There was no sound in the small palace of Prince Yong, and the green jade seemed to have disappeared out of thin air, and there was no sound of people moving. She is like standing alone in the corner of the ice-covered street, reflecting the empty former Babel Mansion next door, which seems cold and lonely, but it is infinitely magnified and reflected in the bottom of my heart.

I didn't have time to see her grow bigger and more beautiful or imposing, and I never had the chance to live here again, only memories.

We have changed from the quiet and quiet of each other to the silent relative of today.

Along the way, no matter how deep the love is, it is not enough fate. Or that my true identity or inner soul is not worthy of Him.

Yinxiang left, didn't wait for me, I don't know if he left anything behind.

When I opened the door with my baggage, I saw Yinzhen standing outside the door, standing there without dodging or hiding, blocking my way, only saying "Yinxiang is back".

I was like a stray cat or dog discarded by my family, huddled in the corner of my bed, and I still had a place to shelter from the wind and snow. It's just that here, I'm not alone, and the feeling of being stared at is not as good as not being there, but I am reluctant to leave, and I can't leave.

Accept your fate, even if you don't say anything, you will stay together for the last night. After dawn, I'm afraid that as Xiaoyan said, it's hard to see.

Yinzhen always sat on the chair at the table, not moving or speaking, sometimes looking at me, sometimes looking at the burden I put down on the table.

I buried my head in my lap and wrapped my arms tightly around my body. Memories are like non-stop film that keeps looping, and I can't stop or search automatically. I counted the days in my mind, how many days and nights we had spent together from the night we first met to today, and suddenly realized that I had told the truth today.

It was snowing again outside the house, so quiet that you could hear the rustle of snowflakes falling on the ground.

I looked up at the man still sitting in the chair, the silhouette of the side face overlapping with what I remembered. The brow bones, eye sockets, and the bridge of the nose are all familiar to me, with sharp and deep edges and angularities, and then to the two tightly closed thin and soft lips, and the resolute jaw...... I think it's for the rest of my life, no matter where I go, I can't forget it.

Perhaps, this is the last time I will be the first to say a word of blessing to him at this hour, but it stuck in my throat for a moment before I whispered, "Fourth Master, happy birthday." ”

I thought I wouldn't cry anymore, but before the words came out, tears came up instantly, and I forced myself to look at his side face without moving, only the eyes that looked at the burden flashed, and with the crackling of the candle, it dimmed.

The room was pitch black, and I couldn't see him anymore, but I heard him answer me in a very low voice, like a suppressed laugh deep in my throat.

None of us moved, but the tears that gathered in my eyes never flowed, and I buried my face again and hugged myself.

When the sun came in from the window, I woke up from my bed, wearing only my underwear and a brocade quilt, and the person in the chair was missing.

I stood in front of the closet and looked at it for a long time, still wearing the white gown he gave me. It has been preserved for many years and is rarely on the body, and it is as good as ever, but it is difficult to return it before yesterday.

He picked up his baggage and walked to the door, but he couldn't open the door, only the dull sound of the iron lock plate tapping on it, accompanied by a soft clanging sound.

Meiyu stood outside and shook her head at me, her round eyes were puzzled and unbearable, but she just stood there and looked at me silently.

Xie Yu came out of the opposite room, saw us looking through the door, walked over quickly, pulled his eyebrows behind him, put his hands on the door panel and whispered: "Fujin, you can rest in the room for a while, this door ...... Slaves and maidservants can't drive. ”

I turned around and leaned my back against the door panel and hugged my burden tightly, feeling indescribably uncomfortable, so sore that I could barely stand. Yinzhen, it's useless, you can lock me for a day and not for a lifetime, if you can stay, how can I want to leave.

I put the burden back in the box, changed the white clothes I wanted to wear and returned to the door, Xie Yu and Meiwei were still there, I leaned close to the crack in the door and asked in a very low voice, "Do you remember what I told you before?"

Tears fell in strings as she nodded, and I watched her endure her sadness, but still advised, "I am no longer your Fujin, and I will leave in a few days." Everything is stored in its original place, both of you must not forget. Hongwan siblings...... I'll leave it to you to take good care of the two of them. Take care of yourselves, as well as Ruyi and Green Jade, and don't let people bully you. ”

"Gege. Meiwu's hand was on the door, choking and choking, "The slave knows, and I won't forget, the slave and the maid can't serve you in the future, you take care." ”

Xie Yu pulled up the kneeling eyebrows from the ground and wiped them on her face, and tears fell from her eyes. I watched her bite her lip and wipe away her tears, leaned in front of the door and whispered: "Fujin, don't say such a thing, the slaves and maids will take care of the two little masters, and they will also take care of themselves." The slaves and maidservants are in the house, waiting for you to return. Fourth Master...... Will definitely pick you up. ”

I smiled weakly, nodded my head in response, turned and walked back into the room, covering my ears and lying on the bed.

The preparation that day was just to prevent Yinxiang's ten-year captivity, but fortunately, I thought about it a little more and explained it to them in advance. Their stunned moments finally turned into a reality, but fortunately there were still them.

It seems that they believe in Yinzhen more than I do.

Will I come back? Can I really do it? He will pick me up? When will it be? The year when Kangxi can't do it?

Who can guarantee that the relationship will not change, and who can predict the future...... Even I, who knew the history, were not sure of my own way out.

