Lin Yue said, "Don't you want to meet that Qiu Yuyao?"

Many times, I felt that there were very few things and people in this world that had anything to do with me, and I walked quietly around the edge of the city, breathing a little bit of air, stepping on a little bit of land, obviously not hindering anyone, but the people around me were like sharks that smelled blood, and they rushed towards me with bad intentions.

When I think about it, there is a sense of hopeless fear that the world I was supposed to please always hurts me, always disgusts me, and makes me want to escape. I am in this world, the only world where I can stay, I just want to escape, and what makes people desperate and confused is that I have nowhere to escape.

"Did she say she wanted to see me?" I asked.

Lin Yue shook his head and smiled harmlessly, "It's I who want you to see her." ”

I sneered, turned and walked on.

"It's okay if you don't want to go, I still have something to ask you to help with. As soon as the conversation changed, Lin Yue caught up with me again.

"I'm not going to help you, die. "I vetoed it.

"About Lin Ke, I want you to accompany her, you shouldn't refuse, the second sister is good to you. He smiled flirtatiously, as if nothing had ever happened before.

"It's a pity that your second sister has a younger brother like you, so she's unlucky,...... Also, Lin Yue, I sue you, I will return to you the evidence of your and Ru Qin's crimes, it doesn't mean that I forgive you, I just want to get rid of the relationship with you, from now on you and I are two people who have nothing to do with each other, I don't want to see you again, please don't appear in front of me again in the future. I stared at Lin Yue and said, seeing that he was still smiling harmlessly, looking at me for a long time.

"I've already agreed with you, don't follow me anymore. Okay?"

With that, I continued walking.

The dim street lamps rendered my feelings into the lowest color, and I walked forward with my head down, but I was a little dazed, not knowing where I was going. Where exactly does it lead.

It would be nice if there was a road one day that could lead to the end of the world, the end of the desert.

"I can help you find evidence that Ru Qin killed your mother!" Lin Yue suddenly shouted at me from behind him.

I ignored it.

I will find out this evidence through my own strength, and I will never have anything to do with any of them again.

A taxi appeared, I hurriedly waved, it stopped, I got into the car, and saw Lin Yue still standing in place looking at me. I looked away and didn't look at him again.

Yes, just like this, in the fastest way, out of their sight.

When he returned to the hospital, it was almost early in the morning, and Long Xinghai fell asleep in a chair next to him, and the faint dark circles under his eyes exposed his exhaustion. I sighed softly and took the blanket to cover him.

I don't know if I woke him up. I had just sat down on the edge of the bed when my grandmother woke up.

"Doudou......" Grandma's voice didn't sound energetic, she reached out to me, and I quickly reached out to hold hers.

Every time I hear my grandmother call me that, I can't help but feel nostalgic for the old days and the time when I was carried on my back. At that time, I listened to Yifan on the hillside of the village talk about his dreams, those times.

"Grandma, how are you feeling?" I asked softly.

"Don't sigh, you can't sigh like that, you are young. Grandma looked at me lovingly and said. I nodded, smiling comfortingly at my grandmother.

"Grandma knows that you are ,......bitter in your heart" Grandma didn't finish speaking, tears were already full of eyes, there was crying in her voice, and the hand holding me was tight, she talked about her mother again, and then tears slipped from the corners of her eyes, she said: "Your mother is also hard, and she ...... when she is young."

"Grandma, don't cry, Mom would be sad if she knew you were sick......" I reached out and wiped the tears from the corners of her eyes.

If my mother knew that I returned the evidence to Lin Yue, I don't know if she would blame me, if I handed over that mobile phone to the police, maybe Ru Qin would have suffered retribution now, and maybe my mother would be in the spirit of heaven, and she could also have a little comfort.

It's that I'm stupid, it's that I'm not filial.

"Actually, when your mother left the house to look for you that day, it was a little strange, she never saw her dressed up on weekdays, but that day, she was neatly dressed and put on light makeup, and I also praised her for her good appearance, let her marry a good person and start a family,...... Who knows, when she left, it was a white-haired person sending a black-haired person. ”

"Really?" I said, tears streaming down my face.

"Doudou, grandma has always wanted to guard that home for you in the countryside, no matter when you come back, there will be a home, and a hot meal is waiting for you there,...... But grandma is afraid that it will be ...... in the future," grandma said, her voice choked, and she wiped away her tears, but the tears kept flowing.

"Grandma, you're going to get better,......"

"Lu Xiaochao, did you make your grandmother cry again?" Xinghai was woken up, and he walked over and gave me a slap.

"Stinky boy, who allowed you to do it!" said Grandma pretending to be stern and glaring at Xinghai.

Xinghai snorted nonchalantly, he sat down on the edge of the bed, straightened his grandmother's hair and said, "Grandma, your partiality is too obvious, you don't talk to Lu Xiaochao behind my back, anyway, I am also her brother, and I always call me a stinky boy, no wonder Lu Xiaochao doesn't take me seriously." ”

Grandma was amused by Xinghai's words, reached out to touch his face, and said with a loving look: "Good boy, you have worked hard these days." ”

Xinghai smiled and said: "If grandma feels sorry for me, don't cry anymore, okay, the doctor said, after a few more days of observation, you can be discharged from the hospital, Lu Xiaochao, don't make grandma sad again, do you hear?"

