Chapter 621: Forced Smile
"Xiao Hang. Let me say what you are good about. Mother Lin sat on the edge of the bed with a sinking face and sighed.
"Mom. How to say this. Lin Zihang was stubborn. He felt something. Something was suspected.
"I admit it. Jave left five years ago. I blamed her. I feel that this kid is too ignorant. But five years later. You are reconciled as before. I'm also very relieved. I just thought. Don't care about the past. As long as you grow up. Able to handle emotional matters calmly. There should be no more problems. But what about the result. Hum. It turned out. It's always been my mother's partiality that makes the difference. Where am I qualified to blame others. Mother Lin snorted coldly.
Lin Zihang's feeling of listening to his mother's lecture. It's worse than a schoolboy who does something wrong. The remorse in my heart has long been monstrous. But he didn't dare to show half a point.
"What did you do back then? I do not know. Including the play you made last night. I don't know. But. I can hear exactly what you've done under the pretext of getting drunk. Mother Lin saw that her son still refused to admit his mistake. I couldn't help but open the sunroof. Let's talk about it.
"Mom. How do you listen. Listen to that ......" Lin Zihang couldn't hold back any longer. His face was flushed with shame. Rao him for being a big man. Listen to my mother talk about her leap room**. It's awkward in the end. It is inevitable to argue.
"Am I willing to hear it?" Mother Lin stood up angrily and stared into her son's eyes. "You were so drunk last night. Jave got you back. And don't let me care. I know she's embarrassed. But don't worry. Later, I went to the kitchen to get some decanting soup and planned to serve it to you. But. But you. You ......"
Lin Mu's facial muscles were twitching. It took a few breaths to calm down: "You let me say what you are good about." In vain when you first got married. I also talked about her. Don't get too caught up in your children's affairs. Later. Your Uncle Kim has also advised you more than once. Have you heard of it? Even if you don't listen. You can't use it strongly. What do you do with other people? ”
"Mom. I know wrong. Lin Zihang was told the truth so bluntly by his mother. The face became more and more unbearable. Grit your teeth and hold on. "I'll take care of it......"
"What do you do. When it's good to others. Tenderness and sweetness. The upper knife mountain and the lower sea of fire are all recognized. Turn your head back. None of them are as good as you like. That's how you treat people. What is your current behavior is not domestic violence. "Mother Lin was about to be mad by her son. But they didn't dare to scold him loudly. I'm afraid of alarming my husband. With the upright nature of Lin's father. I had to kill him.
"Mom. I didn't mean that. Don't rush with me. I. I'm just unbalanced......"
"Manly man. There are many things that are unbalanced in the heart. Won't you explain calmly. What kind of anger are you taking with the damage? Mother Lin interrupted her son again.
"It's not. Mother. I've grown so big. The first time I've seen that kind of hypocrite. He's not as good as a real villain. Lin Zihang is still on fire when he talks about it.
"What a gentleman, a villain. What's your business? Mother Lin asked. Besides. Even if it's close to you. Nor can it be a reason or excuse for you to hurt others. ”
"Yes. Mom was right. Lin Zihang lowered his head. Jave also said. It doesn't matter who it is. As long as she wants to be with me. It doesn't matter. It's just that I can't think about it for a while. ”
"You can't think of a word. Forget about other people's feelings. Xiaohang. Can you please save my mother's worries. Mother Lin persuaded bitterly.
"It's the same man. I used to feel that you have your father's tenderness for his wife. But he didn't have the courage to do things. It's enough to be worthless. But now look at it. You haven't even been able to fully inherit your father's iron-clad tenderness. You go and ask your dad. From the day we met to the present. When did he move a finger on me. ”
"Yes. It was my fault. Lin Zihang turned his head and looked at the thousand paper cranes on the wall beside him. The one facing him was Qin Yafu's beautiful and small handwriting: "Peace, happiness." There is also a red heart drawn next to it.
Very simple wishes. But it's so hard to achieve......
When Lin Zihang returned upstairs. Qin Yafu still had her eyes closed. Lying motionless on the bed.
"Japhe. Baby. Lin Zihang climbed into bed. Gently pick her up. Cuddle into your arms. Tears fell again. He was in front of her. Not even a child.
"I'm sorry. I know those three words aren't worth much. But I really regret it. I will quit drinking in the future. I swear. Never drink again...... Wrong. You don't like oaths. You say that the oaths are all lies. Then I won't swear by it. I will try my best to do my best. Please. Don't blame me for being good. It's not good not to go. ”
Qin Yafu had already woken up. But he didn't want to speak. I don't know what to say to him. It's just that his tears fell on his face. Salty. Bitter. reminded her of the chaotic afternoon when Ye Qing died. He was pulled to the ground by Lin Zihang. When he looked condescendingly at himself. The same way the swift and urgent tears fell on her face and mouth......
