Zhang Fengrong looked at Ding Fengjun who was in a hurry to leave, her heart couldn't help but tremble, in Zhang Fengrong's heart, she was still afraid of Ding Fengjun, she knew Ding Fengjun's temperament quite well, although everyone has been in the same boat for more than 20 years, but the slap she received when she first got married still seemed like yesterday. Pen "Fun" Pavilion www.biquge.info

That scene, she will never forget, especially the pain caused by the slap, which made Zhang Fengrong's heart palpitate, now, Ding Fengjun's words deeply disturbed Zhang Fengrong's heart, and also evoked Zhang Fengrong's memories of the past, but Zhang Fengrong is already in her forties after all, her heart has been precipitated after the baptism of the years, in her opinion, Ding Fengjun said this sentence is just because of anger, maybe Ding Fengjun will not say this again after bringing Ding Qingsheng back, such a thought, Zhang Fengrong calmed down, she helped the bicycle up, and slowly pushed into the yard。

After Ding Qingsheng ran out of his house, his tears kept rolling in his eyes, and his brain spun very fast as he ran.

On a summer evening, the breeze is gentle, and the weeds and small flowers in the fields are enjoying the last warmth brought by the sunset.

Ding Qingsheng had no intention of appreciating the scenery in the evening, the wind in his ears was whistling, like a roar, like a wail, and like a kind of melancholy, but the oncoming wind seemed to be mixed with some kind of magical sound, even though Ding Qingsheng didn't want to listen, but the harsh voice still rushed into Ding Qingsheng's ears without hesitation.

"Celebrate your birthday, you must live well, no matter how much hardship life gives you, you must rely on your own courage to meet the challenge, because you are a man, a man must stand up to the sky, and a man must not be afraid of wind and rain. ”

This is what the eldest sister said to him when she was fourteen years old, Ding Qingsheng has always remembered it in his heart, since he was fourteen years old, Ding Qingsheng seems to enjoy the ups and downs arranged by God, and the reason why he is not afraid of any hardships in the world is entirely because of Ding Xiaoqin's words of encouragement.

"Celebrate your birthday, no matter when, you must remember that the eldest sister will always love you, the eldest sister will always be your eldest sister, and you will always be the younger brother of the eldest sister, the eldest sister will always protect you and will not let you suffer the slightest grievance. ”

"Birthday, you are a man, you can't shed tears casually, didn't Dad say it, men don't flick when they have tears, and Dad also said that a man must shed blood and sweat without tears, so you have to learn to be strong, if you are not strong, who will be strong for you!"

"Celebrate your birthday, you must study hard and strive to be admitted to a good university in the future, the eldest sister doesn't expect you to have much success, she just hopes that you can be worthy of yourself. ”

Ding Qingsheng's heart couldn't help dripping blood at the same time as these words sounded, as if thousands of ants were biting his heart, and the pain made him feel a little difficult to breathe.

In the time of childhood, there are bitterness and restraint, tiredness and difficulty, but there is no lack of happiness, luck and satisfaction, hope and sweetness, and more importantly, there is an eldest sister who has always loved herself, this beautiful and harmonious picture scroll is like the warm wind rippling Ding Qingsheng's heart in the spring of March, but I didn't expect that a loud slap scattered all this picturesque scene, as if the fine sand in the hand was raised in the wind, lost and lost hope.

"Celebrate your birthday, hurry up and apologize!"

The cold words, the cold expression of the cold wind, and the eyes that were about to erupt flames, what a terrifying picture!

There has never been such a scene in his childhood, naturally even if he is a dream, Ding Qingsheng wakes up with a smile most of the time, even if he occasionally has a nightmare, he has never appeared like today's picture, because Ding Qingsheng never thought that his favorite eldest sister would treat him like this!

Maybe Ding Qingsheng will have to learn to walk by himself in the future, there is nothing wrong with being alone, but he will be a little lonely, of course, he has long been accustomed to the care and companionship of his eldest sister, and he will be a little unaccustomed to losing his eldest sister suddenly.

