I'm not mentally ill!

Although he knew the panic in his heart, Jin Wei kept telling himself this sentence in his heart.

She didn't want to be a neurotic.

Nobody wants to.

On the table was the new mobile phone that Hua Suo bought for her, of course she understood the meaning of this, Hua Suo should have guessed that Liu Yufeng would come to him, so he wanted him to change his mobile phone and mobile phone number.

In the past few days, Jin Wei has always been concerned about entertainment news, about Jiangbei and the chaos, as well as Liu Yanfeng, she knows more or less.

They are about to officially "launch", Jin Wei suddenly realized that perhaps, only she felt that she was hiding. She thought that others did not know her whereabouts, but in fact, they probably did.

How did it come to be like this?

Jin Wei has never felt that she has a mental problem, at least she has never felt that she has a mental problem before that. If her best friend died, or did she die at her birthday party, would she have mental problems if she wasn't sad?

Although this sad time is a little long, Jin Wei has always felt that it is normal. She had never thought about these things, but she didn't know what had happened lately, and she didn't know from whose mouth this spiritual problem had come from, and so on! Of course she knew whose mouth the source of this spiritual name came from, and that it was never a big deal.

A few days back, Jin Wei almost remembered the source of the matter, because she suddenly fainted on her birthday......

There is also the appearance of Liu Yufeng.

If she hadn't come to Li Hai for nothing, if she hadn't met Liu Yufeng, even if she wasn't a normal person, she would have been as mentally insane as she is now, right?

Hehe!

Jin smiled bitterly, looking at the dark night sky, there was a trace of satisfaction in his heart.

She felt very satisfied to be able to publish, to meet Wu Chao, to be friends with him, and to spend those happy times with him. At least I have no regrets in this life.

The last time he wanted to avoid them, Jin Wei felt that he was indeed running away, because he was insecure, because he always felt sad. But she didn't know where that sadness came from, and now that she thinks about it, it may be because she is too hypocritical. I always feel that the world owes me, and I always feel that I should be sad.

But no one owes anyone, especially Wu Chao, it is she who has to break into his life, and she has to enter this other party who does not belong to her.

Now, it's time to leave, to really leave.

Seeing Wu Chao, her dream has been fulfilled.

You can't be a burden to him, you should become a better version of yourself.

Jin Wei picked up the phone on the table, accepted Huasuo's intention, and made the most important decision for her.

Leaving Li Hai, this is not the first time she has made such a determination, but she hopes that it will be the last time, and when she comes back, it will no longer be Jin Wei, who is timid and cowardly in everyone's hearts, but the self she once dreamed of, she can cope with all difficulties and will no longer be a burden to anyone.

She wanted to go abroad, but because she didn't have a passport, she had to wait for a while, so she went back to City A and told her parents about her decision. Jin's father and mother didn't say anything, this is Jin Wei's decision, and it's not a bad thing to go abroad to study.

It's just that Jin Wei's lifelong events can't help but make them a little worried, and when she comes back, there will be nearly thirty people, and they are really old leftover girls, and it is not easy to get married.

Jin Wei and her mother have talked about this issue many times, so she has to admit that there is a big generation gap between their two generations. She does not deny the importance of marriage, and she has never thought of never marrying for life, she just wants to find the right person and find someone she loves to marry.

Jin's mother moved to the example of their generation, saying that the divorce rate of free love is also very high, on the other hand, the blind date of their generation rarely divorces, so blind date is the most reliable way, because many people come over like this.

Jin Wei didn't want to refute anything, in fact, she wanted to ask, didn't the two of you also want to get married at that time? I haven't divorced for so many years not because you have a good relationship, but because you don't have the courage to divorce, whether it's because of her child, or because you don't want to be laughed at by outsiders, in short, the two of you have been making do for so many years.

She does not deny that her parents have a good relationship, but this kind of respect is not what she wants.

