(ps: Thank you for the gift from Brother Poison, Mo Mo Da)

Ruhan is a tall girl in her bones, even if Zhao Gang betrays her, she doesn't bother to say anything to her rival. After thinking about it, Ruhan only sent a few words: "You can come to the company to see me when you have time." ”

It was a polite remark, but Feng Xue took it seriously, and continued: "Sister Ruhan, are you still in the previous office?" ”

"Well, yes." Ruhan's reply was very simple.

"Then can you see our Manager Zhao?" Ruhan felt that when she said these words, this sentence was the point. It seems that she cares about Zhao Gang very much.

"I rarely see him, and our offices are not on the same floor." After writing this sentence, Ruhan took out the key, opened the door and entered the house. Before she could change her slippers, the text ringtone rang again.

"Feng Xue, what the hell are you going to do?! It's good that you and Zhao Gang are together, why bother my life! Ruhan threw her phone on the sofa and didn't bother to pay attention to it.

With the return of Zhao Gang and the appearance of Feng Xue, her peaceful life was completely disrupted, and those painful memories that she did not want to touch came like a tide, and the biting chill made her physically and mentally exhausted.

In a book on the shelf, there is a letter that was written a few months ago and has not yet been sent, and the teardrops on the letter paper have long since dried up, leaving a circle of heart-wrenching traces.

"I am writing to you again, hoping that my husband will calm down and read the baby's letter quietly. Please, little. Husband, please believe the baby, every word of mine is true. ”

As soon as she read the first paragraph, Ruhan secretly scolded herself, it was obvious that Zhao Gang betrayed and abandoned her, not only did she not hate him. Can you still write such a despicable word! She began to look down on herself and be ashamed of herself. Suppressing the anger in his heart, Ruhan continued to read.

"Looking back on this time, we've been through a lot of things, and at first I always put the blame on you. I think you don't care about me, and I even think you've changed your mind, but now that I calm down and think about it, I realize that I'm really wrong, I'm not a good baby, although I love you. But to love in an unacceptable way, I didn't take your feelings into account.

This time last year was when we were in love, we chatted in QQ, and I often ran over to see you, and we often talked about our thoughts about each other on the phone and QQ. I think I like that kind of life so much that this year you went to a new place, busy with work and stressed, I still only think about how we saw each other a lot last year, I don't think about the fact that the work in that place is not so easy to do, and my husband has a lot of pressure in his heart. There was a lot of burden on my shoulders, and I didn't care about it, I just thought about myself. I want to think about my husband, I want to see my husband, and I don't care if my husband is inconvenient or busy. I'm not a good boy, too headstrong, I use my love. brought hurt to my husband.

Husband, in fact, I know that you don't say it. You still mind if I look at what you've recorded, to be honest. I also feel very dishonorable, and what makes me even more angry with myself is that I just decided that you turned your back on me just by virtue of a few words in the record, and said so many ugly things, I didn't care about your feelings, and checked your things casually, which makes my husband very annoying, and I also hate myself, how did it become like this, it may be that I care too much about the relationship between us, I really don't want others to destroy it, I hope we are the only one in each other's hearts. ”

In this paragraph, Ruhan actually blamed all the blame on her own unintentional actions, she had no intention of spying on Zhao Gang's *, but she inadvertently discovered his affair, if it was another woman, she would have left angrily, there was no need for Zhao Gang to break up, and Zhao Gang would not have been given the opportunity to abandon her at all, only Ruhan, reluctant to him, nostalgic for the beauty they once had, self-surrendered, and apologized to him, with only one purpose, that is, I hope to reconcile with her, Prime Minister Bai depends, but, she is too naïve, at the moment when the secret is exposed, Zhao Gang was already annoyed and angry, he was not ashamed of his actions, but he hated Ruhan for discovering his secret, venting all his dissatisfaction on Ruhan, and wanted to tear her to pieces.

At this time, Ruhan realized more clearly that everything she did was not worth it. What she said, and what she worked on, could only put herself in a more humble position, pitiful and pathetic. Ruhan endured it and continued to read the letter she wrote, this letter carried too much pain for her, and there were tears on every letter paper.

"Seriously, husband, I went to look for you on the day of the Dragon Boat Festival, and I was aggressive on the road, but when I was at the door of the bathing center, the moment I saw you come out, my heart was all soft, you walked out in the pink clothes I sent, so cute, my love for you is better than a qiē, don't say you didn't do anything, even if you really do with other women, I can tolerate it, 5 years, you have already become all my feelings.

