Li Xiaoyan and Jing Huaran stood there looking at the crowd of people, and Jing Huaran said, "Are you married?" Li Xiaoyan said, "No." Jing Huaran said: "Aren't all the children born? Li Xiaoyan said: "Let him take it away." Jing Huaran said: "I thought you would get married when you graduated." Li Xiaoyan said: "He said that I am suitable to be the mother of his children, but not to be his wife." Jing Huaran said: "What a bastard." That's it? Li Xiaoyan said, "Yes." Jing Huaran said: "Did you fall into any illness with him?" Li Xiaoyan said: "That's not true, I have recovered well in all aspects, very healthy, think about it, I haven't lost anything, I feel that I am still very complete alone." Jing Huaran said: "The men in this world are becoming more and more strange. Why do normal men fall into the hands of others, and we can't catch up? Li Xiaoyan said: "Whether we can catch up or not, we have to think that we can catch up and actively catch up, otherwise we won't be able to live." ”

Jing Huaran said: "I'll tell you the truth, I've been interested in this boy since elementary school, thinking about it, all of them are senior boys who are two or three years older than me, and I have also thought about our young math teacher, but I just think about it, and I don't actually take action." I think I should have a lot of men, and if I marry one man, I will definitely cheat. It wasn't until I met him that I wanted to live for a lifetime, and I felt that my previous thoughts were all water without a source, a tree without roots, and I wanted to plant this tree with my heart and ask for a long time. It was only then that I realized what an infatuated person I was, wishing to win the heart of one person and never be separated. I was serious about planting, so now that I have uprooted it, I suddenly feel like I am walking dead, completely empty, and it is really uncomfortable. So I started thinking about this and that again, and the new classmates were all very good. It's not physique, the main demeanor is good. As you said, they are all so good, and at this level, their family backgrounds are also very good. I wanted to take turns sleeping with them, but I was afraid of ruining my reputation, and in the end they were all playing with me, and I couldn't get any of them. ”

Li Xiaoyan said: "This is definitely not good, men's bodies and tricks in bed are almost the same, but human nature is very different, we must see clearly and then develop the relationship, otherwise like me, na." Jing Huaran said: "I also want to learn from him, I can know at a glance who is suitable for me and who is not suitable for me, and I have found the right guy, but I really can't see it at all." Li Xiaoyan said, "No, right? By you? Jing Huaran said: "I don't dare to do things with my first feeling now, the more I look closely, the more I can't see it." ”

Li Xiaoyan suddenly remembered what Qin Guan had said to him, so he said to Jing Huaran: "When I fell out of love in the past, someone told me: Falling out of love is a trivial matter, don't indulge at this time, wait obediently, endure it, everything will pass, and life will go on." You have to take care of it, stay in the green mountains, and don't be afraid of running out of firewood. At this time, I have trampled myself, and I will not get anything in the future. He's right, you can't mess around at this time, you must be steady, you might as well throw this question to the boy first, some boys are like him, they are very clear about what they want. If you feel that you are suitable, they will take the initiative to come to you, and you will interact with each other depending on the situation. Jing Huaran said, "Yes." I'm tired of pursuing him, and I want others to pursue me. If the conditions are right, I also want to move forward and see how prosperous and colorful the world is. ”

During the meal, Li Xiaoyan and Jing Huaran sat together, and when they suddenly looked back, they saw Long Qichen bowing his head and talking to Xu Wanxian. Li Xiaoyan realized that he was looking at himself just now, otherwise he would not have turned back for no reason, which was caused by the remote sensing of spiritual information in the dark.

The bride and groom toasted from table to table, and when they arrived at Li Xiaoyan's table, Zhang He also said, "Xiaoyan, look, how is my bride?" Li Xiaoyan said: "It's a little worse than me." Zhang He also said: "What's the difference?" Li Xiaoyan said: "Clever strategy." Zhang He also said: "So you are still single?" Li Xiaoyan said: "My scheming strategy is secret and deep, and it will not be reflected through men." Zhang He also said: "What is that? Li Xiaoyan said: "Long life." Zhang He also said: "Oh, I wish you an early success." Li Xiaoyan said: "Write what I am telling you now into my biography." Zhang He also said: "The title is called a spiral mutant mecha warrior. Li Xiaoyan stretched out his finger and pinched Zhang Heye's cheeks and said, "Dare to laugh at me." Zhang He also knocked her hand off and said, "My wife is looking at it, save some face." Li Xiaoyan took the wine and said: "I like wine, a hundred years of good together, I did it." ”

The day before the Mid-Autumn Festival, after the family had dinner, Li Xiaoyan and her mother Lu Yao began to make moon cakes, and every year in the Mid-Autumn Festival, the family would make moon cakes with bean paste, five kernels, black sesame, and cocoa filling. While doing it, she thought of Cheng Donghao and the child, her heart was uncomfortable, and she didn't dare to cry, biting her lip and trying not to think about it. The mooncakes are baked, cooled, and put in the refrigerator, and it's time to go to bed.

