After returning to my parents' house, my mother in order to make up for the guilt of not taking care of me in the confinement, every day to cook for me, within a few days, Yangyang and I became fat, plus grandpa and dad also like Yangyang, the family around Yangyang every day can't see enough, which makes my heart get a little comfort, so that Lu Tao has not come to see our mother for more than a month, and I don't care very much. I feel that it is enough to have the care of my parents, anyway, he will leave me sooner or later, it doesn't matter if he comes to see us or not, as long as he can get by."www.biquge.info

The only thing that worries me about living in my mother's house is the soot. There was no heating in the countryside, my mother's family was still using a stove for heating and cooking, and every night I was worried that my son would choke on soot, which kept me awake all night. Another problem that I can't get enough of is that after I came back with my baby, my dad started sleeping on the sofa. Because in these only three houses, my grandfather lives in a single room, my sister lives in a single room, and I hold the child and my mother to squeeze into the big bed where my parents sleep, and there is no father's bed at all.

Fortunately, Yangyang can bring laughter to people every day, and in less than 100 days, he can already straighten his neck, giggle out loud, and even watch you babble a bird. He is very well-behaved, rarely cries when he wakes up, even if I am not by his side, he generally does not cry, always kicks and kicks in the small quilt alone, and sometimes stuffs his little feet into his mouth to gnaw, often putting on a funny and ridiculous appearance.

Listening to Yangyang's laughter, I gradually forgot about Lu Tao, and stayed at my mother's house all day, as if I didn't get married at all. In fact, I really wish I hadn't gotten married, in other words, I regretted my original choice, regretted not listening to my mother's words, and got married hastily, otherwise I wouldn't have gotten to this point. But on Chinese New Year's Eve a year ago, Lu Tao's shadow appeared in my mind again, looking at the appearance of my parents making dumplings around the table, I quietly passed a trace of sadness in my heart, I thought that Lu Tao and I should also make dumplings around the table on Chinese New Year's Eve, but now the two of us are on one side and do not greet each other. One day you will suddenly realize that the people you have been close to will suddenly become very strange, very distant. However, the Chinese New Year Gala program on TV quickly drowned out my sadness, and I deliberately laughed out loud while watching the sketch to show my parents how happy I was! I didn't want them to worry about me.

Sometimes I have to believe that there is telepathy, and the shadow of Lu Tao on Chinese New Year's Eve just flashed in my mind, and on the morning of New Year's Day, he stood at my door with a large number of gifts. At that time, our family was eating dumplings, and when we saw him come in, everyone stopped the chopsticks in their hands and looked at him in surprise. Especially my mother, I don't know whether to invite him in or blast him out, with a look of bewilderment on her face. I didn't think to bomb him, I think he must have come for a reason, either because his conscience found that he wanted to see his son, or because he came to discuss the divorce with me. No, it's impossible for him to come to discuss divorce during the New Year, so he may be thinking about his son. I didn't call him in because my heart still hurts when I think of him kicking me out the door that day. But I'm not going to drive him away, I'm waiting for him to take the initiative to explain why.

"Happy New Year, Mom and Dad!" Lu Tao, who was standing at the door, bowed slightly, saying New Year's greetings to my parents. Listen, he shamelessly called my parents Mom and Dad!

"Come in, come in!" my dad was always a heartless man, and before my mom could react, he stood up and invited in the man who had threatened to divorce his daughter.

"I'm here today to pay a New Year's greeting to the second elder, and second, to come and see Xiaoyan and Yangyang. ”

I really didn't expect Lu Tao to be so thick-skinned, he sat generously on my sofa as if nothing had happened.

"Do you remember the child? I thought you didn't recognize your son anymore?" the mother finally spoke, coldly.

"How could your own son not recognize him?" Lu Tao said with a smile.

"Don't forget, you drove Xiaoyan's mother and son out in the first place!" the mother angrily mentioned the unpleasant things that happened a few years ago.

"I'm here to apologize today, I really went too far that day, I was wrong, Mom. ”

Lu Tao's apology didn't reduce my anger and my mother at all, and I even felt that he was completely acting, just doing it to see his son.

"Don't call me mom in the future, you don't even want Xiaoyan anymore, what qualifications do I have for you to call mom?" said my mother still angrily.

I didn't interject, went back to the bed and picked up Yangyang, turned around and looked out the window, deliberately ignoring Lu Tao. I knew that it was not appropriate to quarrel with him on the first day of the new year, and it was not appropriate to talk to him about divorce, so I had to keep silent.

"Don't say these unhappy words during the New Year, and talk about it later. Dad nudged Mom and motioned Mom not to spoil the festive atmosphere of the New Year.

Seeing that Dad didn't let him talk nonsense, Mom got up and went to the kitchen to cook dumplings.

"Eat dumplings. Dad took a pair of chopsticks and handed them to Lu Tao.