We were in a dispute I was unable to support my body, and then I couldn't stand on my feet and fell to the ground, I was very painful, my heart hurt even more, the pain was that my husband and I said that I broke up, the pain was that my husband and my home walked into another woman, those two nights, I almost collapsed, I don't know where the courage came from, maybe it was the strength in my bones, maybe my love for you could not end, I survived, until June 25th, you came to see me, we hugged each other and cried, I secretly made up my mind, in this life and this life, no matter how much I suffered, no matter what unfair treatment I received, I don't want to be separated from you, and I will never do anything to hurt you, I will fulfill my original promise to give you happiness and wait for you.

In the days that followed, I was always in a bad mood, always thinking about what you said about breaking up, because I realized that what you said was true, and it was different from before. I can't sleep well almost every day, and sometimes I'm worried that other women will take advantage of it, after all, my husband is so attractive, so talented, so cute! In July, we met, I was very touched, I was happy to wait for you to come back to see me, I wanted us to meet, kiss, hug...... Had a short but beautiful night, but I don't know what's wrong, I forgot all my thoughts before I saw you, and I thought that you were going to talk about breaking up, and then there was a scene you hated, and I was entangled in this matter, which upset you.

After that, my husband ignored me, I was so afraid of losing you like this, I didn't know what to do, calling, texting, I just wanted my husband to know, I love you, I didn't mean to do that, later, you forgave me and started calling me baby, although the phone call is still a little cold, but after all, it's much better, I know I still have to work hard, so I thought, I want to go to you, take good care of you, care about you, I'm afraid that the distance will pull us farther and farther away, so I stupidly got in the car, to see you, but halfway through, You want me to get out of the car, to be honest I don't dare, it's so dark, I'm not familiar with the place where I stopped, I think I'd better take the car to you, if you don't let me go home, I'll go to the hotel, at least I can see you, but my husband left, I didn't see me, I arrived almost midnight, I was so scared, I found a hotel, made a call all night, in that familiar and unfamiliar city, I experienced what it means to be desperate, I also know, I was really angry with my husband.

The next day, you answered my call, and I also knew that my arrival made you very angry, and I left alone, but I didn't expect that a bigger blow was still to come, this time, she really went, and I believe what you said was true. At the end of July, I didn't expect you to come back and say you wanted to see me, it was 18 days since we last saw each other, and every day during that time I was tormented, I was scared, really. I saw you, although my husband was with me, but I felt your coldness, my heart was so cold, husband, in fact, I didn't ask for much, I really hope you come back, see me, can listen to me tell me what I miss, even if you scold me fiercely, I know I'm wrong, I really don't want to be angry with you anymore, I really miss you, every day, every moment, every minute and every second.

In August, I went to see you again, I fantasized that when my husband saw me, he was first angry, and then he saw my lovely face, and he hugged me with tears on his face, we abandoned the previous suspicions, and never separated in this life and this life, but I love to dream too much, my disobedience is angry to my husband again, my husband is very angry, the more angry my husband is, the more I want to find a way to make you not angry, it backfires, I am stupid, I will not coax people, my stay makes you more angry.

Maybe it's because the hope is too great, and the despair is even greater, I looked at the window of our house and thought of the night we were united, and I fell to my knees and cried heartbreakingly! I have a feeling that the home I think about day and night may no longer belong to me, and you and I don't have a home after all!

I walked forward in despair, I even wanted to be hit by a car, and it would no longer be painful, you called me, I didn't answer, I was afraid that you would scold me again after answering the phone. Seriously, since I was a child, I haven't been scolded by anyone, so sometimes you scold me and I can't stand it, at that moment, I am discouraged, and life is better than death.

I didn't expect that when I walked out of the hotel, you appeared, and I even imagined that you were coming to me and asked me to go home with you, but no, but you were going to take me to the hotel, and I was already very moved, although at that time I had already put life and death out of the way, as I said, I don't care what a man does to me.

When I arrived at the hotel, the waiter was very lazy, I could feel that she didn't change the sheets, just sprayed water, so that the quilt looked neat, I was already frozen, plus the wet quilt, and then I felt a fever, I had no medicine, I wanted to die immediately, but I stayed up for a few hours, in the morning I was better, I lay down until noon, went out to eat something, rushed home, wanted to leave that place, more than four hours on the road, my heart was broken, but I felt all kinds of pain in my heart, but I didn't want to tell anyone, I can only let the pain go like a knife, ripping at my heart. (To be continued) R655