I went back to the courtyard with Yinzhen, I quickly walked to the room, and saw that Meiyu had opened the door first, and hurriedly squeezed in and was about to close the door, but he was resisted.

"You go back to Yonghe Palace for dinner. "Yinzhen and I were deadlocked on both sides of the door, Meiyu stood by and watched but didn't dare to speak, and was pulled by Yan Yu before running away and pretending to be busy.

"I've told Huang Ama about coming back, how can I go back to eat?" Yinzhen pressed his hand on the door panel, and his face exposed in the crack of the door was full of seriousness.

I pushed him down with all my strength, but when I saw him stretch out his hand to come in, I was busy relieving my strength, but he had already pushed the door open, grabbed my hand and walked into the inner room.

"I was just arguing with Huang Ama to accompany me, and he didn't let me into the house at this time. ”

"The ghost is going to accompany you!"

Yin Zhen just sat in the chair, and when he heard my words, he actually laughed, this time the smile was really obvious, and the corners of his eyes and mouth were very proportionally curved.

"What are you laughing at? You are also the same as your Emperor Ama and Eniang, playing with me? Could it be that you have also made a bet, did you win or lose?"

Yin Zhen smiled and shook his head before explaining to me: "Huang Ama said that you would definitely go to him, but Eniang didn't believe it, and then I heard that you were coming, and Huang Ama said that you were going to Zunhua." ”

What kind of family is this, being a father has to govern such a big country every day, and this kind of leisure and leisurely ridicule of juniors, not to mention helping the round, but also happily accompanying the father to add fuel to the fire, as for this ...... for the son of man I looked at Yinzhen with a very happy look, and I really couldn't sigh anything.

"Anyway, you are a family, so naturally you are all towards your own people, and you should play me. I glared at him, turned and walked outside.

"How did you say this, are you really angry?" Yinzhen pulled me back and sat on his lap, looked at me seriously for a while, and then said very softly in my ear: "I didn't tell you that it was mine when I left, but I didn't expect to come back in a hurry and be dragged to Eniang again." You should be angry with me, even if the letter told me not to come back, it was wrong. As he spoke, he stretched out his hand and pressed it to the place where my heart was pounding.

I lowered my head a little and looked at his palm fixed there, originally a little embarrassed because he found out that I went to beg Kangxi to go to Zunhua, but now I can't raise my head at all. The discovery of leaning my head against his chest and hearing a clear heartbeat made me feel good. Raised his arm around his neck, leaned his face close to him and whispered: "Next time you go out like this, you really don't come back." ”

Yin Zhen smiled and said hello, his hand slid to my waist against my clothes, and when he stood up with me, he asked me, "Why do you seem to be heavier?"