There was a sound of greeting from the courtyard, and I listened to the lock of the door click open, and someone walked in. The dishes were softly placed on the table, and the fragrant smell made my stomach scream.

I stubbornly lay on my stomach despite my hunger, no one called out to me, and I couldn't hear the departing footsteps of the people in the room.

Feeling the staring gaze behind me, I decided to give up and get up from the bed and walk to the table. There are only two bowls of somen noodles, and a sake jug and two glasses.

Yinzhen, who was deliberately ignored by me, always stood at the table, holding his fists to his legs. There was no stone blue court dress embroidered with a golden dragon, a pure white robe, a white belt, and no other ornaments.

Honeysuckle is still blooming, and the silver-white flowers seem to be in full bloom in the snow, as it was then, and it is still the same.

I held the bowl in front of me, pinched the chopsticks in my hand and gently picked up the noodle soup, a longevity noodle that was connected to the end. In the past, there was only one bowl, but now it has become two, and it is no longer under my own hands.

Yinzhen sat opposite me, took the wine jug and poured it into the cup, didn't let me, and poured himself a drink.

I peeked cautiously, and my face turned red after only one glass, except for the wine in my glass, which he drank clean. He placed the empty flask lightly on the table, got up and walked past me to the bed and sat down, his fingers caressing the pillow I was lying on, and it was wet.

"Come here. ”

The chopsticks were clenched tightly in my hand, but one of them still fell off. I'm used to using my left hand, but I still can't control it as easily as I can with my right hand.

"Even if you are not the master's blessing, at least you are still the master's woman. Yinzhen's cold voice sounded faintly behind me, hitting my heart, and I couldn't break free and couldn't escape, "Come here." ”

I knew very well that he was running out of patience in such a tone. Gently put down the only chopsticks left in his hand, got up and walked over, standing two or three paces away from him, looking down at the black boots peeking out from the hem of his white robe.

"Where are you going?"

The afterglow swept over his slightly raised head, and he looked at me with raised eyebrows, and there was no superfluous expression on his reddish face.

"I don't know. ”

"Isn't there a drawing? Where did you collect it? Find it out and show it to you. ”

He turned over my baggage, just as he did back then. How can you forget too many memories.

shook his head helplessly, and then smiled and was vigorously pulled by him. Awkwardly slanted on his chest, his palm clenched on my right elbow, which still hurt, and the bones that had just grown crisply sounded.

I didn't dare to move, I couldn't help but sizzle, and when I heard him curse, he turned his hand and pushed me against the head of the bed, leaning on the bed beside me on one knee and pressing down on the legs I wanted to move, loosening the clamp on my right elbow and pressing it on my shoulder instead. Anger spewed into my face with his heavy alcoholic breath, "You lied to me! You must make it clear to me today, you have wanted to leave me for a long time, haven't you?" ”

There was no doubt, it was like a fact in his heart.

I wanted to shake my head but he pinched my chin, my face was close to the dark pupils that kept contracting, and his voice was low and urgent, "Don't tell me that the drawing was only drawn by you in the past few days, I know your handwriting, it was definitely you who started preparing more than ten years ago." You said that you wanted to accompany me, and you also said that you wanted to live for the rest of your life, saying that where I am and where you are, all of them lie to me. It's also false for you to say that you love me, you don't have me in your heart at all, you just want to leave from me. Isn't it. ”

His lips were pressed against my forehead, and I could no longer see his expression, only the buckle of the neckline dangled in front of me, which I had wrapped with my own hands in a circle, and sewed it up with a needle and a thread......

"Brother, every time you call the brother in your mouth, I always thought it was your eldest brother, but I didn't expect it to be Yinxiang. You're only with me for yourself, to see each other, aren't you? What do you think of me...... Am I treating you badly...... Why are you lying to me. ”

In addition to the softness of his lips, there was also a trace of coldness on his forehead, as if it was burning directly to the bottom of my heart, burning like fire.

This man, the man I have loved with my heart for more than ten years, was hurt by my brother and I joined forces. His strength and forbearance are shown in front of everyone, but his heart is soft and sensitive. He used his true feelings for us, but he was deceived by a lie that had to be told to the point of tears in his heart.

When was the last time? It was supposed to be him rushing back overnight for Honghui's fake death. I don't have any other memories of that.

I raised my hand and endured it again and again, and finally grabbed him on the placket of his clothes, wrapped my left arm around his back and hugged him hard, and his forehead was pressed along his chin to his chest, "Yinzhen, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, we really didn't mean to." I don't want to lie to you, I've always wanted to sue you, but I don't know how to say it...... No one would believe it, and even I couldn't figure out what was going on. We never wanted to take advantage of you, really weren't, you trust me. I didn't lie to you, I love you, even now I want to be by your side all the time, even if you don't want me, I am reluctant to leave you half a step. It's just that...... I have no choice, no choice, and now I can only leave. You hate me, it's okay to beat me and scold me, don't be like this, I don't want you to be like this. ”

His right hand, which was holding the white placket, was held by him and pulled behind his back, and the coiled hair that I had pulled with his fingers was rubbed and scattered, hanging down on the back of my shoulders and sticking to my tear-soaked face, and also wrapped around his buckles.

His chin rested on top of my head, one hand on the back of my head and the other behind my back, keeping me close to his chest. I couldn't really hear his whispers, but I knew that he kept talking, and at last he actually carried me and lay down on the bed, falling asleep.