People are always a strange animal, not satisfied when they get it, but always complain when they lose, Ding Qingsheng deeply understands the hidden drawbacks behind this sentence, so he wants to work hard to get rid of this bad habit, because he knows that it is impossible for a person to accompany him to the end of his life, no matter how important he is to himself, there will be a day to say goodbye, rather than waiting for the day to say goodbye to tears, it is better to gradually distance himself when he meets, and when the habit has become gloomy, perhaps, he will never feel heartache again!

Ding Qingsheng ran all the way and finally came to the graves of Zhang Jilai and Luo Xinyi.

Zhang Jilai and Luo Xinyi's graves each erected a stone stele, the stele was bought by Ding Fengjun with money to plant it personally, just because Zhang Jilai called Ding Fengjun a second brother before his death, so Ding Fengjun carved on the stele called the tomb of Zhang Jilai's brother.

Now more than ten years have passed, the grave has been overgrown with weeds, this was originally a wasteland, because of the passage of time, now has been reclaimed into a wheat field, the golden wheat stands around the tomb, like a golden armor warrior waiting for the master, but the owner of this field has love, maybe he knows that there are descendants under these two lonely tombs, so he did not roll the grave flat, just so that their descendants can come here to see them when they miss them, burn a piece of paper for them or come to talk to them.

Ding Qingsheng was prostrate in front of the grave at the moment, tears flowing from his eyes, tears shed because of longing.

Men don't flick when they have tears, this is true, men should be strong, as tough as pines and cypresses, their heads can be broken and bleeding can flow, but tears can't be easily shed, but who has ever thought about the latter sentence, but it's not time to be sad. Yes, every person and every animal has feelings, the moon is still cloudy and sunny, not to mention people, in the face of joys and sorrows, who sees the smiles on other people's faces, and who can hear the cry of the sad person.

"Dad, why are you so ruthless and leave me alone in the world, didn't you once say that my mother was afraid that you would be too lonely in the world alone, so she asked me to stay with you, but why didn't you choose to leave me alone in the world without informing me?

"Freshmen must be well-behaved, Dad will work hard to earn a lot of money, buy a lot of delicious things for the freshmen, and buy a lot of toys for the freshmen. ”

"Xinsheng, why are you naughty again, if you don't listen to Dad, Dad will be angry, Dad will sell you for buns when he is angry, and then you will never see Dad. ”

Zhang Jilai's voice and smile vaguely appeared in Ding Qingsheng's mind, but the impression of Zhang Jilai was so vague, as if it was a yellowed photo, after years of time, it has become unrecognizable, this can't be all blamed on Ding Qingsheng, think about Zhang Jilai's death, Ding Qingsheng was only three years old, and there are very few things that a three-year-old child can remember.

"Dad, haven't I always been very well-behaved, haven't I always listened to you, but why do you still abandon me, is it because I accidentally made you angry, if that's the case, why don't you tell me, I can't change it?" Ding Qingsheng was still crying, he still had too many grievances in his heart, and he didn't know who to tell him about his grievances.

"Aren't you still going to buy me delicious food, aren't you still going to buy me toys, didn't you say that you would take care to choose a new dress for me during the New Year?

After a long time, Ding Qingsheng stopped crying, he sat in front of the grave, stroking the worn-out guitar, this guitar has accompanied him for more than ten years of ups and downs, the guitar strings have been broken many times in the past ten years, but they have been connected by Ding Fengjun, due to the development of the times, the update speed is too fast, the quality of the strings is better than the previous time, and the sound quality of the popping is clearer and clearer than the time, more transparent, more crisp, plus the change of Ding Qingsheng's voice, it is the perfect fusion of this piano sound and Ding Qingsheng's voice, and the singing voice is so graceful and listening, so that everyone who hears it does not feel immersed in it and cannot extricate themselves。

At this moment, Ding Qingsheng sang the familiar ballad again, and the heaven-like voice was very magical floating in the sky, and even the birds flying in the air couldn't help but stop their hurried steps and fall into the field to listen to this beautiful sound.

