cpa300_4(); He slowly stood up from the table.

The room was very spacious, but I don't know if it was my delusion, but when he stood up, the whole room became smaller, so oppressive that he could barely breathe.

And I stood in the doorway, watching him walk towards me step by step.

Like a mountain, when he walked in front of me, all the light was blocked, only his clear outline remained, and his face was mostly covered by shadows, and when he looked down at me, I didn't even know what kind of expression he used to look at me who had "come back from the dead".

The atmosphere in the room almost suffocated me.

Then, I watched as he slowly raised his hand.

I closed my eyes in fear.

He's going to hit me? Or do you want to choke my throat? I didn't dare to think about it, but the vivid pain in my memory came back to life at this moment, and I took a step back, only to find that I had no way out, the door was closed behind me, and the moment my back hit, I almost thought I was in a desperate situation.

However, the expected pain and suffocation did not come for a long time.

On the contrary, I felt a sensation on my face, even a gentle touch.

My eyes widened suddenly, but I met the close, dark and flickering eyes, he was almost close to my body, his heaving chest was already close to my undulating chest, and the whole person seemed to be covering me, imprisoning me between the door and his chest, and his hand was resting on my face.

I suddenly felt like I had been bitten by a poisonous snake, and I didn't dare to move.

He looked down at me, his eyes flickering as if something was about to shatter and fall, and I didn't want to look at him like that, so I immediately turned my face away.

But when he moved, he was also touched by his other hand.

With his hands slightly together, he gently held my cheeks as if he were holding a rare treasure, and the increasingly hot temperature of his palms was like the temperature in his eyes, almost burning me.

"Let go of me!"

"Don't move ......"

His voice was completely hoarse at this moment.

As if walking through a dry desert and finally finding a clear spring, his rock-steady hand trembled at this moment, and even his gaze was not so sure, looking at me, and then at me, breathing heavier and heavier, and the temperature more and more scorching.

Finally, I heard his voice whisper, "You're still alive......"

It was as if a needle had pierced his back and my chest, making my breathing and his breath chaotic and my heartbeat trembling.

I shivered in pain and looked up at him.

"You're still alive!"

As if to affirm this possibility, he repeated it again.

I wanted to say something, but my lips trembled slightly, and I couldn't say anything. In fact, no matter what he said, it was too late to meet him by this time, I had nothing to explain, and all the facts were laid out in front of him one by one.

I'm alive.

I married someone else.

I gave birth to our daughter.

We...... See you again.

It's like a play, and I have finally come to this point, and he and I, after experiencing life and death, separation, and an entanglement that I thought could be over, finally, we met again.

"You're alive."

“……”

"At that time, you jumped out of the boat, and you were as light as a bird. Until now, I don't think you're committing suicide, but feel like you've become an immortal. ”

The softer his voice, the more frightened my heart became, and I was so scared that I didn't even dare to breathe, almost suffocating as if I was being strangled by the hand of fate, like a trapped beast that had been cornered.

As if sensing my gaze, with a hint of desperate ferocity, he suddenly said, "What are you afraid of?" ”

“……”

"You're afraid I'll hurt you?"

"......" I didn't speak, but the vigilant and fearful gaze that looked at him was already clear.

As if suppressing something, he raised his head and took a long breath.

But his hands holding my face were always gentle, not even a little more force, and when he lowered his head to look at me again, those hands even began to gently rub my cheeks, and when his fingertips caressed my earlobes, they brought a burst of numbness that made me tremble.

"I know that at that time, you suffered a lot of grievances, and Yuquan also said that you committed suicide a few times when you were in prison."

“……”

"So, I don't blame you."

“……”

"I don't blame you for leaving me."

If I don't mention the beginning, I only have sudden fear in my heart, but after the fear, I find that all the past perceptions have been resurrected, pain, helplessness, and despair...... In the end, hate.

Every paragraph is blood and tears, I thought it was a matter of the previous life, and I don't want to repay anything in this life, just give me peace and happiness for half of my life.

But now-

I looked at him, but saw that his gaze also seemed to darken, but immediately, he raised his head and smiled at me, there seemed to be a sweet taste of happiness in that smile, he looked down at my already pale face, gently rubbed my trembling lips with his thumb, and said softly: "You are still alive, and that is enough." ”

I was like a beast trapped in a trap, completely choked by fate, and I didn't even have the strength to breathe at the moment.

And he looked at my frightened and helpless appearance, the corners of his mouth hooked a little faintly, as if the arc of a smile, and said softly: "Don't be afraid. ”

“……”

"I'm ...... too. Want to ......"

