Section 23 The Past is a Tribulation (Li Jingxi's Extras)
When he was seven years old, it was the most turbulent year in Donglin, the eldest brother and the second emperor brother fought openly and secretly, and the court was divided into two factions. Pen, fun, pavilion www. biquge。 info
His father was very old, and in order to avoid royal strife, he made the eldest brother the crown prince.
It was also that year that I lost both legs.
I vividly remember that year, my father fell ill in bed and called me to serve.
At that time, my father took my hand and asked me if I wanted to be emperor.
I shook my head, now the identity of the prince is a constraint for me.
For me, the throne is even more restrictive.
On that day, my father said to me with a smile: Among his three sons, the eldest son is vicious and ruthless, the second son is cold and indifferent, and the third son is as gentle as jade.
That day, I listened quietly, but I felt that my father looked a little sad.
The father also said: I am the only one, he can't see through.
I want to laugh when I listen to it, I don't see through it or not, only whether you want to see through it or not.
And the person in front of him, who is sitting in a high position, how can he find his free time to look at me?
On that day, my father kept me for a long time, but he didn't say anything.
Later I learned that it wasn't just me who he called that day, and that what he said that day was something he said to all three of us brothers.
He's testing us, and I don't know how deep the emperor's heart is.
But I guess for him, he has no love for us.
The blood of the emperor may be affectionate, but I see through him but I don't hate him at all.
However, I never thought that the Great Brotherhood would attack me.
What can a seven-year-old threaten him?
I don't want the throne, I don't want to fight, I just want to be an ordinary person.
But the eldest brother I have always trusted personally took a cup of the most poisonous tea in the world and sent it to me.
It was also on that day that when I was poisoned, I listened to the eldest brother say sorry, and I suddenly realized that it was so painful to be betrayed by the person I trusted and loved the most.
After all, I didn't die as the eldest brother wished.
I was so lucky that I met a miracle doctor who traveled far and wide, and he saved my life, but he couldn't save my leg.
It was so toxic that I had to force it all to a certain part of my body to survive.
When I survived, I kept thinking.
What the hell did I threaten the Great Emperor, so that he was so cruel to me.
But I can't find the answer......
Until one day, I suddenly learned that the day the eldest brother poisoned me.
His father had summoned him and conspired for most of the day.
Then, when the eldest brother came out of the upper study, he went to my mansion.
I've been chasing so-called answers, and when I really know, I'd rather I didn't know anything.
Before my father died, he saw me.
He looked at me and said, "Why don't you want this throne?"
At that moment, I was in a wheelchair, and the blood in my body was cold.
I laughed: I had no interest in the blood-soaked throne.
He also laughed and told me: "If you are not interested, you will be what you are today."
At that moment, I suddenly understood that when the eldest emperor brother was poisoned, the old man lying in front of me must have played some role in it.
He knew that the eldest brother was vicious and would not let go of those who were a little threat to him.
Therefore, he implicitly told the eldest brother that the heir to the throne that he was satisfied with was me.
Therefore, the eldest brother was angry and poisoned me.
I put my guess on the table and asked him: Why did you do this?
He was terminally ill and would die in the next second, but his expression was still indifferent: I just want to choose an heir in my mind, how can I know that you will be so fratricidal, and you trust the people around you too much.
I shook my head, the sadness in my heart almost swallowing me.
He knows what he knows, and he knows that if he is biased, the eldest brother will not let us go.
But he still wants to take this opportunity to force me to sit on the throne, and wants me to make a move on the eldest brother.
But he didn't know that he forced the eldest brother to make a move.
Until now, this person still feels that he is not at fault in the slightest, and even blames me.
I asked him what we were to him?
The struggle for power, or the puppet he is satisfied with, or the son.
He was silent, and he couldn't give me this answer.
No one will support a man with a broken body to be the emperor, and I have no threat to the eldest brother.
But the second emperor brother is different, so the eldest emperor brother began to deal with the second emperor brother frequently.
Assassination and poisoning, conspiracy, and various means.
At that time, I knew that if the eldest brother was allowed to continue, there would be no more happy and healthy life in the eastern kingdom.
I helped the second emperor brother, and the eldest emperor brother was finally defeated.
When he was trapped, he smiled and said: I didn't expect to lose to me in the end.
But only I know how much I hated him when I was poisoned.
I have loved and respected my eldest brother since I was a child, and I personally made me like this, how not to hate.
But he did not repent in the slightest, and even felt that I had deceived him with my gentle and non-fighting appearance.
At that time, I understood that family affection dissolves in water and goes with the waves.
He was able to hurt me in the first place, but because I personally put the knife that could hurt me into his hand, and now I will never have such a chance again.
She always said that I was the best person in the world, the purest person in the world.
But she didn't know that a person like me had personally killed her imperial brother.
But that's not going to tell her.
Since I'm like this in her heart, let's keep trying.
It's always easier to forgive a stranger than to forgive someone you trust.
Because a stranger has nothing to do with you, you don't give any affection, and the person you trust, when he hurts you, it is extremely difficult to forgive unless he doesn't die.
She is obviously a more pure and soft-conscience person than me, but she always says that I am the best person she has ever met.
But she didn't know that when she had big bright eyes, she looked at me and talked about homely things.
But I think the luckiest thing in my life is to meet her.
Even though I was physically handicapped, she still didn't give up.
The year she married me, the world envied me and everyone praised her.
Even the former second emperor brother, now the Son of Heaven, patted me on the shoulder and told me: You have met a very good person.
You see, many people can see that they are good at a glance, but she thinks I am the best.
When I asked her why she let Meng Xiangru go, she blinked her eyes and told me: Because of you.
I was surprised: Why?
At that time, her smile was warm and bright, and I seemed to see a hundred flowers blooming behind her, but naturally I couldn't stop her beauty.
She told me firmly that because she wanted to be as good as you, she wanted to try to forgive some people.
At that moment, my throat seemed to be blocked by something, not uncomfortable, only full of emotion.
She smiled and tilted her head: they are all pathetic people living in a sad plot, and it is better to forgive more than to hate.
You see, she's so good, but she doesn't know it.