Lu Xiaochao and I moved back to my original apartment, and even though Lu Xiaochao and I moved back together, she still insisted on having a room for each other. To be honest, I don't fully understand the girl's senseless insistence in this regard.

I can even have the consciousness of tearing down the wall, how can I put Lu Xiaochao's awkwardness in my eyes.

We had a quarrel over such a trivial matter, and I argued with reason, and naturally mentioned that she had promised me a marriage proposal in public.

It's okay not to mention it, Lu Xiaochao was very angry about the feat of leaving his fiancée and running away after proposing, and he also took out the old things and thought about it, she asked me why I decided to leave and proposed to her, and why I was in a hurry to send Qin Jiami out of the country before leaving.

I didn't answer. She was so angry that she ran away from home and left me alone.

It's not so much a quarrel, but it feels like she is deliberately trying to stir up trouble, I guess this girl is probably worried about me because of Chu Mingmin's matter, so she wants to cause me something to divert my mind. I didn't bother to dismantle her, so I stayed at home to sort out the luggage she brought back from Xiao Sa.

Lu Xiaochao's easels and paints were all piled up in the closet of her room, and when I found them, I remembered the paintings I had promised Lu Xiaochao to paint her.

In the days when he left Lu Xiaochao, most of the time was spent on painting.

I carried the easel and went to the tung forest, but it was not yet the season when the tung blossoms bloomed, and I went alone, and in addition to the unforgettable thoughts, there were some shameless expectations, looking forward to Lu Xiaochao being able to appear there. I hope she will find me and do everything she can to take me away from the desolation of loneliness and hopelessness.

did not wait for Lu Xiaochao to come. But I met the Yuan Jersey who had a voice similar to mine.

I don't know why he was there, but when I was staring at the easel that day, he was sitting cross-legged on the grass nearby and playing guitar, humming an unknown song.

He was singing, and I was casually writing on the drawing paper, and no one spoke to anyone, for this kind of coincidence. No one felt lucky.

Until his voice became hoarse, and then he choked out without any breath.

I'm not in the mood to meddle and plan to pack up and leave. But he took the initiative to say, "I broke up with my girlfriend," he looked at me and asked, "What about you? Are you also out of love?"

The way he cried was so ugly, it reminded me of the days when I was drunk for Lu Xiaochao in high school. I couldn't help but ask Yuan Zexi: "Have you ever cried so unproductively in front of Lu Xiaochao?"

Yuan Zexi nodded unexpectedly.

Hear him say that. I instantly felt good about myself, at least I hadn't cried like this in front of Lu Xiaochao, I snorted coldly and said, "When you are so unproductive, does Lu Xiaochao still think your voice is like me?"

Yuan Zexi stared at me for a long time, he was either immersed in some memory, and then said: "The most unproductive time for me is when I was asked about my relationship with Lu Xiaochao in front of everyone, saying that Lu Xiaochao is nothing. ”

"So between you. What was meant by that?" Has he and Lu Xiaochao ever been together?

He didn't answer my question, he just sniffed to himself and said, "If my answer was different at that time, would Lu Xiaochao still be by my side?"

"The genuine version has come back, do you think you still have a place to play?" he said, which means that there should have been something between him and Lu Xiaochao.

Yuan Zexi looked at me in a daze, and then suddenly asked me, "Why did you come back?

The more time passed, the clearer those memories became, the three years I was asleep, those memories that were like dreams.

Most of the time, I didn't know that I was dreaming, even if I held Lu Xiaochao's hand in my dream, even if I chased Lu Xiaochao on the empty street in my dream, even if I heard Lu Xiaochao's sobbing sound all the time, most of the time, I was left by Lu Xiaochao again and again in my dream, but I heard her crying again and again.

Qin Jiami said that I had been asleep for three years, and she had been by my side for three years, she cried with joy, but my heart was as heavy as a thousand pounds of stone.

I think that the cries I heard in my dreams may have been Qin Jiami's, not Lu Xiaochao, who was far away in China.

I don't know what Qin Jiami has said in my ears in the past three years when I have been asleep, what kind of mood she has been with me for so many years, for me, it is like a hazy dream, I can't tell where I am, I don't even know if I am looking for Lu Xiaochao everywhere, or I am abandoned by Lu Xiaochao and lying lifeless on the hospital bed.

When Qin Jiami deliberately emphasized that everyone thought I was dead, at that moment, the cold war with Lu Xiaochao, Lu Xiaochao's decision, Lu Xiaochao ruthlessly gave up these things about me for Wang Yifan, and all my brains filled my mind.

