Lin Mingyue was a little worried about grabbing Zheng Xiyan's hand. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

Maybe it's because it's almost winter.

Her hands were cold.

"I'm so sorry. After retracting his gaze, Zheng Xiyan said softly.

"Sister Xiyan, why do you say that?"

"Because I've worried you. She chuckled.

"It's fine. It's okay. Lin Mingyue hurriedly shook her head and said.

Zheng Xiyan just smiled, was silent for a moment, and then asked, "Mingyue, do you want to hear what I think in my heart?"

Lin Mingyue nodded, slightly excited in her heart, if Sister Xiyan was willing to open her heart, it would naturally be better.

Even if she can't help much, even if she can't give any advice, as long as she can speak out her grievances and don't hide the pain in her heart, it's enough.

She knows this very well.

Lin Mingyue is very confident in her appearance, and she has been like this since she was a child.

But her beautiful appearance did not always bring her a happy experience. When she first became a trainee, she was ostracized by other trainees because of this.

Why did you win the favor of the teacher when you first arrived?

Why can you rank at the top of the monthly exam even though you are not good at singing?

Why are there so many male trainees who say good things for you?

So she was isolated, her flattering smile was exchanged for cold words, and her humble attitude was met with cynicism. Even when she was praised, she was verbally abused and pushed.

Perhaps from an adult's point of view, it's not a big deal, it's just a child's play.

But Lin Mingyue at that time was only fourteen years old.

She didn't dare tell her teachers, she was afraid that they would get worse.

She didn't dare to tell her father and sister, she didn't want them to worry, and she was even more afraid that if they knew, they wouldn't let her practice anymore.

So she had to bear it on her own.

If it weren't for Zheng Xiyan who helped her when she was surrounded by people, stopped those people, and pulled her into their circle, would she still be the Lin Mingyue she is today?

She really didn't know.

But she knew that she couldn't forget the warmth in her heart when Sister Xiyan stood in front of her. So she also hopes that she can help her, not much, just a little bit.

What determines the relationship between two people is not only time, but also experience.

Zheng Xiyan didn't know what Lin Mingyue was thinking, she got up from the bed and sat down beside Lin Mingyue.

"Do you know? Mingyue, in fact, I've been thinking a lot about it these days. ”

Her tone was soft and slow.

"Do you know, Mingyue, what kind of feeling I felt in my heart when he said the word divorce?"

Lin Mingyue looked at her flawless pretty face, opened her mouth, and did not speak.

Saddened?

Sadness?

Still is...... Despair?

She knew that she just had to listen.

Zheng Xiyan didn't wait for Lin Mingyue to answer, and announced the answer himself, "Angry." ”

"It turned out to be anger. It's weird, isn't it?" Zheng Xiyan smiled a little self-deprecatingly, "I thought again, why did he? Why did he say these two words? Even if he wants to leave, it should be said by me, Zheng Xiyan, right?"

And then I felt relieved, right after I slammed the door. Also, of course I'll be relieved, because I finally don't have to endure all this, and I can finally be free. Zheng Xiyan continued, but at this time, the smile on her face was gone.

"That night I had a dream that I couldn't remember what it was, I just remember waking up in the morning and finding me crying. It's weird and ridiculous. It's such a big person. ”

Lin Mingyue held her hand tighter.

"When I walked out of the room and saw him packing, the feeling of relief and relief was still there. It's just ......" Speaking of this, Zheng Xiyan paused for a moment and looked out the window again. "It's just that when I saw the divorce agreement, I suddenly felt empty in my heart, as if suddenly there was a piece missing. That feeling ......."

She didn't go on.

"Sister Xiyan......" Lin Mingyue looked at her with some concern, and she gave her a smile back.

"Actually, I always thought it was just a misadaptation, and it would be fine in a few days. But I found it wrong. ”

"When I moved back, I realized that I was used to his presence. I'm used to him being around me, I'm used to his hushing, and I'm used to the breakfast he makes every day. ”

"It's like Jin Xianyun, it's hard to eat. Zheng Xiyan suddenly said with some disgust, and then laughed.

Lin Mingyue also laughed, but the smile was fake.

"Have you watched "Journey to the West"?" After laughing, Zheng Xiyan asked instead.

"Of course, Sister Xiyan, I remember that we watched it together at the time. ”

"There is a classic line in it, 'There was once a sincere love in front of me, I didn't cherish it, and I didn't regret it until I lost it.'" Zheng Xiyan said softly.

"It's ridiculous. Isn't it? I knew a lot of truths, but when I found out, it was too late. ”

"Even so, I still feel that in a few days, it will be fine. I'm the same Zheng Xiyan again. ”

"It wasn't until a month later that I finally decided that I really didn't want to lose him. ”

"I knew my heart, but I couldn't let go of my pride, and I always hoped that he would contact me, and he would admit his mistakes to me, just as he always did. It's ridiculous, isn't it? ”

"No, Sister Xiyan. Lin Mingyue comforted in a low voice.

"It just so happened that Jiayin's radio invited him to be a guest and gave me a step so that I could speak. I thought it was a natural thing, after all, we have feelings for each other, don't we?"

"However, I was rejected. At this, she chuckled again, "I really didn't expect that." I should have woken you up that night, didn't I'm so ashamed, crying hysterically. However, my heart was really painful, very painful. ”

At this time, there was a burst of laughter outside the door, just like the hearty laughter of a middle-aged woman.

"This little man doesn't know what variety show he's watching. Zheng Xiyan turned his head to look at the side of the door, and wiped it with his hand from the corner of his eye.

The little man is the nickname that Zheng Xiyan gave to Jin Xianyun, and the starting point is naturally her height, and the height of 1.61 meters is her eternal pain.

Of course, this title can't be heard by Li Jiayin, otherwise she will blow up.

After Jin Xianyun's unintentional interruption, the depressing atmosphere that gradually rose in the room was also relaxed.