Zhang Rongfeng was stunned by Qin Yingying's words, hesitated for a long time, and then said: "I am the most stupid person, and I will not be able to speak like other men. But... I prefer to express what is in my heart with my own actions. ”

"Action?" Qin Yingying looked at him in surprise, "What action will you take?"

Zhang Rongfeng lowered his head and hesitated for a moment before he said tentatively: "Yingying, I want to tell the story of how I used my actions to fight against my bumpy fate. ”

"But I know all about your experience. ”

"But you only know my personal experience, and you don't know what kind of torture my mental experience is?"

Qin Yingying thought for a moment before she sighed: "Yes, people only see your determination to insist on your eldest mother and not give up, but they can't touch what your spiritual world is like." ”

"Yingying, I already regard you as my confidante, are you in the mood to listen to my inner monologue now?"

Qin Yingying nodded: "Say it." ”

Zhang Rongfeng raised his head, turned his gaze to the window, and said slowly: "Yingying, I have lived for more than forty years, except for a short marriage history when I was young, I have not been nourished by love in this life. But I'm a man, and I have the same emotions and desires as other men. However, fate chose to let me go alone all these years. I don't know how much I've been burdened over the years, but I've come to where I am today. However, even though I was emotionally lost, I never felt at home. But it wasn't until I had a hunch that my mom couldn't walk with me much longer that I felt like I was really about to become a homeless person. I suddenly had this understanding of home, that is, where there is a mother, it is home. God has left me alone for most of my life, I have lost a lot, and at the same time it has given me a lot. When I longed for my other half, I secretly prayed to heaven and asked him to give me a woman. I will be sincere with her forever. However, in reality, I have always had such a woman who walked with me in the ups and downs of life, and that was my mother. I have discussed the value of being a man, and I feel that a man must make the woman who loves him happy, which is the best interpretation of his own value. However, God did not give me such an opportunity. When I had a hunch that my mother might leave me at any time, I suddenly realized that in order to make women happy, I must first let my mother live happily. She is a woman with a strong desire to survive, and since she has never given up on her life, I can't give up. When I accompanied her in the process of fighting the disease all these years, I suddenly realized some truths, and let my lost emotions suddenly have a kind of steadiness, that is, to throw all my love to the woman who has always been with me, even if she is my mother. When fate pushed me to such a cusp, it made my feelings and family greater than love. In fact, someone once said that if love can last, it must be sublimated into family affection. I finally know what kind of actions to use to interpret the value of my life. That is to allow one's mother's finite life to be extended indefinitely under the nourishment of love. This may be what people often say, having a mother at 70 and a home at 80. That's why I value my mom's life more than my own. Although the disease has grown in her, I have always felt empathy with her, as if she is her future self. I want to take my future self to today and resonate with my mother's fate. When I allowed myself to reach this point, I was relieved of my emotional loss. We can imagine that when we reach the end of our lives, can we still hope for love?"

When Qin Yingying heard this, she couldn't help but interrupt: "Why can't it? Love is eternal, and it will transcend age and even life." Have you ever heard of a love story that happened in a nursing home?"

Zhang Rongfeng was stunned: "Could it be that there is also a love story in the nursing home?"

"Absolutely. There are love stories in our recovery ward. For example, the story of my brother and Sister Qingxia that you know, and the love story of Zhao Shuang, a nurse in the fourth ward, and Tian Tao, a terminally ill patient, that you don't know. Of course, these are the love of both doctors and patients. But in the nursing home, there are love stories of those old people who have no family affection. I've heard of one such love story. The heroes and heroines in the story are both old men over eighty years old. Each of them has no partner and is almost alone for the rest of their lives. Because they have no children and no daughters, the state places them in the same nursing home. As a result, these two old people had feelings of sympathy for each other in the place where their respective lives ended, and under the arrangement of the staff of the nursing home, they walked into the palace of marriage hand in hand. ”

Zhang Rongfeng listened to the story told by Qin Yingying, and after a moment of disgust, he couldn't help but sigh: "This is indeed a commendable story, and it also makes me suddenly feel a kind of excitement, hoping that I will have such a love miracle in the future." ”

Qin Yingying couldn't help but smile bitterly: "Are you willing to give up now?"

