In the process of contact with Meng Tao, Jin Wei found that Meng Tao was not as eccentric as Meng Yao said, on the contrary, he was very good, in the current six-star adjective, it was very warm, his voice was very good, and he was also very humorous, and he would suddenly tell a joke and say something about him in France. But since he started to help her learn French, he rarely talked about Meng Yao again, only asking her not to tell Meng Yao about how he taught her French, because it would cause a lot of unnecessary trouble.

Jin Wei is actually very curious, Meng Tao is such a good person, she doesn't know what kind of person Meng Tao is in real life, but she knows that in the process of their online contact, Jin Wei feels that he is a very good person, and he is definitely not the otaku that Meng Yao said.

Jin Wei couldn't help but think of why Meng Yao became an Internet celebrity, he saved the old man, but he didn't want to admit that Jin Wei didn't understand it at that time, and she still doesn't understand it now, otherwise she wouldn't have been so curious. Jin Wei suddenly wanted to meet him, meet this strange person, and see what kind of person he was in real life. Soon, Jin Wei turned off her phone and lay on the bed looking at the ceiling, waiting for her to learn French, this day is not far away.

Meng Yao came back in a few days, she was still as enthusiastic and active as before, and she would chat with Jin Wei when she was fine, which made Jin Wei very stressed, because she was really not very good at deceiving people, and she might accidentally tell her about the contact with Meng Tao.

In this short month, a lot of things have happened in the entertainment industry, and Jin Wei has not taken the initiative to pay attention to it, but entertainment news is playing in the canteen at noon every day, and during the time when Meng Yao is not there, there have always been people sitting in the prime position where she watches entertainment news, so even if Jin Wei doesn't want to know these things, she will inevitably hear other people talking about it when she is in the pantry. But she could control herself, she just listened, didn't go online to watch, didn't call Bai Bai or Su Lingrui. Jin Wei didn't know how she managed to be so calm, it seemed that those things were really far away from her, so far away that she didn't want to think about it anymore, didn't want to pay attention to it anymore, and wanted to escape.

It's because she's sad, right? Because she knows that she can't get it, because even if she tries hard, she can't reach that position, and she can't get to his heart.

Thinking of this, Jin Wei couldn't help but scold himself again, didn't he still have confidence in himself before? But there is another voice in my heart saying, yes, you can stand by his side, you can become as good as him, but you can never go to her heart. Jin Wei didn't know if it was because she knew Meng Tao, and such a stranger brought her warmth, or because she suddenly understood in her heart that if Wu Lan really liked her, he wouldn't treat her so rationally. I won't rationally divide her out of this matter, and I won't feel that she is a burden. Jin Wei once comforted herself, it was because Wu Lan wanted to protect her and didn't like her to be hurt, and she could understand his intentions. But Jin Wei always felt that something was missing. It's like a very steady fire, it keeps burning slowly, it is difficult to extinguish, and it is difficult to become a strong fire. Maybe this is life, she remembered that she had seen it in a book, no matter how vigorous love is, it will eventually return to peace and life, love is vigorous and earth-shattering, but staying together is a long stream, calm and long. Wu Chao wants that long-distance, Jin Wei is looking forward to that vigor in her heart, she wants to be pampered by Wu Chao like Tang Huan, and she doesn't want to love so hard. I don't know when it started, Jin Wei felt that her love for Wu Lan had become a demand, she was unwilling to blindly pay anymore, she was eager to be reciprocated. But although she writes a lot about love, she herself still does not move, she is still fascinated by the authorities, not knowing that love can never be asked, and the more you ask for it, the more you will not get love. Love should be giving, like she loved Wu Chao before, in order to see him and work hard to make herself better, in order to be his girlfriend, instead of blindly blaming him for why he doesn't care about herself, because at that time her wish was very simple, she just hoped to be close to Wu Chao, as long as she could be by his side. But as she got closer and closer to Wu Chao, her ambitions became bigger and bigger, and when Wu Chao began to accept her, all she wanted to think about was no longer just by his side.

