Yinzhen's body has always been very good, although he has lost some weight, he rarely gets sick, and this time he burned for three days in a row.

Finally I heard his whisper.

When he was hot and feverish, he still held my hand and refused to let go, and the sound of the moon beating on my heart.

I heard his words clearly:

"Yue'er, I don't care who you are or where you come from, you are my Yue'er, mine. ”

"I won't let you go, no one can let you leave me, no one can. ”

"Don't die, your life is mine, and life or death is mine. ”

"Tell me the secret, I believe, I believe you. ”

"Don't leave, I won't lock you up, don't go with Yinxiang. ”

"Yinxiang is my brother, you are my Fujin, I can protect you. ”

……

I held in my hand the golden hairpin that fell out of the white clothes I took off from his body, and pierced the one in the palm of his hand, and the blood stains on it were wiped clean and bright. For he gave it to me, as he gave me, it was a rose.

At this time, he still has a scar in his left palm. It was very long, almost diagonally through the entire palm, very deep, and sunk in the tiger's mouth. This man didn't even find someone to clean up and bandage, and let it become inflamed and festering, and now when he starts to have a fever, he is even more red and swollen, and it is difficult to heal.

He always believed in his heart that for a month, and there was Yinxiang, he never mentioned a smile, nor did he show a smile. I don't know if it's self-hypnosis, but I know that it's really incurable. Even if his body recovers, how can I pay him back a blessing, how can I return him a brother, and how can I not leave.

He kept talking, and in the end it became vague.

Dr. Su came to see her every day and delivered the medicine on time every day. I kept rubbing his body with medicinal wine, but it never got better.

Kangxi sent the imperial doctor in the palace, and Li Dequan, who rarely left his side, came to him, but what he said was no different from that of Imperial Doctor Su. My room was filled with the smell of Chinese medicine and alcohol, so I could only wrap a quilt around him and open the doors and windows to ventilate.

Kangxi asked Li Dequan to bring a message and let me go into the palace to see him. It's just that at this point, I can't leave for a moment, and I don't want to waste any more time meeting irrelevant people.

After three days of watching, the fever subsided, and people stopped talking nonsense, but they always fell asleep dizzily, and they couldn't wake up no matter how they screamed.

I finally realized his anxiety and worry when I was sick. I thought that lying in bed was the most painful, but it turned out that the people who stayed by the bed worked harder. The sober one always thinks more and is more afraid.

asked Gao Wuyong to enter the palace to return to Kangxi, and only brought back a sentence "Then serve the fourth child well, and come back when he is better". Come to think of it, he is also helpless to me, or he doesn't want to be pestered anymore. When the time comes, I can't help but stay.

My hand was still held flat by him on his waist, no longer the white and delicate skin of the past, full of small red cuts. Either hot medicinal wine or ice water, in order to reduce his fever, all the methods that could be used were exhausted.

Why haven't you woken up yet?

Kneeling on the edge of the bed, with his face pressed against the back of his hand around his waist, he looked at his face, still with his eyes closed. He was so quiet that I was terrified, even if he woke up and still lost his temper with me, I would do it.

"Yinzhen, please, wake up, don't sleep again. I promise you that I won't leave this room until I have to leave. Wake up, open your eyes and look at me. I really can't sleep anymore, I'm afraid, Imperial Doctor Su said that if you don't wake up again, he can't do anything about it...... Are you punishing me? I'm always sick and worrying about you, so you deliberately fall asleep to scare me, don't you? We really don't have much time, please, open your eyes and look at me, talk to me, okay?"

No matter what I say or do, it's still deathly still, and this realization makes me panic terribly. Not only my room, but the whole palace was silent, no one spoke loudly, there was no bustle of people walking around, as if I was the only one, and he was always asleep.

I don't know how long I sat on my knees crying, and when my shoulder was gently pressed, I woke up and looked back, only to feel dizzy.

Yinxiang squatted beside me to help me, turned his face to look at Yinzhen lying on the bed, and sighed.

I leaned on his shoulder, almost desperate, "Brother, I killed him, he refuses to pay attention to me, he must hate me to death in his heart...... What to do?

When Yinxiang helped me up and sat on the edge of the bed, my legs were no longer numerous, and I fell down in the direction he let go first. He reluctantly picked me up and put me beside Yinzhen, pulled the corner of the quilt to cover it, and lowered his head in front of Yinzhen.

I watched as his lips opened and closed, and I heard him say something that sounded like a threat, "What did you tell me? Let me go back, you will take care of her? You can't even take care of yourself, how can I trust you! If you don't wake up, I'll take the smile away, and you'll never find her." My brother has been doing it for twenty years, and you should know that I do what I say. ”

Yinxiang looked very serious, as if Yinzhen could talk to him soberly, and after speaking, he stroked nonsense on top of my head and turned away.

