After a pause, Zheng Xiyan continued the topic just now. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info

"It was then that I realized that love was not something I said alone. Maybe he was too accommodating to me before, and he actually gave me this illusion. ”

"It turns out that he can also refuse, it turns out that he can also say no. ”

"But it's strange, after crying that day, my mood is much better, and when I think back to those things before, I don't feel so uncomfortable. You don't have to be woken up by nightmares at night, it's a blessing in disguise. Zheng Xiyan laughed.

Actually, it's not surprising.

The pent-up feelings have a complete catharsis.

The hesitation and entanglement in my heart have also been answered.

That answer isn't perfect, though.

Add in the erosion of time, which is also a natural thing.

It's just a matter of time or time.

"Because of this, I was able to have the opportunity to reflect, and I realized that I had missed so much. ”

Zheng Xiyan shook his head and sighed slightly.

"Do you know? Mingyue, in order to ease the relationship between us, he even deliberately asked Xiaoqing and Crystal to help. ”

Lin Mingyue shook her head, but in fact, she knew, he had told her.

In retrospect, he was obviously sincere, but at the time I was only disgusted, and instead I had a big fight with him, blaming him for letting others know about our private affairs. ”

"But what can he do about it?"

"Every time I talk about this topic, it always ends with an argument and his admission of mistakes, and sometimes I wonder if he could be tougher and keep arguing, would it end better?"

Speaking of this, Zheng Xiyan laughed self-deprecatingly again, "You say, Mingyue, am I really selfish like this?"

"It's obviously my own fault, but I always have to blame him. ”

"It was obvious that he gave up his career for me, but I looked at him coldly. ”

"He's been working hard, but I've always turned a blind eye. ”

"He's always wanted to get closer, but I'm just pushing him farther. ”

"What have I done for this relationship, for this marriage?"

Zheng Xiyan looked at Lin Mingyue, as if she wanted an answer.

But what can Lin Mingyue say?

For Zheng Xiyan, she is her sister.

For Han Shenyan, she is his friend.

But for this entanglement between them, she is just a complete outsider.

Therefore, she can only be silent, and she really doesn't know who is right and who is wrong in this matter.

That's how many things are, and when you stand on the moral high ground, it's understandable. But in addition to morality, there is also human nature.

Many things are not personal experience, and what is said is always righteous Ling Ran. Like the words "no matter what" and "forever", they are beautiful and yet cheap. But once you encounter any wind and waves, it will be like a mirror and a moon, and it will become a bubble in an instant.

Zheng Xiyan shook his head with a wry smile and continued.

"Actually, I once thought that he had paid so much for me, why couldn't I tolerate him?"

"We're not short of money. It's not supposed to affect our relationship for this kind of thing. ”

"And, I really don't want to be a bad woman. He died for me, and I hated him? ”

"I've said it to myself countless times. But maybe I'm too strong. Every time I was with him, I couldn't control my emotions. ”

"I will regret it soon, but meeting here is still the same, and over time I will get used to it, and I will not think about changing it. ”

"Habits, it's a really scary thing. ”

"So, it's a matter of course that he would reject me like this. ”

Zheng Xiyan calmed down a little excited, and then said, "So, I really don't blame him. If I have to say it, maybe it's just a little regret, a little regret. ”

"Sister Yan, now, what are you going to do now?" Lin Mingyue raised her head and asked in an astringent voice.

"Now?" Zheng Xiyan laughed, she hugged Lin Mingyue, and said softly, "In addition to love, there are many other things in life, such as career, such as dreams." ”

Like you guys.

She didn't say it, but there was no doubt that the other six of the Rainbow Angels had an equally important place in her life.

"Okay, it's much easier to say, don't worry about me, I'm really okay anymore. Mingyue, you've been running outside for a day, aren't you going to take a shower? Wait for them to come back, but you're going to have to queue up again. ”

"Ah, I almost forgot, I'll go. ”

Lin Mingyue closed the door after going out.

Zheng Xiyan was the only one left in the room.

She pursed her mouth slightly.

There was a question that Lin Mingyue didn't ask, but she knew.

That question is.

What exactly is she going to do with Han Shenyan?

Although she can be calm about many things after catharsis that night, she is still a little hesitant about this issue.

If...... If he took the initiative, she wouldn't refuse. She's sure of that.

But let her admit her mistakes and apologize again, and it will be difficult for her to take that step again.

She still remembers the pain of that night.

Forget it, let's leave it at that, let it be.

As for what happens after that, let the time decide.

Thinking so, she walked to the side and picked up the page that had been placed on the pillow before, and after looking at it, she stood up, walked to the table, opened her private drawer, and put it in the bottom position.

Then he looked out the window.

The street lamps in the neighborhood illuminate a small area, from here, the branches of the trees are constantly swaying, it has just rained this morning, and the wind has picked up again in the evening.

She retracted her gaze, sat back on her bed, put on her headphones, and pressed the play button.

The anticipation and sweet music in the headphones sounded again.

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At nine o'clock the next night, Han Shenyan finished his day's work.

I participated in a variety show under PTV before, and the content was mainly a variety of pass competitions. Because the content is not very novel, the ratings are not high, roughly between three and four percent, and it belongs to a second-tier variety show.

However, for Han Shenyan, it is already a good itinerary.

"Brother Han, I'm tired. As soon as he got in the car, Zhou Bin handed over a bottle of warm water. The shooting started at 10 a.m. and has continued until now, and although there are breaks in between, the physical exertion can be imagined.

He watched the whole process, and naturally knew that there were strength events such as climbing and tug-of-war in the show.

After Han Shenyan took it, he drank it with a clatter.

"Luckily, it's not the last place. Otherwise, it will be miserable. After drinking, Han Shenyan said with some joy that the last artist in the show had to participate in the punitive session alone.

Although Han Shenyan didn't know what the punishment would be, he didn't plan to try it.