It may be his wishful thinking to say that he is "the first to go", because he once thought a long time later that if she was given two choices at that time, he and Du Jinnian. Even if he had a thousand chances to make her choose again, the final result would probably be the same.

Admittedly, in her with

It's just more scars.

In the end, it's his own fault, and he can't blame anyone.

When he chased him to the airport and could only miss it, the thought suddenly came to his mind - it was too late, there was no chance.

He is not a person who will admit defeat lightly, but at that moment, he must admit that he lost completely.

He is so proud that he has always refused to bow his head lightly, but he accidentally forgets about it, and no one will stay where he is all the time waiting for him to "help". He took himself too seriously, and he was too sure of a qiē. When the blow actually came, he realized how ridiculous his idea really was.

He was unwilling to give up no matter what, he couldn't accept that he had finally made up his mind but had to understand such a result, so he used his relationship to find a place where Du Jinnian took her to live temporarily.

It's a quiet town, perfect for a holiday and to rejuvenate.

When he saw her again, it was late in the evening.

He was walking down the street just in time to see her coming out of the bakery with a paper bag full of bread in her arms.

He subconsciously stopped, hid in the shadows by the side of the road, and watched him earnestly and greedily.

She has lost a lot of weight compared to the last time they met, her chin is pointed, and her eyes are bigger because of it. However, his spirit is much better than before, and his eyes seem to be a little calmer.

She walked down the road in a trance holding the bread, as if she was thinking about something. After a dozen or so steps, she stopped, and her eyes fell on a little girl, dressed in a beautiful pink dress, and holding a beautiful flower basket with roses in her arms, about half or so left. Not far away, a couple was standing on the side of the road and looking at the little girl with a smile. When the little girl sells one, she looks back at the couple with a grin, and the latter laughs and makes cheering gestures.

She watched, watched, and her eyes suddenly became extremely gentle. But soon after, a deep pain slowly flowed out of his eyes, making his heart throb slightly. He knew that she remembered her family.

He wanted to go up and comfort her, but he didn't know what to do. He had too little experience in the matter.

Right now......

He saw the man walk up to the little girl, bend down and smile and say something to the little girl. The little girl shook her head at first, then looked back at her, who was still standing on the street, and nodded.

In the next second, the little girl handed over all the remaining flowers in the flower basket to Du Jinnian.

He saw that Du Jinnian walked up to her with flowers in his arms, handed it to her, and naturally took the bread bag in her arms and hugged it himself.

He saw that she was holding flowers in both hands, looking at Du Jinnian, who was saying something to her, and suddenly lowered her head, revealing a smile with a very small curvature of the corners of her lips, but it was indeed sincere.

The steps he had wanted to take came to a halt at this moment.

Because he suddenly realized one thing - if he showed up here and now, it would only make her smile disappear.

What a cruel and real reality, which makes people feel both the deepest sorrow and irrefutable.

She is already getting better, she is already adjusting to her current life, does he really want to break this qiē with his own hands? Even if he thinks he can do better than Du Jinnian, the most critical premise is - is she willing to accept it?

Impossible.

This answer must be so absolute that he cannot overturn it.

A person who has never hurt or even given warmth, a person who has never given warmth but only scars, fools know what choice to make, right?

Regardless of the skillful snatching, he used strong means to force her to stay by his side, so that she had to accept her own care?

Maybe he could do it, but how could he do it.

She had finally recovered from the last step left to collapse to the point where he had hurt her enough that he couldn't continue to do it, not once.

He took a few steps back again, hid himself in a deeper shadow, looked up at the orange-red sky that was so narrow because it had been cut by the eaves, and chuckled a few times, finally ...... Throw in the towel.

If she needed him, he would stand up; But if she doesn't need him, he'll just look at her.

Doesn't bother her in any way, just watching.

He has always been a person who has gone all the way to the dark, and it is natural to make such a choice. This matter is not a secret in the Shen family. Later, when he occasionally met Shen You, he smiled and said, "If it weren't for the fact that you are my biological son, I would have thought that I would have hugged the wrong one when I was in the hospital", he was just indifferent to this. He has never been able to forgive Shen You, nor does he admit that he is his father, and it is best that they have nothing in common. This at least proves that he is still far from "scum".