At the end of his words, it became a vague murmur on the tip of his tongue, as if he had fallen into a chaotic, unwilling to lucid dream, and I only felt one of his hands lift my chin, and then he closed his eyes in a daze, lowered his head to me, and slowly approached my lips......

No!

An exclamation in my heart suddenly woke me up from the suffocation of being choked by him, and I didn't know where I got the strength to push him away: "Don't! ”

He was caught off guard and was jerked by me, taking several steps back and knocking over the stool behind him.

I leaned against the door in terror, trembling with fear even for breath, staring at him with wide eyes as if I were watching a beast that was about to devour me, and if he took one more step closer to me, I would turn and run away.

As soon as I pushed him away, his face immediately showed anger, but when he looked up at my terrified appearance, the anger seemed to be extinguished again.

He smiled.

"Don't be afraid."

“……”

"I'm not going to—I don't want to hurt you."

“……”

"You've suffered a lot, I know."

But even if he said this, it couldn't make me relax in the slightest, I just felt that I was a rabbit crushed by a tiger under its claws, and when he was going to tear my throat was just a matter of rising, and at this moment, I didn't even have a little leverage to protect myself and Liu San'er.

After a long silence, I finally spoke, my voice hoarse as if it wasn't my own: "You-how did you find it-"

Before he finished speaking, there was another sound of footsteps outside the door.

Before he could react, Liu San'er had already pushed the door and walked in, and when he turned his head, he saw me leaning behind the door, and suddenly said "Huh": "Why are you here?" ”

"I—"

I was in a state of mind for a while, and I didn't know how to deal with it at all, but at this time, Pei Yuanhao said lightly: "Mrs. Zun saw that you haven't come back for a long time, and I want to go out to find you." ”

As he spoke, he looked at me, "Really? ”

With unspeakable tremors and fear, I nodded quickly.

Liu San'er immediately laughed, and while laughing, he led me back to the table and sat down, and said shyly: "Let you make fun of me." I've never eaten anything so spicy. ”

As he spoke, he was still inhaling, and I also knew that I shouldn't say or do anything lightly at this time, so I could only gently push the bowl of tea in front of me over, and said lightly: "Rinse again, don't eat it." ”

"Hmm." He nodded, took another long sip of tea, still frowning, and secretly stuck out his tongue.

In normal times, I would definitely laugh, but at this time, I can't laugh, and I don't even dare to laugh, so I can only look at him like this, and my eyes still have to hang on the opposite side, the man who has not said a word.

I don't know when he's going to make trouble, I just know that once he does, it's all over.

But Liu San'er still didn't seem to be aware of it, after drinking tea, she was a little better, turned her head to look at me again, and said with a smile: "In the future, when Li'er grows up, she must learn to eat spicy, don't make jokes like me." ”

My face shook slightly.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw the person on the other side standing up, and I suddenly opened my eyes nervously, and I saw him get up, smiled and said, "Speaking of Li'er, I actually prepared a gift for this child." ”

"What?" When Liu San'er heard this, he hurriedly waved his hand and said, "This is not good. Yuan Gongzi, you saved me before and took care of me for so long, it's already a great favor, how can you still ask for your things? ”

He smiled faintly, "It's not a big thing. It's just for the child, and it's a greeting gift. ”

With that, he pulled something out of his sleeve.

I subconsciously turned my head to take a look, and this glance immediately stunned me.

It was a red rope with a small shiny ornament hanging underneath, and if you looked closely, it turned out to be an orchid buckle made of gold!

My mind was messed up for a while - the orchid buckle fell off when I was in the Red Leaf Temple, and then although I wanted to go back and look for it again, I didn't find it back, I thought it was so lost, but how could it be in his hands?

No, no, how could he possibly find the orchid button, I'm afraid he took it off his clothes.

"Huh?"

I was still thinking so in my heart, and Liu San'er on the side stood up in surprise all of a sudden, looked at the pendant, and said, "This-this thing-"

Pei Yuanhao raised his eyes and looked at him: "What?" ”

Liu San'er twisted it up carefully, looked at it carefully, I was a little puzzled in my heart, I didn't know how he could be like this, I was puzzled, I heard him say: "How can this thing be in your hands?" ”

……

This time, not only me, but even Pei Yuanhao was stunned.

The two of us subconsciously glanced at each other, and then looked at Liu San'er who was stunned - what's the matter? Has he seen this orchid buckle?