Li Xiaoyan washed up and returned to her room, closed the door, sat on the bed, and held her mobile phone to think about whether to call Cheng Donghao and ask about the child's situation, although she knew that their father and son must be very good. The child is already one and a half years old, he can talk and walk, I don't know what it looks like. Li Xiaoyan turned on the computer and searched for pictures of one-and-a-half-year-old children on the Internet, trying to find someone who was closer, but they all felt so strange, and none of them looked like their sons. He should look like Cheng Donghao, what was Cheng Donghao like when he was a child? Li Xiaoyan couldn't think of anything, so she had to give up. The moon rose outside, and though it was fourteen, it was round and bright. What are they doing?

The most incomprehensible thing is Kong Sisi, what does it mean for her to be with Cheng Donghao? Is it just because they are financially entangled and can't get out? Li Xiaoyan can't understand that as long as you want to divide, there is nothing inseparable; It's like as long as you want to be together, there's nothing you can't do. But who does this entangled situation really mean today? To Tang Mei? To Kong Sisi? To Chi Minsheng? What about their interest groups? If the meaning of one thing can solve the problem, there is nothing in the world that cannot be solved, because everything will eventually go to zero. Human beings are bound by seemingly meaningless things, unless the divine can be liberated. Li Xiaoyan thought: If he was as rich as Tang Mei and Kong Sisi, maybe there would be no problems, it must be like that, but it is difficult to say. Li Xiaoyan has never been so jealous of Kong Sisi's status as she is now, and she wishes she died early, Kong Sisi must have thought the same way. In this way, everything becomes incomprehensible again.

Li Xiaoyan forced herself to miss Qin Guan, but in a sense, thinking about Qin Guan is more meaningless and tiring than thinking about Cheng Donghao and the child. Li Xiaoyan now has no energy to conjure up beautiful ecstasy scenes like her girlhood to satisfy her desires, and she can't satisfy them, only meaningless. With the passage of time, Li Xiaoyan's heart did not calm down, but like the sea, it surged from time to time. Li Xiaoyan knew that this was not good, but the past turned over in his mind wave after wave, layer by layer.

In the morning, Li Xiaoyan went to play ball, and when he saw Qin Guan, he was better, leaving all the troubles of the night behind, determined to live like him, like the stars, the sea, and the gods, love is not everything, living such a charm is the real life, even if it is alone. From Qin Guan's body, he couldn't see the woman behind him, and Li Xiaoyan only saw his divine and perfect self, shining brightly.

Mid-Autumn Festival, Li Xiaoyan had a day off, the whole family went out to purchase, make good food, and live a very comfortable life, Li Xiaoyan warned herself not to think too much, a good life is not good, and mediocrity disturbs themselves. At night, Li Xiaoyan was alone in the room, and it was inevitable that he would think of Cheng Donghao and the child, and when he thought of Qin Guan, he would put it away again. I picked up the book next to my pillow and saw that I was sleepy, so I turned on the lamp and fell asleep.

Long Qichen suddenly called Li Xiaoyan on Sunday, and Li Xiaoyan happened to be off duty, so he went out to meet him and made an appointment at Mingyi Coffee Shop. As soon as Li Xiaoyan entered, Long Qichen stood up and beckoned. Li Xiaoyan went over and sat down, there were beef jerky, pistachios, shredded squid, and raisins on the table, Long Qichen took the teapot on the table and poured Li Xiaoyan a cup of hot black tea. Li Xiaoyan took a sip and said, "Why did you come to Xuchang for business?" Long Qichen said, "Yes." Li Xiaoyan said: "I heard that you are outside the heart of Xinxiang Central Hospital? Long Qichen said, "Yes." Li Xiaoyan said: "It's not bad." ”

Long Qichen said: "I heard that you gave birth to a child for Cheng Donghao? Li Xiaoyan said: "Yes, after that, he kicked me, not to mention finding me a job in Beijing, and it was said that he didn't mention the house he bought for me, and he knew if it was bought for me." He asked me to treat it as if I had never given birth to that child, go back to Xuchang to be my doctor, and find someone to marry. He hasn't paid attention to me for more than a year, and he's really here. No matter how optimistic I am, I can't stand this blow, and I feel like I'm a white-haired witch now. ”

Long Qichen said: "I should be very happy. Li Xiaoyan said: "Not happy? Great, just like me. Long Qichen said: "She is very good to me, she herself, you also know that she is very good, whether she is a good person, she is also beautiful, and she is not picky." Li Xiaoyan said: "But you are not happy? Great, just like me. Long Qichen said: "It would be good if I hadn't met you." Li Xiaoyan said: "It's good that I met you." Long Qichen said: "What's good? Li Xiaoyan said: "I think when Cheng Donghao thinks about the headache, I think you can relieve it a little, you are really a good medicine to soothe the spirit." Long Qichen said, "What do you want from me?" Li Xiaoyan said: "Since you say that you are thinking, how can you say it?" If you say it by force, it is not the same as what you think. Long Qichen said: "Yes." Li Xiaoyan said, "Have you thought about me too?" Long Qichen said, "So I came to you." Li Xiaoyan said, "Why don't you leave with Senior Sister Xu." Long Qichen lowered his eyelids, and Li Xiaoyan said: "Then wait for me to marry someone else, and then we will cheat on an equal footing." ”