"Got it. I sniffed and smiled in response.

"Doudou......" my grandmother called out to me, and looked at me and stopped.

"That kid, he came to take care of grandma, grandma remembers, but why haven't I seen him come with you once since you came back?"

Grandma said that it was Zhang Xingchen, right?

"It was he who brought my grandmother to this hospital, and those doctors and nurses thought he was my grandson, and they all envied him, this kid had a sweet mouth, and when people asked, they said that he was my grandson-in-law. I don't know how much face I've earned. Grandma said, the smile on her face was very good-looking, she seemed to be immersed in the memories of getting along with Zhang Xingchen, patted the back of my hand and said, "He also told me about your case, he said you, stubborn to be strong." He also has a bad temper, and he has a cold war with him at every turn,...... Said let me talk about you well, don't get angry all your life and ignore people, you have to say everything in your heart, so that others can understand you, right?"

"Yes. I smiled.

"Tell me about it. Why didn't he come to see his grandmother again? Did you not allow him to come?"

When Xinghai heard this, he also looked at me, and when he saw that I was embarrassed, he tried to divert his grandmother's attention and said, "Grandma, what are you doing with him, that guy is busy, maybe he went on a business trip, and waited for him to come back." I will bring him before you again to plead guilty. ”

Grandma glanced at Xinghai angrily, then turned to me and said, "Did you quarrel?"

I forced a laugh: "No." No grandmother, no quarrels. ”

"Or is that kid doing something sorry for you?" Grandma's face became gloomy, and she muttered for a while before she said, "The last time he took care of me, a girl came to her, and she seemed to be very angry, so she should not ......." He's changed his mind? This kid doesn't look like that kind of person......"

My grandmother's eyes became pitying, and tears welled up in her eyes again: "Child, you have something to tell your grandmother in your heart, you will be suffocated if you are stuffy in your heart!"

"No, Grandma. You think too much, I don't have anything to do with him, really, you want to see him, wait for him...... When he comes back from out of town, I'll let him come and see you. I laughed.

Xinghai glanced at me, then got up and poured a glass of warm water, he helped his grandmother drink the water, and it took a while to calm her to sleep.

By the time my grandmother went to sleep, it was already past one o'clock in the morning.

Xinghai and I walked out of the room and sat down on a bench in the hallway.

The temperature is low at night, especially in this cold hospital, which is even more cold.

"What's the situation between you and Zhang Xingchen?" as soon as he sat down, Xinghai asked.

I sighed softly, and before I could speak, Xinghai slapped me again and said, "Don't sigh, don't let you have bad luck." ”

I smiled and said, "Yes, if you don't sigh, will you really have good luck?"

"Of course...... Don't change the topic, let me ask you and Zhang Xingchen? Xiao Sa has also been here, you haven't seen Zhang Xingchen since you came back, what do you mean? When my grandmother had an accident, he looked attentive, why did he keep quiet now?" Xinghai seemed to be very dissatisfied with Zhang Xingchen.

"I'm with him, it's impossible. I whispered.

"Because he's married?" Xinghai said disdainfully: "At the beginning, he relied on you wholeheartedly, and then married someone else, that is, he was an unreliable master, and it was best to disperse!"

"He's like an unattainable prince, and my covetion will only make our world devastated. I glanced at Xinghai, he stared at me puzzled, I smiled and said: "Xinghai, do you know? I recently heard a person say that as long as she can't get it, she will completely destroy it, so that others can't get it, I always thought that it was just made up on TV to entertain everyone, it turns out that there are really that kind of people in the world, you say, why?"

Don't be surprised, not everyone can fulfill others generously, and if you don't get it, you will destroy it, it's not love, it's just greed. ”

"Is it true, is love fulfillment?" I asked.

"Uh-huh, of course!" Xinghai nodded of course.

"Well, I don't really love him anymore,......" I said.

"Why do you say that, I thought you had generously fulfilled Zhang Xingchen, didn't he marry Qin Jiami?" Xinghai said funny.

I shook my head and said, "That's right, why do I want to be close to him even when I get married?...... Even if I decide to leave him, I still want to be with him, I want to be with him no matter what, even if I feel that my thoughts are shameless and dirty, I still want to be with him. ”

I clasped my hands around myself and whispered, "It's like longing for the warm sunshine outside the house on a cold winter day,...... The blood of longing is flowing backwards, as long as you think about it, maybe there will be no more of him by your side in the future,...... I just want to crouch in the dark and don't want to go anywhere......"

Crazy, Xinghai scolded me and said: "Crazy, if you like it so much, go and chase it back!"

I shook my head and just laughed.

The years, so long, are so long that people are tired.

What I promised, as long as there is him in this world, then there must be me in this world, and I am alive, I just want to live far away in the world with him. (To be continued......)