After returning to my parents' house, in order to make up for the guilt of not taking care of me in the confinement, my mother changed her tricks to cook and eat for me every day, and within a few days, Yangyang and I became white, plus my grandfather and father also liked Yangyang, and the family couldn't see enough around Yangyang every day, which made my heart get a little comfort, so that Lu Tao didn't come to see our mother for more than a month, and I didn't care very much. Pen & Fun & Pavilion www.biquge.info I feel that it is enough to have the care of my parents, anyway, he will leave me sooner or later, it doesn't matter if he comes to see us or not, as long as he can get by.

The only thing that worries me about living in my mother's house is the soot. There was no heating in the countryside, my mother's family was still using a stove for heating and cooking, and every night I was worried that my son would choke on soot, which kept me awake all night. Another problem that I can't get enough of is that after I came back with my baby, my dad started sleeping on the sofa. Because in these only three houses, my grandfather lives in a single room, my sister lives in a single room, and I hold the child and my mother to squeeze into the big bed where my parents sleep, and there is no father's bed at all.

Fortunately, Yangyang can bring laughter to people every day, and in less than 100 days, he can already straighten his neck, giggle out loud, and even watch you babble a bird. He is very well-behaved, rarely cries after waking up, even if I am not by his side, he generally does not cry, always kicks and kicks in the small quilt alone, and sometimes stuffs his little feet into his mouth to gnaw, looking cute and cute.

Listening to Yangyang's laughter, I gradually forgot about Lu Tao, and stayed at my mother's house all day, as if I didn't get married at all. In fact, I wish I had never been married, in other words, I regretted my choice, regretted not listening to my mother, and got married hastily, otherwise I wouldn't have gotten to this point. But on Chinese New Year's Eve a year ago, Lu Tao's shadow appeared in my mind again, looking at my parents around the table to make dumplings, I quietly passed a trace of sadness in my heart, I thought that Lu Tao and I should also make dumplings on Chinese New Year's Eve, but now the two of us are on one side and do not greet each other. One day you will suddenly realize that the people you have been close to will suddenly become very strange, very distant. However, I soon let the singing of the Spring Festival Gala on TV drown out my sadness, and I even deliberately laughed out loud when watching the sketch to show my parents how happy I was after leaving Lu Tao!

Sometimes I have to believe that there is telepathy, when the shadow of Lu Tao on Chinese New Year's Eve just flashed in my mind, on the morning of New Year's Day, he stood at my door with a large number of gifts. At that time, our family was eating dumplings, and when we saw him come in, everyone stopped the chopsticks in their hands and looked at him in surprise. Especially my mother, I don't know whether to invite him in or blast him out, with a look of bewilderment on her face. I didn't think to bomb him, I think he must have come for a reason, either because his conscience found that he wanted to see his son, or because he came to discuss the divorce with me. If it's impossible to discuss divorce for the New Year, then he may be thinking about his son. I didn't call him in, because my heart still hurts when I saw him, but I didn't drive him away like he drove me out, I was waiting for him to take the initiative to explain why.

"Happy New Year, Mom and Dad!" Lu Tao, who was standing at the door, bowed slightly, saying New Year's greetings to my parents. Listen, he shamelessly called my parents Mom and Dad!

"Come in, come in!" my dad was always a heartless man, and before my mom could react, he stood up and invited in the man who had threatened to divorce his daughter.

"I'm here today to pay a New Year's greeting to the second elder, and second, to come and see Xiaoyan and Yangyang. ”

I really didn't expect Lu Tao to be so thick-skinned, he sat generously on my sofa as if nothing had happened.

"Do you remember the child? I thought you didn't recognize your son anymore?" the mother finally spoke, coldly.

"How could your own son not recognize him?" Lu Tao said with a smile.

"Don't forget, you drove Xiaoyan's mother and son out in the first place!" the mother said angrily, recalling the unpleasant things that happened a few years ago.

"I did something wrong at the time, I came to apologize today, what I did that day was really too much, I was wrong, Mom. ”

Lu Tao's apology didn't reduce my anger and my mother at all, and I even felt that he was completely acting, just doing it to see his son.

"Don't call me mom in the future, you don't even want Xiaoyan anymore, what qualifications do I have to be called like this by you." Mom still had a cold expression.

I didn't interject, went back to bed and picked up Yangyang, turned my body to look out the window. I knew that it was not appropriate to quarrel with him on the first day of the new year, and it was not appropriate to talk to him about divorce, so I had to keep silent.

"Don't say these unhappy words during the New Year, and talk about it later. Dad nudged Mom and motioned Mom not to spoil the festive atmosphere of the New Year.

Seeing that Dad didn't let him talk nonsense, Mom got up and went to the kitchen to cook dumplings.

