"If I say that now, isn't it too late. ”

"In the half of my life, I only clearly know that I am in love with her and have loved her. Other people, how to love, how to fall in love, I really don't understand. ”

"I also thought I didn't have to understand. ”

When I heard these words, I smiled faintly, and I was not surprised - he is the emperor, and it is already rare for him to truly love a woman, as for who that woman is, it can only be said that she was destined in her previous life and destined in this life. If Nangong Lizhu is said to be that she accompanied him through the most difficult years of his early years, and she accompanied him to live and die together, and even she pulled him back at the moment when she was on the verge of life and death, in fact, if you think about it carefully, in their relationship, I am a person who should not be saved, and all the expectations and delusions I had about him are unfair to that woman, and even an invisible injury.

He loved her, and there was nothing wrong with that.

It's just that if you want him to know how to love, it is true, how it sounds like a fantasy, ridiculous.

He is the emperor, and he only needs to let the women of the harem be wet with rain and dew, as long as he knows how to reward and favor, and as for love, he does not need to understand, let alone understand.

Just as I was thinking this, he said slowly, word by word—

"But, now, I understand a little. ”

“……”

I was stunned for a moment, and before I could react, I felt him slowly raise his head and look at me, his eyes shining in the dark night: "I also want to understand." ”

“……”

"I want to make up for all the hardships you have endured over the years. ”

“……”

"I also want to learn, to treat you well. ”

“……”

"Love you so much. ”

“……”

I looked at him in silence.

Such a night, such a quiet, formed an invisible realm around us, and perhaps only at this time, this place, he would take out the words in his heart for the first time, and I dared to say to him things that I had never dared to say in the past, who knows what expression I would see after the first rays of the morning sun shone in and shone on his face, and what kind of future I would face.

This moment, maybe only this moment.

I lowered my eyes and said calmly, "Your Majesty, this has nothing to do with me. ”

Sure enough, I heard him breathe.

It was a throbbing sensation, and after that suffocation, I heard his rapid breathing, as if a hand was soothing the pain on his skin.

It didn't take long for the rapid breathing to subside.

When he spoke, there was a little more sourness in his voice, but unexpectedly, there was not a trace of anger, as if there was still a little bitter smile: "I know, it has nothing to do with you." ”

“……”

"You've changed your mind. ”

“……”

"I, even if I can control the world, I can't control people's hearts. ”

“……”

"I have no way to order you to change your mind, and there is no way to force you to put your heart back on me. ”

I smiled softly in my heart.

In fact, this is an obvious fact, but for the emperor, for people in his position, he will not understand, and it is not easy to understand. From childhood to adulthood, many things were too easy for him to obtain, so it became a matter of course to get them, and if someone didn't give them, it would anger him.

Thinking back to the moment I left the palace, his anger and my despair on that day are still vivid to this day.

But, too, it has passed.

Now I am no longer the Yue Qingying who has no ability to protect myself and can only obey the arrangements of heaven, and he also understands at this moment that the imperial power can force a person, but it cannot force a heart.

At this time, I still want to redeem some, after all, even if I can't get back together emotionally with him, there are still some other things that can be done together, so I said softly: "But Your Majesty can get the hearts of the people." ”

He chuckled: "Light, the hearts of the people are not the same as your hearts." ”

“……”

"I want to win the world, but I don't want to lose you. ”

“……”

As soon as my breathing tightened, the skin of my whole body tensed, like a frightened hedgehog that erected all the thorns in his body, and looked at him nervously: "You-what do you want to do?!"

"But don't worry," he said immediately, his voice even deliberately softening, "I said I wouldn't hurt you again, but I really won't." ”

“……”

You don't hurt me, but you have too many ways to hurt my heart.

Perhaps, because I was too close, perhaps, because he hugged me so tightly, my heartbeat and every throbbing were clearly perceived by him, at this moment, as if what I was thinking in my heart was also detected by him in time, he raised his head and looked at me with burning eyes: "It's true." ”

I looked at him and shook my head slightly.

He said, "You don't believe me?"

