"The prerequisite for gaining power is to gain power, and I want to get power, I want to get power, what is wrong with getting power?"

“……”

I didn't expect him to suddenly talk to me about this at this time, his gaze, firm and focused, looked into my eyes without blinking, as if he wanted to use his own concentration, to see through my soul in my gaze, to find an answer. For more up-to-date chapters, visit: ШЩЩ.(7)(9)XS.сОМ.

I was silent for a moment and said, "Why are you telling me this?"

“……”

"Since you have already determined what you have done, what's the point of arguing with me about what is right or wrong?"

Recalling the right and wrong between Xie Feng and Yu Wenkang in that room just now, I don't know how many years have passed, how many people's blood and tears have been crossed, and finally I really got an answer, but what is the meaning of this answer for people who have died, for a fait accompli?

Pei Yuanxiu said: "Of course it makes sense, I want to hear your sincere words." ”

I smiled faintly: "I'm in your hands now, it's not up to me to come and go, it's not up to me to live or die, will my truth have any impact on you?"

“……”

"It's so cold right now, and every bit of energy I put into it is trying to fight the cold. ”

With that, I turned and walked forward.

But as soon as I turned around, the hand, which was still hot at the temperature, suddenly reached out and grabbed my hand.

I didn't look back, but I was grabbed by him like this, and I couldn't move.

Behind him, he said, "As I just said, you are in everything I am sure of, and I am convinced that there will be you in the future, and this future is right now." I don't want to have this solution between us forever, because we still have a long way to go in the future, so I want to make everything clear to you before entering Beijing, and I also want you, make it clear to me. ”

“……”

It seems that there is no way to avoid it.

I took a deep breath and slowly turned my head to look at him.

An umbrella, between two people, although he grabbed my hand, but because there is always a little distance between the two people, this umbrella can only cover half of each person's body, the snow fluttered on the umbrella, although there was no sound around, he and I were also quiet, but that sound, on the contrary, let me feel indescribable noise.

Like these days, I can't be quiet in my dreams.

And in the midst of this noise, he and I were silent, and neither of us spoke easily.

He's still waiting for my answer.

I thought about it for a long time, and said softly: "You ask me, what's wrong with you." ”

“……”

"I want to get power, I want to gain power, I want to achieve my own career, I set a goal to fight for, and I can't extricate myself from the mud...... In fact, there is nothing wrong with these. ”

“……”

"You and Pei Yuanhao have been fighting so far, it is indeed your life and death, you were forced to withdraw from the capital, avoid Shengjing, and later occupy Jiangnan to get a place and fight for your own survival, these, if you stand in your position, it can't be considered wrong. ”

“……”

"When I married you, I accepted all this. ”

“……”

"If a man has no ambitions, he only knows how to 'groan' the wind and 'make' the moon all day long, and he only talks about love, I will definitely look down on him. ”

“……”

"Everyone has their own last resort, and everyone has done something against their will in order to survive in this red world. As I spoke, I looked up at him and said with a faint smile: "Just like you have advised me in the past, people who are not Buddhas have original sin. ”

He subconsciously stepped forward: "Then you-"

"But," I interrupted him neatly, and said, "Your mistake lies in the fact that you kill innocents indiscriminately in order to gain power, and then bully the weak after gaining power. ”

Seeing that his face was getting paler and paler, and my breath was becoming more and more disordered, I couldn't even hold back and break free from his hand: "Even that Yue Qingying who has no power to resist, my friend, what is her crime?"

“……”

"A disciple of the Buddha's 'Gate', why can't you let it go?!"

"......" There was not much expression on his face, maybe it was because it was too cold at this time, the cold wind blew people's faces numb, and he couldn't make any expression, his eyes seemed to be stained with the cold of ice and snow, he was silent for a while, and said slowly: "That's right, I did lie to you at that time, I promised you to find her, but I-I killed her after I confirmed her identity." ”

“……”

You're right, she's not guilty. ”

“……”

"She, she just knows too much. ”

My heart trembled.

Yue Qingying - Jingxu, she heard this person's life experience from Zhao Shuyuan, it was really like bringing a life talisman, and my encounter with her was to go to Jinling, that night, that boat, just like sending her to Huangquan Road, there was no way to turn back.

