(137) Actually, you can not love me

"You think too much, unless you don't want to be with Brother Feng. Lan Lan also said this a little too directly. Ah Feng and I have become what we are now, how can I not be with Ah Feng, if I am not with Ah Feng, who am I going to be with?

"You're thinking too much." I pouted and said to Lan Lan, pretending to be angry and cute. Seriously, Lan Lan's casual words made me think for a long time, if I wasn't with Ah Feng, what would I do?

I've thought about this question more than once, but now that I'm facing it again, I really have some preparations that I want to think about seriously.

"That's right, you can't bear Brother Feng, and you don't like the way you look now, so what do you say? There's always a trade-off. "Lan Lan is right, but if the trade-off was really so easy, I wouldn't be so embarrassed.

It's not that I can't become what Ah Feng wants me to become, it's just that all of a sudden I have to completely replace myself, and no one can do it, and it seems that there is not so much time waiting for me now.

"Isn't there a saying that is very good, women must have their own charm, and they can't always think of becoming what others like. Have you ever heard of the saying that if the flower is in full bloom, the butterfly will come by itself? ”

I refuted Lan Lan's words, in fact, I was making an excuse for myself, an excuse for Ah Feng to love me. Every woman has zero IQ and EQ in front of the man she loves, which is almost something that you don't have to think about.

"You belong to self-comfort, let me tell you, I won't get used to you like Brother Feng and Sister Haixiu, I will only hit you." Lan Lan said solemnly, her face full of the words "I am good for you".

I do know that Lan Lan is for my good, and if she doesn't tell me these words, it may take me a long time to see what kind of person I am.

"You just hit it, I'm not afraid anyway." I replied to Lan Lan's words, and her words really made me sober up a lot.

"Actually, I think I'm quite sorry for Xiaoya." As soon as I changed my words, I directly got to Xiaoya's matter again.

Lan Lan, who was quite happy, as soon as I mentioned Xiaoya, the smile on her face disappeared directly, it was too obvious.

"Didn't you say you were taking advantage of the relationship?" It sounds like it's asking me, but it's just a response and a reminder of me.

"That's me using her, not her." That's right, I'm using Xiaoya for everything.

"Why are you still so stupid after following Brother Feng for so long?" I'm disgusted again, how do I feel like I'll be disgusted wherever I go, only Ah Feng won't dislike me.

"Where am I stupid?" I never admit that I am a stupid woman, I didn't expect to be said by Lan Lan today, but even Sister Haixiu never said this about me.

"Brother Feng has you, she naturally won't rob you, she doesn't want to show her face, so she can only catch a man, isn't Liu Lao Ghost the most suitable person?"

Listening to this, how can it seem that Lan Lan knows everything very well, we can't see through what kind of person Xiao Ya is, how Lan Lan knows.

"Wait, why didn't you know anything when I asked earlier?" I asked Lan Lan, I clearly remember that when I asked Lan Lan Xiaoya about it on the first day I came back, Lan Lan didn't say that.

"I don't even know what you're going to do, how can I talk nonsense, I obviously saw her crying in the arms of Liu Lao Ghost, and when she returned to JK, she became a different person."

"How did it change?" I don't really understand what Lan Lan said, when a woman is uncomfortable, it is very likely that she will cry in a man's arms, which is not a strange thing.

can't because of this, we have to doubt Xiaoya, after all, from beginning to end, we are the ones who are sorry for Xiaoya.

"Oops! Forget it, you weren't there at the time, so it's not clear. It doesn't matter what kind of person she is, it doesn't matter to us in the future anyway. ”

What Lan Lan said is as it should be, and it is indeed as she said, no matter what Xiaoya does in the future, she will not have anything to do with us.

I chatted casually with Lan Lan, I feel that the relationship between me and Lan Lan has been much better in the past few days, I think about it, nothing special has happened, it seems that feelings have never needed time to prove.

I desperately wanted to keep the things, but in the end they were far away from me, I thought about the things that I wanted to follow, but they were with me from beginning to end, fate is really a very wonderful thing, and no one can force it.

Time passed quickly, more than four hours passed in a blink of an eye, and I couldn't move, so I kept doing this, and after a long time, I was about to become a sculpture.

"Why hasn't Brother Feng come back yet?" Lan Lan ate the apple and asked me, I shook my head, I didn't even know where Ah Feng went, I asked you why he didn't come back yet.

"When is this, what is Brother Feng doing?" Lan Lan continued, throwing the apple in her hand into the trash can with a few bites.

