86. Regret
On the 28th of the lunar month, Chi Chi went to a nearby supermarket to sweep some New Year's goods with his head covered and his face, black sunglasses and white masks, and a black brimmed hat buckled on his head, not like buying New Year's goods, but more like robbing a bank.
Chen Fang prepared a lot of fast food for her in advance, and the X-boy pier was stuffed with a refrigerator, as if she was a little girl with little cooking ability.
Well, the little girl, she admits that she has no cooking ability, and Chi Chi will never agree.
Delicate pork ribs, beef brisket with the best taste, imported large skin shrimp, fresh deep-sea fish, black chicken, bamboo sun, lily, red skin and seeds...... She picks vegetables quickly and sophisticatedly, not sloppy at all, and soon took a bunch of good things, this concept of "a little" New Year's goods, probably the same as some girls when they go shopping: "I pick a piece of clothes that can be worn and go", in fact, I can't wait to move the whole store home.
After taking a car, the driver saw her difficult and difficult appearance, and directly helped her deliver everything to the elevator door.
When Chi Chi used his mobile phone to pay the fare, he also gave more money for tea.
This is the end of her old year alone, the refrigerator is full of ingredients, the empty room, reading the script of "Feng Kitchen", sorting out last year's notes, and quietly waiting for the coming of the new year.
A familiar feeling haunted her, as if she had spent too much time like this, so quiet that it was almost deserted, and only the smiling child knocking on the door could break it.
Sitting at the desk, Chi Chi was distracted.
She didn't want to explore her past at all, because even if she found it, she couldn't go back, she didn't want to, she couldn't.
But the human latent consciousness is so wonderful, and when she feels a little bit of the blocked memories, she still wants to come to the city.
As if to be able to see the coast and the rising sun that she once accompanyed, like an old friend, silently saying goodbye.
"I actually want to sleep more......" she said lazily, taking off her shoes, bringing her two long legs together in a chair and sitting on her knees.
She was so tired, as if she had a breath that had been supporting her, so that she didn't dare to stop and run forward, and now that she was alone, that breath was finally hidden for the time being, and she could let herself be tired.
The phone on the table vibrated and broke the silence of the room.
The caller was Feng Shuo.
"Koikechi, what are you doing?"
Feng Shuo's tone was brisk, and just by listening to it, he knew that he must have just finished a very hard work.
"Thinking about what to eat at night. Chi Chi said with a smile, "Now that I can finally eat seafood, I bought a Thai pi shrimp that weighs a pound." ”
"Tsk, you're really on vacation as soon as you're on vacation, just think about eating every day. Let those of me who don't take holidays really envy to death. ”
"Oh......"
The girl lazily responded, since she was inhumanely broken, she naturally had to show a way to match it.
"I also bought a good stew stock, which has been stewed in the pot, and it is a ...... of lean meat."
After the routine finished eating, Chi Chi did not forget to congratulate Feng Shuo on the premiere of Feng Shuo's new drama, which had extremely high ratings, and easily became the record holder for ratings since the Gregorian New Year.
"It's okay, the script is good, everyone has been working hard for a few months, and it's a good thing that the results are good. ”
In the face of praise, Feng Shuo has always said the credit of others first, as for himself, he is just a member of a creative collective, and it is his respect for others that has made him circle a lot of fans after becoming popular, some fans may not like his TV series very much, nor do they think he is handsome, but he feels that his quality is really rare in the colorful entertainment industry, so he slowly turns into fans or even black fans, if this situation jumps out of the fandom of the entertainment industry, it is attracted by his personality charm.
"When I went to the supermarket to buy groceries and queued up to check out, I watched someone watch your drama on their mobile phone, and while watching, I covered my chest and said that I was so handsome, so handsome......"
Chi Chi joked with Feng Shuo, got up and poured himself a glass of warm water.
"I still have staff here to secretly watch "Daughter Country", and after watching it, I came back and told me that Linglong is so handsome, so handsome!" said that it was so handsome that Feng Shuo was obviously learning Chi Chi's tone.
The two of them were chatting idly, with a very genuine smile on their faces.
Hanging up the phone, Chi Chi decided to go and drink a bowl of soup and make a steamed egg with shrimp for dinner.
Feng Shuo is still deep in the filming site where the staff come and go, he can't go home for the Chinese New Year this year, and he will end the filming of this suspenseful modern drama before mid-March, and he joined the group of An Lan's "Liang Mu" in April, and booked the shooting of four or five commercials in June...... It can be said that the new year has not yet come, and his work schedule has been scheduled for the next New Year.
"Why? As soon as I heard that people were alone for the New Year, I called them all over the place, and my face was full of smiles. ”
Dou Baojia floated coldly behind him, and his tone was harder than the wind knife in the big capital.
Feng Shuo retracted his smirk in a second, and turned back into the big star who was a little cold,
"Aren't you the one who took the assistants to secretly watch the midnight show of "Daughter Country". He asked his agent in turn.
"Huh. Dou Baojia, who was wearing a suit and tie, leaned on the dressing table next to Feng Shuo with a cup of hot coffee, "The important thing for me is to go out with the young girls, it doesn't matter what you see, you know?
Feng Shuo: "......"
What's the use of having a high emotional intelligence, when you encounter someone who is clearly shameless, you can only remain silent.
Time blinks to the Chinese New Year's Eve day, Chi Chi is busy from early in the morning to his own Chinese New Year's Eve meal, the ribs should be pickled, the meat filling should be cut in advance, with a little leek and a little shrimp is enough, the big skin shrimp is taken out to thaw, and the same is true for deep-sea fish......
Local news is broadcast on the television, and this year there is a resumption of the fireworks display at sea a few years ago, and citizens can go to the vicinity of the sea landmark at 8 p.m. to watch.
