At eight o'clock in the evening, Lu Xiaochao came back from outside, I was watching TV in the living room, she came in with a bunch of things, obviously a little difficult, but she didn't talk to me, I just wanted to take the initiative to go over to show goodwill, I saw a person following behind her. Pen @ fun @ pavilion wWw. ｂｉｑUｇE。 ｉｎｆｏ

It's none other than Lin Yue.

"Why are you here?" I asked Lin Yue.

"Send her back. Lin Yue replied to me ambiguously, carried Lu Xiaochao's things and went into her room together, and came out after a few minutes, and when he saw that I had been staring at him, he said with an interesting face, "I was very distressed before I sent her back, so don't show me a face." ”

I reluctantly got up from the sofa, and then asked Lin Yue in a low voice, "Did she say anything about me?"

Lin Yue shook his head: "If possible, the two of you should indeed have a good quarrel, although she doesn't say it, she will inevitably be wronged in her heart, and the bad things you have done, only she has repeatedly tolerated them without a bottom line." ”

Lin Yue asked a few more questions about Chu Mingmin, and then went back.

After Lin Yue left, I turned off the TV and went to Lu Xiaochao's room.

She still looked indifferent and didn't want to deal with me, it seemed that she was really angry.

"Lu Xiaochao, where have you been running all day, I almost died of boredom at home alone. I said, sitting down beside her, reaching out to take her hand, but she dodged away.

Lu Xiaochao turned his face and stared at me for a while, and finally asked me, "If my grandmother hadn't died, wouldn't you have come back at all?"

I was stunned and opened my mouth to say something, but the girl cried.

"Won't it be right?" Lu Xiaochao looked at me with teary eyes and came to his own conclusion.

"I think I'm just crazy, what are you, what are you? Zhang Xingchen, what are you?"

Since the death of his grandmother, Lu Xiaochao's mood has been quite stable, and I am not surprised that it broke out at this moment;

Linking my grandmother's death with my return, Lu Xiaochao probably fell into a dead end.

"Lu Xiaochao, I know what you're thinking, you stop me, I don't allow you to toss yourself like this. "I pulled her over and forced her to look at me.

"Isn't it?" Lu Xiaochao sobbed, forcing herself into a desperate situation of her own making, she said, "I just have to think about it, I am glad that I am glad that you came back, I hate to kill myself, am I glad that you came back to me because of my grandmother's death, or am I ......"

"Lu Xiaochao!" I stopped her.

"I'm so heartless!" I've never seen Lu Xiaochao's emotions collapse like this, "When Ru Qin said that she was looking for someone to kill my mother just to get you, I obviously made up my mind to leave you, but look at what I did?"

Lu Xiaochao's emotions became more and more extreme, "God took my grandmother away from me just to punish me." ”

"You're crazy!" I yelled.

How could she set herself up like that?

"So why did you leave me, since you left, why did you come back? I have made up my mind to marry Lin Yue, why do you want to come back? Why do you have to come back when my grandmother died, do you know how much I hate myself, I don't have time to grieve, I don't have time to be in pain, so I patronize the snickering, patronizing how to find a way to keep you," Lu Xiaochao slid to the ground in prostration.

"I really miss my grandmother, Zhang Xingchen, I really miss her......"

I squatted down in front of Lu Xiaochao, reached out and wiped her tears, "If I knew that you would torture myself like this, I should come back later and let you grieve all the grief, I shouldn't be self-righteous and want to use my appearance to divert attention, I shouldn't cover up your sadness without making an assertion, Lu Xiaochao, I'm sorry, I'm just afraid of the way you are now, I just want to accompany you to send your grandmother on a ride, so I came back early." ”

I hugged Lu Xiaochao and let her cry heartbreakingly in my arms.

In the past few days, she has been cooperating with my emotions, and my mind is focused on Chu Mingmin's affairs, and I really ignore what my grandmother's death means to Lu Xiaochao; Now every accusation in her words has not wronged me for a cent, she has thought so much about me, but I have repeatedly broken her heart and failed her.

At this juncture, no matter how much guilt I feel in my heart, every word Lu Xiaochao says, to my ears, is like saying that she loves me deeply, this shock and distress responds to all my worries and obsessions about Lu Xiaochao in those years.

I hugged Lu Xiaochao, and there has never been a moment more convincing to me than now.

I never thought that one day I would be convinced by her, believing that she loved me and would love her above me.

At night, the door of my room opened, Lu Xiaochao appeared at the door with a pillow, she should have just taken a shower, her coiled hair was a little fluffy and messy, a few strands of hair falling on her neck were still wet, her eyes were swollen, her expression was a little jerky, and she climbed into my bed with an embarrassed face when she entered the room.

"Lu Xiaochao," I was a little flattered, but I got cheap and asked obediently, "Who allowed you to enter my room?"

She smiled, pointed to her eyes and asked, "Isn't it ugly?"

I nodded, "It's ugly, it's ugly, and I admit it's mine." With that, I put down the book in my hand, leaned over and kissed her in the eye. Her eyelashes were lowered, and she was not very emotional.

"Lu Xiaochao, you may think that this is an afterthought, but I am really sad to leave you these days, and I can't wait to come back to you every minute. I looked her in the eye and made a serious statement.

