"Me?" Zheng Xiyan smiled bitterly, turned his head and looked out the window away from Lin Mingyue's eyes.

Outside the window, the breeze was blowing, and the branches were gently swaying.

"yes, actually, I'm the same." She shook her head and whispered, the smile on her face fading away. In its place, there was a sad look. This is her norm, and for her, covering up has long become a very heavy thing.

But at this moment, for Lin Mingyue, she didn't need to hide anything.

She knew it from Xiaoqing, and knew that Lin Mingyue had read her diary. I also know the choices she made afterwards.

So, what does she have to hide?

"But......" She turned back to look at Lin Mingyue again, her eyes trembling slightly, "We are still different in some places, Mingyue, do you remember that I asked you a question?" On the day you apologized to me, I poured you half a bottle of wine. ”

“…… What's the problem? ”

"I asked you, what would you do now that you knew I still had feelings for him? Will you break up with her? Mingyue, do you remember your answer at that time? ”

Lin Mingyue bit her lip, how could she forget this question?

"I remember your answer at the time was very simple, just three words, I'm sorry." Zheng Xiyan didn't wait for her answer, and said to herself.

"Sister Xiyan......" Lin Mingyue wanted to say something, but was interrupted by Zheng Xiyan with a smile, "Mingyue, in fact, I was a little angry when you said the three words I'm sorry, but more, I was still envious." ”

Saying this, she sighed, "I envy you for making the right choice, unlike me...... But didn't you think about it very clearly? Why are you stupid again? Some things are good to stick to, so why give up so easily? Actually, I can see that you're not having a good time these days. Zheng Xiyan said pityingly caressing Lin Mingyue's hair.

“…… Do you hold on......" Lin Mingyue muttered, her lips pursed tightly, then she lowered her head, and when she raised her head again, there were already two lines of crystal tears on her face.

Zheng Xiyan's words hit the most painful wound in her heart.

"yes, it's the same as before. Wouldn't you regret it now? Zheng Xiyan said softly.

"Regrets? Hang on? Lin Mingyue raised her hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes, but it didn't work, because it would keep pouring out, and then she gave up, looking at Zheng Xiyan with a somewhat helpless smile, "Actually, I regretted every word in that letter when I wrote it." I regret every moment of my final parting special, and even now, I regret it. But...... So what can it be? ”

Lin Mingyue took a deep breath and continued to say with a crying voice, "I really tried, but I couldn't do it. Sister Xiyan, tell me, how can I still be with him as if nothing happened when I know that you are now suffering from depression? ”

Zheng Xiyan lightly opened her lips, but she didn't know what to say for a while. Although she had already learned from Xiaoqing the reason for doing this, it still overwhelmed her when she said it from her mouth.

"Sister Xiyan, do you know? During that time, I had nightmares every night. Every day. Lin Mingyue completely covered her face with both hands, and her voice came out from between her fingers, "Many dreams, some dreams, Sister Xiyan, you will say to me in front of me that it is me, and it is me who ruined your life." In some dreams, everyone is accusing me of hooking up with my brother-in-law. But in fact, I can live with all this. What I can't accept is ......"

Lin Mingyue bent down and buried her head in her knees, "I will still dream that Sister Xiyan, you are alone, covered with a quilt and crying non-stop." I even dream about ...... Dreaming of Sister Xiyan, your funeral ......" Saying this, she straightened up and looked up at Zheng Xiyan, the makeup on her face had been blurred by tears, "Sister Xiyan, you say, how should I continue to insist?" I know it's not just a dream. ”

Zheng Xiyan was silent.

Dreams?

At least not entirely.

Even some, it can happen.

If it weren't for the fact that even she was worried about such a possibility, she wouldn't have rushed to keep herself busy with another career.

In fact, now she is not as persistent about her dreams and career as she was before. All she needs now is a sustenance.

"Even if that's the case, you don't need to. Do you think I'm going to want you to do that? Zheng Xiyan said with a sigh.