After the song "Missing", the world returned to calm again, but there was one voice that broke the silence, and that was the clapping and applause.

Ding Qingsheng was frightened by this sudden voice, he hurriedly wiped the tears hanging on his cheeks, turned around and looked behind, the person who applauded was actually Ma Xiaochao.

When Ding Qingsheng saw Ma Xiaochao, there was a trace of disdain in his eyes, he turned around and said lightly: "Ma Xiaochao, why are you here?"

Ma Xiaochao looked like a hippie smile, and asked instead of answering: "What, you quarreled with your family again?"

Ding Qingsheng didn't say anything, only gently stroked his beloved guitar, Ma Xiaochao smiled awkwardly, and said: " If you want me to say that you are in the blessing and do not know the blessing, I know your life experience, if it weren't for people to take you in, maybe you don't know where you are now, people, after all, you have to understand Entubao, not to mention let his family scold you a few words, even if people beat you, you have to be affectionate, which makes people have to bow their heads under the eaves, besides, people will not say that you are not for no reason, they say that you are not also for your good, what do you say?"

Ding Qingsheng was in a very bad mood, listening to Ma Xiaochao's remarks at this time, he was even more upset, coupled with Ma Xiaochao's cheap appearance and disgusting voice, he was even more angry, seeing that Ma Xiaochao still had the intention of continuing to talk about the big truth, Ding Qingsheng said coldly: "Ma Xiaochao, if you talk about this nonsense again, believe it or not, I will make you unable to see the sun tomorrow!"

Ma Xiaochao said with a smile: "Brother Sheng, don't be like this, didn't I say this for the sake of our brothers, right, you have to understand my intentions." ”

"I see that you kid is really tired of being crooked, if you really want to die, I'll give you a ride now!" Ding Qingsheng stood up from the ground all of a sudden, glared at Ma Xiaochao viciously, this time Ma Xiaochao was frightened, he hurriedly grabbed Ding Qingsheng's arm with both hands, and said pleadingly: "Don't, don't be like this, brother Sheng, can't I say it?"

After Ding Qingsheng's mood stabilized, Ma Xiaochao was relieved, and then he sighed heavily, and said with some grievances: "Brother Sheng, the two of us are actually the same people, and what happened to me is no better than yours, and the reason why I came to you is because I want to complain to you." ”

As he spoke, Ma Xiaochao let go of Ding Qingsheng's arm and sat on the ground with his buttocks, his knees crossed, his chin supported with both hands, and he looked embarrassed.

Ding Qingsheng read a kind of loneliness from Ma Xiaochao's gloomy eyes, for this Ma Xiaochao's matter, Ding Qingsheng knows very well, Ma Xiaochao, like Ding Qingsheng, has not seen his mother since the day he was born, when Ma Xiaochao was five years old, his father led his stepmother into the house, Ma Xiaochao's stepmother treated him very badly, especially after giving birth to a son, he even intensified the bullying of Ma Xiaochao, and had no choice but to live with his grandparents, but the vicious mother-in-law said that Ma Xiaochao can live with his grandparents, but the cost of school and living expenses can only be paid by the elderly grandparents, she won't give a penny.

When he was a child, he was okay, and his grandparents could still do some physical work to support him to go to school, but slowly the grandparents got older, and their physical condition was not good, Ma Xiaochao also lost the support of various expenses, and he was almost finished school several times, if it weren't for the grandparents who knelt down for him to the evil woman, Ma Xiaochao must have become a child laborer.

Ma Xiaochao originally wanted to study hard, endure humiliation, and strive to be admitted to a good university in the future, so as to repay the kindness of his grandparents, and when the time comes, it will be good to fight the evil woman, but who knows, Ma Xiaochao is more than willing and lacks brainpower, no matter how hard he tries, he always can't get good grades, and gradually he also becomes withdrawn, introverted like a big girl, coupled with the constant ridicule of the evil woman, after all, Ma Xiaochao has laid the foundation for nothing in his studies.

