It was dark, and the city was still captured by late autumn.

The autumn wind outside the church blew sadly, rolling up the fallen leaves, curling my messy hair, floating in the air, the dim light smeared the picture with a sallow halo, I just squatted in the wind, pulled the kite string in my hand, waited, waited......

I thought of the Wangfu Stone mentioned in the book, and imagined that when Zhang Xingchen appeared, I would also become a stone statue, looking at the direction of his departure, waiting, I have been in constant contact since I met Zhang Xingchen.

I opened the brocade box, and there were two pairs of rings lying inside, with a simple style, warm lines and not dazzling, which was a design that could penetrate into people's hearts at once.

It reads, XC2.

Zhang Xingchen has always called me Lu Xiaochao, the morning sun, the morning sun, and the rising sun.

Only when he was joking, he would deliberately pronounce the DPRK as the DPRK of Korea.

Before, I never thought that the initials of the two names Xingchen and Xiao Chao could be the same, I don't know how many times he thought back and forth in his heart to find the common ground in our names, but such intentions brought me a great shock, and I even began to hate myself, hating myself for being entangled over and over again with the real reason why he loved me, and entangled with Chu Mingmin's existence.

But the more I cared about him like this, the more greedy I became, the more scared I became, afraid that Zhang Xingchen would misunderstand me one day after seeing his heart clearly.

At that time, he and I will be really, really, and there may be no half of it.

I couldn't help but shudder at the thought of this, and I was frightened by my own thoughts, why? Why is it that after that day comes, I have no chance of having anything with him? Even if he uses me as a substitute for the time being, what about it? I like him.

That's right, it's really impossible, even if I disregard my self-esteem and make compromises, even if Zhang Xingchen can guard me for the rest of my life, it's absolutely impossible for us.

In love, Zhang Xingchen and I are a kind of person, I will give up my life for Zhang Xingchen because I am tired of this world without him, if Zhang Xingchen really loves Chu Mingmin, he will also escape from this world without her, or this is the reason why he treats me as a substitute, he wants to escape.

…… Thinking like this, the words of Dr. Liao many years ago rang in my mind.

He said that Zhang Xingchen once chose to commit suicide for Chu Mingmin, and also left a suicide note.

Out of the church came a man in a black robe, holding a cross in his hand and looking very religious.

"Are you waiting for someone? The church is closing. He said.

"Don't wait. I said, glancing at the scar on my wrist that was hidden by my watch.

I didn't wait, I heard my calm voice say, just like I once gave up my life for him, he also gave up my life for her, how I love him, how he loves Chu Mingmin, I don't forget him for a day, he won't forget Chu Mingmin for a day.

Either way, we don't seem to have a future.

I tried to stand up, but my legs were completely numb, and the man in the robe reached out to help me, but I refused, and I sat down in the dim light, raised my hand, and handed the brocade box to the man: "If anyone comes here to look for me, please return this brocade box to him, please tell him, and say, I have escaped." ”

The man took the brocade box, nodded, and answered me.

I fled in a hurry, looking like a wolf.

I hurried along the sidewalk, and whenever the headlights came on, I would turn my back and hide myself behind obstacles, I was afraid that if I met Zhang Xingchen, I was afraid that if I met him, my determination would collapse.

I turned off the phone, and before shutting down, I sent him a text message, three words, Chu Mingmin.

I know what this means, it means that maybe the moment Zhang Xingchen received the text message, his peaceful and peaceful life was ruined by me, and when he understood the meaning of the name Chu Mingmin to himself, he would even get tired of this world again...... It's just that I am no longer qualified to participate in this qiē, I can no longer be a good medicine for his healing, and I am no longer qualified to interfere with his joys, sorrows, and sorrows.

I was also full of regrets, I guessed, maybe Zhang Xingchen had already learned about Chu Mingmin from Lin Yue, but he still chose to bring me to the church and chose me, but I broke his heart like this and failed him like this.

The courage I had to go to Zhang Xingchen was just given to me by him, and now, those courages were completely exhausted on this night without solar energy, and my so-called self-confidence was overturned in an instant.

I think about it like this, and the conclusion is that I don't deserve him and can't love him.