"I know. Therefore, I didn't plan to tell Sister Xiyan about this before. Lin Mingyue said with a chuckle, the tears on her face were still there, and her smile was heartbreaking. Do you know? Sister Xiyan, in fact, I have thought more than once, if Sister Xiyan you ...... The situation when you really get back together with him. If that's really the case...... I'm going to be sad. Even if it was obviously me who took the initiative to separate from him. Am I being selfish? ”

"Not really. Mingyue ......" Zheng Xiyan shook his head. Isn't she the clearest of such a feeling? It's obviously because of yourself that you are separated, but the one who can't let go of it is also yourself.

Obviously trying to let herself go, but every time she sees Mingyue and his happy call, every time she sees her empty bed at night, isn't she just as sad and sad?

People are always selfish.

Especially for love.

"Do I regret it, you ask?" Lin Mingyue continued, "I really regret it. Especially after knowing that he went to the hospital, do you know Sister Xiyan? I almost lost him forever. She wiped a handful of tears, even if this incident did not happen, even if such a long time has passed, but every time she thinks about it, she still has palpitations.

"I thought about it too, desperate to go to him. But I can't, I really can't. I was really scared of the dream becoming a reality, I was really scared that it was all because of me. Sister Xiyan, what do you think I should do? ”

The breeze blows, and the dark clouds obscure the bright sun. The two in the living room hugged each other and cried. Whether it is for her or for her, what they are facing is an unsolvable problem.

One can't forget.

One can't let go.

That's their love.

----

Han Shenyan didn't know anything about this meeting between the two women he was closest to. He still sends morning and evening greetings every day, and still takes the initiative to run various busy schedules.

But something happened quietly and unexpectedly.

In the past few days, the number of people talking about him on the Internet has become less and less, not because his popularity has decreased, but because everyone's eyes are attracted to another thing.

"There was discord within the Crystal Crown team, with one member complaining of being ostracized by the others."

Such news spread far and wide and dominated all media headlines in a short period of time.

The crystal crown, which was previously sought after by the media, has now become infamous.

The entertainment industry is like this, one second it may stretch out of heaven, and the next second it will fall into hell.

And the reason may be just a trivial matter.

Han Shenyan also learned the truth of the incident from the Internet. Last month, Rainbow Angel Zheng Xiyan announced his retirement from the team, disliking an uproar in the entertainment industry, and even now the storm has not completely subsided.

The crystal crown has become the most likely combination in the media to succeed the rainbow angel on the throne of the girl group. Their album "Jeelry_Box" also seems to confirm this, whether it is sales or word of mouth, or even the topic and popularity, it is no worse than Rainbow Angel's album.

They frequently appear in various shows and galas, and they are popular for a while.

And that's not all.

At the end of September, they held a concert in the island country, and in just one day, the tickets were sold out, and the number of fans reached 20,000.

For singers, the concert is undoubtedly a supreme honor. But this time, the problem is precisely in the concert. At the concert, Liu Yuying took the stage on crutches due to a leg injury in previous training.

Such behavior has naturally been recognized and praised by fans. But at the same time, after the concert, some fans released pictures of the other members when they turned their heads to look at Liu Yuying.

In the picture, the other three look at her eyes, not caring, but more like a kind of boredom.

The image caused a wave of suspicion among fans.

That night, Liu Yuying posted two Weibo posts one after another, "Sometimes, it can be very reluctant to rely on will, although it hurts, but I believe that this is actually beautiful." ”

"The injured person can only rely on the will to support it, I really want to cry, but let's keep practicing......"

These two somewhat clueless Weibo posts made fans argue again.

Combined with the previous pictures, rumors that Liu Yuying was excluded by others began to spread widely.

If the matter ends here, there is actually nothing, but after that, Xiao Ayafei also posted a Weibo, "The will can obviously be made." It's a little sad. ”

As soon as such a Weibo came out, it suddenly led things into an uncontrollable direction. For a moment, the fans were excited, and all kinds of words were like weapons, firing at the other three people in the Crystal Crown.

