Just after New Year's Day in the 17th year, in a small county town in the northeast. www.biquge.info This morning, the cold wind was howling, the weather was gloomy, as if it was about to start snowing, and the air was filled with the smell of burning coal, which made people feel extremely depressed, and inhaling the air in their stomachs made people feel a burst of dry cracking and stinging in their lungs.

Such a gloomy air made Ma Xiaodong, who was already thirty years old, feel extremely desperate. Eleven years ago, 20-year-old Ma Xiaodong didn't earn much money because he worked outside, so he followed his parents to the Great Northern Wilderness to farm.

Originally, Ma Xiaodong thought that his hometown was relatively sparse compared to the southern region, but when it came to the Great Northern Wilderness, he saw what it meant to be sparsely populated.

Every family in this place has hundreds or thousands of acres of land to cultivate, and although farming is not a high-reward occupation, it can still make money if you plant more. But hundreds of acres of land, it is impossible for a family to plant it, so they recruited workers to help, and Ma Xiaodong's family was the recruited workers.

Farming is a very tiring job, and from spring to autumn, there is basically no day to spare. Therefore, the salary offered by the hired person is higher than that of working in the big city.

Ma Xiaodong's family has had a big change, he is poor, he still owes a lot of foreign debts, and he doesn't dare to go home for the New Year, for fear of blocking the door of the account, so he was introduced to the Great Northern Wilderness to farm.

The Great Northern Wilderness is a plain area, the land is vast and sparsely populated, as far as the eye can see, there are endless fields, and there are no villages. Ma Xiaodong's family, who was hired, lived in the field, and there was a small house in the field for planting workers.

In such a damp and cold environment, Ma Xiaodong, who was not very strong, fell ill all of a sudden. Ma Xiaodong's illness made the already impoverished family even worse.

However, no matter whose child is sick, the parents will not give up if they have the slightest hope, so Ma Xiaodong's father Ma Hongguo continued to work hard here to make money, and Ma Xiaodong's mother Yang Guizhi took Ma Xiaodong, who was no longer able to walk independently, and began to seek medical advice.

The process of treatment is naturally anxious and painful, Yang Guizhi secretly weeps every day when she looks at her son who is in pain, and God has not caught up with this family to a dead end, Ma Xiaodong's illness was finally diagnosed. In addition to rheumatism in the legs, lesions of the femoral head in the crotch, there is ankylosing spondylitis. This disease can be treated, the best way is surgery, the operation fee is not expensive, plus the later recovery cost, it is 70,000 or 80,000 yuan.

But these 70,000 or 80,000 yuan, even if they sell the lives of this family, they can't get it back. God is very kind to Ma Xiaodong, the operation can't afford it, it doesn't matter, there is a way, hospitalization conservative treatment, it can also be cured, although the cost is about the same, but the hospitalization is long-term, you can earn and pay at the same time. Not much, about 20,000 yuan a month, three or four months is about fine.

20,000 yuan a month! Ma Xiaodong's family gets up at 3 o'clock in the morning and sleeps at 7 o'clock in the evening every day in the Great Northern Wilderness, and the cost of 20,000 yuan a year for three talents is not enough to sell blood!

If this doesn't work, then there is only one last way left, go home and hold on, when is it good, it depends on God's wishes, so Yang Guizhi bought some medicine under the threat of Ma Xiaodong's death, returned home, and resigned himself to fate.

Although he was not treated in the hospital, the cost of taking medicine every month was also thousands of yuan, and in order to make money to let the child have medicine, Yang Guizhi could only endure the pain and leave his paralyzed son and return to the Great Northern Wilderness to continue farming. entrusted Ma Xiaodong to his daughter Ma Lihua, who had already been married.

Ma Xiaodong began to recuperate at his sister's house, and because he was paralyzed in bed, he had to be served by his sister every day, dressed and eaten, which can be said to be meticulous. Ma Xiaodong's sister did not complain at all, and always comforted and encouraged her younger brother that she could stand up one day. Although my sister is very good.

But after a long time, Ma Xiaodong's brother-in-law was a little unwilling, just a month after his sister's house, Ma Lihua began to quarrel with her husband because of her younger brother, and slowly Ma Xiaodong naturally noticed it, feeling embarrassed, and blaming himself like a knife, but a person who is paralyzed in bed, even if you are hard and backbone, you can't live except for suicide, then you can only endure it.

Although Ma Xiaodong's disease is not a fatal disease, the pain of this disease is incomprehensible to ordinary people, especially on cloudy, rainy and snowy days, Ma Xiaodong, who used to hurt, hit his head against the wall.

Every time he falls asleep at night and is woken up by pain, Ma Xiaodong has the urge to die, 20 years old, it is the best years in a person's life, but he is paralyzed in bed. The desperate Ma Xiaodong wanted to die many times, but think about his parents who are suffering in the Great Northern Wilderness, if they die, can they still survive?

So Ma Xiaodong began to grit his teeth and do rehabilitation exercises, and stopped taking painkillers, because it is said that painkillers will affect recovery, so even if it hurts again, Ma Xiaodong resolutely refuses to take it.

A year later, Ma Xiaodong's illness has basically recovered, and he can walk and move like a normal person, although it still hurts on rainy and cloudy days, but he can already do some simple work.

In 2008, Ma Xiaodong worked in a small factory in the county after recovery, although the salary was not high, but this was one of the few jobs that Ma Xiaodong could do.

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"Squeak", the sound of opening the door, interrupted Ma Xiaodong, who was reminiscing about the past, without looking back, Ma Xiaodong continued to look out the window, the sky had already fallen snowflakes, as if to finally bring a trace of color and hope to the gloomy sky.

"Cleaned up?" Ma Xiaodong's voice was a little hoarse.

"En" The woman who opened the door lowered her head and nodded.

"Stay safe on the road. ”

"Do you blame me?"

Ma Xiaodong finally took his eyes back from the window, looked at the woman at the door, and said with a smile on the corner of his mouth: "No, you don't have to be burdened, this is not to blame on you, I am not a child, understand you, let's go, I can't catch the train if it's late." ”

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I'm sorry!

Ma Xiaodong's eyes were red, he raised his head, reversed the tears that had flowed into the corners of his eyes, and patted the woman's back, "Okay, you didn't feel sorry for me, you have suffered with me for so many years, I'm sorry for you, now that you have a good future, of course I can't stop you, go!"

The woman listened to Ma Xiaodong's words, raised her head, glanced at Ma Xiaodong deeply, turned around and pulled up the luggage that had been prepared long ago and left without looking back.

Ma Xiaodong looked at the empty home, felt the bursts of cone-like pain in his heart, closed his eyes deeply, and a tear still couldn't stop staying.