I don't know how long I've been wandering the streets, but when the patrolling police car reminds me to go home early, I realize that I've been wandering alone on the street for most of the night.

I didn't get a taxi, the patrol officer kindly took me to the station, and then I got into the police car, while expressing my gratitude to the people's police, while laughing at my own experience, leaving Zhang Xingchen's way, I actually took the police car.

By the time I got back to my accommodation, I was exhausted.

The voice-activated light in the hallway has been broken for a while, and there is no surprise at this time, it is still dark, and I insist on not turning it on.

My phone turned off, so I groped my way forward with my familiarity with the aisle, and the place where Xiao Sa parked downstairs was empty, and he probably didn't go home.

After passing Xiao Sa's door, a few steps forward, I felt the doorknob of my door.

I took out the key, expertly inserted it into the keyhole, twisted it a turn and a half, and the door lock opened.

I exhaled, reached out to touch the switch on the wall at the door, and was about to turn on the light, but a deep voice came from behind me: "Lu Xiaochao." ”

I screamed, my mouth was covered before I could react, and I was trapped in a pair of powerful arms that were right next to mine, a spin, and I was forced into my apartment.

The lights were not turned on, the curtains were drawn, there was no moonlight, the street lights outside were all turned off, and it was pitch black in the living room. With a stumbling stumble, I fell with the man into the couch not far from the entrance.

"Thy blood is cold, and thy heart is cold. That deep voice rang in my ears.

I opened my mouth to call his name, but a cold lip drowned out my voice.

He was like crazy, desperately asking for it, and I was very upset, and I wanted to call out his name to make myself feel at ease, but he wouldn't allow it, and didn't give me a chance to speak.

The cold lips slowly warmed up, and in the darkness I felt his lips wander to my eyelids, the tip of my nose, then bite my earlobes, and finally bury them in my neck socket.

Feeling the buttons on my chest being unbuttoned, I called his name in a panic: "Zhang Xingchen......"

His movements stopped, and the sudden dead silence in the darkness made me even more uneasy, and I wanted to turn on the light and see his face, I was so distressed that I had never seen him like this.

"Lu Xiaochao, I'll get hurt too......" His voice was hoarse, and I couldn't see his expression in the dark, I reached out and fumbled for his face, and then wet my fingertips.

"Zhang Xingchen?" he cried?

It was like a thunderclap in my mind, and I stroked his cheeks with both hands, trying to wipe away his tears.

I really want to say something, I really want to tell him, this is temporary, and when he thinks of Chu Mingmin, he won't be in pain because of me.

"I also have the most primitive bestiality, and when I am hurt, I will let the person who hurt me taste it too...... My pain. As the words fell, my lips were covered again, and Zhang Xingchen's movements became rough, he tore open my white cotton shirt with one hand, and I screamed in panic when I heard the sound of buttons falling to the floor.

Zhang Xingchen ...... Zhang Xing......"

I struggled desperately, trying to get rid of his grip, but Zhang Xingchen seemed to be enchanted, completely ignoring my struggle, and the shirt was completely pulled out of my body, and a chill hit me, and I shivered.

When I felt Zhang Xingchen's cold skin, I burst into tears.

"Zhang Xingchen—" I called his name, as if calling for help, calling his name out of whack.

Zhang Xingchen sighed, and then hugged me tightly, he hugged me, and gently stroked my head with one hand to comfort me.

I left all my tears on his bare chest, and I cried hard, crying for Zhang Xingchen, but also crying for my selfishness and cowardice, crying about our embrace at the moment, crying about our upcoming separation.

"Lu Xiaochao, this is the last time I will protect you. Zhang Xingchen said.

In the dark, I counted Zhang Xingchen's breathing, and my tears kept flowing.

I fell asleep in Zhang Xingchen's arms, but I slept very soundly this night, there were no endless nightmares, I dreamed of Zhang Xingchen, I dreamed that he rode Harley to find me in the oil tung forest, it was the first snow, he rode very steadily, and did not roll down the hillside.

When I woke up, it was already dawn, I was covered with a blanket, but Zhang Xingchen was already no longer beside me, only the white shirt on the ground and a few buttons scattered reminded me that Zhang Xingchen really came last night.

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