When I arrived in Kaifeng County, the sky had become more gloomy, and the old north wind was roaring so hard that I felt my ears being cut out as soon as I got out of the car. At this time, the sky was already boiling with snowflakes. "It's probably going to snow. "I think.

I found a phone and dialed the number that Fengqin's sister had written for me. After determining my position, Fengqin asked me to wait for her where I was. She said she'd come over in a moment.

I told her that I was carrying a green school bag. She said, "Got it." Then, he hung up.

After a while, a girl with short hair, a red trench coat, blue jeans, and black leather shoes walked up to me.

"You are Zhang Jianming. "Ahh You're Fengqin. I said. She answered, sneaking a glance at me with the rest of her eyes, and I glanced at her. That Jin Fengqin is not tall, with small eyes, and is considered a medium talent in terms of talent.

Meeting her reminded me of her photo. When Jin Fengqin wrote my second letter, she mailed me a photo. Why are the eyes so big in that photo, and how I see her and how she thinks her eyes are so small.

What the hell is going on? I've heard people say that some people have small eyes when they take pictures, and they can use something to prop them up. I really don't know what it is.

But what is certain is that the photo that Feng Qin mailed me must have been processed. The more this happens, the more it means that she has some inferiority complex in her heart. The more she has low self-esteem, the more confident I become. Of course, readers have to ask, there is no standard code for you to choose a girlfriend?

How can I see one and love the other, whether the drift is beautiful or not, whether the eyes are big or small, whether the word is tall or short? What I want to tell you is that I have no standard, as long as I can marry a wife.

After we introduced each other, Fengqin asked me to go with her to the big hotel where she helped. Halfway through, she said to me, "Isn't the person you see me different from what you imagined? ”

Most girls like to say that she is testing whether you really like her. "Where? You're actually pretty good-looking. "I'm telling the truth. Because Feng Qin was only twenty years old at that time.

Even if it's not pretty, it's full of youth, and if you wear beautiful clothes, you will be recognized as beautiful.

"Are you praising me or am you sarcastic?" ”

As we sat together on the tricycle, the golden phoenix took care of me with her girlish tenderness, leaning close to me, and putting her leather-gloved hands on my knees, looking at me with affection in her eyes.

How stupid I was! I should have put my hand around her, and if we had looked at each other like that, I might have kissed her. But today, more than 20 years later, whenever I think of this scene, I can only regret it.

These performances of the organ made me really feel a little fluttery, and at the same time I had an illusion. I thought she would overcome her family's resistance and be willing to go with me.

We went to the hotel where she helped. It turned out that the hotel nominally belonged to Kaifeng County, but in fact it was two or three miles away from the county seat, in a very remote place, no wonder I couldn't find it for several days.

The organ invited me into a private room, arranged tea, and began to talk to me face to face. She said that she felt okay about me, but that her parents and her eldest brother were adamantly against our affairs on the grounds that it was too far away.

I told you that my personality is very similar to Lin Daiyu, and I am very suspicious. I suspect this is her excuse, and most girls are good at it.

She doesn't like you, she doesn't just say she doesn't like you, but says "we're not suitable" and so on. No, it's just passing the blame on to someone else.

I was thinking, since you don't want to be boyfriend and girlfriend with me, why do you want to be coquettish in front of me, why did you get so close to me just now, put your hands on my knees, and look at me with those gentle eyes, which made me delusional.

It's like lifting a person high in the air and then slamming it to the ground. What a cruel thing this is! At this point, I thought again of the letters she had written.

What "A dream last night, you quietly participated in it, what I gave you is deep affection, and what I gave you is of course different." "What" you are like a book, let me read carefully, the meaning of which cannot be described, read your sincerity, pain and happiness, read to your deepest part. ”

"I found a sincere and kind confidant, looked up at the blue sky, and told the blue sky that I was no longer lonely. "It's all a lie.

Didn't you say in the letter that you regarded me as a confidant? But when I actually came, the reply I got was like this? But these thoughts were all expressed on my face, and my face was very uncomfortable, very painful, very worried.

This made Feng Qin see. She smiled, came to me again, poured me tea, and sat down next to me. She was so close to me that I felt a girl's scent coming to my nose, which made me feel drunk.

Then I suddenly remembered what her sister and her sister had said, so I asked her, "What does your sister think of our affairs?" ”

"And what do you think now?" "What can I think? Can I defeat so many of them alone? My father has a bad temper, and I would have liked to go to you by myself. He said that if I dared to go, I would have to break my leg.

Some time ago, you took care of me for a few days. Later, after the persuasion of my mother and sister, I was released and sent here to help. “

Feng Qin's words reminded me of why I haven't heard from her again for more than a month. It turned out that she was fighting against her parents.

I reckon that most of the letters she wrote to me were through her sister, and that her sister must have read our letters. Well, it is reasonable for her sister to be afraid that I will see her.

I said, "Forget it." Let's be friends in the future. Maybe I'll write you into a novel in the future. What I said was not realized until today, 20 years later, is it too late?

But now I am a middle-aged person who has experienced many vicissitudes. "Don't write about me, I have nothing to write about. As she spoke, Feng Qin quickly shook her head, then lowered her head again and looked at her feet with two eyes. And so it was like this for a long time.

She finally stood up and left me as if in pain. I knew my face must have been even more ugly. Although I couldn't see my face at the time, I knew it must be ugly.

Because I knew I was going to lose another girl. I originally thought that after losing Xiaolan, I had already been baptized by feelings, and I might not be sad when I encountered this kind of thing in the future.

However, when this kind of thing comes to the head, the painful feeling is so intense, there is a feeling of being crushed or the bone marrow is removed. Although I pretend to be calm on the surface, my face is not hidden.

It seems that Feng Qin is also a little uncomfortable. Because when she left me from her seat, I could see that she was very determined. Maybe she really liked me, but she was only pressured by her parents?

He let out a long breath and tried to stand up. At this time, Feng Qin didn't know where to come from, and there were a few boys and girls with her.

So, the sound engineer turned on the stereo, and they sang and danced. It is: "No matter how it will end in the future, at least we have been together, we don't have to bother to restrain each other, and we don't need verbal commitments, as long as we have had, it is enough for you and me, there are many memories in people's lives, I only hope that your memories have a me." ”

Reader, don't look at that Jin Fengqin is not too beautiful, but she is a very smart and delicate girl, and she is also very good at creating a romantic atmosphere.

Because of our situation at the time, it was perfect to put this song "Pingju". Yes, even now, years later, when I think of this verse, I still feel extremely warm in my heart.

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