiao Yan, if you are well, come to work. Director Qin looked at Gu Xiyan, pale and thin, and his eyes lacked the naughtiness and vitality of the past, which made people feel distressed.

"Okay, I'll check you in first. Gu Xiyan tried hard to control her voice, this was the first time she saw Director Qin after Qin Kai's sacrifice, and her expression was much less energetic than before.

Then there was silence, Gu Xiyan suddenly felt that Qin Kai had taken away far more than she imagined, Qin Kai was the bridge between her and the people around her, now that the bridge is gone, so there is a gap between her and everyone, Director Qin and Qin's mother will only miss her son more when they see her, which will only increase their sadness......;

The more Gu Xiyan thought about it, the more complicated it became, and the farther she thought about it!

"Xiao Yan, it's okay, it's all over, you are still young, and you still have a long way to go......" Although Director Qin could not hide his grief, Gu Xiyan was also a child who grew up under his nose, and he understood her thoughts along the way. Seeing Gu Xiyan now, she only felt sorry and distressed, and wanted to comfort and comfort her.

"I went out first. Gu Xiyan interrupted Director Qin's words, turned around and ran out of the office, not daring to look back, as if the scene of Qin Kai's sacrifice had floated out of the room again.

She stood in the corridor in a panic, knowing in her heart that Uncle Qin was trying to comfort her, but she felt even more hurt when she heard those words. It was because she was young, and because the road was still long, that she didn't know how to go on the road in the future and how she should live in the future! Qin Kai, you owe me a wedding, and I will give you a child; from now on, you will live in my heart, so where will I live?