In this life, people always have to lose something in order to understand that people's hearts are not enough to swallow elephants. Pen, fun, and www.biquge.info

It will always be necessary to lose some hard people to understand that there is more to this world than deception.

I'm afraid I'll never forget the two of them in my life.

One, taught me how to hate, one, taught me how to love.

Isn't it very contradictory, but if I could, I wish that even if I learned to hate from the beginning, I wouldn't not love her.

In this way, there will be no pain and nowhere to hide in the next few decades.

In this life, I am in a high position, clothed and fed, and full of dignity.

However, it seems to me that I still don't understand many things.

Like until now, I still can't understand why my royal brother hates me so much.

This person who taught me to hate has kept me plotting revenge for nearly seven years.

I knew I wasn't happy, but even if I wasn't, I was more like waiting for the day when I would defeat him and ask him why he did it.

Why deceive me?

Why did you kill my mother?

For the throne?

In my memory, the emperor was a self-contained and gentle man, who always helped me when I needed it the most and taught me a lot.

At that time, I thought that I had a good brother in my life.

When I was very young, I didn't understand why so many people didn't like me, when it was clear that we were brothers.

They were so nice to me in front of my father and queen mother that I suspected that I was not the same person who bullied me the day before.

I wanted to ask, but their eyes were so terrible that I didn't dare ask.

As soon as the father and queen mother left, they began to sneer.

At that time, only the eldest brother (the Night Emperor) took my hand and smiled as always, and I could feel the warmth in his eyes.

Of course, among these brothers, there are also those who don't bully me, but for other brothers, they also choose to stand by coldly.

Therefore, from beginning to end, only the eldest brother was by my side.

However, this is the kind of person who, when I was ten years old, spent ten years borrowing my hand to let my queen mother die.

When the queen mother was convicted by the harem concubines and insisted on her father's conviction, I saw my father's hesitation, but the evidence of the crime made my father have no way to cover up.

That night, the Queen Mother looked at me and said a word, and she said, "I don't have a son like you."

I didn't dare to step forward, it was the first time I saw the queen mother looking at me with such cold eyes, and the coldness made me afraid.

I didn't dare to cry, so my mother asked my grandmother to take me down.

But I don't know, that glance, the queen mother's words, is the last word.

The next morning, with the queen mother's favorite pastry in my arms, I carefully pushed open the door, and saw the queen mother's jade shoes hanging well, swinging in the air.

The beautiful face of the queen mother was extremely terrible at this moment, but I just looked at it blankly.

I suddenly knew that I had killed my mother with my own hands.

Then, I went to find the eldest brother, he looked at me very indifferently, and then told me with a sneer that he would never talk to a again.

He looked at me like an ugly bug.

Looking at the indifferent gaze of the eldest brother, I understood something.

All of this is just something I trust, I trust, and my esteemed elder brother has planned it single-handedly.

From that moment, this place that constrained my freedom, where I felt that it was okay, this moment was a cage, a betrayal, and a pain for me.

I hated him so much, but I couldn't get revenge.

First, he has no ability, and he can't fight the fledgling eldest brother at all.

The second is that I am the murderer who indirectly killed my mother.

But I know that my only salvation is probably to avenge my mother, and maybe I won't be so miserable.

So, I built my own army and cultivated my own power behind the scenes.

It's been seven years, and I can't trust anyone anymore.

But there is always one person who can break your principles.

For Raccoon, when I became my favorite person in the future, I was cold and almost ruthless.

She's a good sword for me, and a decent killer.

Because I saved her life.

Since then, she has been like a silent stone statue by my side, making great contributions to my power.

I know she's getting numb and won't feel sorry for anyone anymore.

Because of the eyes that gradually dimmed and fell silent, he understood that she was like himself back then, becoming indifferent.

But I didn't expect that one day, suddenly one day, her eyes came to life again, and those eyes were shining again, as if to tell me again, as long as I wanted, I could.

I originally just wanted to walk around, but I unexpectedly heard a conversation between her and Shen Chaomu.

The woman said firmly to Shen Chaomu: As long as it is him, there is no need.

But what do I have to do to make her treat like this.

It's just a deception......

At the time, I thought so.

Later, when I saw her smile, I suddenly made up my mind.

I suddenly felt that the sword beside me might really be able to help me, and maybe it was a crucial step in my plan.

It was only later, this decision, that I regretted it.

For seven years, I was used to planning everything. But at this time, I don't understand that love can't be planned.

That woman had never lied to him.

It's just that I've always refused to believe it, or I'm afraid to believe it.

I ignored my true feelings and gave her to the eldest brother.

She grabbed my robe at the palace banquet, like a lost child, afraid that he would leave her, and my heart throbbed when she looked like this.

Even if I couldn't bear it, I still didn't want to mess up my plans.

So, I broke free of her grasp.

Later, after countless years of reflection, I thought that if I could, I would have to hold that hand tightly.

It's a pity that there was no later.

The woman who kept saying that my life belonged to the prince, and the prince wanted to take it, the woman who kept saying that he wanted to protect him, there was no more.

When the arrow came, he did not hesitate to block in front of me, and fulfilled his promise with his own actions.

And at that moment, this woman who died in my arms taught him love.

However, her passing, to me, was like the collapse of heaven and earth.

Huanji, there is no you in this world, how do you tell me to be good?

Huanji, I miss you so much, will you come back?

Huanji, you don't hate me a hundred times more than you don't love me.

……

Sixty years later.

Ye Lancang lay on the grass, hugged the white jade urn in his arms, and his eyes began to dissipate in confusion.

He seemed to have seen a scene at the palace banquet.

"Lord, please...... Please, don't let go of Raccoon's hand, okay?"

"Good. ”