Kangxi fifty-eight years is destined to be different, and in my life, there is no escape and no avoidance.

In the early morning of the first day of the Lunar New Year, I was still asleep, and the clusters of fireworks illuminated the dark night like day, and it was more like a colorful rainbow after the rain. This year's fireworks are more beautiful and gorgeous than last year, and people can't help but look up and don't want to miss them in their dreams.

The knock on the door was so loud that I couldn't afford to sleep any longer, and I barely got up from the bed and saw Yinzhen walking back from the curtain in his coat, and hurriedly grabbed the clothes and put them next to my pillow. He looked at me while dressing quickly, and said, "Bang'er is about to give birth, don't worry, the carriage has been prepared." ”

Hurried to the sky before dawn, a layer of red confetti floated on the snow all over the ground, and the smell of fireworks filled the air and did not dissipate. The wind blows through the bright red snow floating in the air, like a reminder of the cold and quiet after the hustle and bustle.

Everyone was there, standing in the courtyard as a wall. Yinzhen pulled me through the way of everyone and stopped outside the door, heard the intermittent screams inside, his eyes were colder than the weather, and finally fell on Honghui's face.

"Hurd is inside, and Aunt Yan Yu is also there. Mr. Su said that Bang'er is very good and will be fine. ”

Su Changqing sat on the stone bench at the table, crossed Erlang's legs, looked at me and nodded unhurriedly. Agarwood stood quietly behind him, looking at me with a smile on her little face, affirming the same fact.

On the first day of the Lunar New Year, every family celebrates the New Year. At this time, there is no lively stove in this yard, and there are no children happily running around in new clothes to set off firecrackers, everyone is looking forward to a new life in the new year and a new day, and so am I. I'm afraid, the most anxious and annoyed is the man next to me who seems to be calm but has clenched his fists and can't bear it.

Back then, how far away was that year, when I was born Honghui, he stood outside like this for a long time? What kind of expression is it?

Hongwan didn't let us wait too long, and even those screams that sounded quite hard were much smaller than Mo Han's, perhaps because she was not in that cage-like mansion, and perhaps because she could be accompanied by Xiao He.

I felt his tightness as I held Yinzhen's hand, and my thumb gently stroked the back of my stiff hand. It's also cold, and he, who has always given me warmth between palms close to each other, has a damp coolness in his palms.

We all know that the child is born, and we are all waiting for the door in front of us to open from the inside, but no one moves or speaks, just waits quietly.

His feet seemed to have taken root in the snow, and when he was about to lose consciousness, the door quietly opened a gap, Yan Yu's smiling face appeared in front of him, and his face was covered with sweat on the cold day, and he hurriedly let me and Yinzhen in. My hands were clenched hard and I was pulled through the door.

The room was very warm, Hongwan leaned on Xiaohe and held the little baby wrapped in red cloth in his arms, I stood beside Yinzhen and was pulled by him step by step, and the wrinkled little face gradually became clear.

There was a familiar smile on Hongwan's face, the sweat was more obvious than the laughter that wet the hair on her cheeks, the wisps of her shoulders were sticking to the placket of Xiao He's chest, and the tips of her disobedient hair swept the swaddling clothes, as if she was talking to a child with her eyes closed.

Yin Zhen looked at her half-bowed, the coldness in her eyes had long since faded, and the kind of distressed and gentle gaze made my heart soften and hurt a little.

"Amma, hug it, this is Bang'er's son, it's different from Hongwan's." Hongwan stretched out his arm and handed the child out of his arms, his weak little face was even paler by red, and the sweat dripping on his forehead seemed to be in his eyes and still couldn't hide his smile, so real that he was like the little daughter who was coquettish on his shoulder.

Yin Zhen bent down and took it very lightly, and the depths of his throat seemed to answer, and all that was left in the room was the flattering weak laughter, and the melody of his gentle slapping like her.

"Isn't it different? This is the grandson born to you by my own daughter, I haven't let him hold Amma, I specially let you come first, and Eniang will also be in the back. ”

I don't know where she came from, I think I'm invincible. No wonder Yinzhen spoils her like this, not without reason.