The contradictions between Liu Yuying and others also began to come to everyone's eyes.

At this time, the company they belonged to announced on the third day that the exclusion was nothing, and at the same time announced that Liu Yuying would be expelled from the Crystal Crown group.

Originally, the company thought that this would be the case to be closed, but what it didn't expect was that it would push the combination of the crystal crown, which had just exuded vitality, into a deeper abyss.

Accountability and resistance.

That's all they can see. Even this matter has gone beyond the scope of a few people having a conflict, and has risen to a moral level. It has become a typical incident about "bullying" in the hearts of netizens and criticized it verbally and written.

All the media also conform to such a kind of "correct government and one rule" and stand on the moral high ground to make unscrupulous judgments.

The Crystal Crown is like a rat crossing the street, and everyone shouts and beats it.

Trips were cancelled and endorsements were replaced, all in less than a week.

---

Han Shenyan knocked on the door.

The cat's eyes darkened, and then the door opened.

Li Xueyan opened the door, looked at him with some surprise and asked, "Brother Han?" What are you doing here? ”

Han Shenyan asked with some confusion, "Huh?" Didn't Aya Fei tell you? I told her yesterday, didn't I come to eat? ”

"Ah, Uncle is here. Well, I want to forget about it. Xiao Ayafei's apologetic voice came from the living room.

"It's something you can forget." Li Xueyan glared at Xiao Feifei angrily, and then let Han Shenyan into the room.

Han Yajing and Xiao Ayafei also greeted him and greeted him.

Han Shenyan looked at Xiao Ayafei's eyes, which were still slightly red, and couldn't help but sigh secretly. He was not too surprised by Xiao Ayafei's forgetfulness. Because last night, he told her on the phone that he would come today, but by then she couldn't cry.

Judging from the haggard appearance of the three of them, in fact, it has not been easy these days.

Today he came over to celebrate Han Yajing's birthday, October 5th. In fact, they had invited him once before, but he refused.

They hadn't been in such a predicament then, and he had always remembered what he had thought the last time he was a guest.

“…… Don't come back in the future...... After all, I have already promised Lin Xiaolu. ”

So he refused.

But now, something like this has happened to them, and as their friend, he should come and take a look.

He still remembers what Xiao Ayafei said in the video when he wished him a birthday, "Okay, uncle, this is the birthday gift we prepared for you, I hope you can like it, and ah, remember our birthday, the gifts are still exchanged." Hee-hee. ”

He also remembered when he was besieged by the crowd before, and they stood up for him.

So, here he comes.

---

It can be seen that if it weren't for Han Shenyan's visit, they didn't plan to make a big deal.

In the past, there was supposed to be a party, and I even invited a lot of friends, but when something like this happened, I naturally didn't have such a mood. Unexpectedly, the friends who were originally invited did not come at this time, but Han Shenyan, who had refused once, came.

Han Shenyan's arrival made the three of them cheer up and start to get busy, preparing for lunch at noon, Han Shenyan naturally did not be idle, and volunteered to take on the role of chef.

No one mentioned what had happened before.

Laughter reappeared in this room after many days.

The meal was served, and four people sat around the table. After such a thing, Liu Yuying naturally no longer lives here.

Even in the daytime, the curtains were closed, the candles were lit, and happy birthday was sung. In the midst of singing and blessings, Han Yajing blew out the candles on the cake.

"Sister Yajing, what wish have you made?" Xiao Ayafei asked with wide eyes.

"I made a wish...... Can't say so. Han Yajing hesitated, shook her head, and said with a smile.

She didn't want her wish to affect the atmosphere that had only improved so hard.

"If only what had happened before, everyone would have been a little more patient. Hopefully, the Crystal Crown will survive such a difficult time. ”

That's what she wants.