I had to keep my head down and laugh stupidly, it seems that my efforts are not in vain.

~~~

There are really many rules in the palace during the New Year, from the twenty-third year of the big year to the small year until the evening of the Chinese New Year's Eve, and the people are already tired and begin to get bored, and the new year can be regarded as looking forward to it.

It's very boring for such a large family to eat Chinese New Year's Eve dinner together, sitting beside Yin Chen and looking at the two underage little women, one is still pity but no longer takes the initiative to talk to me, and the other is slightly quiet in the lower abdomen, this picture is really not festive enough.

endured this disharmony until the end of the family banquet, I leaned into Yinzhen's ear and whispered: "After eating, you send the two of them back, I'll wait for you at Yinxiang's side." ”

Seeing that he looked at me in surprise, he hurriedly added: "Go and come back quickly." ”

Yin Zhen nodded and stood up, waved his hand at Lan Si and Song, and the second daughter stood up and followed him. Watching him wave his hand, turn around and do it in one go, and then add fragrance to the left and right, I can't help but sigh, it's really not ordinary to be a man here.

Seeing the three of them walking away, I looked at Yinxiang's seat, looked at each other and got up and left the seat.

When he walked to the gate of Yinxiang's courtyard, he saw four figures swaying over, and he looked at the □□ten 'trios' who were pestering.

"Fourth sister-in-law, don't you go back to ...... fourth brother"

"Shhhhh

Seeing that the tenth child was bluffed by me, he smiled and asked me softly: "It's time to have a child, and the fourth sister-in-law won't go back to celebrate the New Year, what is this going to do?"

Seeing that the three of them didn't have the slightest consciousness to leave, I reluctantly compromised and said: "Don't make a sound, just stand here in peace, and when your fourth brother comes over in a while, we will have to have fun." Seeing that Lao Shi was about to ask again, he stretched out his hand and pointed at him and said, "If you are quiet, I can take you with me." ”

Lao Shi actually lowered his voice and asked me in a low voice, "What's so funny?"

"Sister-in-law, what are you going to play, it's so mysterious, if you don't go back to the fourth brother's yard, you will come here. Lao Jiu stood aside and laughed in a low voice, looking directly at me and Yinxiang.

"It's not fun, if you want to know, just wait, or go back quickly, don't mess with me. ”

"Why do you stand at the gate of the courtyard and don't go in?" Yinzhen's voice suddenly sounded, fortunately, he usually didn't speak loudly, otherwise the black light would have to scare me.

Watching the brothers say auspicious words to each other, I dragged Yinxiang into the yard, and soon pulled out two big burdens with the help of Xiaoshunzi and Meiyu.

"What is this? What are you two going to do?" Yin Zhen asked softly as he looked at the burden I was dragging in his hand with a puzzled expression, and the three brothers around him nodded and looked at me curiously.

"Don't care what it is, just find me a vacant land, I was only called here, this small courtyard is enough, but now there are more people and I have to change places. ”

Yinzhen glanced at the burden again and turned his head to leave, I hurriedly threw the burden to those little eunuchs of the young master, and followed him quickly.

"This place is awesome, you're so smart. I stood in a large open space, happily looking at Yinzhen and praising him.

The moonlight of the Chinese New Year's Eve is very light and dark, but the snow on the ground is very thick, and the night is still shining brightly when it is near. I don't think people come to this place often, so I kept the snow from the previous few days, and it was really a perfect place.

"Meiyu, open up the baggage. Looking at the curious appearance of Yinzhen and the three brothers, I pulled Yinxiang's sleeve and walked to the burden, grabbed a tube of firecrackers and threw it at Lao Shi, and smiled at him: "The fourth sister-in-law will not get you, give you fun." ”

"Firecrackers?" Old Ten said in a low voice, but his tone was full of disbelief.

"yes, it's a firecracker. For you...... Now that there's no one, you can talk louder and stop suffocating yourself. Seeing that Yinxiang had already divided two cylinders and handed them to the eighth and ninth children, I took the two cylinders and walked to Yinzhen: "Oh, yours." ”

"There will be someone in the palace for a while, why did you come here to put it yourself?" Yinzhen took the firecracker, but his face was sternly puzzled.

"How can it be the same? Seeing how beautiful others are, it is also someone else's labor, and only when you light the firecrackers with your own hands can you understand that kind of happiness. After saying that, I walked to the middle of the clearing, planted the firecrackers in the snow, and then stepped on the surrounding snow with my feet, so as not to fall down after igniting them.

Yinxiang squatted not far away and planted the firecrackers, took the incense in Xiaoshunzi's hand, and handed one to me. Looking at the four noble princes standing stupidly, we didn't want to say anything, but when the first firecrackers sounded in the palace, Yinxiang and I □□ the firecrackers in the snow, and looked up at them soaring into the sky, but tears flowed down.

In previous years, the Spring Festival was like this, the two brothers and sisters depended on each other, eating Chinese New Year's Eve dinner together, setting off firecrackers together and watching the Spring Festival Gala together. The saddest thing is that there is a person who wants to go on a business trip on this unlucky day, so there is only another one left to spend the Spring Festival alone. I didn't expect that the Qing Dynasty could still set off firecrackers together for the New Year, so what else would I be dissatisfied with?

Taking advantage of the sound of firecrackers all over the world, the sky was bright or dark, I quietly raised my sleeves and wiped it on my face, before turning my head to Yinxiang and smiling and saying, "Yes, come again." ”

Lao Shi had already run over and handed the firecrackers in my hand, "It's fun, let's come together." ”

"Okay, let's stand in a row, bury the firecrackers, count one, two, three, one, □□ burn. After I finished happily talking to Lao Shi, I turned to Lao Jiu and shouted: "Don't come yet, stand there and install firecrackers, be careful that Lao Shi has lit the two of you." ”

The two brothers smiled and walked quickly to the old ten, each squatting on the ground a few steps apart and starting to work like moles.

Yinzhen always stood not far away and looked at us, and did not speak or show that he was happy or did not agree with our behavior at this time, I walked over and stretched out my hand in front of his eyes and waved, putting on a studious expression and asked: "Is the fourth master pretending to be firecrackers?" ”

Yin Zhen swiped his thumb under my eyes, and the cold fingertips swept across his cheeks with a hint of wetness, but I felt a bang in my heart, standing so far away He saw it?

"Sister-in-law, we're all ready, if you and the fourth brother don't come, we'll order it first. Yinzhen's teasing voice is always in place, but at this time I really can't take care of it, but Yinzhen took my hand and walked towards them.

I was about to open my mouth to shout the number, but when I turned to look at them, I saw five boys crouching in a row in the snow, each with a small bright spot in his hand, not to mention it was really interesting.

"Fourth sister-in-law, if you don't call me again, you can order it yourself. Lao Shi stood at the farthest point, twisting his little head with an expression that couldn't be seen really, but his voice was very clear.

"You dare! Come now, ...... Two...... Three. ”

Tom a few sounds, firecrackers echo the sky, when the fireworks are opened, the sky is full of colors, I look at the group of boys standing beside me, everyone laughs happily, childhood is really simple and beautiful.

At the beginning, I hoped that Yinxiang would grow up quickly, and then I hoped that Yinzhen would grow up quickly, but now I really hope that time will stop like this, just when I come to Kangxi for 30 years, and then step on Kangxi's 31 years, it will be good to be still.

I don't know if these brothers who fought for your life and death many years later will still remember the scene of us setting off firecrackers together on this Chinese New Year's Eve, and I don't know if they still remember the happiness now, but I also know that there are some things that no one can control, and what should happen always has to happen, as long as we all remember to experience this moment.

I leaned over to Yinzhen, took his hand and stood side by side, looking up at the fireworks still scattered in the sky, feeling his gaze and turning my head to smile at him.