Maybe Wu Chao is not wrong, it is she who is wrong, what is wrong is that she stood in the wrong position from the beginning, what is wrong is that she misunderstood her positioning, what is wrong is that she appeared at the wrong time, and the wrong time with him is wrong. That's why all this feels so embarrassing, it's not that Wu Chao doesn't love her and doesn't care about her, but that she loves each other in her self-righteousness, runs away if she doesn't want to love, and even thinks that Wu Chao will care about her if she hides. But now? The harsh reality told her that she was thinking too much, and that she couldn't support him when he needed help, but she was still holding him back, hoping that he would care about her again in addition to solving his own troubles.

It's ridiculous, it's selfish. Jin Wei blamed herself like this in her heart, she found that she was wrong, she was wrong, she was wrong, she didn't have the face to face Wu Chao again. She felt very self-righteous, she appeared when she wanted to appear, and she hid when she wanted to hide, but what about Wu Chao? He was still there, he had a lot of things to deal with, he had a lot of people to deal with, and there were many people who wanted to stick a knife in his back. And what about her?

Jin Wei suddenly thought of the time when Wu Chao and Tang Huan broke up, once a reporter blocked the door of the crew and threw rotten eggs into the crew, she dared to stand bravely at the door of the crew to block those rotten eggs, but now? Does she have the courage to face the media? Or, does she have that heart?

Thinking of this, Jin sat up from the bed slightly, her heart was pounding, she suddenly realized a very serious problem, what was she doing?

If Wu Chao loves her, then she has nothing to fear, if Wu Chao doesn't love her, she is directing and acting here, and she thinks she is a victim. Maybe Wu Chao wasn't worried about her, but because he was disappointed in her, he thought she was different, thought she could always be by his side, and thought she could always be like Jin Wei who dared to stand at the door of the crew and was smashed with rotten eggs. But she changed, she became vexatious, she no longer cared about him, she became that he should care about her, she became calculating. She cared too much about her feelings, but she forgot that whether it was Wu Chao or Bai Bai and Su Lingrui, they were now facing a life-and-death war. And she, Jin Wei, the one who kept saying that she loved Wu Chao, chose to escape at this time, and thought that everyone thought she had a mental problem.

What was wrong? Jin Wei asked herself, but there was no answer in her heart, it was so chaotic, so chaotic that she didn't know what she was thinking. Jin Wei picked up the mobile phone on the bedside table and turned it on, she quickly and skillfully pressed the string of numbers she had memorized for a long time on the dialing page, but she didn't know whether she should call or not. It's eleven o'clock, is he sleeping? Or is he still working overtime in the company? Will it disturb his work? Jin Wei hesitated to hold the phone, seeing that the screen was dark, she quickly clicked it, but she never had the courage to dial the string of numbers. This process was repeated for a long time, so long that Jin Wei was a little irritable, but at this moment, the mobile phone in her hand suddenly rang, Jin Wei hurriedly lowered her head, but the mobile phone screen displayed an unfamiliar number, from abroad.

It's Meng Tao.

At this time, the name flashed in Jin Wei's mind, but why did he call so late? Jin Wei thought about it and answered, they had already told each other on WeChat that they wanted to rest, so if there was nothing to do, Meng Tao should not call. Jin Wei answered the phone, and heard Meng Tao's anxious voice over there, chatting for so long, Jin Wei heard his anxious voice for the first time, he said, "Weiwei, are you sleeping? Please do me a favor." ”

"No, I don't. Say, what's the matter?" Hearing his anxious look, Jin Wei's heart suddenly sank, and he felt that something very big had happened.

"Do you know where Meng Yao lives?"

"You know, it's not very far from me. ”

"That's great, can you go over to her now, she's in a bit of a bad mood, I'm afraid she will do something irrational, can you help me go and see her?"

"Of course you can, then let's not talk about it, I'll go over. ”

"Good. ”

Jin Wei quickly hung up the phone, changed into a casual dress, and went out. Fortunately, the place where she lives is not very far from where Meng Yao lives, and she can walk to it in five minutes. When Jin Wei walked to the downstairs where Meng Yao lived, she saw that there were only two or three rooms on the building with lights on, and she remembered that Meng Yao lived on the eleventh floor, and there was indeed a room on the eleventh floor with lights on. Jin Wei took out his mobile phone and quickly dialed Meng Yao, and then quickly walked to the elevator.