Zhang Rongfeng couldn't help but raise his head, looked at the ceiling in a daze, and then said emotionally: "The ancients once had a wise saying, that is, you can't have both fish and bear's paws. I think that since God has given me the opportunity to repay my mother's nurturing grace and filial piety, I have invisibly deprived me of the right to fall in love. This is true in the real world. Before my mom fell ill, I had a girlfriend. She has lovely daughters with twin pairs. For me, who has never had children, I like the two twins who don't reject me very much, thinking that I can enjoy a family fun with children and daughters. However, my mom was diagnosed with a terminal illness, and my attitude of not giving up finally made this marriage come to an end. I can't blame anyone. After all, it is not easy for a woman, and she is eager to find someone who can help her financially, rather than looking for a burden. I've been in contact with some single middle-aged women since then, but when they find out about my current situation, they all stay away. Some women have to wait for my mom to leave before they talk to me about their feelings. However, this is completely against my will. ”

Qin Yingying couldn't help but nodded: "Yes, love is selfish, but it can't be too narrow." Even if you don't want to share the obligations with the other party, you should accompany the elderly and give the other party spiritual comfort. ”

Zhang Rongfeng couldn't help but sigh: "Alas, there is a wish in my mind, that is, before I lose my mother, I must increase the number of people in this family, instead of reducing the population and becoming a single person." However, since God cannot fulfill my wish and let a loving woman enter my life, then I should bravely choose to be lonely for the rest of my life. ”

Qin Yingying heard his words, and her heart couldn't help sinking, and she suddenly understood that if his mother left, then he would not start a family again, because his mother could not share his happiness. When he can't make his mother feel the comfort of his love, what is the meaning of love to him?

Qin Yingying pondered for a moment at this time, and then questioned: "Your so-called actual action is to use your great love and family affection to fill the loss of personal feelings, but it can be said that it is reasonable. But what about me? I don't have a terminally ill mother to take care of. So where should my feelings go, and how should I get rid of my current suffering?"

Zhang Rongfeng focused his eyes on her face again, and couldn't help asking, "Do you think you need a psychiatrist to help you heal your injuries?"

Qin Yingying couldn't help but smile bitterly: "If there is someone who can comfort me and help me get out, then of course I need such a psychiatrist to help me treat my mental trauma." ”

Zhang Rongfeng couldn't help but shake his head: "Do you think some consolation can help you get out? Why don't you use my practical actions to heal the pain in your heart?"

"But as I told you, I don't have the burden you have. ”

"Alas, I am a family member of a patient and can only cast my love for a sick relative. And you are an angel in white, and you have to face countless patients who are struggling on the line of life and death. Can't you treat the patients who need your help as your own family?"

"This... Who says I didn't do that?"

"But you still feel mentally empty, so when you cast your loss online, you encountered so many online scams. But what is the reason for your spiritual emptiness? That is, you are not putting your love into every patient who needs your own care. Now, can you listen to me tell a story about a nurse?"

Qin Yingying's eyes lit up: "Oh, do you still know the story about the nurse?"

"Because it's true. I saw it on the news. ”

"Oh, what's the nurse doing?"

When public opinion paid attention to her, she was already 90 years old and had already retired. But she has many relatives and has been taken care of. ”

"Well, what kind of touching story is this?"

"Yingying, what I'm going to tell you is that the retired nurse never got married, let alone had a child. But she is a nurse at a children's hospital, and those relatives are the children she has cared for and even their descendants. ”

When Qin Yingying heard this, she suddenly understood what he was going to say, so she immediately nodded: "I know, that senior has regarded all the children he takes care of as his own children, and has produced a great maternal love that nourishes every child who has been traumatized." Although she has never been married in her life, her spiritual world has always been very fulfilling. That's because she has great love in her heart and unreservedly dedicates it to the children in need of love. ”

Zhang Rongfeng smiled with satisfaction: "You are so smart, you quickly understood what I was going to tell you." ”

Qin Yingying smiled: "Because I have also heard this story before." But I wasn't a nurse at the time, so I didn't have a deep understanding of this story. Today, when you pick it up again, you suddenly have a special feeling. ”

Zhang Rongfeng said excitedly: "I am very pleased to see your bright smile again." However, the actual actions of others tell us that when we are mentally wounded, it is better to put our great love into the loved ones who need us, and find something to comfort us in the feelings of the other person, rather than those boring words of comfort. ”

Qin Yingying's eyes couldn't help but moisten: "Thank you for your story." Although you did not say a word of comfort to me, you did tell me the deepest truth of the world. This is the treasure of my life. ”

Zhang Rongfeng was a little embarrassed, and couldn't help lowering his head: "Yingying has won the award." I'm just going to talk about some of my own personal feelings, which is to enrich my life with a tangible action. ”

Qin Yingying suddenly sat up from the bed at this time.

Zhang Rongfeng was stunned: "Yingying, what are you going to do?"