He said, Lu Xiaochao, you are the one who stays away from me, and the farther away from me, the better.

Then he hugged me, and he hugged me so tightly that I could feel his trembling, his heartbeat, his heavy breathing.

I could feel the fear in Zhang Xingchen's heart, he hugged me and didn't say anything, he just hugged me at the moment, and I forgave this person for all the pain he had brought me.

There is a person who cherishes you more than yourself, loves you more, and this feeling will make you feel that you have the whole world, and you have exhausted most of your life's self-worth, the meaning of life, at this moment, become insignificant, your value, your meaning, is less than your weight in the eyes of this person.

Well, I confess, I surrendered in my heart, I don't know if the rest of the world is like this, but I surrendered, and I am willing to surrender completely to this preciousness until death.

The happiness that Zhang Xingchen brought me was like this, he cherished me more than myself.

Later, he took the medicine box from the car and treated the wound on my forehead, and he pursed his lips and did not say a word.

If I can meet Zhang Xingchen really because my leg is the same disabled as Chu Mingmin, then at this moment I am full of gratitude, I am full of gratitude to Chu Mingmin, and I am also full of gratitude for my disabled leg, this is the first time I feel lucky in my heart for the pair of legs that I have complained about for most of my life, okay!

"Don't stare at me. Zhang Xingchen said indifferently, I sat on the ground with my knees on my knees, this is the countryside, there are dark mountains and forests on both sides of the road, from time to time there is the sound of birds fluttering in the bushes, and I can also hear some insects chirping one after another, the car is lit, I can see how cold Zhang Xingchen's expression is.

"On that snowy night seven years ago, our shuttle bus was stuck in the vicinity. I looked around, too much time had passed, and there had been many changes in this area, I looked back at Zhang Xingchen's silent face, and then said: "That day, I wanted to go to you, I remember that I promised you to accompany you for your birthday." ”

Zhang Xingchen didn't look at me, but just took a cotton swab and dipped some medicine and rubbed it on my forehead.

"However, it was snowing too much, and our car was stuck here, there was no rescue, it was very cold, but fortunately I had the scarf you gave me, and I fell asleep wrapped in it...... Later, by the time I became conscious, I found myself in the hospital, and they said I had carbon monoxide poisoning, and the car was heating and the windows were closed. I pursed my lips, and then emphatically said, "It was closed after I fell asleep, and it wasn't my fault." ”

Zhang Xingchen listened, snorted coldly, didn't speak, and then turned over a band-aid from the medicine box to bandage my wound, and then asked in a cold voice: "Are there any other wounds?"

I shook my head.

Seeing that I shook his head, he put away the medicine box and sat down opposite me, he still didn't want to look at me, just looked up at the night sky above him.

I sighed softly and told him about the past: "After I was rescued, because the emergency room was not enough, I needed to leave the emergency room immediately to take care of another patient with serious injuries, and outside the emergency room, I met you......"

My voice choked, the terrible scene from many years ago replayed in my mind again, thinking of Zhang Xingchen at that time, I couldn't help but red my eyes, and Zhang Xingchen finally turned his head to look at me.

The smiling face in the memory and the familiar face in front of me gradually overlapped, my nose was sore, tears still fell, I sniffed, and cried aggrievedly: "...... I've been scared for seven years, my nightmare every night is the blurred look of your flesh and blood seen in the hospital, the fear you had a moment ago, I was afraid for seven whole years, I waited for hope or nothingness, I don't know, I found every excuse to get close to someone in this city who sounded like you, and I don't know how many street corners I ran after someone who looked like you,...... That's how I came to life, I warned you back then, I told you to stay away from me, I said I would be parasitic in your life like a parasite......"

I closed my eyes and let the tears run down my cheeks.

I took off the watch on my left hand and a few black leather ropes on my right wrist, the scars on my wrists were ugly, but they were still shocking after time passed, Zhang Xingchen stared at the wound intently, his face was extremely ugly.

The tears fell even more fiercely, and I couldn't cry: "But ...... They say you're dead, they say you're dead...... They said...... , I have been looking for you for a long time, I have run all the wards in the hospital and I can't find you, I haven't missed any of them, I went to look for you like crazy, and finally, someone sued me,...... Whoever said they were dead would be locked in that cold black room,...... If you don't understand, you will only blame me, you don't understand, how scared I am, how uncomfortable I am,...... I don't want you to die, I don't want you to be locked in that dark room alone, you don't understand anything, you will only blame me, you will only think that I am useless......"

A car sped past us with a sharp horn, I was startled, and before I could react, Zhang Xingchen took me into his arms.

He hugged me tightly and cried and kept calling my name, Lu Xiaochao, Lu Xiaochao......

