However, to Zheng Xiyan's surprise, the crystal who was originally like a chatter in front of her kept silent on this issue, without asking her what she thought, nor did she ask them where they had progressed, as if they had forgotten all about this matter.

But it also gave her a sense of relief. Even between sisters, there are some things that cannot be fully shared.

Today is undoubtedly an important day for him, and she doesn't want to miss it, although she can't be there, it's good to see him on the podium on TV. So, here she is.

I had been lying on the window for a long time, and the heat on my body was almost blown away by the cold wind, and my face began to feel cold.

She shrank back, closed the window, and inadvertently saw her reflection in the window, which seemed to be thinner than before, which was good, he had always joked before.

She had never understood why he always liked to lean against the window and look out, sometimes joking that he was pretending to be deep. But when it was my turn, I realized that it could really calm people's minds.

The previous mood was really complicated. Seeing that he finally stepped onto the stage, she was naturally happy and proud of him. That's her man.

However, there was no existence of his own in his thank-you speech.

Although, she knew very well that even if they were not separated, her name would still not appear in it, but she at least knew what was going on in his heart.

But now, about that, she really can't be completely sure.

She pursed her lips and returned to the couch in a bit of a daze.

She thought of the story he had told Crystal, the story of Mr. Rabbit and Bunny Girl. 、

She thought of the song he had written for her, "Close_To_Me."

She thought about the answer he had given her that day when she chatted with him as K.

"I think if she just persevered and let him know how she had changed, he would forgive her if he still loved her. ”

Her heart gradually settled down.

He...... I should still have feelings for myself.

In fact, in addition to him, there is another person who is also the focus of her attention. That person was naturally Lin Mingyue. She also felt the same when she saw that her sister had won the highest honor that a TV drama actor could receive. Living in the same dormitory with her, she knows her hardships better than others.

It's just that when the picture of Lin Mingyue hugging him appeared on the screen, she had a few seconds, as if she was suffocated, and she felt very uncomfortable.

She suddenly remembered everything that had happened in the parking lot that day.

His heart must have hurt a lot at that time.

Just like me now.

The corners of her mouth tightened again, very hard, her lips were a little white, her hands were unconsciously clenched, and her nails had sunk into the flesh, as if this could make her feel more comfortable.

Why?

Why did he push her away?

Naturally, there are many reasons, and she reacted subconsciously in a hurry, in order not to let others doubt the relationship between the two, but she knew in her heart, maybe more, that he felt that he was so irrational that he would lose face in front of his friends.

But why, why did I ignore his feelings at the time?

If you can separate them at the time, then explain it well.

If he told Li Huaiguo when he asked him who he was, he was his husband.

If you don't say anything when you come back to this home, just give him a hug.

Maybe everything will be different.

Now that I think about it, I really missed out on a lot.

She picked up the glass on the coffee table and took a sip.

Fortunately, it is Mingyue and his sister. Thinking of this, she unconsciously smiled bitterly, what is this?

First Crystal, then Mingyue, his two closest sisters, one regarded him as his first love in the network, and the other became his imaginary wife.

But it's good that this is the case, otherwise my heart will be even more uncomfortable. It's just a little difficult for Mingyue, obviously she quit "My Knot" by herself, but let her bear all this, she should be very uncomfortable.

After sitting for a while, she got up and walked towards the study. She sat down at her desk and pulled a notebook out of a drawer. After opening it, he fell on the table and wrote something on it.

She didn't like books or keep a diary, but a lot has changed in the past few months.

The pen and the paper come into contact with each other, making a rustling sound.

"Sad, maybe it's because after leaving you, my life has turned gray. Yes, it's gray, not happy white, but not desperately black either. It's just that when I'm alone, when I think of you, I feel a little sad in my heart......"

"Today, it's been more than three months since you left this home. Today I saw that you on TV that you are a little different, and you look really good when you pick up the trophy. I've told you before that you're best suited for black clothes, and it seems that my vision is not wrong. It's my choice ...... wrong."

"I don't know if I made the right decision, but I decided to give it a try. ”

"My life has been a real mess lately. A lot of things have changed besides your things. Now I seem to be being used as a bargaining chip by the company, although there are more trips than before, but it's less than half of what it used to be, but it's all for you, you know?"

This notebook has been written for most of it, but it is not all Zheng Xiyan's handwriting. This notebook was previously used by Han Shenyan to record the inspiration when writing scripts and songs, and in addition to these records, there are also many records of personal feelings like a diary.

This was something she stumbled upon in a corner while she was tidying up her study. When she read the contents of the diary, she also began to follow his example and record her feelings on it. Every time you come back, record it. There have been five or six times so far.

When she finished, she stretched. There are a lot of things that you can't talk about, and writing them down on paper is also a way to relieve stress.

After putting the notebook back in the drawer, she went to the piano next to her, lifted the lid, put the sheet music on it, and began to play, still the same song he had written for her.

《Close_to_Me》。

There was no singing, only the sound of the piano echoing through the room. When the song ended, she didn't get up, but her fingers continued to dance, and the tune of "Legend" flowed from her fingertips.

However, compared with the previous song, this song is much rustier, and there will be pauses in some places, but she still plays it seriously.

When she got up, she felt much better.

Now, it's time to go back, and they can't be left in a hurry.