I remember that before I could feel the joy of surviving, I was tormented by the bone-eating pain.

My memories all stopped at Lu Xiaochao, but Lu Xiaochao left me and forgot me, I can even imagine how happy she will be when she returns to Wang Yifan, and how often her dimples that don't visit me will appear in front of Wang Yifan.

So, I decided to forget about Lu Xiaochao, and I did it, when Qin Jiami introduced me to all the doctors, nurses and patients in the hospital and said that I was her "boyfriend", I didn't refute it, and I didn't have the idea of rebuttal once.

Qin Jiami's three years of guarding me are as heavy as life for me.

But even so,

Yes, even so, every time I fall to the ground, every time I fall and I don't want to stand up again, I still think of Lu Xiaochao, and I remember Lu Xiaochao telling me that you don't need to learn to walk, and you don't need to learn to be strong, just like our breathing, it is an instinct to live.

Thinking of Lu Xiaochao saying, she really wanted to know the sound of the wind blowing in her ears, and remembered that she said that when people are running, the sound of heartbeat is the best......

When I think of her, I still feel like my heart hurts to be torn apart.

My recovery went more smoothly than the doctor expected.

I almost never resisted any rehabilitation training, because only when I was rehabilitating, Lu Xiaochao's figure would appear in front of me desperately, and only when I fell, I could see Lu Xiaochao's distressed gaze looking at me, every step I took, every movement I made, Lu Xiaochao seemed to be guiding on the side.

I knew it was all my hallucinations, but I was addicted.

So, more than anyone else, I actively cooperated with those painful rehabilitations.

Yuan Zexi was still waiting for my answer as to why he would come back.

Yes, I have decided to marry Qin Jiami, but when I heard the news that my mother was not in good health, it was as if I had suddenly found an outlet to breathe and found a thin beam of sunlight in the thick clouds.

I insisted on returning to China to find my mother's whereabouts, and in this way, regardless of the reproach of the Qin family's parents, regardless of my father's opposition, and regardless of Qin Jiami's retention, I resolutely returned to China.

When I returned to China, the first thing I did was to go to Lu Xiaochao.

When I got the news of Lu Xiaochao, I was told that she had gone to the Tung Flower Festival in Taiwan.

I didn't expect that I would see her so smoothly, she was wearing a long dress, her hair was coiled up with a pencil, after so many years, I still recognized her at a glance;

I swore that on the way to the Tung Flower Festival, I told myself a thousand times and ten thousand times that I went to find Lu Xiaochao just to see her, just to let her see me, and I thought that maybe when she saw that I was still alive and well, maybe she would regret abandoning me so much;

But something even more terrible happened.

Lu Xiaochao walked in the crowd, just as he caught up with me in front of the library, caught up with the back of a man, tugged at his sleeve and called my name.

That person was not me, and then, Lu Xiaochao cried like a child in the endless flow of people......

For me, this is even more terrifying: because of me, Lu Xiaochao, has lived a life like this for seven years.

For several months, I followed Lu Xiaochao like a shadow, and her words and deeds, every smile and smile were all my Zhang Xingchen.

I didn't even dare to think about why Lu Xiaochao was sure that I wasn't dead, or how could Lu Xiaochao wait for me for seven years without knowing my life and death?

I am in China, and I haven't had time to plan a meeting with Lu Xiaochao, but Lu Xiaochao received an invitation from the United States for me and Qin Jiami to get married.

Qin Jiami said that the Qin family's parents were furious, sent out the wedding cards, and gave me an ultimatum, if I don't go back to the United States to get married this time, my marriage with Jiami will be abandoned, and the right has never happened.

Therefore, I finally appeared in front of Lu Xiaochao, I was as despicable as ever, appeared in front of Lu Xiaochao, approached her by myself, to put it bluntly, I was counting on Lu Xiaochao to catch me, and I could do everything I could so that I didn't have to go to Qin Jiami's side.

Lin Yue said, whether it was Chu Mingmin's death or my fake death, I couldn't find out.

To put it bluntly, I'm just cowardly, and I know that all things, when I'm going to investigate the cause, means that I have to choose between the people I love, and I have to hurt one of them.

"You haven't told me yet," Yuan Zexi asked impatiently, "why did you come back?" I heard Xiao Sa say that your life and death were unknown back then, and since you didn't die, why did you come back seven years later?"

"I came back to take revenge on Lu Xiaochao, to retaliate for her current abandonment of me. "I told Yuan Jersey.

Yuan Zexi looked at me in surprise, "You say it again, I heard me right, right? You said you came back to take revenge on Lu Xiaochao?" )