The days of dating Cheng Chencheng were the happiest times of his life.

It is different from the gloomy and boundless childhood, or the pale and colorless present. With her, he was able to see the brilliant colors and differences of the world.

It was like a ray of light that split through the gray vision.

He never paid attention to any girls, nor did he socialize with anyone, earlier because of heavy schoolwork, and later because he was not interested.

He had lost interest in anything in the world.

Until he saw the girl who whispered his name.

He only now knew what it was like.

Life is not filled by another person, and life has shortcomings.

He looked at her and would be nervous

He held her hand and would be nervous.

He kisses her and will be nervous.

Life finally came alive all of a sudden, and she had a color in his memory, unlike the others, just a lifeless and miserable white.

He loved it.

He tore up that love letter.

She was angry.

But he didn't regret it. That mood that was so secret that even he almost didn't notice it, he didn't want to be seen by her, especially in the name of Qi Hao.

He didn't allow it.

In the past, Qi Hao didn't fight back just because he didn't care.

But now it's different.

He has a deposit that is absolutely not allowed to be violated.

She is very cute when she does the questions, especially when she can't think of an answer, she will lie on the table and draw circles on the scratch paper, as if this will make her straighten out her thoughts.

Thankfully, he was the only one who had ever seen her like that.

He writes the answer and hands it to her. She obviously accepted his kindness, but still insisted on not talking to him.

Well...... Her awkward appearance is also very cute.

At night, there was a thunderstorm and a power outage.

I don't know if she's afraid of the dark or the thunder.

In short, he was happy, because she was hiding in his arms.

They kissed again, this time...... He stuck out his tongue.

He hadn't actually studied how to kiss, maybe it was a ...... Racial talent?

But she seemed to be scared away by him.

In general, he still has some ...... for such a result Depressed.

She ran out of the classroom without an umbrella.

Is that why she doesn't like being with him so much?

With indescribable complicated feelings, he still went out and gave her an umbrella. No way, even if she hates him again, he still feels sorry for her.

This distress intensified later, and gradually turned into a paranoia that could not be asked.

tortured her, and tortured him.

He stumbled upon her diary. It was a diary she wrote to Bai Yifei, and after only reading one page, he almost couldn't hold back his crazy mood of wanting to kill.

The suffocating despair hidden in the depths of childhood finally broke through the ground and made a comeback again.

He couldn't stand it.

He had been looking for all kinds of reasons in his heart to persuade himself not to believe in this matter, but he looked at it several times, and although the handwriting on it was a little green compared to her now, it couldn't deceive people, and it was indeed written by her one stroke at a time.

It turns out that under the appearance of being so indifferent and rejecting everyone except Xie Caixuan, there will be such fiery feelings.

It turned out that she approached him and sacrificed herself to associate with him, not for Xie Caixuan, but for the guy named Bai Yifei.

It turned out that she ...... Really don't like him.

He deliberately put the diary back. She accidentally brought the book out when she came back to get it.

"What is this?" He asked her.

He wished she could sue him, but it wasn't true, it was just a joke. Or...... Even if she admits that it's hers, if she's willing to say it's all in the past, he's willing to believe her.

But none.

"Nothing." She said coldly.

Qi Hao came to pester her again.

He was not far away, and he clearly heard the conversation between her and Qi Hao. But he can't just come forward, she will hate him, she hates him meddling in her affairs, and even more hates that he pretends to be her boyfriend.

After she left, he beat Qi Hao. It is estimated that Qi Hao has never seen him so fierce in his life, and he was beaten to almost death.

In fact, in addition to Qi Hao's anger, he vaguely had some sadness.

Will he ...... Also become the next Qi Hao?

In the evening, his father, who had not been in contact with him for a long time, called.

"You hit someone? And almost beat someone to death? His tone was shallow, as hypocritical as he was in front of people.

"Hmm."

"It's done well, but this kind of thing should be remembered to be hidden, it's not easy to end up if it's too big." He seemed to be sarcastic, but also like encouragement, "Nishizawa, you see, I said that the inheritance of the bloodline is irresistible. One day you will become like me. With that, he hung up.

Shen Xize suddenly felt a deep sense of disgust at the blackened mobile phone. Nausea almost retching.

Disgust with himself.

He really didn't deserve anyone's love.

The next day he went to school as if nothing had happened.

All the rumors were spreading, but all he felt was boredom and a deeply hidden sense of powerlessness.

Maybe one day he will really become like that person.

"Did you do Qi Hao's thing?" She asked him.

