So, when talking about feelings, never mention money. It's a killer of feelings. In fact, I sometimes think it's a good thing that we break up like this.

Why? so as not to worry about each other any longer. It's like a dying man who will do everything he can to heal his children. Some children will complain about their parents because of this.

But I think that's actually a good thing. The parent will leave a bad impression on you when she is dying, so that when she (or he) dies, you will think of her (or him) bad, so that you will not care so much about her (or him), and therefore less sad.

I went to the toilet when I got to the Kaifeng bus station. In the mirror of the toilet, I suddenly saw that I was dark and old. It made my proud heart feel like a basin of cold water had been poured on it.

I suddenly became inferior and wanted to die. But when I saw someone walking past me who was not as handsome as me, I became confident again.

When I arrived in Nanyang from Jin Fengqin, it was already the night of the Chinese New Year's Eve, and everyone was immersed in the happiness of reunion, but I could only stay in a hotel at Nanyang Station, my eyes looking at the ceiling.

I know that I don't have much money left, and although I went to find Fengqin with my parents' permission, don't I feel ashamed? I want to find a way to get some money to comfort my parents.

I'm a person with a mind that likes to mess around. Do you remember when I went to Xiaolan's aunt's house to go on a date with her, didn't I get her a red envelope of 200 yuan?

I want that money back. I remember that time Xiaolan and her mother told me that Xiaolan was about to get married. Since she is going to get married, then I have no hope. Since there is no hope, you should get those red envelopes back.

With this idea, on the morning of the first day of the Lunar New Year, I did not take the car home from Nanyang, but went to Shahe again. Shahe is still the same, and the house is still the same old house.

I saw the door of the house open, and I peered over the embankment. That Ji Yuanzhen just looked out, and our eyes met. His eyes risked a cannibalistic gaze. I hurriedly avoided it.

The old man came up to me and asked, "What are you doing here?" At this time, Xiaolan also walked out: "What are you doing? ”

"I'm coming to you this time to ask for money. I mustered up the courage to say. "What money? Who owes you money?" As soon as Ji Yuanzhen heard that I was going to ask for money, his eyes suddenly widened like copper bells, and his beard trembled with anger.

"I gave Xiaolan a red envelope of 200 yuan (we call it "skewer" for Fengzi) that time, and she should return it to me. "Give it back to you? If you don't give a gift to an official, you are willing to give it yourself, who asked you for it? Also, where is the evidence? Who saw your money?"

When Ji Yuanzhen asked me like this, I was speechless. But I still wanted to persevere, so I said, "If you don't pay back, I'll stay here." With that, I sat down at the door of their house.

"You want to die!" said Na Xiaolan, "on the first day of the new year, he asked me for money, so that I could not live in peace for a year. With that, she went to the wall and took the shovel with the severed head.

At this time, the scene of her riding a bicycle and taking me with me kept flashing in my mind. I remember that she was so gentle and considerate at that time, why did she become a Hedong lion now?

Ji Yuanzhen was afraid that things would get bigger, so he hurriedly snatched the shovel from Xiaolan's hand and said: "It's unlucky to beat him for the New Year, we will enter the house by ourselves, and he will sit on him." Then the father and daughter went into the house.

I sat there for a while, got bored, and went home.

These are some of the experiences I had with my marriage posting. After the marriage notice was announced, five or six girls could become my wife, but I didn't get even one.

This cannot but be said to be a regret in life. But I always believe that I will definitely find the fishing girl in my mind, but the time has not yet come, and fate has not yet arrived.

I still want to remember Xiaolan's story. When Ran was about to become my wife, I confess that I had the organ in mind for reasons I had written about before.

I'm thinking about Feng Qin's heartfelt letters. The organ had a particularly mysterious feeling in my heart, and I was filled with curiosity about her.

I wondered if I had married Xiaolan, would I have thought of the organ? What would I do if I had married Xiaolan and what would I do with Fengqin? If I had gone to find the organ first and we couldn't, Xiaolan and I might not have broken up.

I just stepped on two boats, and I didn't get one. Readers, don't learn from me! When you fall in love, you must not step on two boats.

Even if you think about it in your heart, don't say it in your mouth, and don't do it in action. If you want to do it, you must do it without anyone noticing.

This is the law of love I taught you, I don't know if it will be good for your future love? But this is our secret, but don't tell anyone else!

Now that I think about it, at that time, all the girls were broken, should I go to Zhang Qiuhong again, the girl who waited for me at Lushan Railway Station for two days.

If I go back in time, I don't know if I dared to go back then. I mean, I offended her cousin, and I don't know if I dare to see her.

I don't know if that Qiuhong would have regarded me so sacredly and regarded me as a friend if she had known that my chef technique was a half-bottle?

But now I think that the reason why the organ broke up with me may also be knowing that my chef skills are a half-bottle. Because his brother-in-law once asked me about this. And I told the truth to him.

And her brother-in-law must have told her sister, and her sister probably talked to her on the phone. She may have known it for a long time, so when she was with me, she was vain and wronged. The more I thought about it, the more likely it became.

I also thought that the reason why so many people still contacted me after my marriage notice was broadcast was probably because of my chef skills.

Yes, a young man in his early twenties, handsome and dashing, 1.73 meters tall, a chef, educated, and able to sing. Isn't this condition in line with the standards of being rich and handsome that are now popular on the Internet?

Although 1.73 meters is not considered tall, it is also considered to be above average, and as for being rich, if you become a promising chef, are you still afraid that you will not be rich?

As for handsome, that's even less to say. This standard is usually coveted by girls. Who doesn't want to find a rich and handsome boy to be their husband?

I also thought that if my chef skills were not a half-bottle, but a real chef, then, even if the two families were so far away, maybe Fengqin and her family would have nodded and agreed to the marriage.

I felt sorry for the man who adored me while losing so many girls. I wondered if he would look down on me if he found out that I broke up with Xiaolan, and he had blessed the two of us in advance.

I don't know if that man has become a family now, years later. And the reason why he got married was because he used the word I taught him. How mysterious and curious it is to know all this!

In this way, I entered a period of emotional blank again. As before, I treat my handsome face every day when I have nothing to do. Because I know, that's my capital. I can expect it to get a wife without spending a penny.

No matter whether the people in the village laughed at me or looked down on me, I just entertained myself at home, and when I had to go out as a last resort, I saw someone with my head bowed and passed.

In the blink of an eye, it's the Spring Festival again, and those who worked in construction from Beijing and Guangdong have returned. As before, they would give people cigarettes when they arrived at the entrance of the village, and most of the boys my age were full of them.

When the people in the village heard that they were making a lot of money, there was an endless stream of people proposing marriage. And I'm still unattended. What's more, most of my childhood friends got married a year or more.

All this made me even more annoyed and annoyed.

Reading the first book of the novel