Pulling Yinzhen to sit on the edge of the bed and look at the girl who was still smiling, Xiao He helped her steadily without saying a word, and was so quiet that he always looked at the child, or retracted his gaze from his little wife, who was a new mother, and carefully wiped her face with a handkerchief.

A pure white jade plaque was tied to a red ribbon, and when I got closer, it turned out to be the word "珘". The red man who came over looked at her with big eyes and asked quietly, "Are you giving a gift to the doll?" Didn't you even have a name, stargazing at night? What if it were a girl? On the first day of the new year, won't you give Bang'er some silver? ”

Yinzhen just picked the corners of her lips and ignored her, handed the child back and stood up, looked at Xiao He who helped her support the child and whispered: "Take care of it, live here first when it's cold, and Honghui can also take care of it." ”

Hongwan leaned his head on Xiao He's shoulder and his cheek was almost touched, his eyes were bright and he didn't speak, until the man answered in the same low voice before he giggled, and called Ama Ama to enter the palace quickly, Huang Mafa is going to wait.

This joy came a little early, on the first day of the fifty-eighth year of Kangxi. This joy came a little late, two years after Hong Bang left the house.

I want to stay here and spend more time with her, and I believe Yinzhen is too, but we don't have a choice.

Yongxing? He once told Hong Bang that if he gave birth to a child, his surname would be Aixin Jueluo, which was not a joke. What would Xiao He think? Hong Wan didn't mention it, I didn't mention it, he didn't mention it either, I'm afraid there is no need to say it again, but this name should not be wrong.

After inviting Ann back to the house in the palace, he was already so tired that he was lying on the bed and didn't want to move anymore. When I asked Mei Wei and Xie Yu to prepare tonic herbs, I remembered that I was no longer in charge, and Hongwan was no longer the Jin Quaker who enjoyed various benefits in this house.

This family is not Nian's alone, which is unexpected but reasonable. It's just that Kangxi must know, why bother to deceive me if he didn't break it when they met that day? Fortunately, I didn't mention it, but let him laugh in his heart.

Lan Si and Nian's two side Fujin alternate housekeepers, and it was a shame that Yinzhen came up with this method, but it made me worry for no reason, for fear that Kangxi would suspect that he wanted to win over the Nian family. Who says a weasel is not as good as a litter of rats? I haven't learned anything else here for more than 20 years, and I have deeply realized what kind of father gives birth to what kind of son, not only Lao Tzu knows what the kid is thinking, the kid is also always wary of Lao Tzu, a perfect match!

The woman who doesn't need a housekeeper is really idle, even if a large group of people come to say hello every morning, she can enjoy a good night's sleep, and she can sleep in bed as long as she wants, without any psychological burden.

I believe that the two women who are in charge of the house now know how tired I used to be, and finally be able to understand what the concept of the housewife is, and I don't have to watch me eat meat all day long.

I sat in the hall and watched Nian's hold the account book and tighten his eyebrows, listening to the rows of subordinates constantly replying to An, and then rewarding them with red envelopes one by one. That little face with a strong smile actually gave me some indescribable pleasure, which was very refreshing.

I felt that I had some bad intentions, but I was still happy in my heart, and I counted the heads idly with a beat, counting how much silver she had scattered today, and guessing how much black there was in the ledger and how much there was a deficit, and whether it was good or bad compared to previous years.

I even have a good life like this, and I can't find the bitterness when I left the house to escape, and I feel that life is beautiful and happy every day.

If there is no fun in the house, I will go out, there is always something that can make me happy, and it would be even more perfect if Yinzhen could accompany him again. For example, to see a beautiful little grandson, for example, when the children do not accept the silver taels, they take a lot of silver tickets and smash them in front of their grandchildren. Of course, this money is mine, because the home is no longer under my control, and I can no longer use my power for personal gain. Of course, we haven't had a rare plan before, and it was all given voluntarily by the fourth master.