Chi Chi listened to it in his ears and felt that he was a little interested.
Also hearing the news was Chi Jinyin.
She had been lying in Ji Xiulan's bed for two days, not wanting to move or talk.
At this time last year, she still held the hope of being able to find her grandmother, but now, she has despaired, and what makes her even more desperate is Chi Jinwen's attitude, according to the law, a person can be declared dead after two years of disappearance, and there is less than half a year...... the name "Chi Xiulan" is a dead person in the legal sense, Chi Jinwen discussed with Chi Jinyin, and transferred the shares of the "Tianchi" group left by his grandmother to Chi Jinyin's name.
This made Chi Jinyin completely collapse.
"How can you give up?"
"Why can't you find it?"
"Why is Grandma supposed to be considered dead?"
"Why can Ji Jinwen dispose of his grandmother's 'inheritance' with peace of mind now?"
No one told her to answer these questions.
After all, the old man who held her hand and reasoned with her little by little had passed away, leaving her with a world that she hadn't had time to understand in a hurry.
Chi Jinwen, who should be dependent on her in theory, doesn't understand why his sister has become what she is now.
How long she lay down, how long did the TV last, this room was too cold and quiet, she really couldn't stand it, when she thought that her grandmother had been in such an environment for more than ten years, and she could only wait for them to come to see her, Chi Jinyin couldn't stand it even more.
The more I grow up, the more I understand that what I once took for granted was actually the harsh criticism of my elders, but the elders didn't say it, so everyone was at ease.
The real change of place, the pay and waiting behind those care are unbearable, incomprehensible, and even dare not think or touch.
Hearing the words "fireworks show on the sea" on TV, Chi Jinyin thought of a little old thing in a trance.
When she was a teenager, her grandmother had just moved here to recuperate, and during the Chinese New Year, her grandmother was very interested in the fireworks show and asked her twice if she wanted to go to see it.
At that time, the Spring Festival Gala was still very attractive, not to mention that there were several very popular big stars who wanted to perform, so Chi Jinyin decisively said that he didn't want to go.
"If you don't go, don't go. ”
The old man sat in a wheelchair and said slowly: "Fireworks, you can see them anywhere, I still think they are crowded, I can also watch them in the room, our windows are facing the sea, right......"
While talking and smiling as he chooses the dishes, the dumplings with celery and beef are Ji Jinyin's favorite.
Chi Jinwen, who rushed home at five o'clock in the afternoon, brought a few tickets for the "VIP seats", and Tianchi built two buildings in Zhucheng at that time, one was a large office building, and the other was the one where his grandmother lived - a barrier-free apartment building designed for the disabled, and the designer was Chi Xiulan herself. With such a "love" with this city, it is not difficult to get a good position when watching the fireworks.
"I'm not going. ”
Grandma, who had been talking about fireworks for a day, said decisively.
"My legs are inconvenient, and there are many people over there, so I don't ...... noisy"
Grandma likes to watch fireworks, Chi Jinyin heard Chi Jinwen say a long time later, she likes fireworks the most, and she used to participate in foreigners' fireworks parties when she was cultivating abroad, and she never refused to participate in this kind of activity because of her age and physical condition.
Maybe going out with her grandchildren to see the scenery she likes is something she has always looked forward to, but this expectation has been lightly punctured.
"Woo...... Grandma, come back, I'll accompany you to see whatever you want, I'm no longer willful, I'm no longer willful......"
Chi Jinyin, who is now in his twenties and has become a teacher, hugged the pillow and cried.
She had been loved in a special way, and by the time she finally realized it, she had lost the opportunity to give back and appreciate it forever.
After dinner, it was already past seven o'clock, Chi Chi cleaned up the dining table and changed into an extra-long sweatshirt that could wrap people from head to toe.
Looking in the mirror for a while, she always felt that this elastic hoodie looked a little strange when she put it on a hat, more like an earthworm or a catfish.
With a puzzled understanding of the aesthetics of young people, she walked to the place to watch the fireworks show.
Looking down at Weibo, the girl named Hua Xiaohua had already commented on the photo she had just posted on Weibo.
(Angry) Why can Pipi shrimp be so big?
Ji Chi replied with a smile on his face.
The purple and red, the waterfall is shining, there is the beauty of a hundred flowers blooming, and there is also the magnificent scene of golden rainbows.
Chi Chi likes fireworks, and has always liked them, even if the sky is still dark in the end, at least fireworks will leave those ephemeral beauty in other people's memories.
Life is very long, how many people think that their long-term splendor will be after the current dormancy, but they don't know that the dormant may become mediocrity, and waiting becomes self-deception, it is better to ignite themselves into fireworks, at least brilliant, and have no regrets and splendor.
Chi Chi, who was wearing sunglasses, stood in the crowd and looked at the sky, standing for a long, long time.
The wind blows from the sea, mixed with the faint smell of fireworks as they fall.
How many things can be given up for the sake of this beauty?
She smiled, and the thing that had been gently pressing on her heart after seeing Ji Jinwen finally disappeared completely.
"I'm Chi Chi, I'm no longer playing, I'm her, the parts that make me not her...... will all be abandoned by me. ”
The accumulation of loneliness and the precipitation of helplessness will definitely make her more beautiful than fireworks.
She deserves it.
Behind her, Chi Jinyin wandered like a ghost, this night of family reunion, the whole world seemed to be the only one alone, the more lively it was, the more cold it made her feel cold, biting cold.
"Grandma. ”
I'm here to watch the fireworks, where are you?
"Someone passed out!"
Chi Chi heard the screams and saw someone lying on the ground not far away, and there were a few children next to him, who were screaming just now.
A new round of flowing golden light rose into the sky, illuminating the face of the man who had fallen to the ground.
"Jinyin?!"