Lu Xiaochao pursed his lips, and he didn't appreciate my loyalty.

"I met Yuan Jersey in that oil tung forest, he fell out of love," Hearing me mention Yuan Jersey, Lu Xiaochao looked at me inexplicably, I took the pillow in Lu Xiaochao's hand and put it on the head of the bed, and then pulled Lu Xiaochao, she found a comfortable position to lean in my arms, I jokingly said, "I don't like him." ”

"I don't like it either. Lu Xiaochao also smiled, his tone playful.

I held her right hand in my hand, unconsciously rubbing the faint scar left on her hand, she turned her face sideways and smiled at me, her smile was a little mischievous, her right hand shook my hand back and said, "Does it hurt?"

"Just your little strength. "She was just afraid that I would worry about the old wounds on her hands, and this little trick could deceive me.

"You met Yuan Jersey, and then?" she distilled.

His girlfriend chose to study abroad and broke up with him, Yuan Jersey said that his girlfriend had almost no hesitation between facing love and the opportunity to study abroad, and did not discuss anything with him, and the two of them did not even quarrel, and left the country alone. ”

There was only one table lamp in the room, and the soft light printed Lu Xiaochao's face, and her eyes blinked, as if she was a little sleepy.

It would be nice to put her to sleep like this, so I continued: "Yuan Jersey probably has a lot of resentment towards her girlfriend, and always feels that she has been abandoned, and that she has lost an opportunity to go abroad. ”

Lu Xiaochao nodded and agreed: "If you were anyone, you would think so." ”

"Well, his words are a wake-up call for me," I said, seeing Lu Xiaochao turn his face to ask, I stopped with a smile and asked her to continue listening, "Maybe it's a bit far-fetched, but Yuan Zexi's girlfriend will choose to study abroad, or maybe she has enough confidence in Yuan Zexi, or maybe there are other reasons for her to choose to leave." ”

"But, from Yuan Jersey's point of view, he just lost to those reasons. Lu Xiaochao said.

"Yes, so, he sounded the alarm bell for me," I hugged Lu Xiaochao's hand tightly and kissed her hair lightly, "He reminded me that you who were left by me may also think so, I only thought that you would be angry with me, and I only thought that you might be angry and ignore me again, but ignored it, you may also feel that you have lost to someone, and feel that you have been abandoned by me." ”

Lu Xiaochao's eyes were red again, she sniffed, grabbed my arm, and bit it like a revenge.

"I'm sorry, but I'm going to get out of here for a while, and I'll admit, it's probably a long time, so long that I'm not sure how long. But, Lu Xiaochao, it's not who you lost to, it's not that I want to abandon you, in fact, I lost to myself, I didn't have time to take care of you and chose to escape from all this, maybe more, I used to disappear to beautify my own cowardice, ~ although it sounds like a quibble,......"

"Thank you for telling me this," Lu Xiaochao sat up from my arms, turned to sit facing me, her eyes were like water, and the corners of her mouth were smiling and asked me, "Do you want to tell me that you haven't abandoned me, no matter how long it takes, your departure has a time limit, and you will return to me...... It's not because grandma left. ”

I reached out and stroked her hair, "Who taught you to be so smart?" ”

She smiled shyly, "You really don't have to take my angry words to heart, I am today, just a little sad~"

"I'm sorry, no matter what my reason is, it's not right for me to leave you alone. ”

"Actually, you don't have to feel sorry all the time, you can't be centered on me all the time, like you said, you have your reasons, your world is not just me, you can't just care about my emotions and ignore everything else. ”

"I thought that if you loved me, no matter what happened, you would not waver. Lu Xiaochao's expression was a little indescribably soft, she looked at me, not like she wanted to blame me, nor was she waiting for me to defend anything.

After a long sigh of relief, Lu Xiaochao smiled with relief and said: "Just like I thought, I like you so much, as long as you are by my side, I can forget all the misfortunes that happened to me, I should feel content, and don't care about anything," Lu Xiaochao retorted with a light smile, "Actually, no, even if I am with you, I have the happiness and joy that I can't get for the whole world, no matter how soft my heart becomes, how kind I become to this world, some things will not change, and some pain will not be less...... I still occasionally complain about the world, about those who hurt me, about God taking my mother and grandmother away from me, and I still want more happiness because I'm still not satisfied. ”

She spoke so eloquently, her voice was moving, and we intertwined our fingers, and we felt so close to each other's hearts.

"There are more than each other in our world, our happiness is more than each other, the people we want to protect are not only each other, there are always some things, some emotions, at some point, will win over ourselves or the people we love, you are the same, your heart is as soft as ordinary people, you will also be fragile, you can't just think about protecting me all the time, especially when you are hurt and even you have no time to protect yourself. ”

Lu Xiaochao let go of my hand, she leaned over and held my face with both hands, and said seriously: "So, you can also rely on me, you can also have cowardly times, you must know that Lu Xiaochao loves Zhang Xingchen, not Superman." ”

My heart was beating like crazy at that moment.

"Lu Xiaochao, what if I don't meet you, what if I don't fall in love with you?

She laughed eatingly, "This is the most pompous sweet talk I've ever heard, ~ and the best." (To be continued.) )