Hongwan lives in Honghui's yard and is also very happy, holding the child every day is not like an unmarried person can not be quiet for a moment, always sitting for half a day and even sitting from sunrise to sunset. The smile that came out of her little mouth turned into more soft words, and although she occasionally giggled and laughed, it was because her son smiled at her when he woke up from a good night's sleep, blinking a pair of beautiful gray-blue eyes that resembled Xiao He. One is like the blue sea in the sun, and the other is the dark and quiet tide in the twilight.

When Yinzhen saw such a red man, he sat by the window and drank tea silently, occasionally looking at me, but more at his pony and the little grandson with foreign eyes but black hair. His expression was not much, his face was very calm, and if I looked carefully, I would see that the two thin lips were slightly curved, and the corners of the lips were hidden under the beard, but they were not obvious but lasted for a long time.

For Xiao He's few words, Hong Bang has never complained, her words seem to have become less with him, always the two people collide with each other's eyes, look at each other for a while and then look at the child, the gentle smile in his eyes from beginning to end. As we pushed the door open, we heard her delicate smile and gentle whispers from the room, and listened carefully to hear a response.

Spring comes very quickly in such a relaxed and comfortable way, with a sultry spring breeze blowing into the courtyard wall of the mansion. The treetops turn green, the snow and ice in the pond melt into a slow stream, and the flowers in the garden gradually take on the delicate trend of budding and waiting to bloom. Even Umi's lazy old cat, who only knows how to eat and sleep all day long, has some rare energy, and sits in front of the door every time and screams heartbreakingly.

I don't want to run around anymore on such a simple and worry-free day, except for occasionally living in the small courtyard next door, so when Yinzhen mentioned that he wanted to move his family to a distant garden to welcome the visit of Kangxi in April, I felt a reluctance to be broken. Especially when I just received a pair of crystal cups from him, I was deceiving myself and telling myself that this was the luminous cup.

Looking through one of the green vines that stood on the side of the courtyard wall, his waist suddenly leaned back and his whole body leaned in front of him. The unhappiness in my heart turned into silence, I tried to look at the blue sky and white clouds behind the cup, one palm covering all the colors wrapped in my hand, and my fingertips slid over my fingertips and rubbed against the transparent crystal cup.

His chin rested on my shoulder, his cheek rubbing against mine. I could feel his eyelashes blinking, and his light, shallow breath was blowing on the collar of my winter coat, as warm as a spring breeze.

"It's far away, if you want Honghui and Bang'er, I'll take you to see them. When we come back from the garden, we will stay here for a few more days, when the grapes will grow better, and we can sit under the trellis and enjoy the coolness. ”

"Do you think I am a Bang'er, do it or not, and talk about the conditions, now even she has grown up, is it possible that I will live more and more back? You can go if you say go, and if Huang Ama wants to come, it will be a big face...... I'm just lazy and don't want to move, so I'm going to ask you to coax me. ”

"I'll pick you up tomorrow."

My words choked in my throat, and seeing the rare smile in his eyes, I couldn't say that I would go back later, nodded and leaned back against my chest, closing my eyes to feel the tranquility in this small courtyard.

"Sleepy? Didn't you just wake up...... "Yinzhen pushed me back a little distance, looked down and looked seriously, the hand on my shoulder suddenly slid to the waist and abdomen, but the movement was as light as stroking the cup just now, picked me up and sat back on the side of the bed and pulled the quilt on my body.

"Got it?"

The simple two words made him speak softly and slowly, and he couldn't hide the expectation and joy in his eyes when he was cautiously tempted, but I could only shake my head, "Hongwan's sons are all full moon, and you still want to be Amma, so how can they embarrass their sister and brother's children." ”

Yin Zhen pursed her lips and stopped talking, but the hand holding me tightened, and her eyes looked out of the window fixedly. The breeze blows, and the green sways gently, and the sun envelops it with a warm golden red sheen.

He has his stubbornness, and I have always known that he does not need to say but act, to Kangxi and to me, to all kinds of men, women, brothers and cronies around him. It's just that no matter how hard I try this time, I'm afraid I won't be able to help him.