"I'm not leaving. I have nowhere to go. If it weren't for the impossible. I really can't find anyone to rely on. I'm not going to go with him either. You should think it through. Qin Yafu's voice was still very gentle. Neither condemnation. I didn't complain. But it hit the key point of Lin Zihang.
"I'm stupid. It's me who is stupid. I've always felt like you left to elope with him. I've been complaining from the bottom of my heart about your ruthlessness. I...... I'm not human......" Lin Zihang hoarse.
"There were two of us. You are the smartest. It's always me who is stupid. How can you be stupid. The corners of Qin Yafu's mouth tugged upward. Laughing helplessly. "Just because you love me so much. Right. ”
"Yes. Right...... I'll ......" Lin Zihang responded to the two "right" words. Only then did I realize that there was something in her words. I couldn't help but be stunned.
"I love you too. It always has been. It has never changed. But. But love is too hard. You always blame me for trying to run away from you. Lin Zihang. You said you gave me so much. Shouldn't I feel happy? ”
Qin Yafu was in a terrible state. She couldn't even tell how clear she was. There's a lot to say. But I can't express it. I thought that a qiē was all in the words. But in fact, nothing is explained.
"Me. I was too impulsive last night. If you have something to say, you won't say it well. Don't be angry, okay......"
"It's not about last night. It's the same with everything. You're always impulsive. Your impulse is to care for me. I understand. But I'm too tired. Qin Yafu finally mentioned the tired word again. They reconciled for half a year. She never said the word. But I don't want to endure it anymore when I can't bear it anymore.
"Me. I will never tie you up again. No more touching you. No more upsetting you. No more ......"
"I don't like empty checks. Drove a lot. You'll forget about it yourself. Qin Yafu's tone was light. She struggled to close her eyes. Hold it by hand because it's not good to rest. Causing swelling pain in the head. Struggling to get up.
Lin Zihang didn't dare to force her anymore. Hurriedly help her sit down.
I saw that Qin Yafu's white skin was covered with large and small reds. Lin Zihang no longer has the smugness of the past. His gaze avoided the scar on her neck. Hurriedly found clothes to help her put them on.
"Japhe. Let's not go down and eat. Lin Zihang discussed.
"How's that going to work? of the Great New Year's month. All. It's rare that Dad has time to get together with us. You can't be specialized. Qin Yafu's attitude was very resolute. She moved her body. It's uncomfortable though. But it's not too bad. After all, Lin Zihang's behavior last night did not reach the state of anger that he had for five years. Of course. It is also because she always shows that she is weak. Didn't completely anger him.
Qin Yafu sneered and got out of bed. He glanced at the man who was looking at him pitifully. Drop a sentence: "I'll go wash up first." After that. He walked to the bathroom.
"Okay." Lin Zihang after she walked out of the bedroom door. Only then did he answer. But I couldn't help but walk to the door. Staring at the bathroom from afar. Silently waiting for her.
Wait until Qin Yafu comes out again. A layer of powder was applied to the face. Also put on a bit of blush. It makes her face look less pale. The red and swollen eyes were also treated. Apply eyeliner. Eyeshadow. I put on a very delicate makeup.
Lin Zihang's gaze fell on her neck.
Qin Yafu ignored him. A long silk scarf was pulled out of the closet. Folded in two. Fold into wide strips. Wrap around your neck. A big bow is tied on the right side.
After doing so. Qin Yafu was still not at ease. I looked left and right in the mirror of the dresser for a long time. Until you can't see anything at all. Only then did he say, "Let's go." ”
"Okay." Lin Zihang hurriedly answered. obediently followed her downstairs. Despite early in the morning. Eat a meal time. Qin Yafu made herself so delicate and looked weird. It's better than being seen by my father. I guess she is also thinking about it. Come to think of it. He felt more and more sorry for her.
"Mom and Dad. Excuse me. We're up late again. Qin Yafu greeted her father-in-law and mother-in-law sitting on the sofa with a slightly shy expression.
"Morning. You didn't wake up late. It's not too late at all. We are the most diligent of Yaphe. Mother Lin looked at her daughter-in-law lovingly. Where dare there be half a complaint.
"Young man. At the time of relaxation. It's about eating, drinking, and having fun. Don't think too much about it. We don't have those messy rules in our house. Father Lin waved his big hand. It's even more empathetic. He saw Qin Yafu dressed up so beautifully. Guess she's going to go out. So it's not verbose. Pointed to the dining table. "Let's eat."
"Okay." Qin Yafu stiffened her neck. Don't dare to swing at will. The scar on the ear is very obvious. Although it can also be understood as the result of excessive intimacy between young people. But she felt uncomfortable herself. In front of the old man again. I can't show it calmly.
Feel the eyes of the whole family inadvertently staring at you. Qin Yafu had no choice but to pick up the bowl of nourishing porridge on the table and smiled slightly. "Aunt Zhou's cooking skills are awesome. Just looking at it makes you have an appetite. ”
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