My cry seemed very empty in this dark night, I hugged Zhang Xingchen, I just wanted time to stay in this moment, I was afraid of every second of the future, I was afraid of every indefinite, I didn't want to leave him, I didn't want to leave him at all.

Zhang Xingchen cried, his burning tears fell on my bare shoulders, he called my name, his nasal voice was very strong, he said, "Lu Xiaochao, let's get married, right?"

Lu Xiaochao, let's get married;

Lu Xiaochao, let's get married.

This sentence was repeated countless times in this dark night, and it burrowed into my ears, in my head, in my heart, and then, suddenly, it was silent, a dead silence.

I thought of Qin Jiami, and I thought of Chu Mingmin.

I think of the sins that Zhang Xingchen suffered for me and the pain I will suffer in the future.

He didn't think of Chu Mingmin, for him, I was simply taking advantage of others.

Then I closed my eyes and ignored the worries and guilt in my heart.

I think that even a minute in the moment is good to make me forget who I am, who I am like, and forget the unknown disasters in the future.

"Lu Xiaochao, when it is dawn, we will go to the Civil Affairs Bureau and register our marriage. Zhang Xingchen let go and said.

I looked at Zhang Xingchen's serious eyebrows, and got into his arms again, I sighed and said, "This is China, you have to get married, you have to have a household registration book, do you have it?"

"I have a passport and U.S. citizenship, so I shouldn't need that. Zhang Xingchen said with a smile, reaching out and stroking my hair.

"But...... American nationality? How can it be American nationality? You have been there for a few years, and even your nationality has been betrayed!" I pushed Zhang Xingchen away and glared at him incredulously.

"I don't know the specifics, anyway, from the moment I opened my eyes, my mother was not by my side, my father was a Chinese-American, and I followed him, so naturally I changed my nationality. ”

Zhang Xingchen's eyes became gloomy, and he looked very sad when he talked about his mother.

I nodded: "No wonder, I said how did you become the heir of the American Senrui Company, when you were in school, your English was the worst in the class." ”

Zhang Xingchen raised his eyebrows, and the corners of his mouth raised a mischievous smile: "If my English grades are not bad, how can you have the opportunity to seduce me with ** in a grand manner?"

"Zhang Xingchen, who did you say seduced you!"

He pulled me into his arms again: "Okay, okay, I seduced you, yes, I was cheeky to seduce you,...... Lu Xiaochao, whether there is love for no reason in this world has nothing to do with me, I now, at this moment, just want to hold you like this, quietly, everything else ......"

Suddenly, as if he remembered something, he changed his words and asked me, "Who sued you and me for death at that time?"

It turns out that he really doesn't know about it!

"At that time, every time I asked Xiao Sa about you, he said something useless, and then I went to ask Dr. Ye in the emergency room, and he sued me, saying that your rescue was ineffective, and later, Xiao Sa also said that you died. I sighed and didn't mention Qin Jiami.

I also know that the only people who could hide Zhang Xingchen at that time were his mother and Qin Jiami, but Dr. Ye is a benevolent doctor, he will never lie, and to be honest, I can't understand what is going on.

"I need to find out what's going on. Zhang Xingchen said.

"How many years, it's pointless to find out now," I pouted: "What have you been doing for seven years? Have you really never thought about looking for me once? Why did you want to marry Qin Jiami, but you ran back again? If you didn't cooperate with Lin's Jewelry, would you never come back?"

Zhang Xingchen laughed, he let go of me, and then held my face and said, "If you don't cry, I'll sue you." ”

"Good. ”

Zhang Xingchen stared at my face and said in a relaxed tone, "Actually, I have been lying in the hospital bed for three whole years, and for three years, I have been in a coma.

I'm stunned, vegetative?

About the tears that began to gather in my eyes again, Zhang Xingchen immediately stopped me: "I said, don't cry." ”

I suddenly found that there seemed to be a lot of things between me and Zhang Xingchen before I had time to explain them clearly, and I was self-righteous and annoyed, I was really a selfish ghost, and I didn't figure out anything, so I put a bunch of charges on him.

"It's really not easy for me to wake up, Qin Jiami has helped me a lot, it is said that she will come to my hospital bed almost every day to talk to me and tell me something that happened in reality...... After waking up, I was doing rehabilitation for a long time, and later, in order to make up for the time I had slept, I finished my college studies with the help of my father, and when I came back, I actually always wanted to come back, you may not know ,......"

Zhang Xingchen's tone became a lot heavier, his hand touched my face, I saw the long-lost gaze from his eyes for the first time, he said: "Actually, my time is still stopped when I love you the most, it's just that many things have changed, and when I grew up, I found that many times we can't be autonomous, and the people and things around us will hinder our pace......