Yes, "There are many memories in a person's life, but I wish your memories had a me." "I don't know, in the years after we broke up, after we both became families, when we were all getting old and about to go to earth, would we still think of each other?

When they danced together, it reminded me of the first letter the organ wrote to me. In her first letter to me, Organ imagined me as a dancing boy, and in her Hallucinations, she wrote:

"You must be a very assertive big boy, full of manly charm, dressed in clothes that are neither popular nor unconventional, with a humorous personality, chic speech and demeanor, singing popular songs with music, and dancing below."

I think she knows how to dance herself, so she thinks I can dance. In fact, I don't know how to dance. Because I'm stupid, I can't learn. However, I really enjoyed watching and dancing.

That scene reminds me of the ancient times when officials attended banquets or emperors entertained guests. yes, a man sat there, and then a couple of boys and girls held hands and danced in front of me. "When you sing about wine, what is your life?" I played Cao Cao once.

All this shows that although Jin Fengqin broke up with me, in order to comfort me, she really thought about it. But if only I knew how to be grateful.

I always thought that the reason why Fengqin broke up with me was because she saw a lot of flashy things in the hotel. For example, a big boss who carries a bag and is very stylish.

What a stark contrast between a big boss with a bag and a poor boy with a schoolbag. After seeing so many people and seeing so many things, does the organ still like a nerd who hasn't even published an article?

I don't think she will. I don't know if I've wronged her by thinking so. Ever since I had this idea, I've looked down on her with a straight face.

Anyway, in the evening, Fengqin let me stay in a luxurious room, and also asked me to take a sauna at night. At about two or three o'clock in the morning, one of her colleagues came to me and told me that the water was ready for me and told me to go and wash up.

"I can't enjoy it," I said, "I'm after something spiritual." I can't afford this kind of high-class treatment. As I said this, the male colleague stood in front of my bed in embarrassment, got up and left.

That's where I'm fine. I told Fengqin that I would be friends, and they arranged such a good thing for me, but not only did I not appreciate it, but I also deliberately went against others. What kind of mindset do you say this is?

People don't want you, do you force people to marry you? So, for this matter, that Jin Fengqin completely cheapened me. But I'm here to be a guest with her. Even if she feels uncomfortable in her heart, she still has to deal with me on the surface.

When I got up the next morning, I felt that the weather was extremely cold, and when I walked out the door, I saw that there was a white expanse all around. And the snowflakes in the sky are still falling like goose feathers, swinging up and down, left and right under the blowing of the slight cold wind, like dancing snow dragons.

"When does it snow?" I thought, "Maybe it's the middle of the night." No wonder people like to say, thief snow, thief snow, it really is.

In every letter he wrote to me, the organ gave himself the pen name Leng Piaoxue, was it that we were destined to meet here, and at this time, in this moment of heavy snowfall, we parted? Thinking of this, the loneliness, pain and melancholy in my heart gradually disappeared.

I was watching the snow at the door, and Jin Fengqin had come behind me at some point: "Why did you get up so early?" "Ahh I'm going back. "I said." Then I'll send it to you. Feng Qin said, returned to my room, helped me pick up the bag of books, and came to me again.

Together, we came to a crossroads in the snow. I stood there and asked her, "I know you liked me before, but did you change your mind before or after you came to the hotel?" ”

"Does it make a difference?" Feng Qin asked me in turn, with a strange taste in her tone. "There is a difference." I say.

"I don't know. Anyway, my parents put a lot of pressure on me. After a short pause, Feng Qin looked at me again and said, "What's the use of us talking about this now?"

Let's just talk about your ride for now. From here, you can take a tricycle to Kaifeng Bus Station, buy a ticket at the station and go to Nanyang. ”

"I know," I said, "I came in the unsealed car." With that, I walked a little faster, and walked to the other side of the crosspath. I knew that to get to Kaifeng Station, I had to take a train from there.

Unexpectedly, Jin Fengqin caught up and asked me if the fare was enough? "Not enough," I said. I'm telling a lie. In fact, my fare home is enough, but I spent a lot of money here, shouldn't she give me a little subsidy?

"Then I'll go back and get you some." Feng Qin said, turning around and disappearing into the snow. Somehow. Her red trench coat stood out in the snow.

I waited in the snow for a long time, and only when the snow was wet on my body did the phoenix turn back.

She took out ten yuan from her body and handed it to me and said, "I'm so sorry, I sent all the salary I paid last month home, and I borrowed it from a colleague." ”

That's not what I intended. I thought she would give me at least thirty dollars, so that I might feel better. "Ten yuan, it's not enough to even send Hanako."

This idea of mine made Jin Fengqin see it. She said to me, "Do you think that when I work in that hotel, you are treated for free?" I paid for the luxurious room you stayed in, as well as the water for the sauna, although you didn't use it, but it still had to be deducted from my salary.

I know you spent some money to see me, but I also spent some money, so I've finally settled it. When she said this, I was a little relieved and said to her, "Thank you then." As soon as he finished speaking, a tricycle drove up.

I waved my hand and told the master to go to Kaifeng Bus Station. As soon as the motor sounded, the tricycle sped forward like the wind, and I waved my hand at Fengqin on the tricycle, which stood in the snow for a long time before turning back and leaving.

The tricycle is getting farther and farther away, and the hearts of the two people are getting farther and farther away, so let's say goodbye.

Sitting on the tricycle, I recalled the experience of the two of us meeting, and I felt that Feng Qin had indeed been wronged. Besides, the money has already been spent, what do you want it to do? I think we could have been good friends, and we could have communicated with each other as ordinary friends when I went back.

But then we were strangers. That's the shortcoming of me as a person, I don't have a way back. At the same time, there is also a snobbish side to my character, when people don't talk to you anymore, you immediately think about how much money you spend on them. So, where are the feelings?

No feelings. This shortcoming of mine is also a lowly shortcoming. At the same time, it is also the reason why I can't talk about a girlfriend. Some people say that two people can only see each other's sincerity when they break up. Sure enough, my heart was very bad. At the very least, it won't stand the test.

I always like to scold others in my life now. People are patriarchal, I scold other people's customs, and people give birth to several sons who are happy to be preached everywhere that I scold other people's customs, in fact, I am also the most vulgar person.

I thought again that the reason why I was suspicious of Feng Qin was because her mother was that kind of person. Although her mother is a Christian, she is very realistic. I remember when I went to her eldest daughter's house to buy a lot of gifts, the girl helped me buy a table of wine.

Her mother said, "Look, you bought a gift, and we paid for you to eat, so it's finally settled." She can only think about these words in her heart, and it is really a big loss of face to say it.

It is precisely because of this incident in front of me that I suspect that Feng Qin is also a person who values money very seriously. In fact, the organ is also a good thing for me. I'm sorry for someone.

I shouldn't have given her a look, and I shouldn't have been angry and didn't take the sauna and let her spend her money in vain.

This book was first published in Reading Rim