I have to admit that when he first decided to wait and see her life, he still had some expectations.

For example, Du Jinnian is tired of taking care of her; For example, Du Jinnian did not do well enough; For example, she doesn't like her current life......

Such an idea may indeed be unkind, but he just can't control it. No one wants to give up the woman he loves, but he has to. It's ironic that once he chose to do nothing because of his own problems, and now he can only do nothing for her sake. If this is fate, then the red rope between him and her probably has the words "no fate" written on it, so that he is not even qualified to have a thought.

He was full of sorrow, the only, the only thing that made him feel a little comforted was that she hadn't fallen in love with Du Jinnian for a long time.

She had turned all her feelings into fuel and threw herself into that vigorous battle, so that her feelings were quite weak and lacking for a long time. Not to mention, it will indeed take a long time to withdraw from that pain.

But at the same time, he also knew that if Yiqiē continued like now, it would only be a matter of time before she fell in love with Du Jinnian.

Tangled, and helpless.

However, he never imagined that fate would be so cruel to her, playing with her in the palm of his hand again and again, holding her to a high place and falling hard.

Du Jinnian died.

Du Jinnian, who made him linger in his arms and like a fish in his throat, died so suddenly.

The reason is also very ordinary, there is nothing unusual - they go to climb the snowy mountain together, and in an accident, he dies, and she survives.

The plot of the novel is the same as that of TV, if it weren't for the fact that the protagonist was her, he wouldn't have believed it at all.

Knowing this, he rushed to the hospital where she was almost immediately, her physical condition was not very serious, but her mental condition was worrying. She couldn't accept the fact that Du Jinnian was dead, screaming and crying to deny this fact. She closed her eyes, covered her ears, and hid herself in the corner, as if this would turn this matter from reality to illusion, let Yiqiē restart, and let Du Jinnian ......

Come back to her.

The helpless doctor was forced to tranquil her.

Under the effect of the medicine, she quickly fell asleep.

He didn't dare to go to her until now, because if he was awake, it would only irritate her further. He sat on the edge of the bed, staring at her, who had become visibly emaciated again in a short time, and reached out to gently grasp her hand that had not been inserted. Her hands were cold, as if she was still in the snow, and she hadn't been able to return until now. She slept restlessly, her brow furrowed, and her palms were covered with beads of sweat, as if she were sitting in some terrible nightmare.

He didn't have much experience in coaxing girls, so he could only grab her hand and put it to his lips, and whispered, "It's okay, it's okay anymore." ”

No matter how much he hated Du Jinnian, at this moment, he really hoped that this annoying guy could come back, even if he took her to marry immediately, it would be fine, at least don't let her become like this, don't let her go back to that bad situation.

She was already in a state of devastation, and she could no longer withstand such a blow.

As if sensing his prayer, her condition gradually stabilized, and her originally rapid breathing gradually evened out.

He breathed a sigh of relief, stretched out his fingers to smooth her brow, and heard her mutter-

"Jin Nian."

His hands froze in place, and the corners of his mouth slowly and slowly hooked up a wry smile.

In that second, he understood something.

She began to like Du Jinnian.

After his death.

That's a ...... Worst outcome.

After that, he went to see her many more times, each time while she was asleep. She couldn't sleep well almost every night, and she always shouted "Jinnian" and "Grandma" from time to time......

He knew the latter.

In fact, after she left with Du Jinnian, he had gone to see the old man.

In retrospect, he didn't know why he had gone, but he had arrived in that quiet and humid town during the rainy season. Her home seems to have a good reputation in the local area, and she found her destination after only asking one person. The person who showed him the way asked him, "Who are you from Granny Su?" He was silent and replied, "I'm Ruan Wan's...... Friend", this is a shameful lie, but the guide believes it, and then he sighs and says, "Xiaowan, that child has not been back for a long time, you persuade her, let her come back to see her grandmother more often".

He didn't know what to say, so he could only respond vaguely.

Then, through the winding road and over the drizzle, he saw her grandmother.