The heart, in pain, God, in fatigue. The taste of pain made her feel it for the first time, and the feeling of fatigue made her feel uncomfortable in every way.

Nana lived every day, not in a hurry like she used to, and she felt that time was harder to pass than every year. The pain and fatigue must be paid every day.

Du Juan's innocent smile and her quiet eyes always flickered in front of Nana's eyes. "Who are you, I don't know you" Du Juan said in front of her after she went insane, slamming into her young heart and lungs. She didn't understand how such a girl could become so crazy.

Nana struggled this winter. It's as if his hands are tied and thrown into the prison where Yingge is imprisoned. I felt my brain go out of order. became crazy and was imprisoned in a psychiatric hospital with Du Juan, which was difficult to get rid of.

This mood, in this cold winter, Nana felt too cold, too long.

In this winter, she truly understood what a life of suffering is, and why life is suffering. Could it be that this is the ghost gate that tests people's will? Nana remembers that there is a saying that everyone has a mental illness factor in their mind, and it depends on whether you can experience this unexpected blow and withstand it, you are a healthy person, and if you can't stand it, you are a psychopath. It's harsh, it's cruel, it's realistic, it depends on your will, it depends on the environment you're in.

Nana now knows that there are three places that people don't want to go to in their lives, one is a mental hospital, to be a crazy patient, the other is a prison, to be a prisoner, and the other is to go to the crematorium, three places, three endings. You are not allowed to choose, there are three places, two places you can't go, but the last place, you can't choose by yourself, you have to go, you have to go, you have to go, you have to go, you have to go.

The bitter winter finally got through, and when the early spring came, I went to see Du Juan.

So, Nana and Zhang Jianqiang made this suggestion in the wasteland in the afternoon.

At that time, the spring breeze was blowing, and there was already a green patch on the wasteland.

Zhang Jianqiang looked at her and understood her, the pain of love, the fatigue of God. Later, he said to her: "I have three days off this month, if you must go, I will accompany you". She asked him: "Du Juan entered the mental hospital, Yingge is nowhere to be seen, I don't see any reaction from you." Zhang Jianqiang smiled bitterly: "Our emotions are a little numb now, the war kills people every day, you just have a Du Juan by your side, you are like this, we are around, yesterday I talked and laughed with you, today, suddenly gone, the graves of my comrades-in-arms are placed in the wasteland one by one, the wind and rain, you see ......" Zhang Jianqiang told Nana about the misfortune of his comrades-in-arms, and then said: "We can only remember them and continue to fight until the invaders are driven out of our homeland" Nana understood why Zhang Jianqiang was so emotional. "Indeed, it is the wheels of war that carry us forward, and we have long forgotten about life and death until the day of our victory." Zhang Jianqiang said to himself again, his eyes were fixed on the distance in the wasteland, staring for a long time, forgetting the existence of Nana, his thoughts may have thought of Yingge, thought of Yunlang, and thought of those comrades-in-arms around him who died for the liberation of the country.

He cried for these comrades-in-arms who died in battle, not on his face, but in his heart.

I have not forgotten the past, because the past you have become a nostalgia in our hearts. When I'm fine, lying alone in bed, I'm immersed in the days with them, no tears, no sorrows, just fragments of joy with you, which become distant memories in my brain. I will never forget it in my life.

The psychiatric hospital where Du Juan lives is military, and the patients here are all military.

Zhang Jianqiang and Nana were led by medical staff to a single room.

There was a patient in the room, Nana didn't have to look carefully, she knew that it was Du Juan, she was much thinner than before, her skin was already very white, but now she looked, it was even whiter, there was no trace of blood, her quiet face was even quieter, and her quiet eyes looked a little confused. "Why are you here, Zhang Jianqiang, didn't Yingge come with you?" Du Juan's tone of voice was a little calmer than when she was just sent in, Nana stepped forward and asked excitedly: "Du Juan, don't you know who I am?" Du Juan shook her head and didn't speak, Nana asked her again: "You know him, his name is Zhang Jianqiang, why don't you know me." Du Juanmu said: "I know his name is Zhang Jianqiang, because he and Yingge are comrades-in-arms" Nana said again: "The two of us are comrades-in-arms, have you forgotten?" Du Juan shook her head after hearing this, and said, "I forgot, I don't have comrades-in-arms." ”

Nana cried again, she didn't know that this kind of disease, tormenting a person, was tortured like this, it turned out that the comrades-in-arms who fought together, the sisters didn't know. A person, who does she have a fate with, it's not a fate today, this kind of fate is a fate that spans this life, it is a fate that grows in her bones, Nana would not have thought of it, nor would she have expected it, she looked at Zhang Jianqiang and was really helpless.

Zhang Jianqiang told her about the war, about the radar company, about her comrades-in-arms, about their air force, about the day when their radar company suddenly attacked, and about the scene when everyone struggled to rescue their comrades-in-arms.

There was a tear in her eyes, and she said to Nana, "Sister Nana......".

Nana was moved to tears, she hurriedly hugged Du Juan and said, "I'm Nana, I'm Nana, Du Juan, you finally understand."

After a while, she asked Nana again: "Who are you, I don't know you......"

If, a person who has lost his memory, when you use the words of guidance, you may be able to evoke a brief memory, and when you stop the words of guidance, her thinking stops, which is why the spirit has the shortcomings of the patient. Perhaps, with the time to go, slowly calm down the confused thinking in her brain, let her regain the spirit of her brain, she may recover, maybe remember you.

In this way, it takes time.

When she came, she came with her feelings, and when she left, she threw all her feelings here, Nana hugged Du Juan who was dazed again, and passed all her feelings to her, but she didn't expect her to whisper: "Nana, don't go, I'm afraid...... I'm afraid. Nana said excitedly to Zhang Jianqiang: "She knows me again, she knows me again." Zhang Jianqiang also heard Du Juan's voice just now, he deliberately asked Du Juan again, what did you just say, please say it again, Zhang Jianqiang's question made Du Juan start to look dazed, and she repeated her words: "I'm afraid...... I'm afraid".

"Her memory, with the excitement of the brain, becomes sober from time to time, in this way, it is definitely a good phenomenon, after all, one day, he meets her boyfriend Yingge, she will become sober, and she will definitely get better." The doctor next to him reminded Zhang Jianqiang and Nana.

Yes, as time slowly flows, her excited brain will definitely calm down, and her confused emotions will be straightened out clearly. Hopefully, that day will come soon. We don't have to come to this place that messes our brains anymore, that's what Nana thought, and they left this place that made them sad.

The two of them walked out of the gate of the mental hospital, and Zhang Jianqiang watched Nana put her two hands together, like a believer, with her eyes closed and her mouth praying. Zhang Jianqiang couldn't hear what Nana was saying, but he knew what she was doing. She is hoping that Du Juan, who is locked up here, and Du Juan's patients, will recover quickly.

He noticed a tear in Nana's eye. It flowed down her delicate face.

The spring breeze carried her tearful face.