Day 196 My own life
Of course, Jin's mother didn't want Jin Wei to be like that.
"I'm sorry."
Seeing that Jin's mother was stunned, Jin Wei apologized: "I shouldn't have said that." ”
Jin secretly regretted that she shouldn't have said these words, which poked her mother's pain and made the negotiation end in failure.
"No," Mother Kim smiled back, "I'm the one who should say I'm sorry, I shouldn't have forced you to do something you don't like to do." ”
"Ahh Jin looked at Jin's mother in surprise, and wondered if her words just now were too heavy, which made her mother a little sad.
"Mom, you're not talking back, are you?" Compromise so easily, how could this be her mother.
"No, my mother thought of one thing just now, and suddenly I figured out a lot, you're right, this is your life, my mother can't make decisions for you, and I can't make you embarrassed, I did raise you, but I don't have the right to ask you to live the life I arranged for you, if you do what I want everywhere, then I might as well buy a rag doll, who I want her to marry, she must get married, and the rag doll is more obedient than you."
"That's for sure......"
Jin smiled and asked tentatively, "Did you figure it out yourself?" ”
Mother Jin nodded, "Yes, you are not the toy that my father and I bought, but our child, we gave birth to you and raised you, just hoping that you can live happily, let alone repeat our life." ”
Mother Jin sighed helplessly, "Maybe it's because of your grandmother's traditional concepts, I always feel that I came over like this, and you will definitely not be wrong like this, but I forgot that you have the right to choose your own life, as for when to get married and who to marry, it is your own decision, as long as you don't regret it,"
Jin Wei stared at Mother Jin in disbelief, this attitude changed a little too fast, right?
"Why, are you suspecting that Mom is lying to you?" Seeing Jin Wei's suspicious gaze, Mother Jin couldn't help asking.
"That's for sure." Jin smiled, "You just made me obey your old man's words with righteousness and awe, and now you suddenly say that you don't care about anything, everything goes along with me, can I not doubt it?" Not only do I suspect you're lying to me, but I also suspect that your brain is in the water. ”
"Is your brain just in the water?"
Mother Jin glared at Jin Wei, "Did you talk to your mother like this?" ”
"Yes, Mother, I was wrong, I shouldn't have doubted your sincerity, so tell me, how did you suddenly figure it out?"
"I thought of myself when I was younger." Mother Kim said as she walked under the TV cabinet and took out a photo album from inside. This is their family's photo album, Jin Wei has flipped through it many times, and it is full of photos of her mother and father when they were young. But what does this have to do with her mother suddenly figuring it out?
Jin Wei was thinking about it, so Jin's mother sat on the sofa with the album, then opened the album and beckoned Jin Wei to come and see.
"Look, this is my wedding photo with your dad."
Her mother was referring to two wedding photos, one was taken when they got married, and the faces of the two of them looked very reluctant on the wedding photo, although they were smiling, but it was obviously a wry smile, and the two of them were unhappy at the time.
The second wedding photo was taken 30 years after they got married, and although the people in the photo no longer look young, it can be seen that they have a happy smile on their faces, at least compared to the wedding photo 30 years ago, it is much happier.
"This one," Jin's mother pointed to the wedding photo from thirty years ago and said to Jin Wei, "It was taken when I knew your father for three months, and at that time your father and I didn't agree to this family business, but because we reached the age of marriage, and both parents were very satisfied, we could only get married." ”
"At that time, I also resisted, just like you argued with me, I don't know how many times I argued with your grandfather."
Speaking of this, Mother Jin's face showed a hint of helplessness, "It's a pity, I didn't fight your grandfather in the end and married your father." The same is true of your father, who may be worse than me, because of your aunt's affairs, he had to give up his dreams for the sake of your grandparents. So when we first got married, neither of us paid attention to each other, so you were born relatively late. ”
"After so many years, it's not weird, it's fake, I even thought about divorcing your father, but because your grandma is not in good health, I'm afraid that something will happen to her in a fit of anger, so I don't dare to do that, I have endured it until later, with you, the responsibility is more, I know that it is impossible for me and your father to divorce again, so I can only endure it all the time."
"You're right, the marriage of our generation does not rely on love, but on patience, even if it is unhappy, because of the children and family, they will endure. Your grandma and grandpa are the same, so I thought, maybe life is like this, but I don't want you to find someone who is not satisfactory like me, so I can only look at those boys first, and only let you go on a blind date after I think they are good. But Mom forgot, no matter how carefully Mom picks, it's not someone you like after all. ”
After Jin's mother finished speaking, she smiled warmly at Jin Wei, the love in her eyes was self-evident, she loved Jin Wei, and even tried her best not to let Jin Wei be the same as her, but she still ignored the most important point, in the relationship between parents and children, the most important thing is not whether the parents give the child the best, but what the child really wants.
There are thousands of people in the world, 80% of them live the same life, Jin Wei wants to become the 20% of people, she should not be blocked, but should be encouraged, encourage her to be brave and be herself, and should be proud and happy because she has such an awareness, her daughter is special and different.
She will have a brilliant life.
This is the idea she should have the most, not for the sake of her own face, delaying Jin Wei's life.
"Really?" Jin Wei still expressed doubts, her mother was suddenly so reasonable, could it be because of her words that made her sad?
"Of course it's true, my mother figured it out, if you want to continue your studies, you can continue your studies, but there is one point, you can't enter the entertainment industry."