"It doesn't matter whether you believe it or not," I lowered my eyelashes lightly: "I have already said just now, this has nothing to do with me." The past has long been over for me, and what has passed is memories, which are sweet and bitter, joyful and sad, but there is no love or hate. In the past, I can't change it, so I won't put any effort into what has not happened in the past and in the future is what I want to do. ”

This time, his breath was also choking, but immediately a smile appeared and he looked at me: "Yes, it has nothing to do with you. ”

“……”

"It's just my decision. ”

“……”

"I'm going to do it. ”

I frowned slightly, and was about to say something, but he continued, "I know what you're going to say—it's none of your business. You have no love or hatred for me, for those things in the past, because everything is over. So what I want to say is, okay, I will listen to you, and I will not make up for the past, what I want to do is the future, what has not happened. ”

As soon as my heart sank, I saw him looking at me firmly, as if he had ushered in the morning light, bright and warm, almost penetrating all the cold in the darkness: "From now on, every thing, every word, every action, is to win your heart." ”

……

I couldn't believe my ears.

He's going crazy.

An emperor, how can this be?

Pei Yuanhao, how can you do this?!

After knowing that I no longer have love for him, and knowing that Yiqiē is irreparable, why does he still do this, and he still stubbornly makes this decision?!

I said, "You know it's impossible. ”

He said: "Many people find it difficult to unify this divided and fragmented world, but I want to do it!"

“……”

I was stunned, and before I had time to think about how to answer, he continued: "The world has been divided for many years, and everyone knows that maintaining the status quo is an easier thing than unification, but there are always some people who are unwilling to accept such a fact, no matter how difficult it is, we must let the world return to great unification, only in this way can we usher in a truly prosperous era." Because someone has done it before, no matter how difficult it is, I have to give it a try, and even believe that I can do it. ”

“……”

"And you, light. ”

He looked me in the eye and said seriously, "You just told me that you used to love me. ”

“……”

"If you haven't fallen in love with me, then that's it, maybe God didn't give us that seed, maybe your heart can't grow such feelings. ”

“……”

"But if you've ever fallen in love with me, don't blame me for having such hopes. ”

“……”

"I hope that one day, you will fall in love with me again. ”

“……”

I was entangled by his gaze and breathing, people seemed to have fallen into a bottomless abyss at this moment, every time I struggled, he was lightly resolved, at this moment, I was even a little powerless, more helpless, looking at him: "What if you can't do it?"

He looked at me and said seriously, "Which is more difficult to win the world or you?"

“……”

"If I can win the world, can I win you back?"

……

I looked at him desolately, not knowing for a moment what else I could say.

What else can be said?

This is Pei Yuanhao, didn't I already know it?

His gentleness, his favor, but this qiē is all under one premise - he is Pei Yuanhao.

He never gave up on his beliefs, and he never let go of what he wanted, I knew it early in the morning, but I still hoped that he could let go of me calmly.

He raised his head and looked at me with a bit of longing, the glint in his eyes made him look a bit like a serious, focused child, such a strange Pei Yuanhao, I have never seen it, he said word by word: "I will give you pampering, will be good to you, and will respect your choice." But this qiē is based on a premise - I want to chase you well. ”

“……”

I looked at him weakly.

At this moment, I don't know if I'm too stupid or if he's too stupid.

What kind of person did I provoke to make myself unable to find a life when there was no way out?

Thinking of this, I smiled bitterly and sadly, but my eyes that had already shed too many tears were only dry at the moment, and even a little painful, but I couldn't shed a single tear.

Pei Yuanhao, Pei Yuanhao, what am I going to do with you?

The long night is coming to an end.

I seem to have seen the faint morning light on the horizon, this night, I obviously did nothing, but it seems to have experienced a war, at this moment, I am physically and mentally exhausted. I tilted my head, took a deep breath, and then reached out and slowly took the hands that were holding me tightly, put them on his shoulders, and pushed him away.

He looked up at me, his gaze as determined as ever.

I said, "If that's the case, then, can I agree to my request to His Majesty?"