Li Xiaoyan ate beef jerky, pistachios, shredded squid, and raisins with a small fork, and said, "Don't you eat such a good thing?" Don't spoil it. Long Qichen also took a small fork to eat, Li Xiaoyan said: "One year, I went to the countryside with my classmates to raise pigs, and because of a misdiagnosis, I was chased and killed by others, and I escaped penniless, and I asked for food all the way back home." Do you know how much I waste? I can't even get food out of it. Later, I met four cats, which brought me good luck, so that I could eat, and they fought with me. Later I took them home, and my mother gave the kittens away, and the big cat stayed at home, and downstairs ate dead mice, and died in a crack with iron plates. Since then, I have cherished and respected what I eat. Before eating, Japanese people put their hands together and reverently say, "I'm moving." Do you know what that means? Long Qichen said: "Probably like Christianity thanking the Lord before eating." Li Xiaoyan said: "The meaning of that sentence is: thank you for extending my life." The basis of this sentence is that all things have spirits, and food is also life, and if you bring it to yourself well, you must cherish it and live up to it. Just take enough to eat at each meal, don't add more, don't waste, this is also a respect. ”

Li Xiaoyan said and spoke, tears flowed down, Long Qichen looked at her silently, and said, "Do you miss children?" Li Xiaoyan nodded and said, "Cheng Donghao said that I don't love him, he is rational and selfish by nature, he has no contact with his children, and he will not have feelings." Long Qichen said: "He said so on his lips, but in fact, he may not think so in his heart. Li Xiaoyan said: "If he doesn't think like this, how can he say it?" Long Qichen said: "He is afraid that you don't love him, and he is afraid that you don't love children." Li Xiaoyan said: "Don't speak for him anymore, you are all protecting him." The fact is that he doesn't love me, so he doesn't want to admit that I love him, for fear that there is no reciprocal affection to give, and he is evading responsibility and guilt, paving the way and making excuses for him to abandon me. He laid this foreshadowing from the beginning, laid it all the way, and never changed. I didn't argue either, since he wanted to leave, let him go, I still me, although I gained nothing, but I lost nothing. I only gave him an egg, which shouldn't have been a pity. It's not that I don't love him, it's that he doesn't love me. I didn't feel sorry for him, ah, very calmly. ”

Long Qichen said with a smile: "He must be crazy when he hears what you say." Li Xiaoyan said: "No, he said that he has a son and is enough for everything, and it doesn't matter to me." He had the wife he wanted, the son he wanted, and the money. Alas, he has his life, I have mine, so be it. ”

Long Qichen said: "I haven't missed you for a day since I met you." Li Xiaoyan said: "It's very hard, isn't it?" Long Qichen said, "Yes." Li Xiaoyan said: "If only I were Senior Sister Xu." Long Qichen said: "If only I were Cheng Donghao." Li Xiaoyan smiled with tears in her eyes: "Scattered, unique flavor, if we are together, the charm will be halved." Long Qichen said: "So let's be more affectionate like now." Li Xiaoyan said: "From now on, each other's hearts are imprinted." Long Qichen said: "Aren't you wronged if you don't get anything?" Li Xiaoyan's eyes fluttered, and he said: "What is wronged, it is good to have someone missing." ”

The small flame in Li Xiaoyan's heart burned from the ashes again, she looked at Long Qichen and said, "However, I still remember that you once said that love is action. Long Qichen said: "Love is also concern. Li Xiaoyan said: "You men are really interesting, how to say how reasonable, if you need it to be action, you will say action, if you need it to be spirit, you will say that it is spirit." Long Qichen said, "Aren't you like this? Li Xiaoyan said: "I'm impatient to rub this kind of talk with you, say whatever you like." Long Qichen said: "This is not important to you, now." Li Xiaoyan said: "That's right, I have experienced all my life, I have experienced all of a woman's life, and the rest is like a thousand-year-old tree, calmly experiencing flowers blooming and falling, wind, rain, frost and thunder." Do you have children? Long Qichen said: "I have a daughter." Li Xiaoyan said: "You are also a father, your life is complete, don't jump off the right track." Long Qichen said: "Yes, from the perspective of personal responsibility and social responsibility, it cannot be shirked. Li Xiaoyan said: "It seems to me to you that people often say that there is no separation." Long Qichen said: "It seems that this is the case. ”