"Anyway, I've made up my mind. Jin Wei said to Jin's mother while packing her luggage that no one could change her decision.

"You're going to me and your dad to death. ”

Jin Wei put down the clothes in his hand and walked out helplessly, "Mom, aren't you forcing me to death?"

Seeing that a mother-daughter argument was about to start, Jin Wei had no intention of stopping, she knew that this matter would have to be resolved sooner or later, and now was the best time, otherwise she wouldn't be able to stay safe when she went out.

"Why did we force you to death? Look at other people's children, they got married at twenty-three or four, what about you? After twenty-eight this year, I won't talk about it if I don't have a boyfriend, you still have to go abroad to study, and when you come back, you are already old, who wants you. ”

Mother Jin pointed at Jin Wei very angrily, as if she was looking at an unfilial daughter, and she couldn't wait to go up and slap her twice.

"Other people's children ......"

Jin Wei couldn't help but feel sad, since she was a child, she has always compared her with other people's children. If someone else's child takes the first place in the exam, she will also take the first place, and if someone else's child goes to a prestigious university, she will also go to a prestigious university, and what someone else's child has done, she will do something, as if she is a failure as long as she is different from other people's children.

Yes, Jin Wei admits that she is not good enough, she even has some inferiority complex because she is worse than other people's children, she does not do well in her work, and she has not made any improvement in writing for many years, if it weren't for Wang Shi, she is estimated to still be writing in her nest those that will never become popular works.

"Why should I be the same as someone else's child? Do you want a copy of someone else's child, or do you want me? Do I have to be the same as someone else's child for the rest of my life? Can't I be myself?"

"Be yourself, go after the stars?"

Jin's mother is still a little sad when she mentions this, if it weren't for Jin Wei's father repeatedly persuading her, she would not have been able to agree to Jin Wei to go to Lihai, she can forgive anyone, and she can forget everything before, but she must not let her daughter enter the entertainment industry. She was afraid that Jin Wei would be the same as her aunt, who would be calculated by others.

"What's wrong with me chasing stars? Don't you see that I have become famous after chasing stars? Mom, can you get to know me well? I chase stars and I am a loser? Or have I wasted my life? Didn't I work hard to become a little writer?"

Although this road to fame is somewhat due to the help of Wang Shi, in the final analysis, she has written about it.

"You're very proud, aren't you? Yes, you're amazing now, it's been adapted into a TV series, but it still can't hide your failures in life, you're twenty-eight and you're not married, you let your mother and my face go there. ”

The more Jin's mother talked, the more atmosphere became, especially when she remembered the scenes of several women younger than her in the community chatting in the community with their grandsons in the past few days, which made her regret a little, she really shouldn't have promised Jin Wei to go to Lihai.

"What's wrong with not getting married? There are more people who are not married, no, Mom, I said can you not spend all day with those women who have nothing to do?"

"You're not married, and you blame someone else, right?"

"Mom, I'll tell you again, this is my own life, how I want to live, that's my right, why do you have to arrange it for me?"

"What do you mean I have to arrange for you, you should get married or not, if I don't urge you, you may never get married in your life. ”

"How is it possible!" Jin Wei sighed helplessly, "I just haven't met the right person yet, if you need what I like and like me, then I still need you to urge me, I have already taken the household registration book to the Civil Affairs Bureau, I'm afraid that you will have to stop me at that time, let's see if this person is reliable." ”

"Of course, Mom doesn't want you to marry someone who treats you badly. ”

"That doesn't mean yes? Jin Wei smiled at Jin's mother, "You said that this blind date, I don't know each other, the matchmaker must be in a good place, people must only show their good side in order to get married, and when they are really married, people are in hand, people don't care, if he is not good to me at that time, do you say that I am divorced? Or is it the same as you for the rest of my life?"