I looked at his back speechlessly, then turned back to look at the person lying next to me, and laughed for some reason. He tilted his head and leaned on his shoulder and closed his eyes.

The magnificent blue sea and blue sky in front of you are different from the green of the grassland, the eyes are full of blue, but the same clouds are painted by the flying seagulls into long white clouds. I infinitely yearn for freedom, why do I cry when I look at it, and I can't give up.

I love the sea more than the vast grasslands, that kind

Am I leaving? I'm finally leaving the capital of the Qing Dynasty, where I've lived for 20 years...... Whether it's now or three hundred years later, this is where I grew up, with men and children I love infinitely, but I have to leave the country.

Looking at the endless sea and sky in the distance, the tears on his face were gently wiped away by the warm fingertips. Turning his head with a smile, it was not Yinxiang or filial piety, it was Yinzhen.

His soft call rang in my ears, from far and near, almost nothing, as if he were not standing beside me.

"Yue'er ......"

"Yinzhen!"

Every time I heard him call me, I turned my head and tried to find him, but I couldn't see his shadow, as if he had disappeared out of thin air. Even Yinxiang and Xiaoyan didn't know where to hide, I was the only one standing at the bow of the boat, letting the waves roar and lap the hull of the boat, and I staggered and kept shouting.

The tears he wiped away were re-wet on my face, and I sat on the deck in despair, as if I was the only one left in heaven and earth, and no one wanted me.

"Yue'er ......"

Yinzhen's voice still echoed in my ears, and there was a familiar touch on my face, and I could even feel the warmth of the white jade wrench sweeping across my cheeks and stopping at my lips.

"Yinzhen. I grabbed it with my hand and pressed his palm to my chest. My heartbeat echoed his pulse, and it was real.

I closed my eyes and didn't dare to open them, for fear that it would be an illusion when I looked at the past again, but I couldn't help but clench his hand and confirm in a low voice, "Yinzhen, I'm leaving, are you going to see me off?"

There was no response, but his hand grabbed the hem of my shirt and the fingers bent in his palm, and it hurt.

"I'll be back, will you wait for me? When I come back, we'll never be separated again. ”

The cool touch on his hand eased the burning pain, and he asked softly, "Yue'er, is the outside world what you want?"

I shook my head without even thinking about it, biting my lip and holding back the reluctance in my heart, "I just went out to see the place I once longed for, and if I want to come back one day, I will definitely come back, and no one can stop me at that time." Yinzhen, you have too many brothers, you won't understand my brother's dependence, I really can't live without him. You should hurt me, give me some time, let me be with him. As long as you're here, I'll definitely be back. ”

"What if I die?" his voice turned into a sadness I was not familiar with, enveloping me and overwhelming me.

I opened my eyes in fright, and all of them were gone.

There is no blue sky and white clouds, no blue sea is vast, and even the chirping of seagulls and the churning of the waves against the hull of the ship have instantly turned into the silence and darkness of the room.

I lay on the bed and looked at the blurred face in front of me, Yinzhen.

He woke up...... Raising his hand to caress his thin cheeks, there was no star-like glint in his eyes, as dim as the sadness I had just felt. My chin was covered with a prickly beard, but I couldn't take my fingers off it.

"What if I die?"

The heart was beating wildly, and I could almost hear it beating strongly, as if it was about to jump out of my throat. He actually asked me! It's not a dream, it's not an illusion, it's real.

Even if I know the history, it is still because of his words that my heart palpitates. Ignoring the tears that fell from my eyes, I pulled down his neck and kissed him hard to feel his breath.

"Yinzhen, you won't die, you can't die. If you die, I really won't have anywhere else to go on this plane. ”

I don't know where the moonlight has gone, I have never been able to adapt to this darkness, I tried to open my eyes but I couldn't see clearly, only the light touch of each other's eyelashes, the pain in my heart. I no longer paid attention to the pain of his beard on his face, and he didn't wipe my tears as usual, and we hugged each other tightly, feeling each other's preservation with all our hearts.

His lips were like feathers falling lightly on my lips, gently caressing. What was once a domineering request turned into a light peck and a shallow kiss, and the soft tip of the tongue seemed to be carefully drawn by the best painter, making me feel that I was a treasure that he carefully treasured.

"Yinzhen, no matter what Huang Ama or the world thinks of me, whether I am still your Fujin or not, I am your woman, only be your woman. You...... Do you want me?"

His lips were lightly on mine, his nose was close to each other, and there was still the fragrance of Chinese medicine and the faint aroma of wine in his breath, lingering and intoxicating me.

The palm behind my head was slightly pressed to bring me closer to him, and his voice was as soft as his lips but with a definite insistence, "You're mine, wherever you go, it's mine." Live well...... If you dare to die outside, I will go up to heaven and earth to find you back. Even if you die, you are still my woman, and even if you die, you must die in my coffin. ”