Meng Yao's phone has not been answered, and when Jin Wei arrived at her place, the door of one family was open, and with intuition, Jin Wei walked in.

"Meng Yao. ”

The lights were on in the house, but there was no shadow of Meng Yao in the living room, and no one spoke, so Jin Wei continued to call Meng Yao, and soon she heard the sound of the mobile phone ringing, and Jin Wei looked for the sound. It was a bedroom, and on the bed in the bedroom, Jin Wei saw a piece of clothing that Meng Yao was wearing today, and he could probably determine that this was Meng Yao's room. The phone was also on the bed, but there was no one in the room. Jin Wei saw that the door of the windowsill was open, so he trotted over.

It was pitch black outside, Jin Wei could only turn on her mobile phone, there was no one in the window, but she saw Meng Yao sitting on the ground as if she was drunk.

"I opened the window and wanted to jump, but in the end I still didn't have the courage, this is the eleventh floor, if I jump I will definitely fall badly, I will definitely die, I don't want to die, I don't want to die so badly. ”

"That's right. Jin Wei squatted down and grabbed Meng Yao's hand and said, "It's not that you don't have courage, but you are very brave, and you need more courage to live than to die." ”

"Really?" Meng Yao looked at Jin Wei with a weak smile, "Weiwei, why are you here?"

"Your brother called me and said he was afraid that something would happen to you, so let me come and see you. ”

"Really?" Meng Yao sneered, "Will he care about me? If he really cares about me, why has he been avoiding me for so many years, why has I contacted him, he ignores me, and if you contact him, he will have endless words to talk to you." ”

"No, he's just ...... tonight" Although I don't know how Meng Yao knew that she and Meng Tao had been in contact, Jin Wei planned to keep it hidden, maybe Meng Yao was just guessing?

"You don't have to explain, I know it, I can guess, and besides, you really can't lie. Meng Yao smiled weakly, "He is such a person, he can be good to strangers, he can be good to friends, he can be good to his parents, but he is the only one who will not be good to me, Weiwei, what do you say I am not good? ”

"No, you're good. "Jin Wei said truthfully," Seriously, I haven't taught a friend for many years, and I rarely have the ability to stand up to a stranger who has been by my side to talk about it, although you are very talkative, and always pull hatred in front of me, making me jealous that you have a brother who can quarrel, but I am still willing to be with you, although I am not very willing to talk with you often about some of the haves and haves, but with you, I feel very motivated, you are always so enthusiastic, so positive, unlike me, like a pool of stagnant water, like a retarded person who always feels that others owe me hundreds of dollars, all the bad things in my heart are written on my face, and I think I am cool。 ”

"I'll just think you're complimenting me. Meng Yao took Jin Wei's hand a little excitedly, "Then you said that I am so good, why does he hate me so much?"

"That's definitely not right for him, I think he may have something wrong with his brain, he has such a cute sister, he should take it out every day to show off, and then buy her delicious and beautiful clothes, protect her, and play with her. ”

Meng Yao nodded in agreement, "I also think it should be like this, but he always avoids me." ”

"Did you talk to him, and why did he avoid you? Is it because you're so cute?"

Meng Yao's expression darkened again, she let go of Jin Wei's hand, and after a while, Jin Wei saw that there was an extra bottle of beer in her hand, and after a few sips, she looked at Jin Wei as if she finally had the courage.

"Actually, he's not my own brother. ”

"What?"

Before Jin Wei could react to the meaning of Meng Yao's words, she heard her say, "He was adopted by my father from the orphanage, because I was very worried when I was a child, I didn't dare to go out, I didn't dare to go to school, I didn't dare to sleep alone, and I was always bullied at school, so my father adopted him from kindergarten and said that from now on I will have a brother, he can protect me, he can help me get rid of the students who bullied me, and the devil in my dreams, it was when I was five years old, and his arrival brought sunshine to my life." ”

Jin Wei nodded thoughtfully, but felt as if there was something he didn't quite understand.