"Of course, I'm not saying that you and my dad are not good, you see that you are doing well now, but in the first few years, you can't deny that you lived a very miserable life, right? Do you also want me to live such a life like you? And then when I have a child of my own, I will force her to choose someone who doesn't love him to marry like me? Mom, is this what you want?"

"I ......" Jin's mother was momentarily choked by Jin Wei's words, Jin Wei's words were a little unimportant, but she couldn't deny that it was the truth.

The older generation chose their marriage in this way, so she didn't think there was anything wrong with it, because that's how she came through. Despite how resentful she was back then, she had a long quarrel with her mother, but in the end she still chose to compromise. At first, the marriage was not as she wanted, and she was depressed because of it. It wasn't until Jin Wei that things got better, but it was precisely because of Jin Wei that she accepted her fate, no matter how bad she was, when she thought of having this child, she could only endure everything.

For more than 20 years, she regretted it, far more, painful, thought about giving up, and thought about breaking free, but in the end she chose to accept it and choose patience. This kind of life is painful for her, but she can't tell anyone about this pain, because she knows that it will cause harm to Jin Wei's father, who has reached this age and has lived together for so many years, and there are still things that she can't let go.

She never thought that Jin Wei would also live such a life, she always hoped that Jin Wei would not be the same as her, so she answered questions carefully from everyone who came to the matchmaker, and felt that it was good, so she agreed to let Jin Wei go, just hoping to find someone for Jin Wei to make her happy. I don't want Jin Wei to experience such a marriage like her.

But what she didn't expect was that what she gave was not what Jin Wei wanted, especially when she heard what Jin Wei said, the pain that she had never dared to face was said by Jin Wei directly, and it was not until this moment that she really realized that her arrangement was very likely to really make Jin Wei embark on the same path as her.

"That's my marriage, why can't I choose it myself?"

When she was young, she never said such things to her parents, and she never fought to be herself, but in the end she had to choose to compromise because of family pressure.

Parents are a difficult identity to define, and it is difficult for parents to comment on whether they are right or wrong. At this moment, she still clearly remembers the feeling of powerlessness in the face of the pressure of her parents, you think you are right, but you are wrong if you don't listen to your parents, and you are not filial.

Some people may say that people can be filial, but they cannot be foolish. But there are a few people who can tell what is filial piety and what is foolishness, she wants to live the life she wants to live, but she is afraid of losing her parents because of her choice, before her parents, there will never be any reason to talk about, their fertility and parenting grace are destined to be in an unfair position in this relationship as children, even if it is reasonable, it is not clear.

There must be many people in this world who feel this way about her, because of the nurturing grace of their parents, children have to live a life they don't like for them.

She once heard a friend tell her that the son of the parents stayed in the big city after graduating from college, with a good job, a high salary, and a lot of room for promotion. But the parents didn't want his son to stay in the big city, saying they hoped he could stay with him, find him a good job, and then get married and have children. The son was naturally unhappy, he had his own ideals and ambitions and was unwilling to stay in that small city, so his parents went to his son's company to make trouble, and the colleagues of the whole son's company could not go to work normally, and in the end there was no way, and the son could only choose to go home with them.

But after returning home, the son seemed to be a different person, went to work in the place his parents found for him, and other than that, he stayed at home every day, did not go anywhere, and rarely talked to his parents. Friends come to play with him, he doesn't see each other, and now he is in his thirties, and he doesn't look for a partner, he just repeats going to work and getting off work every day.

The parents had no choice, so they begged his son, hoping that he would not do this, or that he could return to his original company, they would no longer care, and he could do whatever he wanted. But their son has long lost his original passion, and his heart is even full of resentment towards his parents.

He said to his parents, "You asked me to come back to work, and now that I'm back, I've also gone to work in the place you arranged, what else do you want?"

An excellent young man, just because of the stubbornness of his parents, his beautiful and dazzling life may come to an end. Friends said that the parents would often cry and resent why they did it in the first place, but it had already happened, and no matter what they did, it was impossible to undo it.