However, the words of my father and sister became a problem for me, and I was even more afraid to look in the mirror when I returned home. Do you know how I go about it to see if my face is darkened?

Readers may not believe it. I tend to twist one side of my face with my thumb and forefinger and then look at it with the rest of my eyes. Although I can't see it clearly, it satisfies my psychology that I am afraid that it will turn black and dare not face it. It's also a bun in Hanako's arms - just coaxing herself.

After my relationship with my father returned to normal, he didn't care about me anymore, and I still dressed up my face every day when I had nothing to do. People say that everyone has a love for beauty. But I'm a "lover of beauty, a little too much." "I love beauty too much.

I have a hypothesis that if someone stabs me in the face and disfigures me like Mrs. Ma did in "Dragon Babu", I think I might die like Mrs. Ma. I love that face to that extent.

But that's all I love. I don't pay attention to other places at all. I dress sloppily and don't like to comb my hair. In other words, I just have a good face and nothing else.

When people talk about me, I say it's a common contrast technique in literature. My poor dress brings out my beautiful face. When I say this, I am so strong that those who say about me, such as my sister, can only shake their heads to show that they are helpless and incorrigible.

Since many people say that I am handsome, and I myself think I am handsome, there was a time when I didn't know how high I was. Like Strédretta in The Catcher in the Rye, I think I'm the prettiest man in the world.

As long as I hear about someone who is beautiful, I want to compare myself with them. To be honest, I looked for a few, but I really didn't meet any opponents. When I got to the man and didn't get close to him, he waved his hand and motioned for me not to let me go.

What he meant was that he threw in the towel and didn't compare himself to me. They really can't beat me. Some people are called handsome, just a little bit handsome. For example, those men with small heads and small faces can also be called handsome, but when you meet those men with big heads and big faces, don't you still admit defeat?

People often like to say, a man's head, a man's head, a man has to have a big head to look bold. Even if he was decapitated, the weight was heavy. In this case, my psychology shifted from inferiority to arrogance. This laid the groundwork for my many failures in my future relationship.

One day at noon, my bored father turned on the radio, which was playing a marriage notice on Henan Radio. After listening to this, my father had an idea and stood up with a lap on his thigh.

I saw him happily come to my mother and say to her: "Baby, our son is so handsome, are you afraid that you won't be able to marry a daughter-in-law?" Let's also broadcast a marriage notice to try. ”

"That's not the right one." My mother said hesitantly.

"That's it, I'll have the final say. When the time comes tomorrow, I will still receive that program, Jianming, you can help me write down the address on the side. ”

My father said, looking at me beside him, and said excitedly. After saying that, my father took up his hoe and went down to the ground.

The next day, I wrote down the address of Henan Radio according to his words, and went to the post office to send the station a broadcast fee of 100 yuan and a letter introducing myself.

Here's how I introduced myself: a young man from Nanyang, 22 years old, 1.73 meters tall, handsome and chic, down-to-earth and capable, loves literature, likes to sing, and is a chef.

I want to find a woman under the age of 22, who is about 1.6 meters tall and willing to support her literary career. If the conditions are good, you can settle down at the woman's house.

I'd like to start by explaining the slogan and what I thought when I posted it. As with some advertised products, I introduced myself with some packaging.

For example, I added "is a chef." "Readers have read my previous experience, of course, they all know that I learned to cook in Zhengzhou, Nanyang, and Xjing, and I didn't even think of a half-bottle chef.

Then there is "if the conditions are good, you can settle down at the woman's house." When I added that, you know what I was thinking? Like most of my male compatriots, I developed a desire to get something for nothing.

Because I know that most families without boys are wealthier. Why? Such a family either has only one daughter, or two or three daughters, and there is nothing to do at home, and the money earned will only be put in the bank.

Besides, maybe there are people on the street, in the city, and parents who are rich and in business. When I got into that kind of family, wouldn't I fall into a blessed nest? He is so handsome, those people must be able to look at it.

If I could join such a family, I would not be burdened by food and clothing every day, and I could work in literature with peace of mind. What the best of both worlds.

Of course, someone has to ask, and your parents agree that you will go to someone else's house upside down? I also discussed this with my parents. My parents said that they didn't care so much, as long as I could enjoy it, even if I went abroad.

My parents had this idea, and of course I dared to add the sentence "If the conditions are good, you can settle down at the woman's house" when I wrote the advertisement.

When I broadcast this marriage notice, I originally had the attitude of trying it out, but I didn't expect it to cause an uproar.

At first, I received letters from three girls. The first letter was written by a girl named Wang Yaling in Shiqiao Town, Nanyang County. In the letter, she said that she was a private teacher, and when she heard about my situation on Henan Radio, she felt pretty good, and she wanted to get to know me.

A few days later, another girl named Jin Fengqin from Kaifeng County came with a letter. The content of the letter is: I am a girl with a lot of character, but I have a kind heart, I love to wear fashionable clothes, but I never wear heavy makeup, and I don't have much vanity.

Because I said on the air that I love literature, Jin Fengqin wrote two short essays in her letter, and I provide them to readers and friends in their original form, so that readers can understand the way young men and women fell in love at that time.

"A Reading from Far Away (I think the 'reading' here should be a misspelling of 'Du'.) It can be seen that the literary foundation of the organ is not too deep))"

Winter has come, and the yellow leaves fall on the ground,

With the rustling of the cold wind, the night is so quiet, the sky is so cold,

Did you know that a girl in the distance is looking at the sky?

How can the excitement be calm?

"Illusion"

You must be a very assertive big boy, full of manly charm, wearing a costume that is neither popular nor unconventional, with a humorous personality, chic speech and demeanor, singing popular songs, and dancing below.

Cold drifting snow

Except for the poem in the front, the short essay written in the back is my guess. "Manly charm" may be the goal pursued by many girls. In fact, the nerdy me is very different from Fengqin's imagination.

I'm timid, sentimental, and a bit feminine. She thought I could dance, probably because she could dance herself. Can she dance? Readers will see this in later chapters.

However, I really don't understand why she named herself Leng Piaoxue. Maybe it's a hunch. Later, I went to look for her, and the two of us happened to meet in the snow: it was cold, and the sky was covered with goose feathers.

I say this as an absolute fact, and not as a deliberate invention of my own efforts to attract the attention of my readers. Just because there are many clever things in real life, and this is just one of those many clever things.

A few days later, a girl named Zhang Qiuhong from Lushan County, Nanyang Prefecture, wrote to her that her father had been imprisoned for theft, and that she and her mother were helpless and wanted to find a shoulder to lean on.

I replied to them one by one. In the letter, I talked a lot about my literary ideals and asked them if they would like to support their literary career. I was supposed to write a last essay or something in my reply to the organ to show my talent.

But somehow, I couldn't write it at the time.

Read the first book of the novel