I was surprised for a while, but Pei Yuanhao's eyes flashed, glanced at me, and then looked at him: "Have you seen it?" ”

"Hmm." San'er nodded vigorously and said, "It was a year or two ago, I went to the Red Leaf Temple to help, and when I was cleaning the Buddha Hall, I swept out this thing behind the Buddha flag. When I saw that it was gold, I wanted to give it to the abbot in charge of the temple, but when the abbot saw it, he said that it was not from the temple. But he also said that this thing is related to me, let me carry it, and it may be useful in the future. ”

At this moment, I was so shocked that I couldn't speak, and looked at him stupidly.

It turned out that the orchid buckle was picked up by him.

At this time, I suddenly remembered that when I was in the Red Leaf Temple, I was angry and told me that there was a villager in Jixiang Village who would help them clean the Buddhist hall, but it was just a random sentence, and I didn't want to remember it; Now I finally understand why that little novice would say those inexplicable things to me, it turns out that he said it because of Liu San'er!

I tugged at his sleeve with a little trembling: "So, what's wrong with this button—"

He glanced at me, as if he was a little ashamed, and hesitated for a moment before saying, "At that time, I-your health was not good, and the doctor said that you should use good medicine, otherwise you will not be able to survive." At that time, there was really no money at home, so there was only this left, and I had no choice but to take this as a treat. ”

By the way, he mentioned it once, because I was seriously ill and needed good medicine, he used to be a thing, but I never imagined that what he should have was this orchid buckle!

I looked at the golden, lifelike orchid buckle in his palm.

It was torn off Pei Yuanhao's chest and put on my chest, and later lost and picked up by him, but in order to save my life, he pawned it out. Later, then later-I slowly turned my head and looked at Pei Yuanhao, who was standing on the side with a gloomy face, he seemed to be a little shocked, and there was not much change for a while, but those eyes were terrifyingly dark.

What is this qiē?

Margin? Or is it sin?

Since I met Liu San'er for the second time, I have believed that I have a fate with him, otherwise, I would not meet him at the staircase of the inn in the crowd of living beings, neither early nor late, and the words he said to me were the first warmth I really felt when I came to the people; And I committed suicide by jumping into the river, but I was rescued by him, and even found out that he was Liu Shizhou's son and Liu Yi's younger brother.

But now, I realize that our fate is deeper than I knew.

But when I knew-

Thinking of this, I bit my lower lip and slowly raised my head, Pei Yuanhao also looked at us, I don't know if it was my illusion, although the room was brightly lit, but at this moment, his face and eyes were thick haze, although the corners of his mouth had the arc of a smile, but there was no slightest smile in those deep eyes.

After a while, he said: "I like to collect some interesting things, and I accidentally found this from Jubao Zhai, so I have been staying by my side, thinking that Liu Gongzi's child is about to be born, so I used this as a meeting gift, but I didn't expect——"

He glanced at me: "It's been around for a long time. ”

“……”

Liu San'er also laughed: "If you want to say that there is really fate in this world, otherwise, it would not be such a coincidence." I just don't know, who dropped this thing, and who fulfilled this fate? ”

Hearing this, my face turned pale, and I reluctantly smiled: "Why bother to find the source, some things are just right to be broken here." ”

After saying this, he glanced at me.

I lowered my head and looked at the orchid buckle, the golden light was a little dazzling, but it was not as good as his gaze, which made me feel palpitations. Now I understand how he found me. At first, he didn't know that this orchid buckle was left behind by me, maybe he thought that if I was still alive and had no long things, I could only sell some things to make a living, so it would not be difficult to find this orchid buckle and find me again.

But on the contrary, Liu San'er, who saved me, picked up this orchid mouth, but it was to save me, so that he had a clue to find us.

At this time, I suddenly felt a little funny, laughed sadly, and laughed sadly.

I recall that when I was in Jixiang Village, I wrote letters for others, and all of them changed my handwriting because I was afraid of being recognized; In the embroidery workshop, he never used Shu embroidery, because he had my embroidery in his hands. Every move, I am cautious, for fear of crossing the thunder pool by half a step, I just want to quietly guard Liu San'er, guard our family that is not rich, but has a full of happiness, and live the rest of my life.

But I didn't expect that I had already left the most dangerous thing behind, or-

I looked at Liu San'er beside me a little blankly, looking at the happy smile on his face, I only felt helpless in my heart, completely helpless, as if the last bit of strength in my body that could hold on was taken away.

After all, can't I escape?

It's come to this point, I've ended it with death, God still has such an arrangement, why can't I get rid of it, can't escape, why?! How long will I be entangled with him?

Can't even die?

Pei Yuanhao kept looking at me heavily, with a hint of depression on his face, and after a long time, he finally smiled and said, "I want to hug the child." ”