One, two, six, mourning is greater than heart death

Gu Haiping washed the dishes for the first time and did not go into the study, but actively mopped the floor, wiped the table, bathed Xiaoyu, told stories, and coaxed Xiaoyu to sleep. Xiaoyu felt that the atmosphere was different from the past, and she obediently fell asleep early, and did not pester her mother to tell many stories.

Shandan picked up a book and lazily leaned on the head of the bed to read, but her heart was still not happy. She couldn't figure it out, could it be that when the situation was good, they would want Lao Yan to fly separately? The deviation of their hearts was the end of their relationship, which she knew well, and he also knew it.

She just can't let go of the young Xiaoyu! With her eyes staring at the book in front of her, she can feel her heart twitching, struggling in the juice of pain!

Gu Haiping coaxed Xiaoyu to sleep, gently closed Xiaoyu's door and walked over, sat next to Xiaoyu, and carefully put his hand on Shandan's lap. Shandan didn't dodge, but he didn't react either. She didn't want to simply end the matter, she wanted to let it go, but her heart really couldn't get over it.

Gu Haiping wanted to take Shandan to take a bath together, but when he found Shandan's stiff body, he let go: "Good! Go take a bath and rest early." Okay, I apologize!" he said and walked out the door, took back the washboard and put it on the ground, and knelt on it with a "poof".

"You go to take a bath, I'll conduct a deep review!" Gu Haiping said to Shandan with a flattering and repentant attitude.

Shandan didn't speak, without any expression or movement. She wanted him to be snubbed and embarrassed, and she wanted him to understand how much she cared about such things.

"Actually, there's really nothing, you're thinking too much. We are simply classmates. I'll pay attention in the future, okay, let's go take a bath?

Shandan's heart softened again: Alas, it would be good for him to know and understand the truth. Let this matter pass. She was reluctant for him to suffer, especially from hers.

She got up and took her pajamas to take a bath, Gu Haiping saw Shandan going out, made a grimace and asked, "Can I get up?"

"Kneel, don't get up!" replied Shandan with a pretended grim head.

"Okay, good, good! I'm on my knees! I'll tell you to be disobedient, let you suffer for yourself! Give you a little color to see, see if you dare to be disobedient in the future?" Gu Haiping said loudly behind Shandan.

Shandan was not amused by Gu Haiping's words, she could be forgiven, but she actually never untied the knot in her heart, he knew what she cared about, where was the forbidden place she couldn't touch, and he still violated it?!

She let the water rush through her body and let the tears flow, and her heart hurt. No matter how long the tears flowed, she couldn't wash away the humiliation in her heart, which was brought by the man she loved deeply, and she put all her heart here with him, but he didn't cherish it.

Half an hour passed, Gu Haiping struggled to stand up, he held his numb legs, and came to the bathroom door, he heard Shandan's hoarse cry and the sound of running water.

He sat in the bathroom door blaming himself for hurting her. It was him--he was the one who hurt her! He wanted to slap himself a few times, he knew her heart, he understood her feelings, but he hurt her.

Shandan waited for her feelings to subside before slowly opening the door and walking out of the bathroom, she saw Gu Haiping sitting outside the door with tears streaming down his face. Why do you want to do this kind of thing that hurts the two of you? Why do you have to do this kind of thing to hurt the two of them? Why did you bother in the first place today?

Shandan has a good face, a plump and slender figure, and a good personality, whether in school or work, there have always been many suitors, among which the extraordinary is either rich or expensive, but she has never squinted once. She had never lost her heart, never had the mind to venture out of curiosity. She resisted all the **, and never gave up sharing the joys and sorrows with him, she knew what she wanted, she knew what was the most important thing for her in this life!

And Gu Haiping's loss again and again broke her heart, she didn't know if the disillusionment of her ideals would shatter all her dreams, reality shattered her beliefs again and again, although he was not really **, but could she tolerate the deviation of his heart?

Gu Haiping saw Shandan come out, he stood up and picked up Shandan and walked to the bedroom, Shandan did not resist, she did not have the strength and mood to resist or obey, she felt that her soul seemed to have left the body, no matter what Gu Haiping did, she did not have the slightest independent reaction.

