Those days were full of sadness, and even though I was only two years old, I really knew what it meant to be sad.

Hiding all day long, although my aunt didn't say anything, but I could see her tiredness from her face, even though I was young, but I knew that my aunt had to commit herself to a man in order to avoid the pursuit of those people, and every time that person came, my aunt would always be unable to help but lose her temper, and the man would coax my aunt softly.

Sometimes when I look at my aunt who looks like a mother, I can't help but want to say to my aunt, why don't you go to my father, why do you want to be with strange people? Where does that man have half of his father's grace? Not to mention that when he faces his aunt, even when he faces me, that person is also groveling, no different from a servant in the palace.

What is there about such a person who is outstanding and worthy of his aunt's life?

Once I couldn't help but ask, my aunt was stunned for a moment, and her face that looked like a concubine slowly turned to look at me, with a faint light in her eyes, "Yi'er, you need to know that not all people in the world can compare with your father, not to mention, sometimes, people have no choice." ”

This is the first time my aunt has spoken to me for such a long time, and on weekdays I ask if I am hungry or cold, and I rarely even hug me in my arms, and my aunt always says that boys should not be squeamish, so I don't ask my aunt to hug me again, I know that even if my aunt is like a mother, she is not a mother.

Gradually, my aunt's belly got bigger, just like the belly of the lady in the palace, at that time the mother was alive, I was held in my arms, I wanted to touch the lady concubine, the mother quickly stopped me, smiled apologetically at the lady, and then said to me that the lady had a little brother in her belly, and I was not allowed to mess around, so I raised my head and stared at the lady with wide eyes and curiosity.

When I thought of my mother's concubine, I was so sad that I couldn't help crying out loud, and my aunt complained with her eyes on the side, "Yi'er, you made a noise to the little brother in my aunt's belly to rest." ”

Then I obediently closed my mouth, and stopped crying as unscrupulously as before, because I knew that the person who would hold my tears in the palm of my hand in this world was gone.

As I grew older, I gradually began to grow up, and my body began to twitch, but I was only four years old, and I grew stronger than an ordinary five-year-old child, and one day the man came, stared at me silently for a long time, and then turned to my aunt and said, "If you continue like this, you can't hide it, you have to think of a way, you can't grow so crazy anymore, otherwise you will be seen in the house." ”

Then my aunt began to control my eating, I was always not allowed to eat on weekdays, sometimes I was hungry and dizzy and secretly ran out of the back door, we lived in the alley of Guang'an Temple, I always sneaked to Guang'an Temple, while the monks were not paying attention to steal the fruit on the table to fill my stomach, sometimes I would be seen, so I was beaten and then expelled.

In those days, I always secretly hid in the dark and cried, tears were silent, blown by the wind, and my face was cold.

I miss my mother very much, I miss my father very much, but I don't dare to say it to my aunt, because once I told my aunt that I miss it, and my aunt's face immediately showed a look similar to pity that I didn't like, and she said in a sad tone: "Your father doesn't want you anymore, otherwise he wouldn't have sent Yan Yunwei to hunt you down, if it weren't for the fact that you are my sister's only heir, I wouldn't have put myself in such a situation!"

Since I was taken out of the palace by my aunt, I have felt my aunt's resentment, although I am not very old, but in the Yunhua Palace of my mother's concubine, I have seen countless times that kind of eyes, strong eyes with strong hatred, those concubines from my father, most of them have such light in their eyes when they face their mother.

Later, I gradually stopped obsessing with my aunt, in my heart my aunt is not a concubine after all, although my aunt is also gentle and will speak in a gentle tone with pampering eyes, but most of that is placed on Sister Xian'er, only occasionally when I help my aunt look at Sister Xian'er, she will say: "Brother Yi is really a good child, is a good brother of Sister Xian." ”

But I don't want to be this brother at all, I don't like Sister Xian who cries endlessly all day long, and I don't like her to call me "Brother Yi" crisply, because often at this time, she always wants to occupy the things I love, whether it is a windmill, a paper kite or a bamboo dragonfly, I don't want to play with Sister Xian, because no matter whether Sister Xian is happy or not, my aunt will not be happy, she will say: "Sister Xian is a girl, how can you, who is an elder brother, take Sister Xian to do these dangerous things!" What if the bamboo dragonfly rows to Sister Xian'er? What if Sister Xian'er falls down when the paper kite is released?"

In the eyes of her aunt, Sister Xian'er is even less sturdy than a papier-mâché person, and she is more easily injured.

My aunt is so nervous that Sister Xian makes me feel uncomfortable, as if only Sister Xian has a mother's pain in the whole world, and I also have a mother's pain, but my mother can no longer be by my side.

This continued until I was six years old.