~~~

"Fujin, Song...... Master Song is about to give birth. ”

"What, don't worry, Meiwu, say it again, what's wrong?"

The slave maid said that Master Song was about to give birth. ”

It's only March, why is the pregnancy in August about to give birth so soon?" ”

"Fujin is going over, don't you never go over there?"

"Can I not go to such a big deal!" I walked to the door of the room and remembered to ask Meiyu, "What about the fourth master?

"Yes, yes, I said that the fourth master will come back. ”

Standing at the door of Song's room, I didn't know how to step in, but my grandmother came to greet me, and hurriedly stretched out her hand to get her up before asking, "How is the situation inside? Is it really going to give birth? It's only seven months old?"

"Back to Fujin, it is indeed about to give birth, before the Song master had signs of premature birth, and now the slaves and maids are ready, please rest assured. ”

"With your words, I will put my heart down for the time being, but you remember that the person lying inside is the fourth master, whether it is premature birth or something else, take care of the person for me. This matter is even more related to the heirs of the fourth master, and please pay attention to it carefully. I'll just wait here, and I'll be back and forth in time for something. ”

Mama actually knelt on the ground with a snort, and said in a trembling voice: "Say hello to the fourth master, the fourth master is auspicious." The slaves and maids must do their best, please rest assured that the fourth master and Fujin are assured. ”

The door only opened the crack, and the grandmother flashed in, but I saw half of Song's face lying on the bed in a trance, and the former Qingli became a little hideous, and her hair was wet and sticky to her cheeks. It turned out that giving birth to a child was like this, turning a girl who was originally good into what she is now, I took a few steps back with my cuffs, but I only felt that Song's appearance was engraved in my mind and could not be waved.

"You go back and rest first, it's all right. Yinzhen's voice seemed to come from a long distance, I turned my head to look at him, but I couldn't guess whether his current expression was looking forward to joy or tangled contradictions, after all, this was the first child in his life, but let another woman accompany him to stay in front of the door of the woman's room who was giving birth to a child for him, whether he also felt a little weird.

