My throat swelled.

When I heard his words, I didn't have the emotion he hoped for, nor the fear or anger that came as expected. What came to my heart all of a sudden was a deep sense of powerlessness, as if I was stuck in a quagmire, no matter how I struggled, and even, I had been struggling for so many years......

I was silent for a few moments before taking a deep breath and looking up at him:

Just as he was about to speak, he continued: "I know that you can't accept what I did, so I've been hiding it from you. ”

“……”

"Just like back then, I hope you see me as a good person. ”

For a moment, I felt a sore pain in my throat, and I felt a little sour in my heart, and I was a little speechless.

Actually, I may not be unaware of his thoughts.

It should be said that everyone who loves people will have such a mind, give their best side to each other, and make themselves up to the other party's liking.

I also understand that he is real, with his heart.

Seeing that my eyes were red, Pei Yuanxiu's breathing was a little more urgent, he looked at me deeply, and said, "Light, am I a demon in your eyes now?"

“……”

I blinked and looked up at him.

Behind the candle flame was his pale face, and perhaps this moment was not only a torment for me, but also a torment of purgaternity for him.

He killed my friend, instructed Gu Ping to kill Pei Yuanzhen, took advantage of my search for good words to go to sea to find the Franco machine artillery, and even poisoned Qinghan......

Is he a demon in my eyes?

Do I see him as a cruel and merciless demon?

……

I didn't speak, and he waited quietly, as if a prisoner was waiting for the verdict to be pronounced, and just looked at me, and there was no temperature in those originally clear eyes except for the fire.

I was silent for a long time, and when I spoke again, my voice was unconsciously hoarse.

I said softly: "Actually, many times, people look at each other in their own way, if you love someone, even if he does an ordinary thing, he will try his best to paint it perfectly; if the other party does something wrong, then the first thing that comes to mind is not that he has done wrong, but to find a reason for him, and think of a lot of unavoidable hardships." ”

“……”

"What kind of person we are in each other's eyes may not be what we really are, it may just be what the other person wants to see. ”

"So, what do I look like in your eyes?"

“……”

I looked at him, my eyes flickering slightly from the flickering of the candles on the table.

After a while, I said, "If this qiē hadn't happened, it would have been like it was in the Inner Hidden Pavilion." ”

I heard his breath suffocate.

He immediately asked, "Well, what now?"

Right now......?

I lowered my eyes and avoided his, but no matter how much I tried to avoid it, his gaze fell on my skin like the temperature of a flame, bringing a burning pain.

I finally said, "I haven't figured it out yet." ”

“……”

He was stunned again.

It's the same thing I just said - I didn't think about whether I hated him or what.

So, at this moment, I didn't think about how I thought of him.

The man in front of me gave me the life that many women in the world wanted, gave me the greatest spoiling, saved my daughter, and even at the end of his life, he only thought about me......

He is a person I can't simply love, hate, and forgive.

Although I was just sitting there very calmly, the deep wrinkles in the center of my eyebrows had already exposed the torment inside, and he looked at me for a long time, and suddenly said, "Do you know what you look like in my eyes?"

“……”

I was silent for a moment, and looked up at him.

"Or, what does it look like in the Inner Pavilion?"

He nodded slightly.

"No matter what you have experienced or how long it has passed, in my eyes, you are still the same as you were at the beginning, and you have never changed. ”

I smiled faintly, although it was a smile, but the smile was full of sadness: "But we all know that each other is no longer what it was then." ”

“……”

"Yuan Xiu, no matter how many memories we have had, how beautiful those memories are...... There's no going back for me. ”

“……”

"I'm not going back. ”

"Light ......"

"Yuan Xiu," I interrupted him, and said solemnly, "You sued me for everything, I know it's not easy for someone like you." And what I give you tonight is the truth. ”

“……”

"Whether I want to hate you or what, I really haven't figured it out yet, but I can't forgive you. ”

“……”

I put my hands on the edge of the table, pushed myself to my feet with a little effort, and then said to him, "You go." Everything we can say has been said, and what should be over is over. You have already married Miss Han, and I, even if Qinghan will not return to me, I will not leave again. ”

“……”

"Yuan Xiu, let's stop here. ”

He was sitting there in a daze, and when he heard this, it was like someone had suddenly stabbed him in the chest with a needle, and his whole body trembled, and he raised his head to look at me, and I said calmly: "Do you remember that when the two of us got married, you once played a joke with me." ”

“……”

"At that time, you asked me not to be so old-fashioned in talking and doing things, because the two of us were married, not separated. ”

His eyes flickered, and I thought he remembered it too, so I smiled faintly and said, "Actually, at that time, I didn't think that even if I made such an unfortunate joke, I didn't feel unlucky at all. Because -- I didn't think that our two sessions really came to this point. ”

“……”

"I just didn't expect, really, to come this far. ”

As I spoke, I picked up the cups on the table, one in front of him and the other in front of mine, and slowly poured him a glass of cold water from the pot, and then poured me another glass. While doing these things, I said calmly: "Since the two hearts are different, it is difficult to return to the same mind, I am willing to be separated from you, and I hope that you will treat me with the heart of the past, and pay the bride, and from then on, the piano and the seer will be reconciled, and the wind and rain will be together, and the white head will stay together." ”

“……”

"And I, too, feel the mercy of you, the future is heavy, and I cherish myself. ”

“……”

I picked up one of myself and handed the other to him.

"Let's be separated from each other, and let each of us rejoice. ”