Of course, through this incident, Ding Qingsheng also came to a conclusion, not all efforts will be rewarded, pay and gain are not proportional at all, Ma Xiaochao's results have always been very stable, in the class is either the first to the last or the second, and he didn't even dare to compete for the third to last position.

Ma Xiaochao basically doesn't have any friends in school, if it weren't for Ding Qingsheng's help Ma Xiaochao beat away the bad boy who bullied him outside the school, maybe the two of them wouldn't have any intersection at all, looking at Ma Xiaochao's expression at the moment, Ding Qingsheng didn't have to think about it to know that this child must have caused some trouble at home again, so he would be bullied by that evil woman.

Ding Qingsheng sighed secretly, he also squatted on the ground, sitting side by side with Ma Xiaochao, Ding Qingsheng raised his hand and patted Ma Xiaochao's shoulder, and said, "What, that evil woman insulted you again?"

Ma Xiaochao said with a melancholy look: "Then do you need to say it? This girl is so bad, spending my dad's money, living in the house that my dad bought, and actually daring to beat my dad's son, I think she is really lit in the toilet and looking for death!"

Ding Qingsheng was amused by Ma Xiaochao's words, and he said: "I usually see that your kid is silent, but I didn't expect that there are few fresh words in your kid's stomach." ”

Ma Xiaochao glanced at Ding Qingsheng angrily, and said: "Isn't this a good relationship between our brothers, I can play extraordinarily, if I am with others, even if I hold my fart out, I can't say such a lofty statement." ”

Ding Qingsheng smiled again and said: "Okay, you have been bullied like this bear, you can still be poor, it seems that the evil lady still bullied you lightly, let's talk about it, what tricks did she use to defeat you this time." ”

Ma Xiaochao pouted and said: "The old lady said, if I can't get into college, let me work, brother, you know, as far as my academic performance is concerned, let alone going to college, even if it is difficult to repeat a grade." ”

Ding Qingsheng nodded noncommittally, he frowned slightly, and asked, "Then what are you going to do?"

Ma Xiaochao said angrily: "What else can I plan, leave it to fate, and go to work if it's a big deal." ”

Ding Qingsheng smiled, patted Ma Xiaochao's shoulder again and said, "Don't be too pessimistic, maybe during the college entrance examination, you can play an extraordinary role to turn over." ”

Ma Xiaochao pursed his lips, and said with a broken jar: "Don't comfort me, no matter how much I play extraordinarily, I can't get out of the penultimate fate, and the salted fish turns over, I just turn over a 360-degree body, am I still a salted fish that is eaten, what's the use?"

Ding Qingsheng laughed and patted Ma Xiaochao's shoulder again, this time the strength was heavier than the last two times, and Ma Xiaochao, who was in pain, grinned his teeth.

Ma Xiaochao glared at Ding Qingsheng and said, "Brother Sheng, seeing that I have fallen to such a point, you can still laugh, are you still my buddy?"

Ding Qingsheng heard Ma Xiaochao say this, quickly stopped laughing, and said seriously: "Okay, let's get down to business, don't you kid really think of any way out for yourself? If you really can't get into college, you don't think about going to a technical school or something, and when the time comes, you can learn a skill, at least you will have a foothold in society." ”

Ma Xiaochao shook his head helplessly, and said: "I think it's better to forget it, don't you have to spend money to go to a technical school, I take a penny at home now as if I wanted that girl's life, if it costs a few thousand yuan, then the old lady will not kill me! I think it's not easy for people to come to the world once, but you can't leave a reputation for dying young......

Ding Qingsheng was happy again, ready to raise his hand and pat Ma Xiaochao's shoulder again, but Ma Xiaochao was already vigilant, and before Ding Qingsheng's hand was patted, Ma Xiaochao grabbed Ding Qingsheng's wrist and said unhappily: "Brother Sheng, don't shoot again, if you continue to shoot like this, it is estimated that the girl has not killed me, so you will send me to report below." ”

The two of them were still poor with each other, and suddenly an eager voice interrupted the conversation between the two men.

"Birthday, is that you?"