I nodded and said to him, "Yes, it'll be fine." "I know the future of the Song family, she still has a long time, how can there be anything, but the look just now really scared me.

The sharp screams in the room pierced the sky above the small courtyard, my eardrums only trembled once, and then I heard the sound of the door opening, and a little palace maid came out of Laifu and smiled happily in front of me and Yinzhen to congratulate him: "Congratulations to the fourth master, congratulations to the fourth master, Master Song gave birth to a personality for the fourth master." ”

"Why didn't you cry?" I waited to hear the first cry of the legendary birth baby, which is said to be because the baby knew that it would go through all kinds of hardships when it came into the world, so it cried out loud for himself, but he could not wait for a long time.

Seeing that the girl couldn't tell a reason, she stepped forward and pushed the door, but saw two grandmothers sweating profusely around a red-flapped baby.

"What's wrong?" I poked my head in, and saw that the baby's face was flushed with blood.

"Fujin, Gege, she doesn't cry, no matter how she shoots, she doesn't cry, she should have something blocked in her throat, but she can't get it out. The mother holding the child patted the baby's back tightly, and her face turned red with anxiety.

"What's the matter, why don't you call the imperial doctor to come over and take a look?" Yinzhen stood behind me and asked anxiously, not knowing whether to ask me or the mother holding the child.

"Show me. I walked over and gently probed my finger, and it was sticky in her mouth, and when I pulled my finger back, I saw that there was some blood.

"Fu Jin, this should have been choked in with blood when the amniotic fluid broke, it has to be cleared, otherwise it will ......" The mother holding the child explained while constantly patting the little back.

"Don't shoot it, if it works like this, it will be cleared out long ago. I grabbed her by the hand, pinched her little cheek with two fingers, closed my eyes and exhaled deeply, then pressed it to her mouth and inhaled violently, a mouthful of wet and sticky liquid almost choked into my mouth, coughing up my tears and dripping down.

Yinzhen helped me on the shoulder and said, "Don't worry about it, leave it to Mama." I elbowed him twice, spit out the remaining mucus in my mouth, and put it back on. How could he, a pampered prince, understand the feeling of watching a life pass away? When he felt his mother's breath getting shallower and lighter in the ward, he couldn't understand the feeling of wanting to do something but not being able to do anything, and wanting to keep it but not being able to keep it.

"Siyue!" Yinzhen's hands grasped the sides of my head, and although he blocked my ears, I heard him call me loudly.

I looked up and spit out again, and then I patted the baby twice, and in a moment she burst into tears.

"Okay, okay, Yinzhen, she's crying, it's okay. I laughed happily, but suddenly I saw Song lying on the bed staring straight at me, his face already wet with sweat.