That day I still because I didn't have enough food and secretly went to Guang'an Temple, when I was taking tribute, I was not careless to be found by other children in the alley, a group of children who were not a few years older than me surrounded me and kept fighting, I fell to the ground, they even stretched out their feet to kick me in the face, I was in pain, but because I didn't eat, I didn't have any strength at all, I lay on the ground and thought sadly, the clothes on my body must be very dirty, and I went back today about to be lectured by my aunt, so I listened to a coquettish:

"Stop!"

The group of children was stunned, turned their heads to look, and saw a little girl standing not far away, only four or five years old, but she was rich and noble, I was lying on the ground, while protecting my head, I saw the girl from the gap between the legs of the group of children.

The girl's small hands and feet, the whole person looks less tall than me, but the expression on her face is so aura, she held her head high, like a princess on the top, and said to the group of children: "Do you want to be shameless? A group of people bullying a person, if you don't stop, I have to go back and tell my father, he is on an errand in Dali Temple, I will let my father arrest you all and put you in prison, and see how you bully people in the future!"

Xu is people are bullying the weak and afraid of the hard, and the group of children saw the girl's spirit, and thought that today the little novice said that there was indeed a great big man in the temple, and the family members of the big man scattered immediately, and they didn't embarrass me anymore.

I was beaten and lay on the ground, hungry and unbearable, and I didn't have the strength to get up for a while, so I watched the girl move over step by step with her little short legs, and her little face was still curious, as if she was thinking, how could there be such a stupid person, who didn't know how to run after being beaten, and now everyone is gone, and she doesn't know how to get up.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but get angry, if I didn't have enough to eat, how could I steal the tribute, just now the little girl said that her father was on an errand in Dali Temple, I thought that if my father was here at this time, he would definitely not watch me being bullied like this!

The little girl stood there looking at me for a while as if she was curious, and then slowly squatted down and asked cautiously, "You can't be stupid, aren't you cold on the ground?"

I couldn't help but "hum", I didn't want to pay attention to her, what's the big deal, my father is much more powerful than your father.

Suddenly my stomach gurgled and growled, as if I had betrayed my weakness, and I was very angry, whether I was dizzy or not, and I got up on my hands and feet.

A fragrant little fleshy hand suddenly appeared in front of him, carrying a handkerchief wrapped in something.

"I brought chestnut cake, do you want to eat it?" The girl blinked, as if waiting for me to answer her, and after a long time she saw that I didn't speak, she was a little frustrated, "Don't you like to eat chestnut cake......?"

As she spoke, she untied the handkerchief with her fleshy little hands, and the handkerchief was wrapped in chestnut cake, and it exuded a faint chestnut fragrance, I couldn't help swallowing a mouthful of saliva, I felt a little tight, and wanted to look away, but I saw the girl twisting a small piece of chestnut cake and eating it by herself, as if she hadn't noticed me at all.

Seeing that the golden chestnut cake was bitten by her, I suddenly couldn't remember what the mother liked to eat in the past, the mother concubine ...... I haven't missed her like today for a long time, I suddenly feel very sad in my heart, if the mother concubine is here, I can cry, I can roll around without scruples, because the mother will definitely feel sorry for me, will definitely give me delicious chestnut cakes, and will not let people bully me.

Suddenly, the chestnut cake wrapped in a whole handkerchief was stuffed into his hand, and then the girl's crisp voice came.

"Hey, don't be sad, my mother said that children can't be picky eaters, otherwise they won't grow up, you see you must not like to eat chestnut cakes, that's why you grow so weak, you obediently ate chestnut cakes, you will grow taller than my big brother, and no one will dare to bully you in the future!"

The girl's face was so beautiful that I couldn't help laughing, nodded and ate the chestnut cake wrapped in it.

Xu I was a little anxious to eat chestnut cakes, the girl looked at it in a daze for a while, and then said: "Big brother said that the road is uneven and pulls out a knife to help, my children in the rivers and lakes have always been informal, na, I have two elder brothers, and one less brother, do you want to be my younger brother and marry me with Jinlan?"

When I heard the girl's words, a mouthful of chestnut cake was blocked in my throat, and I almost didn't swallow it, how old did she look, and she knew that she was married to someone?

The girl looked at me with some disgust, struggled for a while, and then reached out and patted my back, helping me smooth the chestnut cake, and shook her head while patting, "It's too weak, alas," she said, and stuffed a warm object in her hand into my hand, "This jade cicada is a token, if you are bullied in the future, go to Xia's house in Aquarius Alley, and talk to the porter to find me, ...... Miss Xia Er, I'll let my big brother help you out. ”

Xu is girl's eyes are too clear, I actually feel warm in my heart, like a light coming in, dazzling and bright.

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ps:Xiaoyi likes this kind of childhood sweetheart stalk very much.,Unconsciously, the number of words is written a little too much.,And then it's.,The next chapter is still extra.,A little bit of a rush that can't stop.。