They hadn't been close for a few months, and Shandan longed to lean on Gu Haiping's arms in every sleep cycle, and live a warm, harmonious, and enthusiastic life as if they were newlywed.

But Gu Haiping's sleeping cold back made her shatter all her dreams again and again. She accidentally signaled to Gu Haiping but did not respond, which made her feel very uncomfortable, and she did not take the initiative to ask, but her heart was slowly becoming cold.

Gu Haiping's hot breath on Shandan's neck made Shandan's skin feel numb and comfortable, no matter how he tossed, she didn't cooperate and react.

Gu Haiping tossed for a long time, and seeing that Shandan didn't react at all, he stopped tossing and rushed into the bathroom alone without speaking.

It's not that Shandan doesn't want to live a good life with Gu Haiping, and even she thought about groveling to cater to him, but her dignity and stubbornness made her unable to lower her height, and she couldn't be forgiven for not doing it.

She no longer shed tears, she stuffed her head and wanted to fall asleep, but the body fluids left in Gu Haiping's body made her feel very disgusting and unhappy, and when Gu Haiping came out, she quickly rushed in and washed her body with water, as if she was washing away a kind of humiliation and ice.

She had washed herself again, including every hair! But she knew that no matter how much she washed it, she couldn't wash away the dust that years had fallen on her heart, and she felt sad, she felt the sorrow of life. She wiped the water droplets on her body, gently pushed open Xiaoyu's door, and slept beside Xiaoyu. Only this child in this life is a concern that she can never let go.

Touching the child's little face, her heart was like a knife. Her birth once gave her infinite hope and surprise. Now she has become a responsibility that she can't escape and can't let go.

Is it too much for her to be demanding? Is it too much for her to ask for a stable, comfortable, and comfortable life? She doesn't want a fragrant car, BMW, glory and wealth, she only wants a heart-to-heart relationship, is this too much?

Maybe there is no such thing as purity in this world.

The next day, Shandan got up early and didn't make breakfast for Gu Haiping, settled Xiaoyu well, and led the child downstairs.

Shandan squatted down and kissed Xiao Yufen's little face and said, "Xiao Yu is good, eat and sleep well, and grow up quickly!"

"Mom is good, too, Mom eats and sleeps well, and works hard. Xiaoyu's immature voice instructed her mother like her mother settling her.

"Okay! Xiaoyu and her mother are working hard!" Shandan said, touching Xiaoyu's soft hair.

"Okay! Xiaoyu went to kindergarten by herself, Xiaoyu is already a big child, she can go by herself, and she doesn't need to be sent by her mother. Mom, bye-bye!" Xiaoyu waved her little fat hand and said goodbye to her mother.

Shandan pushed out the bicycle from the utility room, and saw Gu Haiping hurrying back with fried dough sticks and soy milk, so he said, "Let's go after breakfast?" ”

Shandan looked at him and replied calmly and ruthlessly, "You eat it, I don't want to eat it." As he spoke, he rode his bicycle and walked away without looking back.

Gu Haiping stood in place in a daze, unable to return to his senses for a long time.

Shandan has always been the only one, and has never been so cold and rejecting people thousands of miles away. This made Gu Haiping very uneasy.

It has always been done by Shandan that every trivial thing in the house is done, and the home is always clean and tidy, spotless. Whether it is diet, hygiene and clothes, Yiqiē is well organized by Shandan. In the past two days, Shandan has not tried his best to tidy up, the house is messy, and Shandan no longer makes breakfast, so she got up and settled Xiaoyu to go to kindergarten, and she went to work. Gu Haiping had to buy breakfast early in the morning, and he had to go to the cafeteria to eat Chinese food, and he only made a decent meal for dinner with Xiaoyu's face Shandan. After being married for so many years, Gu Haiping's appetite has already been served a lot by Shandan.

This kind of day makes Gu Haiping very uncomfortable, he has always been served by Shandan in every detail, when is it so unbearable? Eating a meal that is too rough to feed pigs in the canteen? Being in a hurry every day, having no clue. His work life was a mess, and he was completely out of proportion.

In fact, to put it bluntly, maybe it's not that Shandan can't do without Gu Haiping, but he can't do without Shandan, but Shandan's heartache is just as incomprehensible.