"That's definitely okay, I'm thirty years old, even if I have the back door when I am king, I can't become a star. And I never thought about being a star, Mom, you don't know, being a star is very tiring, don't look at their glamorous appearance, in fact, they are much more tired than us, filming summer scenes in winter, filming winter scenes in summer, going to bed late at night, getting up very early in the morning, just your daughter and I are lazy, I can't become a star in the next life. ”
Mother Jin glared at Jin Wei and feigned anger: "You know what I'm talking about. ”
Jin Wei grinned, "I want to marry, it depends on whether people want to marry or not, that's Wu Chao, big star, who am I?" In ancient times, it was a girl in the mountains, do you think people might like me? ”
"It's good that you understand, the gap between you is too big, and the water in the entertainment industry is too deep, he can't even handle his own affairs well, what can he do to protect you? I saw them and that North Company on TV, and when the chaos is like this, it must be because of his poor leadership ability, if something really happens in the future, I think he may not be able to deal with it, I don't want you to follow in your aunt's footsteps. ”
"I know mom, don't I want to go abroad for further study, in the future, I don't want to rely on men, but on myself, from now on, I don't want to use the platform given to me by Wang Shi, but to become a real writer, the kind that contributes to the publishing house, so next I want to become a god, and then become a real writer, not a friend of anyone."
Mother Jin nodded with satisfaction, "That's right, this is my baby daughter, you understand, it's better to make yourself strong than relying on who is in the position, Mom supports your decision, and I hope you can see the outside world." ”
"Maybe I'll meet someone better then, right?"
Kim smiled and said what Mother Kim wanted to say and stopped.
"That's right, I hope you can find a stable person who can live this life steadily."
"Okay, I'll do my best not to let you worry about me, and please rest assured, I'll try to be strong."
"Okay, Mom believes in you."
The moment he hugged Jin's mother, Jin Wei suddenly felt that he had made the right decision.
Life is full of helplessness, she is not the only one who can't do what she wants to do, there are many people in this world who have chosen the life they have to accept because of various pressures, and she feels that she can even feel the complicated feelings in her mother's heart.
Jin Wei didn't think that all marriages that were blind date together would not be happy, she just saw that her parents' marriage was not bumpy, but it was full of politeness, and that kind of respect was not what she wanted. Of course, if you marry someone you like, you may get tired of each other, because the life of firewood, rice, oil and salt is not as simple as you imagined.
She just wants to choose love at the beginning, even if she is covered in bruises because of this, it is better than after the joys and sorrows of a person she doesn't love, she feels that she has married once and lived this life in vain.
Jin Wei always feels that life is like collecting things, for those who understand, even if the liver and intestines are broken, it is also an endless aftertaste, and for those who don't understand, no matter how good love is, it is rubbish.
When the luggage was almost packed, Hua Suo called, and Jin Wei thought about it and pressed the answer button.
"Sister Weiwei, why do I see your room is empty?"
"I'm home." Jin Wei said, looked at the packed luggage, and finally decided not to tell Hua Suo, "I won't go back to Lihai for the time being." ”
"You're in City A?" Huasuo couldn't believe it.
"Yes."
"Are you okay? I'm afraid that Liu Yufeng and their family will make trouble for you. ”
"No, it's a peaceful society now, they can't do anything to me even if they are looking for trouble, besides, if I have something to do, just go to the police."
"Have you forgotten that his father is the chief of public security? Does anyone care about you? ”
"Now that it's a legal society, do you really think they can do whatever they want? Okay, it's really fine, and my parents are still at home. ”
"That's right, then don't go out and run around, stay at home, I gave you the task, you have to complete it as soon as possible, and leave it to me?"
"Well, I see, I'm not a kid anymore."
"Okay, let's do this first, I'll call you later."
After hanging up the phone, Jin Wei breathed a sigh of relief and chose to be brave, which is really a very exciting thing.
On the other side, Hua Suo hung up the phone and turned to look behind him and asked, "I said I was back home, in City A." ”
"Why did she suddenly go back to City A?" Wu ranned his cheeks, thinking about whether he had done something wrong, which made Jin Wei think wildly.
"Maybe it's homesickness?" Hua Suo asked, after asking, he felt that this answer was a bit idiotic, if he was homesick, why did he pack his luggage?
"I don't think so, it should be the reason for that phone, you know, Weiwei doesn't like to be a burden to others the most, I think she may have realized that Liu Yufeng looking for her will put pressure on you, so she left, so you don't have to be distracted to take care of her anymore."
"But she is very safe in my house, Liu Fufeng will never find her."
"I'm not saying she's safe, it's that she feels like she's a burden to us, so she'd rather go home. But it's good to go home, the war between Chaoshi and Jiangbei is about to start, to be honest, I'm really afraid that I can't protect her, I think her mother must be afraid that Jin Wei will be like her aunt, that kind of tragedy, we don't want it to happen again. Let's go back, we can do what we need to do without scruples. ”
"You're right."
Hua Suo smiled, "The movie is about to finish, and we have to take action." Recently, it has been going to be filmed and television has been ready to move, I think they must also have action, and that Liu Yufeng, I don't know if I have an occupational disease and think that he has a problem with his thinking, or if he really has a mental problem, I always feel that he thinks things differently from others. ”
Wu Yan shook his head and said, "It's not that you have an occupational disease, but that he really has a mental problem, haven't you been investigating your sister's affairs recently?" Have you watched that video a few times? ”
"You mean the video where my sister and Liu Yufeng are together? I watched it several times, and to be honest, at first I wanted to find clues from that video, but I watched that video several times and found nothing. ”
"I've looked at it twice before, and I didn't find anything, but when you said he had a mental problem, something suddenly occurred to me."
Wu took out a USB flash drive from the drawer and plugged it into the computer, and said to Hua Suo, "Come, let's look at it again, let me confirm my conjecture." ”
"What conjecture?" Hua Suo asked, walked up to Wu Chao, and looked at the computer screen.
"Speculation about how your sister died."