"Eat a dumpling. Dad took a pair of chopsticks and handed them to Lu Tao.

"Dad, I've eaten at home, I'm full, I don't eat. Lu Tao excused himself.

Lu Tao said that he would not eat it, and his father did not force him, so he put down the chopsticks.

"Look at the child, the child is closer than anyone else. Dad said, stood up and came to me, and patted Yangyang's little face, "Yo, little baby, are you closer than anyone else?!" After speaking, Dad also left under the pretext of cooking dumplings in the kitchen.

My sister Xiaofeng was still angry with Lu Tao, and as soon as she saw Lu Tao enter the door, she sank her face and went back to her room. So now there are only three people left in the room: me, Lu Tao and Yangyang.

"Hey, Yangyang, do you remember Dad?" Lu Tao leaned over and took Yangyang's little hand and said with a smile, "Yo, I've grown up, I've grown fat, I've grown beautiful!"

I didn't speak, I didn't look at him, my eyes still looking out the window.

"Come, dad hug it!" Lu Tao stretched out his hand to take Yangyang away from my arms.

"Will you hug it?" I dodged, he had never hugged Yang Yang since he was born, and I didn't want to let him hug him now.

"I'll hug, let me hug it. ”

"No way!"

"I'm his father, why can't I hug it?"

"I'm afraid you can't hold it, you're going to hurt him. ”

"I'll hug him, don't I just hold his waist and support his head? This is my son, of course I have to be careful. ”

Helplessly, I still reluctantly handed the child to Lu Tao, who was Yangyang's father after all.

"Come on, baby, let Daddy hug you. Lu Tao hugged Yang Yang and kissed him on his little face, revealing a look of happiness.

I didn't say anything angry on the side, I believe that Lu Tao loves his son, and I naturally have no right and should not stop him from loving his child. But thinking that we may not be able to give our children a complete home, I feel a faint pain in my heart, and I don't know if it is the right thing or not for me to give birth to Yangyang. But then I thought, there are some things that I have no choice but to give birth to a little life when it is already wriggling in my belly.

"Why don't you go back to live with the child, I think it's weirdly crowded here. Lu Tao suddenly said such a sentence to me, which made me feel quite surprised.

"Go back, go back there?" I asked deliberately.

"Go back to our house. ”

"Our family, do we have a home now?"

"As long as we are not divorced, we will be a family, so my home is still your home. ”

"Forget it, it's boring to say this now, since you've kicked me out, I won't go back, do you think I have no self-esteem? I have no heart and no lungs? I have been stupid? I will never forget the day you drove our mother and son away! Besides, it was your mother's house, and I had no right to live in it. ”

"Actually, I didn't drive you away at that time, everyone was unhappy at that time, I think it's better for you to go back to your mother's house for a while!"

"Okay, don't talk about it, I don't want to quarrel with you during the New Year, after the New Year, you take some time, let's go through the divorce procedures, whether to go to the court or to the Civil Affairs Bureau with you. ”

I don't want to listen to Lu Tao's explanation, I think it's superfluous to say anything now, the divorce was agreed between me and him a long time ago, and what happened later strengthened my idea.

Seeing that I didn't agree to go home with him, he was silent for a while and asked me, "Since you have to divorce, I don't force it, I just want to know who will take the children in the future?"

"Didn't I say it earlier? Of course I brought it. After I finished speaking, I took the child back from Lu Tao's arms.

"Can you take him with you? I'm really worried. ”

"I'll take him with me, don't worry, children will always come first to me. ”

"In this way, let's make an agreement, as long as one of you and I falls in love with someone else, we will divorce, if we haven't liked anyone yet, our marriage will be maintained first, even if it is for the sake of the children, what do you say?"

"There's no need, it's an ordeal for the two of us to stay together, it's better to be separated, and we can take care of our son together after separation. ”

"You don't have to wait for your son to grow up and listen to your son's opinion, maybe my son doesn't agree with our divorce. ”

Listening to Lu Tao's tone is different from before, but I know very well in my heart that he is not nostalgic for me, but reluctant to give up on his son, it seems that he is going to give in for his son, but I don't want this kind of emotionless marriage.

"Don't say it again, I can't spend more than ten years with you, I promise that you can come to see the children at any time after the divorce, and I won't affect the relationship between you and your son. "I don't want to, I'm going to end this farcical marriage soon, I can't keep going wrong.

"Then I want to take the child, I don't want to be separated from the child!" Seeing that I had no room for negotiation, Lu Tao suddenly said something like this again.

"No, I will not leave the child to anyone, not even if you are his father. ”

In the middle of our dispute, my father came in with a large plate of dumplings, and as soon as he came in, he beckoned Lu Tao to eat dumplings, but Lu Tao didn't eat them, and after saying goodbye to my father, he left my house with an unhappy face.