Yinzhen took the baby from my hand and handed it to my grandmother, told Song to 'have a good rest', and then took me out of the door.

~~~

The atmosphere in the courtyard is very weird, no matter what the identity of the Song family is, now that Yinzhen has given birth to an eldest daughter, it should be a happy thing, but why is everyone sad? Patriarchy is like this? That's none of the business of these subordinates!

I walked around the courtyard, there was low air pressure everywhere, although I didn't see anyone talking about anything behind my back, but I could still feel that it was very different from when the Song family gave birth to a daughter ten days ago.

I leaned closer to Mei and whispered, "What's the matter? Do you hear anything when you come out on weekdays? Why is everyone weird?"

"I don't know, slave maid, yesterday was fine, but today is indeed a little different. ”

After standing in the courtyard for a while, he saw Yinzhen stepping into the courtyard door with a stern face, his brows furrowed, and even his face was a little cold.

I hurriedly walked over to look at him and asked, "What's wrong? Are you angry with anyone?"

Yin Zhen only shook his head and said to me in a low voice: "No, you go back to the room first, I still have something to do." ”

Such a weird yard, such a weird Yinzhen, how could I go back to the room alone. followed him, only to find that he had pushed the door into Song's room.

Song held the child in his arms, leaning on the bed with a sluggish expression, and Yinzhen and I entered the house, but she didn't respond.

The girl who was guarding in front of the bed came over to ask for blessings, and Yinzhen had already waved her hand to let her out.

Yinzhen walked to the side of the bed and stretched out her hand to hold the child in her arms, but Song leaned back to the wall, but his head was lowered as if he wanted to pierce the child's body.

Yin Zhen said to her coldly, "Give me the child", but she ignored it, just holding the child and leaning against the wall without moving.

Hearing Yinzhen shouting Gao Wuyong outside the door, I hurriedly turned around and pressed against the door, and saw that Gao Wuyong was standing outside and no longer moving forward, so I walked over and pulled Yinzhen to sit on the chair next to the bed.

"Jingzhu, can you give the child to Yinzhen to hug?"

"Not good. Song buried his head in the child, and his words were hoarse.

This girl gave birth to the eldest daughter for Yinzhen as she wished, although she is not a son, she should be happy, what kind of awkwardness is this. Seeing Yinzhen sitting there coldly, his fists clenched tightly, at this time, even if I don't want to care about Song's idle business, I can't look at Yinzhen uncomfortable. Sighing, he leaned to the side of the bed and whispered to Song, "Then give me a hug, I haven't hugged it since the last time I saw it." ”

"I don't want to see you, what last time, no last time, nothing. You're coming to see my joke...... Yes, my child is dead, dead, do you still want to hug it?" Song raised his head suddenly, his eyes full of resentment.

It turned out that the child was gone in ten days, no wonder the people in the courtyard are weird. Seeing Yinzhen standing up angrily and stretching out his hand to the Song family, I hurriedly stopped him before whispering to the Song family: "Jingzhu, I'm sorry, I don't know ......"

Song shouted to me hysterically, "I don't know...... You just pretended to have saved my child, and now what are you pretending to be? Why is my baby born prematurely? Why? None of you have cared, and if someone has hurt me, which of you has asked. When I gave birth to a child and was weak, you only cared about whether the child was okay, who cared about my life or death...... Now that the child is gone, you all came over, and it was too late. I'm sorry? Can you understand me? How can a man who killed even his own children understand my pain now. ”

I pressed Yinzhen the chair, turned around and stared at her eyes before saying word by word: "Have you ever heard of paying off debts? Or if you believe in Buddhism, you should understand karma, as the saying goes, 'A person is rich and poor in life, lives and dies, so that every move, drink and peck is not predetermined, and you cannot escape.'" 'It was you who hurt others first, that's why your child is in this calamity, and I don't say anything about saving her on the day of birth, but you always have to pay it back in a word. Believe it or not, that's it. Today you are sad to lose your child, and it is okay to throw your temper on me, but you remember that there is no next time. ”

I originally felt sorry for her for losing her child, but after saying this, she was so crazy that she pointed to the thing I didn't want to mention the most, she only said that someone hurt her, and she forgot when she hurt others! What does it have to do with them whether my child wants to or not, no one is qualified to talk to me about this except Yinzhen.

Seeing that she was still sitting there in a daze, I didn't bother to say anything more to her, turned around and walked a few steps to the door, opened the door and walked out.

When she was standing in Lan Si's room, she was actually in a good mood sitting at the table and drinking porridge, and I smelled the smell of my memory and looked into the bowl, which was actually the 'fetal porridge' that Song had given her.

I laughed out loud when I looked at Lance's still watery eyes, but she didn't shy away from it, and even smiled at me.

"My sister is in a good mood, I hide in the room alone and eat porridge, why don't I say that I will give my sister a bowl?"

Lan Si looked at me with a smile in the corner of his eyes before replying: "It's not as good as the laba porridge made by my sister, so I didn't deliberately send it over to offer ugliness." ”

I tapped the bowl twice with my fingers, and the bowl fell from the table to the ground and split in half, splashing the rest of the porridge everywhere. I dusted off the stains on the hem of my skirt with a handkerchief, stood up and said to her: "There is a wrong, a debtor, and now that the two are clear, my sister should also take care of herself and do her part." ”

When he walked to the door, he saw Yinzhen standing outside, nodded to him, passed him sideways and walked back to his room.