Li Xiaoyan said: "Don't meet again from now on." Long Qichen said: "Why be so absolute? Li Xiaoyan said: "I'm just showing my attitude, if you really want to come to see me, will I refuse?" Long Qichen smiled: "You actually don't think about me in your heart." Li Xiaoyan said: "I think about it, but I don't think about it." Long Qichen said: "It is said that on average, men will have 34.2 fantasies about sex every day. Excluding the eight hours of sleep, I think about it every twenty-eight minutes. Women, on the other hand, have an average of 18.6 erotic fantasies a day, which is about once every 51 minutes, excluding the eight hours of sleep. Li Xiaoyan said: "As long as I have nothing to do, my mind is full of men." "The highest number of sexual fantasies a woman has recorded per day is 140 times, which is basically once every seven minutes. Li Xiaoyan said: "I'm more close to this." Long Qichen said: "So people's dedication is limited by conditions, and everyone calls this rationality." My imagination is given to you, yours to whom? ”

Li Xiaoyan said, "Do you want me to come with you?" Long Qichen said, "Are you willing?" Li Xiaoyan said: "Yes, but what about my reputation?" Long Qichen said: "This belongs to privacy, who cares who in this society now?" Li Xiaoyan said: "When the time comes, you will say a humble word to your wife, the prodigal son will not change his money, or he Meimei's family, I will become a street rat that everyone shouts and beats, and no one wants it." It's not a distinction now, it's a real distinction then. You can't take care of me anymore, and you don't want to take care of me anymore. You will think: Oh, I finally understand that it is a passerby by my side, my wife is my true home, a real family, I can't move my natal foundation for a woman who has nothing to do with me. You see, if we had a relationship, it would be this ending; If we don't have a relationship, when we have gray hair, we can still sit and drink tea like we do now. And....... ”

Li Xiaoyan took a sip of tea, chewed a few pistachios, and said, "We've known each other for six years, right?" It's been a long time, hasn't it? Do you think I don't know anything about you? Long Qichen said, "What do you understand about me? Li Xiaoyan said: "You don't want to develop a lover relationship with me, you just test me to see what kind of person I am." If I agree to even rush to follow you, you will withdraw; If I don't agree, then I can still socialize, and use your name as a friend, which is really a way of lust. Long Qichen said: "I don't think like this, your head is really not an ordinary idea." Aren't you and Cheng Donghao also having an extramarital affair? Li Xiaoyan said: "So I'm very happy to finish with him, how can I get out of a quagmire and jump into another quagmire?" It's not my nature to have an extramarital affair, because you want to use the excuse to develop this relationship with me, to find out my attributes and heart, so you know that I am not, and you also think that I am, so as to induce me to make wrong judgments, in order to prove that I am, and use this as an excuse to extinguish the beautiful yearning for me in your heart, think that I am not worthy, and go home to live with your wife wholeheartedly. ”

Long Qichen said: "I'll come to you next time and bring my wife too." Li Xiaoyan said: "When frankness is used for expression, it is not frankness, this is your sentence structure." Women are sensitive animals, and she will clearly smell the fermented emotional taste. Don't do superfluous things that upset everyone. Long Qichen said: "Do you want to secretly maintain this restrained ambiguous relationship with me, and don't want to be disturbed by her?" Li Xiaoyan said: "Yes, if you are also willing." Long Qichen said: "What you said is so eloquent, I thought you were a stern refusal, but I didn't expect the result to be like this." Li Xiaoyan said: "Isn't this also your intention?" Long Qichen said: "Should I say that you are empathetic?" Li Xiaoyan said: "Do you want to deny it? Long Qichen said: "If you are too empathetic, you can only be a confidant." Li Xiaoyan said: "You are slandering and insulting me. Long Qichen said, "What do you want me to do?" Li Xiaoyan said: "What do you say? Long Qichen said: "I suffer for you." Li Xiaoyan said, "Will you?" Long Qichen said: "Didn't you say: what you get and pay from one person will definitely get and pay from another, and this world is equal." ”

Li Xiaoyan said: "So if I can't be with you, you will put all your imagination and inspiration for me into practice on Senior Sister Xu, so that your feelings will become deeper and deeper, and on the other hand, you will continue to get inspiration from me, so that your boring life will be sublimated?" Long Qichen said: "A lot of people do this, right? Li Xiaoyan said: "This technique is very cruel, right? Long Qichen said: "This is the meaning of your existence in my life, aren't you happy that you have such value?" Fulfill others and at the same time you have nothing to lose? Li Xiaoyan said: "I don't think I have anything to be happy about being a sex toy for you." Long Qichen said: "I am puzzled by your definition of your value in this way, what you give me is spiritual enlightenment." Li Xiaoyan said: "Don't talk to me, you are insulting my IQ." Long Qichen said: "I want to praise you for being understanding, and you will be stubborn, really." Li Xiaoyan said: "When I expose it, do you become angry?" Long Qichen said, "Don't you get spiritual pleasure from me?" Li Xiaoyan said: "What you may do makes me feel angry, and even your appearance is distorted." Long Qichen said: "You also said that it is possible." ”