Chapter 1232: Choking

She will never forget that time for the rest of her life.

When I first arrived, I was curious about everything, curious with trepidation, and wary with trepidation.

She carefully observed the people and things around her, and gradually spliced Yan Xiaoya's behavior from people's mouths, slowly imitating, slowly changing, and gradually letting the people around her accept her changes.

The people who were secretly approaching the fourth room like that were also careful to guard against them. Even if they know that they are all kind people, because they occupy their daughter's body, they can't call their father and mother with confidence, they can't naturally straighten their backs to laugh and cry, and they can't calmly introduce themselves to others and say that I am Yan Xiaoya.

She approached the goal step by step, dismantled the doubts of her parents step by step, and was all seen by Yan Zhongming, the grandfather, and then had more contact than other granddaughters, was discovered by him, tolerated by him, instructed by him, and placed deep hopes on him.

Yan Shunhua remembered the two everlasting lamps that Yan Zhongming had lit for the dead Yan Xiaoya and the one who was actually equivalent to the dead herself, and she couldn't help but have a sour nose and sour eyes.

"Do you know, Shen Jingyuan? Grandpa was the first to find out that I wasn't his granddaughter. But he still treats me like his own granddaughter, watching me grow up and watching me get married.

When I didn't know it, he lit a lamp for me and the real girl, put it in the ancestral hall, worshiped it day and night, and copied the Buddhist scriptures himself. When I prayed for the deceased brother and Xiaoya at the end of the Fengtong Yan clan to copy the Buddhist scriptures, he also accumulated virtue for me and prayed for me.

He told me with practical actions to forget the past, welcome a new life, and let me live with peace of mind as the third girl in the fourth room of the Yan family, and live a good life.

At first, I was obsessed, thinking that I was hiding it well, but in fact, it was just my father and mother's love for my daughter, so after saving me, I couldn't wait to give me all the good things, and I couldn't wait to watch me every minute and every second to prevent me from having an accident.

But even so, because of the connection we had in the first place, I still scared them. My mother blamed herself to death, and my father was also distressed. At that time, I actually really hated you being in my life. Because without you, I would have gotten closer to my parents.

They are really good parents, for me, every day is new, every day is more reassuring, because I know that they will always be with me, as long as I open my eyes, I can see them, I can say good morning in the morning, three meals a day will be eaten together as a family, and I don't have to worry about being alone in an empty house at night. ”

Yan Shunhua's voice was a little choked, and Shen Jingyuan kissed her and accompanied her silently.

He knows all her past, even if he doesn't know all the details, but he must be the person who knows her past best in the Daqing Dynasty, and he must be the one who knows her best now and in the future.

It is conceivable that because of the loss of her parents' relationship and the final divorce and marriage, she grew up lonely since she was a child, because of the warmth of a perfect family, so she would be so sensitive and sharp when the whole family fell apart, depressed, cynical, in order to forget the pain in her heart, but also fell in love with all the extreme sports that she could participate in, crazy to play, crazy to play, in fact, it is not a strange thought-

If there is an accident in the next second, it will be nice to be able to die immediately and disappear from the world.

She had known her friends for many years, and the bitterness and hesitation that had been sharp and nowhere to tell lasted for many years. Even with friends, most of the days, she lives alone.

One person wakes up, one eats, one person works, one reads, one paints, one person welcomes the arrival of darkness, and the last person struggles to fall asleep with the fear of darkness, and then welcomes the arrival of a new day without expectation.

After the family was broken, her days, except for the bright colors that her friends would bring her, every day was silent, like a silent movie, silent, like a ghost, she could see the people around her, but there was no way to touch them, because of the fear in her heart, she was even afraid that the people around her would see her, and she wished to hide in her own space forever, not known.

In this way, if you disappear, you don't have to worry about getting hurt and you don't have to suffer anymore.

Shen Jingyuan knew that kind of pain very well. Even if there is no strong contrast, he has received the love of his grandfather with all his heart, so he knows that the love of parents for their children is no more than that.

He didn't enjoy his mother's gentle love, and he didn't get along well with his father, although later because of her appearance, he and Shen Yueqing finally reconciled, but freezing three feet is not a day's cold, even if they take off their guards, there are too many things too late after all.

At that time, he was already an adult, and he was no longer a young child, and without his father's care, he felt that the whole sky was gray. After losing my grandfather, I felt that the sky had completely fallen. After knowing who his biological father was, he was so disgusted that he immediately stripped off all his skin, cut off the flesh and blood one by one, and returned it all to the other party, so as to wash away his mother's shame.

He had gone through all kinds of hardships, and after having her as his destined companion, he no longer longed for the affection of other people. When he had her, he felt like he had the whole world. Even if everyone else betrayed him, abandoned him, and left him first, he felt that it didn't matter, and he felt that he could bear it.

He knew that feeling was the feeling of peace of mind, the feeling of the soul finding the other half, the feeling of having a home.

She came to Daqing with a broken heart, because of Yan Zhongming's tolerance and earnest instructions, she gained the confidence to start again, because of the unconditional love and support of Yan Shengguo and his wife, she finally lived like a real family child again, because of Yan Zhaoming, Yan Daya, Yan Erya's fighting, and later the birth of Yan Zhaoyong, although she lost her friends, she gained valuable brotherhood.

She felt the beauty of blood thicker than water in Yanjia Village, became complete again, and felt happiness again, so she fundamentally identified Yan Shengguo and Yan Liu's father and mother, and recognized the entire Xilong Yan family as relatives. This is something that Yan Yucheng and his wife who appeared later could not give.

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