Thinking of this, thinking of what kind of fear and pain that lonely 'girl' experienced in the last years of her life, I only felt that my heart couldn't stop surging upwards for a while, and when I spoke, my voice was hoarse: "But why do you have to kill her? There are many ways to shut her up, even if you lock her up for the rest of your life!"

He looked at me and said softly, "Lock her up for the rest of her life, and she will be in pain." ”

“……”

"There's nothing better than death to shut up a man

“……”

"As long as she is alive, there will always be flaws and troubles, but that knife can end her pain and make my heart go away. ”

When he said these words, he was still gentle and calm, like snow falling on an umbrella.

Muttering, like a lover's whisper.

But it made my heart a little colder.

"Really......?"

“……”

"So, that's what you think......?"

“……”

"For you, the means are just one way to success, and as long as you can succeed, you will use any means, right?"

He said in a deep voice: "Light, as the Buddhist scriptures say, there is no right or wrong, only cause and effect, and there is no good and evil, only difference. If you keep dwelling on the rights and wrongs of these means, how can you achieve great things?"

I looked up at him, "That'...... You have killed so many people, have you thought about the cause you planted, and what will bear fruit?"

"......" he was slightly stunned.

"Haven't you thought about it? Do you think that today's relationship between you and me is one of the fruits?"

His complexion sank.

I laughed miserably: "You've always wanted me to turn back, but who is it that makes me more and more unable to turn back?"

"Light!" he suddenly opened his mouth to call me, and his voice trembled a little, but after calling me, he didn't seem to know what to say, but put a hand on my shoulder, and even clasped my collarbone slightly.

I understand that he is also afraid.

After a long time, he said in a deep voice, "I thought you would understand...... Lightness, you should also understand. ”

“……”

"Once you will succeed, all the successful people, none of them have blood on their hands, and none of them are absolutely innocent and clean. What person in a high position does not have those past that cannot be looked back on? What person does not have some memories in his heart that will not see the light of day?"

“……”

"Why don't you only look at what I've done, why don't you look at our past, look at our future!"

"Our ...... In the future?"

I looked up at him a little blankly, and he stepped forward again, almost touching my body, and the warm aura emanating from his body completely enveloped me, he looked down at me and said softly, "Yes, our future." After I ascend the throne, I will also be diligent in governing and loving the people, and benefit the common people, as long as this world belongs to me, how can I bear to destroy and kill?"

“……”

"I can see our future, I can see me sending everything to you, make up for your regrets, heal your pain, but why can't you see my future?"

I said sadly: "I can't believe what I see in front of me, what do you want me to take to believe in an invisible future?"

“……”

At this moment, his breath was also suffocated.

No illusory promise can compare to the fact of seeing, and for a man like him, he is more convinced of this truth than I am.

He looked at me silently for a long time, and then slowly turned his head and looked at the white snow scene around us, such a heavy snow in the south, probably he has not seen it for more than ten years, the white of heaven and earth can make many southerners ecstatic, and only those who have experienced it know that these white as 'jade' under it, I don't know how much filth is hidden.

He said softly: "Light, haven't you ever killed anyone yourself? You were born in Hongyan Building, don't you have a soul who died in vain on your hands?"

This time, I was speechless.

It's not that I can't answer, but I can't.

He obviously knows that not only in Hongyan Tower, but also in the Imperial City, there is more than one human life in my hands, and I am no stranger to murder than him.

He looked at me slowly and said, "Why did you kill those people?"

“……”

"Because you also understand that many things, not that you and I are willing to do, but that we all have to do them, and if we don't do this, we can't live. ”

“……”

"Do you think that I have never suffered pain, that I was born to be such a person, that I take pleasure in killing and war?"

“……”

"I've struggled, I've suffered. ”

When he said this, although the expression on his face was cold, I could more or less see the struggle and pain in his dark eyes.

I said softly, "And in the end, why did you choose this path?"

He looked at me and said word by word: "As long as people reach the absolute, there will be no suffering, and as long as they forget their feelings, they will be liberated." ”