There was an inexplicable surprise in Shen Xize's heart, but in the next second, all kinds of doubts followed. And that paranoia is also looming. He couldn't bear the kind of thing he was thinking in his heart, even if it was just groundless, even if it was only one in ten thousand possibility.

"You care about him?"

"Don't you think you're inexplicable?" She asked him coldly. But the strange thing is that her indifference suddenly calmed his heart down for a moment, and all speculation and suspicion disappeared in an instant.

She wasn't worried about Qi Hao.

That...... Was she worried about him?

This excitement mixed with panic gave him a sense of fidgeting for the first time in his life. But he didn't dare to ask, he was afraid that she would refuse and shatter all his illusions and hopes.

But in the end, he couldn't help this emotion, and decided to test her to see if she was as he thought, and was really a little worried about him, as long as he ...... A little would be fine.

"Not me." He said casually.

She was visibly relieved.

Cheng Chencheng's reaction greatly pleased him.

He tried his best to endure the joy, and once again wanted her affirmation: "You mind this very much...... Didn't I do it? ”

Looking at her nodded. It was already difficult for Shen Xize to describe his mood at that time.

Probably ...... It doesn't matter if you die right now.

Love makes a person lose their IQ. He became so stupid.

But he ...... It's just a lot of fun.

Masquerade balls at cultural festivals.

Even he has never paid attention to the outside world, and he knows that this is the famous "Valentine's Day in C".

He was looking forward to spending time with her.

He prepared two gifts for her. The picture he had drawn for a long, long time, and the watch she cared about.

Once Xie Caixuan came to chat with her, and inadvertently mentioned the watch she had been wearing, which was a gift from her mother when she was very young, and she has always cherished it, even if it is old now, and occasionally does not leave, but she still wears it all the time.

The speaker has no intention and the listener has a heart. When Cheng Chencheng went to physical education class to take off the watch, Shen Xize took the watch, the trademark on it had been worn out, he went to many companies, and finally determined that it was a certain brand that was out of production. Shen Xize spent a high price to find someone to order an identical watch, and just in time to get it back today, just hoping to surprise her.

After trying it back and forth at home for a long time, he finally decided to wear this white suit on prom night.

He looked at the wooden box on the table. It was carved by his own hands, and he was actually not good at this kind of meticulous carpentry, and it took a lot of thought and time to make a semi-finished product, because he was not very satisfied with the lower part of the hollowing, so he did not have time to finish it.

Looking at the time, it must not be able to catch up. He ditched the wooden box, put the keys and watch in his pocket and went out.

At the door of her house, he saw Bai Yifei.

The mood that has been excited for the past few days has suddenly become extremely cold. He remembered the diary he had taken away, and remembered the girlish feelings written in it.

Bai Yifei was also wearing the same white suit as him. But Bai Yifei looks handsome and sunny, which is completely different from his gloom that he can't get rid of.

She must like Bai Yifei more, right?

Is...... Dwarfed by.

It's hard to tell how he's feeling right now. That sour, gloomy, rotting gloom in the deep groove.

Is it jealousy?

I didn't expect that a person as proud as he would one day be so jealous of someone. Or, behind the extreme pride, there is an endless inferiority.

He took the key out and threw the coat in the trash not far away.

The late autumn night was already cool, but unfortunately, it had just rained during the day, and the wind blew and froze.

He stood in the cold wind and waited for a long time, but Cheng Chencheng still didn't come out, and finally he called her.

"Are you home?"

“…… Well. She seemed to have just woken up, and her voice sounded soft.

"Aren't you coming?"

“…… Oh. ”

He paused for a moment and said, "I...... I have something to look for you, can I go to your house now? There was a slight pleading in his tone, and even he didn't notice it. I don't know when he became so humble.

"Hmm."

After receiving her affirmation, he finally relaxed a little.

He took her to his studio.

In fact, the painting that was really prepared for her was in the darkroom upstairs, but unfortunately he didn't even give the key, and she was scared away.

No one likes to be watched like this by another person, right?

Even in the name of love.

That's just a terrifying peep hidden in every corner.

He threw the key in the trash can, sat against the wall on the floor of the studio, and accidentally caught a glimpse of the unfinished box on the table, and he suddenly remembered that he seemed to have forgotten to take out his watch while throwing away his clothes.

I rummaged through the cabinet and found only a new watch inside. It seems that he was in too much of a hurry before and accidentally took the wrong one.

That's her stuff, and he's always cherished it.

He returned, flashed his flashlight, and found the white suit with paw prints next to the trash can, but not the watch.

"What are you looking for?"

Suddenly, a familiar voice came from behind him, with a faint mixture of disgust and impatience.

For a moment, he fell into an ice cellar.