"Dad, I've eaten at home, I'm full, I don't eat. Lu Tao excused himself.

Lu Tao said that he would not eat it, and his father did not force him, so he put down the chopsticks.

"Look at the child, the child is closer than anyone else. Dad said, stood up and came to me, and touched Yangyang's little face, "Little baby, are you closer than anyone else?!" After speaking, Dad also left under the excuse of cooking dumplings in the kitchen.

My sister Xiaofeng was still angry with Lu Tao, and as soon as she saw Lu Tao enter the door, she sank her face and went back to her room. So now there are only three people left in the room: me, Lu Tao and Yangyang.

"Hey, Yangyang, do you remember Dad?" Lu Tao leaned over and took Yangyang's little hand and greeted him with a smile.

I didn't speak, I didn't look at him, my eyes still looking out the window.

"Come, dad hug it!" Lu Tao stretched out his hand to take Yangyang away from my arms.

"Will you hug it?" I dodged it, he had never hugged Yang Yang since he was born, and I really didn't want to let him hug it.

"I'll hug, let me hug it. ”

"No way!"

"I'm his father, why can't I hug it?"

"I'm afraid you can't hold it, you're going to hurt him. ”

"I'll hug him, don't I just hold his waist and support his head? This is my son, of course I have to be careful. ”

Helpless, after arguing a few words, I still reluctantly handed the child to Lu Tao, after all, he is Yangyang's father, and I can't have the right not to let him hold it.

"Come on, baby, let Daddy hug you. Lu Tao hugged Yang Yang and kissed him on his little face, revealing a look of happiness.

I didn't say anything angry on the side, I believe that Lu Tao loves his son, and I naturally shouldn't stop him from loving his child. But the thought that we may not be able to give our children a complete home made me feel a faint pain in my heart, and I didn't know if it was the right thing or not right for me to give birth to Yangyang. But then I thought, there are some things that I have no choice but to give birth to a little life when it is already wriggling in my belly.

"Why don't you go back to live with the child, I think it's weirdly crowded here. Lu Tao suddenly said such a sentence to me, which made me feel quite surprised.

"Go back, go back there?" I asked deliberately.

"Go back to our house. ”

"Our family, do we have a home now?"

"As long as we don't get divorced, we'll be a family, so my home is still your home?!"

"Forget it, it's boring to say this now, since you've kicked me out, I won't go back, do you think I have no self-esteem? I have no heart and no lungs? I have been stupid? I will never forget the day you drove our mother and son away! Besides, it was your mother's house, and I had no right to live in it. ”

"Don't you keep holding on to this matter, okay? Didn't I apologize to you just now? Actually, I didn't drive you away at that time, everyone was unhappy at that time, I think it might be better for you to take the child back to your parents' house for a while!"

"Okay, don't talk about it, I don't want to quarrel with you during the New Year, after the New Year, you take some time, let's go through the divorce procedures, whether to go to the court to sue or go to the Civil Affairs Bureau to agree with you. ”

I don't want to listen to Lu Tao's explanation, I think it's superfluous to say anything now, the divorce was agreed between me and him a long time ago, and what happened later strengthened my idea.

Seeing that I didn't agree to go home with him, he was silent for a while and asked me, "Since you have to divorce, I don't force it, I just want to know who will take the children in the future?"

"Didn't I say it earlier? Of course I brought it. After I finished speaking, I took the child back from Lu Tao's arms.

"Can you take him with you? I'm really worried. ”

"I'll take him with me, don't worry, children will always come first to me. ”

"In this way, let's make an agreement, as long as one of you and I falls in love with someone else, we will divorce, if we haven't liked anyone yet, our marriage will be maintained first, even if it is for the sake of the children, what do you say?"

"There's no need, it's an ordeal for the two of us to stay together, it's better to be separated, and we can take care of our son together after separation. ”

"Don't wait for my son to grow up and listen to my son's opinion? Maybe my son doesn't agree with our divorce. ”

Lu Tao's tone is different from before, obviously he wants to get back together with me, but I know very well in my heart that he is not attached to me, but reluctant to give up his son, it seems that he is going to give in for his son, but I don't want this kind of emotionless marriage.

"Don't say it again, I can't spend more than ten years with you, I promise that you can come to see the children at any time after the divorce, and I won't affect the relationship between you and your son. "I don't want to, I want to end this farce marriage quickly, I can't keep being wrong.

"Then I want to take the child, I don't want to be separated from the child!" Seeing that I had no room for negotiation, Lu Tao suddenly said that he had put forward such a condition.

"No, I will not leave the child to anyone, not even if you are his father. I firmly rejected him.

In the middle of our dispute, my father came in with a large plate of dumplings, and as soon as he came in, he beckoned Lu Tao to eat dumplings, but Lu Tao didn't eat them, and after saying goodbye to my father, he left my house with an unhappy face.