RSA was puzzled: "But all along, isn't it your dream to find your mother?" Why are you going to give up now that you've found it? ”

"Because I found her, I realized why I was looking for her."

"I haven't thought about this question before, like I asked Master Fat, where did I come from without my parents? Maybe I'm just looking for her instinctively, and in my heart, it's a matter of course. But I never really thought about why I was looking for her. ”

"Is it because of mother's love?" Ah Jiu muttered, as if he was asking RSA, and as if he was asking himself. After a pause, he replied to himself: "It shouldn't be, when I was the weakest and needed her the most, she wasn't by my side, whether she had to be a last resort or cruel, she just wanted to abandon me, and I didn't get this maternal love." Now that I'm almost thirty years old, I'm no longer the age when I can be spoiled in my mother's arms, even if she is willing to recognize me, I can't make up for what I lost, so why bother? ”

The RSA didn't understand it at all, and frowned and asked, "It's not that, it's not, what is it?" ”

"Probably because of concern and responsibility," Ah Jiu said with a wry smile, "I think back to where I came from, and she is the answer to this question." When I think about this question, I will also think about how she is doing, whether she is doing well, this is a concern. As a son of man, I always have a concern for my mother, whether she raises me or not, whether she recognizes me or not, she is my mother, this cannot be denied. Based on this, I have a responsibility to her, and within the scope of my ability, I have the responsibility to let her live well, which has nothing to do with whether she recognizes me or not, I was born to her. This one reason is enough, and I am duty-bound. ”

Ah Jiu sighed, his expression gloomy: "As for her not recognizing me...... Maybe it's a good thing for me, because Master's refusal to tell me about what happened back then for so many years will definitely not be a good thing. Since it's not a good thing, I don't know. It's also worry-free. It's been many years since my father died, and the masters have all passed away, so I'm left with one of her relatives, she doesn't recognize me, I don't hate her, if she recognizes me, maybe I know what happened back then, and I have reason to hate her...... I don't want this, I don't want this. It's good to stop here. I found her and confirmed that she was alive and well and healthy, and that was enough. She doesn't recognize me⊙←dǐng⊙←diǎn⊙←小⊙← says,.2★3.o□s_(); , which means that she doesn't need my son in her life, since there is no place, why should I squeeze in? ”

Ah Jiu's words are more sad than the other. RSA and can hear that this is not actually what he is saying. He said this as a means of self-comfort, like a wounded animal, hiding in a corner **** wounds.

Ah Jiu hugged RSA He's waist and hugged him tightly: "I should listen to the fat master's words,

RSA sat up and took Ah Jiu's head into her arms, this was the way she could think of to give this man warmth at this time. nestled in Ah Jiu's arms, holding his arms tightly, this is also the way she can think of to give her brother warmth, she wants Ah Jiu to know that at least she is still there, she is still in his arms, she still belongs to and accompanies him, and this has been going on like this.

After a long time, RSA touched the back of Ah Jiu's head and asked softly, "Are you better?" ”

A nine diǎndiǎn head: "Much better." ”

"It's better to be better," RSA slowly narrowed her eyes, and her hand moved down from the back of Ah Jiu's head to stop at his waist, "Since you're better, shouldn't you take your hand off your sister's waist?" ”

"I just found out today that when your 'brother and sister' were together, it was in this posture......"

"Am I blind?! Don't take it away for me yet!! ”

……

Early the next morning, Ah Jiu was discharged from the hospital. His body actually didn't have anything to do, his body was hot, it was completely caused by the churning of qi and blood, after he woke up, he calmed down, figured out the knot in his heart, and his irritable breath was easily suppressed. This piece of heart is solved, Ah Jiu's whole person is half relaxed, in this life, the so-called responsibility, in fact, can be attributed to two kinds of people, one is the person who gave birth to himself, and the other is the person who gave birth to himself. The mother's affairs, more than 20 years of worry, finally came to a result, Ah Jiu's mind gradually shifted from the person who gave birth to him to the person he gave birth to - the child in SSA's womb.

For a few days in a row, Ah Jiu looked for various opportunities to meet SSA alone, and it was not very convenient at night, so he rushed to stay at SSA's house for half a day in the morning or afternoon, although SSA's belly was not bulging, but after eating too many supplements, people have gained several pounds, and they used to be skinny, but now they are close to 'plump', in terms of 'feel', it is much better than before. Ah Jiu in the name of 'relaxing muscles and invigorating blood', a lot of up and down his hands, always make SSA half up and down, look at his eyes as if they are about to drip water, Ah Jiu also can't help but want to do something several times, but fortunately, he is still sensible, in the first three months of pregnancy, pregnant women who meet the standards of everything can not have sex, although SSA has gained a lot of weight recently, but her body is still weak, this 'ban' for her, can only be extended, absolutely impossible to shorten, so no matter how **** Ah Jiu is, how uncomfortable, I didn't get it serious, I kept all my energy and went home, and I worked the RSA.

This directly leads to zhìrsa becoming more and more 'afraid' of him, although Ah Jiu has never forced RSA, and when she said she didn't want it, she really didn't want it anymore, and she didn't express any dissatisfaction, but RSA felt sorry in her heart, this feels like a man who can't satisfy his wife, as a wife, a man who can't satisfy himself, will also feel frustrated and sorry.

Several times, when the RSA couldn't cope with it, I thought about whether I should just be diǎn big and let the help share it. She must be willing, and Ah Jiu is even less worried...... Don't you want to kill him? But every time she just thought about it, as soon as she had this idea, she immediately denied it. In fact, in her heart, it's not that she can't tolerate anyone, the feeling is still very accurate, if she is like the same, listen to her 100%, she can tolerate it. But the question is, she feels that she can't open this opening, you must know that men are faceless, there are two if there is one, and there are three if there are two, can she guarantee that she will listen to her all, and can she guarantee that the people who come after her will be like this?

She didn't want to take this risk. Moreover, if she really can't cope with it, it will definitely not be in her consideration. In her heart, she still doesn't want others to share it with her. (To be continued.) )