I still shook my head and listened to the beating of time, and my heart couldn't calm down, and I couldn't calm down for a long time.

"Ah Feng." As soon as Lan Lan finished speaking, Ah Hua's voice called Ah Feng sounded downstairs.

When I heard Ah Hua call Ah Feng, I was really excited, I didn't think about Ah Feng so much, I can't say why I miss this kind of thing, I just desperately want to see Ah Feng.

"It seems that Brother Feng is back, I'll leave when he comes back, take care of yourself, take care of your arm." Lan Lan stood up as she spoke, she probably knew that I wanted to stay with Ah Feng.

I smiled and nodded to Lan Lan and said to her, "Don't worry, I'm the one who loves beauty the most, and I will definitely take care of myself." ”

My mood is affected by Ah Feng every minute, and I would never have thought that one day I would be such a woman, putting my own sorrows and joys on a man, and I didn't know how sad it was.

Women will only fall deeper and deeper in their relationships, and there is no way to explain this.

Lan Lan's voice going downstairs was a little hasty, and when Ah Feng went upstairs, my heart was pounding and pounding, and I couldn't be quiet, just like a young girl who had just fallen in love and met the boy she had liked for a long time.

"Xiaoyu." The moment Ah Feng pushed open the door, calling my name, I raised my head and looked at Ah Feng with a blushing face, and saw the tiredness in his eyes.

"Did something happen?" When I looked at Ah Feng's eyes like this, no matter how much love I had in my heart, it couldn't replace my worry, I asked Ah Feng worriedly, almost forgetting that I couldn't move my arm, and stretched out my hand to touch Ah Feng's face.

"I miss you." Ah Feng sat on the edge of the bed, said in a low voice, but did not look into my eyes, his hand lightly placed on my shoulder, looking at my gauze-wrapped hand, the movement paused.

"Why is it so serious?" After a short period of sadness, Ah Feng noticed my arm, and he looked at the arm wrapped in gauze and asked me.

Ah Feng's voice has been ringing like a low bell, and there is some hoarseness, I don't know what kind of difficult thing has tormented Ah Feng to the way he is now.

"It's not serious, it's just that the doctor has bandaged it with some exaggeration." I said something to reassure Ah Feng, and my gaze did not fall on Ah Feng's body again, but moved down to my own arm.

I don't know what else I can see at such a time.

"I'm sorry, Xiaoyou, I'm sorry." Ah Feng said sorry strangely.

"It's not your fault, you don't have to say sorry to me, not to mention that the injury is really not serious." My first reaction was that Ah Feng felt guilty for not taking good care of me, so he said sorry, and I didn't think of him at all.

"Hungry? What would you like to eat? I'll do it for you. Another accident, Ah Feng asked what Ah Hua had asked when he first came, but there was one more sentence in the end.

"I'm not hungry, you're tired all day, hurry up and rest, maybe there is something to be busy with tomorrow." I don't want to talk to Ah Feng anymore, I know that Ah Feng has something in his heart, and I also know that Ah Feng's sorry just now is not aimed at my arm injury, and it is precisely because I know that I don't want to ask.

Whatever the answer is, I don't think I'll be too happy, and since that's the case, I don't want to look for unhappiness in my heart.

"Xiao You......" Ah Feng called me.

"Go ahead, I'm tired too." I interrupted Ah Feng's words, and I always had a gut feeling that what Ah Feng said next would definitely not be what I wanted to hear.

After talking to Ah Feng, I closed my eyes and leaned on the head of the bed, creating an illusion that I was very tired and tired, in fact, I couldn't sleep at all now, and I didn't feel sleepy at all.

"Okay, you rest first." Today's Ah Feng's voice is extraordinarily gentle, so gentle that I feel a little uncomfortable.

Ah Feng got up and went into the bathroom, and when the sound of rushing water sounded, I opened my eyes again, and my eyes were a little moist, probably because my eyes had been closed for too long.

In order not to let yourself get wet and there are rolls in your eyes. The hot liquid came out, and I sniffed hard and shook my head so that the liquid would evaporate in my eyes.

How long Ah Feng stayed in the bathroom, I waited outside with my eyes open, I don't know why my sadness was exposed so easily, I am a person who can't hide something on my mind, so I don't want to stay with Ah Feng more, it's not that I don't want to, it's that I can't.

"Actually, you can not love me." I looked at the figure of Ah Feng in the bathroom, and said this sadly in my heart.

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