In March 1983, Lu Yao's novel "Life" won the second National Novella Award, he called his younger brother Wang Tianle to report the good news, saying that he didn't have a penny in hand, and the fare to Beijing to receive the award was not enough, and he urgently needed his brother's help to find a way?.??, Tianle borrowed 5oo yuan, rushed to Xi'an Railway Station to buy a ticket on the spot, and sent Lu Yao to the train to Beijing. `

On May 25, 1988, Lu Yao relied on his strong willpower and insisted on creating the final creation of "Ordinary World", when he wrote the last chapter, his hands spasmed, soaked in hot water for half a day to regain consciousness, for the last punctuation mark on the whole calligraphy and painting, he stood up and threw the ballpoint pen out of the window almost reflexively without any control, and then howled and cried.

In March 1991, "Ordinary World" won the third "Mao Dun Literature Award", and when Lu Yao told his younger brother who was interviewed in Fu County, Yan'an, the brothers on both ends of the phone did not speak for a long time, and their feelings were very complicated. Then Lu Yao said that he didn't have enough money, and he needed his younger brother to borrow a sum of money for his idea to go to Beijing to receive awards and buy books, etc., in desperation, Tianle knocked on the door of the office of Feng Wende, then deputy secretary of the Yan'an Prefectural Party Committee, and was stunned by Tianle's words, and he went out to find 5,000 yuan??.? On the day he left Xi'an to go to Beijing to receive the award, Tianle rushed from Yan'an to Xi'an Railway Station and sent the 5ooo yuan he was carrying directly to Lu Yao, and said to Lu Yao:

-- You don't want to win any more awards in the future, it's easy to talk about the renminbi, if you win the Nobel Prize in Literature, you need foreign exchange to go there, I can't get it! (Repeated three times here)

Lu Yao only said one sentence: ****ma's literature! I entered the train station without looking back.

Before Chen Zhongzhong came out in "White Deer Plain", he was dressed like a contract foreman who went to the countryside to work in the city. It is said that whoever asks him for gossip, he will receive him, but if he disagrees, he will pick up people, and he will not be polite, it is still a phrase: go, go, hurry up, (I) still have something to do, and if someone comes, the wolf will escape. At that time, Chen Zhongzhong's cigarettes were inferior cigarettes with extremely strong flavors. Chen Zhongzhong said, Mom, we don't have money, is it cheap to smoke this rotten cigarette, it's a lot of energy.?

On the 25th day of the lunar month in 1991, after six years, the creation of "White Deer Plain" was completed??.?? Chen Zhongzhong recalled: When he finished the last punctuation mark, the sixth origin of the ellipsis, his two eyes suddenly went dark, his mind was blank, and he fell into a state of unconsciousness, with his back to the sand and his eyes closed, as if tears were pouring out......

Chen Zhongzhong is luckier than Lu Yao, after the advent of "White Deer Plain", he became famous, compared to the royalty income and the high consumption of his cigars, Chen Zhongzhong once said frankly that what really made him "get rid of poverty" was the adaptation copyright fee brought by the adaptation of film and television dramas (repeated three times), but he was still dressed as a contract foreman, and his dignity was all in his heart and soul.

Once, a high-ranking Guan condescendingly said to him, why don't you write after "White Deer Plain"? You have to experience life, you have to learn the spirit of the speech, you have to go deep into the masses, and you have to go deep into the masses.

Chen Zhongzhong only replied with one sentence: You know a hammer!

It's the best of times, it's the worst of times.

Literature is not worth much.

Words are worthless.

There are always more people who look at piracy and scold their mothers than those who silently support paying.

Mo Yan said that what literary works are most afraid of is similarity and mass production.

People who see "Passing" either abandon the book and don't read it at the beginning, thinking that this unpleasant and whole nagging thing is something, and the author is a neurotic, or he still feels uncomfortable and wants to scold his mother until now.

Friends who have the latter feeling, don't you think it's actually this helpless life and a wasted life that you are complaining about?

It's almost 800,000 words, what kind of expectations do you have for its content? At the very beginning, you can tell that you are passing all kinds of barriers, so can you be brisk?

Hopeful and overwhelmed?

I want to get closer to real life, but I also want to be reckless, do you think you will write like that?

After the Spring Festival, my mother was hospitalized, I also have some problems with my own spine, the left eye hurt two days ago, the doctor said don't stare at the computer, more activities, and then, the computer really responded to the doctor's words, the end of life, this notebook was bought when I wrote "Desire", after a few years, several of my books have been deleted, so I'm not busy in vain?

In the process of passing the level of writing, I have been repeatedly warned that it is almost difficult to move forward - now I don't even have the tools to persevere, and my body has frequently alarmed, neither the names of the above two writers, nor their reality, let alone their writing, the role of the notebook is to write books, and the money I earn from writing books can't buy notebooks, so what am I insisting on? By what insistence?

I'm not Lu Yao, I'm not Chen Zhongzhong, it's impossible to compare with them, I can't learn either of the two, I still have a family to take care of, I'm going to the hospital for treatment now, and then I want to "pass", I hope to pass my own level first. (To be continued.) )